Shade's Fall (27 page)

Lily’s giggles were cut off as Shade got up, setting Lily on her feet before taking her to the dance floor. She tried to get away, but he snagged her around the waist, pulling her close.

“Dance with me, Lily.”

“I don’t know how,” she protested.

“That’s okay. They don’t either.” Shade pointed his hand at Evie and Cash.

Lily watched the others. They were all just having a good time. They had come down here to make her feel more comfortable while, even over the music, she could hear the sounds of the others partying upstairs.

She began moving, trying not to feel self-conscious about her awkwardness. By the third dance, she was relaxed and moving much more comfortably. The other members came and went, moving back and forth between the two floors, everyone seemingly enjoying themselves.

Shade had pulled her closer and someone had turned off a couple of the lamps, dimming the room without making it too dark. Beth, Razer, Winter and Viper had gone upstairs while Cash, Evie, Train and Jewell were still dancing.

“Are you having a good time?”

Lily smiled up at Shade. “Yes, I am.”

“Don’t seem so surprised,” Shade said, his thigh sliding between her legs as his hand dropped to circle her waist.

“I just thought it would be wilder.”

“It is, upstairs.”

She blushed, turning her eyes away. “If you want to go upstairs, I won’t mind.”

“Shut up. I’m exactly where I want to be.”

Lily smiled, relieved that he didn’t feel like he was missing out.

When Shade lowered his head, his lips briefly touching hers, Lily didn’t move away from the brief encounter. The seductive movements of his body and the music heightened her awareness of him.

As Shade’s mouth lowered again, lingering against hers, Lily felt the pressure of his lips, enjoying the feel of them. When his tongue then slid along the seam of her lips, she gasped. Shade took advantage, sliding his tongue inside of her mouth.

Lily’s hands grabbed his t-shirt, but she didn’t push him away. She thought the tangy flavor of the beer he had drunk would repulse her, but it didn’t. The silky warmth of his tongue against hers had her indecisive about what to do next. Before she could decide, Shade lifted his head, continuing to dance as if nothing had happened.

She didn’t know what to think or feel; she then decided she didn’t have to do either. She had to learn to not over-think everything. She should take Rachel’s advice and roll with whatever happened between her and Shade. It had just been a kiss, something girls her age did every day without even thinking anything about it.

It was just a kiss,
she kept telling herself.
Then why does it feel like so much more?
she asked herself. Why did it feel like a tiny seed of desire had been planted and was waiting to grow into a special something? It was miraculous that she had believed herself incapable of ever wanting or needing something like that.

The music ended and Shade stepped back. “Want to get something to drink?”

“Yes.” It was becoming hot downstairs all of a sudden.

As Lily moved off the dance floor, Evie plopped down on the couch out of breath next to Jewell.

“I love your outfit, Lily. It looks all demur; then when you move, it shows that rockin’ body of yours. I might need to borrow it for the next party,” Jewell complimented.

Lily’s mouth dropped open. Now she understood that look on her sister’s face and Shade getting her to get up and get him a drink. Lily glared at Shade.

“The drinks are all gone. I’ll go get some more,” Shade said, the coward making his escape.

As Train and Cash both went upstairs, saying they were going to grab some pizza, Jewell got up from the couch, going to the floor, and began dancing. When she twirled on the pole, Lily realized the women did use it to pole dance.

Evie glanced at her when Jewell really got going, sliding up and down the pole.

“I bet the men miss that with me living down here now,” Lily remarked ruefully.

“Forget the men. The women miss it. It’s great exercise for us. It’ll take me months to get rid of the inch I’ve gained on my thighs.

“I’m used to exercising on one, too. I might use it when no one is around. I know a great exercise that will take that inch off in no time.”

“Really? What is it?” Evie’s interest was sparked and she urged Lily to show her the exercise.

Since all of the men were out of the room, Lily got up, going to the stripper pole. Jewell moved back a step, watching curiously.

