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“What was I thinking?” I demanded. It took all the control I had not to just let her have it. “Mother, I’ll be honest—
thought
didn’t come into the equation at the time.”

She made a dismissive noise in her throat. “Don’t be so crude.”

Her hand fell away as I jammed my arms into my sleeves. I moved to the phone. I’d called downstairs, tell them to stop her. I could still catch her.

“Let her
go
, Dominic. Really. Please…sit. I came over here because we need to talk.”

“Next time, call first,” I suggested. I rubbed my hand over my chest. There was a dull ache there, one I wasn’t familiar with.

Aleena was angry and hurt. She could probably use a few minutes to calm down.

Maybe…I blew out a breath.

Okay, I wasn’t in the best frame of mind to talk to her and she was probably mad and hurt.

So I’d let her have a few minutes, then call her. We could meet somewhere and I’d buy her dinner. I could make this right. Aware that my mother was still watching, I looked over at her. “I don’t want to talk to you right now. I’m pissed off at you.”

“Because of that woman?” My mother waved a hand. “Dominic, she’s hardly the first low-class girl I’ve caught you with. If you must bed them, so be it. But for it to be a girl you work with, it’s not wise. She could cause you a great deal of trouble.”

I waited until she was done. I even waited an extra few seconds, hoping it might calm the sharp edge of anger bubbling inside me. It didn’t work.

“Low-class,” I said, biting the words off. “That
low-class girl
is one of the sweetest, kindest women I’ve ever met. She doesn’t sit around and plan about how she can use the connections she’s made—”

“She doesn’t
have
connections,” Jacqueline said, laughing. “What kind of
connections
does a girl like that have?”

“Enough!” Slashing a hand through the air, I snapped, “I am
done
with this. I’m tired of it. To you, people with money are the superior species. But have you forgotten…
I was adopted
! For all
I
know, I came from that
low-class
group you so despise.”

Jacqueline’s face went tight, her mouth taking on a pinched look. “Dominic, you are
my
son. That is all that matters.”

“It’s not all that matters to me!”

She stiffened, her face jerking back as though I’d slapped her. Slowly, like a queen rising from her throne, she came off the couch. “I see this isn’t the ideal time for us to talk.”

“What clued you in?”

She didn’t answer.

I stared at her rigid back as she walked to the door. She paused there momentarily as if expecting me to let her out...or apologize.

I stayed where I was.

After a few more seconds, she opened the door.

When it shut behind her, I moved into my bedroom. It was time to track down Aleena.

***

There was a problem with that idea and I figured it out less than ten minutes later.

Holding her cellphone in my hand, I slumped into the comfortable cushions of the couch and stared up at the ceiling.

She’d left her phone and I had no idea where she could have gone.

I’d slept with her twice now, had lived with her for weeks, and yet I knew so little about her. I knew the way her body responded to my touch. The way mine tightened every time she walked into the room. But I didn't know her.

What did she like to do?

Where would she go when she was upset?

I knew her friend’s name was Molly and I knew where Molly worked, but…what else did I know?

Aleena was from Iowa.

The first and only other guy she’d slept with was a piece of shit.

And I’d hurt her.

None of that would help me find her.

Chapter 3

Aleena

My situation called for drastic measures. It happens that way sometimes. Like yesterday, the situation had called for wine and whining on the phone with Molly.

This situation called for a different sort of coping.

The ice cream kind.

I spent most of Saturday curled up on Molly’s couch and slowly eating my way through a pint of ice cream. No, that was a lie. It was two pints.

It’s a good thing I didn’t get in this state often because I’d be as big as a house. By the time evening rolled around, my stomach ached and I was just as miserable as I had been earlier. Molly came in from work, took one look at me and shook her head.

She sat down across from me and fixed me with a determined look. “Girl, you are going to talk and you are going to talk now.”

“I don’t want to talk.” I glared at her sullenly.

Molly leaned back and stared right back.

She still wore her work uniform.

I sighed. That uniform meant only one thing. She was serious. One thing we both had in common was as soon as we got home, we liked to change out of work clothes. It was an odd sort of way of shedding the stress of the day.

She was giving up that habitual routine in favor of girl talk.

“You might as well talk,” she said. “You know I’m going to win this.”

The thing was, I did know that. But I felt foolish and I felt stupid and I felt miserable and I hurt. Talking about it wouldn’t help.

In fact, talking about it would make everything worse.

As though she was reading my mind, Molly leaned forward and took my hand.