Lily started spinning, wrapping her leg around it. Not lifting it high, just winding her leg around it. Carefully tucking in her loose skirt, she leaned backwards, arching her back as she let her thigh hold her weight. Rising up unconsciously, she timed her movements with the beat of the music then leaned back again.

“It’s great not only for the thighs but your stomach muscles, as well. Just don’t let your arms do the work for you; let your tummy and thigh muscles do it,” Lily informed Evie. When she didn’t make a remark, Lily rose up, noticing her eyes were on the foot of the steps.

She turned to see what Evie was staring at. Shade stood there with his hands full of beer and sodas while Cash had a plate of pizza that was about to slide off with his mouth hanging open, and Train was right behind them, crushing a bag of chips in his hands.

“I was just showing Evie an exercise I learned in my pole class,” Lily said, jerking her leg down from the pole and straightening her skirt.

“Could you show me that move again? I have a few pounds I need to lose,” Train asked seriously.

Lily didn’t miss the threatening glare Shade gave him as he set the drinks down on the side table.

She went to get one, picking an orange soda. Before she could take a seat, Shade pulled her back down on his lap. This time she didn’t try to wiggle away, afraid she would spill her drink.

As she got settled, Stori came down the stairs dressed in a bunny outfit that was even more suggestive than Jewell’s. She began dancing with a member from Ohio—who Lily wasn’t really familiar with—and the biker put his hand on her butt, grinding her closer to his hips.

Lily looked away, seeing Jewell and Train resuming their dancing. Evie and Cash also started dancing.

“You never told me you knew how to pole dance.”

Lily turned bright red. “My gym at college taught an exercise class using the pole.”

“Lord have mercy,” Shade muttered.

Lily couldn’t help herself, laughing at his expression as she playfully hit his chest. Shade’s hand went to the back of her neck, tugging her head down to his and catching her mouth. She relaxed against him, letting him have it. When his tongue slid between her lips, her head fell to his shoulder; Shade moved slightly until he leaned her backward against the arm of the couch and he was above her.

Her arms slid around his neck as she thought about the fact she was actually kissing him with the other couples in the room. They were in a dark corner and no one was paying attention; nothing more was happening than what she had seen at the few parties she had attended. This time, however, she was part of the couple necking in the corner.

Before she had time to think any further about it, Shade’s hand flattened against her flat stomach then slid up to her shoulder, raising her back up to a sitting position. “Let’s dance.”

“Okay.” She got to her feet and they went to the dance floor, spending the remainder of the evening dancing.

The rest of the members spent the night continuing to go between the two floors. Beth and Winter both showed up a couple of more times before eventually telling her goodnight.

“Night,” Lily told her sister.

Beth and Razer had turned to go, but Beth turned back, giving her a tight hug. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you look so happy.” Beth’s voice sounded tight.

“I’ve had fun,” Lily said. “I’m going to use the picture of Rider to blackmail him with later when he’s bugging me at work.” Beth had taken a picture of Rider dressed as Tarzan as he did the dishes upstairs and had texted the picture to Lily.

“You do that. Just don’t tell him who sent you the picture.”

“I won’t.”

Shade was talking to Train and Evie as Lily yawned, finally growing tired.

“I’m going to bed. I have to be up early to go to the church store.”

Everyone told her goodnight, and then Lily went into the bedroom. Her mind played back over the evening as she changed into her pajamas and went to the bed, stretching out over it.

She was almost asleep when Shade quietly came to bed not long afterwards. When he reached out underneath the covers, pulling her to his warmth, she didn’t pull away. She just let her body sink against his, falling asleep with a tiny smile on her lips.

It was funny how one simple Halloween party had given her hope for the future.

Chapter 23

“Wake up, Lily!” Shade was shaking her awake from a deep sleep.

She jerked upright in the bed. “What’s going on?”

“Get up. The basement’s on fire.” He jerked her from the bed.

She slid her feet into her shoes while Shade ran to the bathroom, coming back with a fire extinguisher. She heard the sounds of screams from upstairs and running feet as the fire alarm went off.

“How are we going to get out of here?” The windows in his room were nonexistent. They were trapped inside.

“The brothers will get us out,” Shade said grimly.

Going to his dresser, he pulled out a long piece of material and then ran to the bathroom again. He came back with the wet cloths, tying one across her face then his own. Just as he finished, they heard the sounds of a fire hose and an extinguisher from outside their bedroom door.

There was a loud bang on the door and Shade opened it. Viper stood on the other side with just jeans and boots on. “Let’s go,” he yelled.

Shade took Lily’s hand, pushing her behind Viper as he followed. It was pitch dark except for the dying embers of the blackened walls. Viper was carrying a flashlight and the men putting out the fire with water hoses were spraying the smoking couch. The steps to the upstairs were destroyed, the blackened door closed.

Viper led them out the side door as Lily choked on the smoke, starting to cough. Shade picked her up into his arms, carrying her into the living room before removing the cloth he had tied around her face.

The screams, the smoky smell and the dark basement she had walked through combined to send Lily into a terror-filled haze she didn’t know if she could fight.

She quit coughing, drinking the water that someone thrust into her hands. The smell of the smoke was attacking her senses. This wasn’t the first time she had smelled that odor or had seen how flames could destroy.

The door so tightly locked in her mind snapped open.

The glass in her hand dropped to the floor as her skull filled with a blaze of pain there was no way to escape any longer.

Shade dropped down to his knees in front of Lily. He knew it was bad. He had witnessed the gradually spiraling ferocity of her panic attacks, and was certain this was the worst he had seen. Seeing Beth’s terror for her sister, his assumption that it was indeed the worst was confirmed.

“Razer, call Rachel and tell her to get here as fast as she can. Beth, call her doctor.” Shade could do nothing except hold on to the woman he loved more than life itself as her tortured screams scored his soul with the agony that he couldn’t help her.

His friends stood back, giving him space as she fell to the floor. All he could do was hold her, calling her name repeatedly as soothingly as possible.

Beth returned, falling to her knees beside him, calling for Lily as she held her hand. It seemed like forever, each minute ticking by endlessly, until Rachel ran through the door that Cash was holding open.

“Move out of her way,” Cash ordered everyone.

Shade didn’t make a move to release Lily whose voice had broken from her screams of terror.

Rachel motioned Shade to move over, and he complied shakily. She sat down on the floor by Lily’s head, pulling her head onto her lap. Her graceful hands went to Lily’s temples, pressing her fingers along them, rubbing in soothing circles.

Everyone went silent then as Rachel’s hushed voice spoke to Lily. “Lily, what do you need me to do?”

*  *  *

Lily heard the voices calling to her, but she didn’t know how to reach them; she couldn’t find them in the darkness. The flames were preventing her from reaching them. How could it be so dark yet be filled with flames? She was adrift. She was one of those people you hear about who died when they’re lost because they wandered away. Then, when their lifeless body was found, help had been invariably just a few feet away.

She needed to stay still so they would come and get her. Shade would come.

Where is he? Shade? Shade! Where are you, Shade? Was I bad? Is that why you’re not here? Shade, please help me. I’m so scared.

Beth, please, I won’t be mad at you anymore. I’ll be good, I promise. Please, Beth. I want to go home. Please. Beth! Shade! Help me!

Razer? Razer! You promised me no one would hurt me. You broke your promise. Razer, please help!

Shade! Shade!

Pastor Dean!

Please help me?

Vida?

Sawyer?

Where are you? Why did you leave me? Vida! Sawyer! Please help me.

Shade… Shade…

“Lily.” At first, Lily thought she was imagining the calm voice from the other side of the flames. She quit screaming, listening again.

There it was. Someone was there.

“I’m here! I’m here! Help me!”

“What do you need me to do?” The voice was coming closer. Someone was there!

“Help me! I’m lost! I can’t find my way back!”

“Yes, you can.”

“The flames won’t let me pass, and I’m afraid to go the other way in the dark. I’m afraid I’ll get lost.”

“I won’t let you get lost, Lily.”

“But you’re on the other side of the flames,” Lily cried out then watched as Rachel walked through the flames without them touching her.