“Whatever it is,” she said. “Hiding from it can’t help.”

The knot in my throat made it hard to breathe. Molly shifted over to sit down beside me and she reached up to brush my hair back. “What is it? Did you find out he’s engaged? For crying out loud, is it worse? Is he a total douchebag? He’s not
married
, is he?”

“No.” I looked away. My voice broke halfway through and I had to take a deep breath and wait for my voice to steady before I could say anything else. Flexing my hands in my lap, I lifted my gaze to the ceiling and willed away the tears. Then I looked at her. “I slept with him, Molly. Again. Last night.”

“Okay.” She drew the word out slowly, but she shook her head. “You’ve already done that once and we established it might not have been the best idea, but you weren’t reacting like this yesterday so what’s the problem?”

Unable to sit still, I stood up and started to pace. “I told you about that guy in high school, right?”

I wasn’t looking at her, but the dismissive sneer in her voice came through loud and clear. “That asshole? Yeah, you told me about him. Racist piece of scum. What’s that got to do with…?” Her voice trailed away.

I heard the floorboards creak under her feet as she stood up.

Arms around my middle, I stood staring out the small single window of her apartment. The view wasn’t much. It faced out over the narrow alley and into the brick of the next building, but least I wasn’t looking at her. At least she couldn’t see the expression on my face, couldn’t see how much of a fool I’d been.

“What happened?” she asked, her voice gentle but firm.

I took a deep breath. And then I told her. I didn’t go into the more intimate details. I’d promised that I would respect his privacy and I intended to keep that promise. But this wasn’t about his privacy as much as it was about his actions, and what his mother had said.

“She walked in on us. She didn’t seem embarrassed, she didn’t even seem to care about the fact that she’d walked in on her son having sex. What bothered her the most was the fact that she’d found her son having sex with the
help
.” My voice cracked and I gave Molly a disgusted look. “The help! And then she told him that if he had to get something more exotic, he could have gotten it without ‘bringing it home’.”

For a moment, Molly said nothing. Then she exploded.

I’ve known plenty of redheads who don’t have a temper. That’s just one stereotype among many.

Molly, though, she had a temper. She ranted and raved and stomped across her apartment. She stalked by the sofa on one of her passes and grabbed a pillow, sending it hurling across the room. It hit a pretty little vase that had been on an end table by the armchair she’d somehow crammed into a corner. The vase shattered when it hit the floor. She didn’t even pause.

She continued to rage and cuss and, bit-by-bit, I felt a little better. It was nice to have somebody angry on my behalf, to know that my hurt was justified.

Hey, what are girlfriends for?

I was twenty-one and I’d just now found a really good friend, but it had been worth the wait.

When she finally calmed down, she turned and looked at me. “I don’t know whom I’m madder at,” she said. “Him for standing there doing nothing or her for having the sheer nerve to say something like that. Did you slap her? Did you slap
him
?”

My despondency returned with a vengeance.

“No,” I said. I shook my head and looked away. “I didn’t know what to do. I think I said something.” I scowled and then shrugged. “I told her I was from Iowa—that didn’t really count as exotic. Then I got dressed and left.”

It had turned into one of those surreal sort of blurs. I could remember what
she
said—all of it. But I could remember what
he
hadn’t said—or done.

And I could remember that miserable, gut wrenching pain and the humiliation and the slap of shock.

If you’d never faced that kind of thing, then you
couldn't
understand it.

You also
couldn't
really explain it to someone who hadn't been there.

Being marginalized simply for not being enough of one race or another, or being poor, or being a woman, or being anything
other
is something you just don’t
get
until you’ve faced it. I’d been facing it all my life and it wasn't any easier.

After a moment, Molly came over and wrapped an arm around my waist and just stood there, leaning against me.

She got it, I knew.

Being bisexual, even in New York, wasn't easy. I'd heard plenty of homophobic slurs thrown her way when she was out with a girl, but it was still different than it was with me. People couldn't see it when she walked down the street. Mine was painted on my skin, my eyes. Not white. Not black. Never enough to be either one.

“I don't even exist to her,” I said softly. I swallowed the ache in my throat. “She talked like I wasn't even there.”

“She doesn’t matter.” Molly hugged me tighter.

“But he does…and he just stood there.”

Needing to move, I squeezed Molly back and then started to pace.

“What are you going to do?” Molly asked.

“I don’t know.”

“What do you
want
to do?”

“Run back to Iowa.” I gave her a weak smile. “But is that really the answer?”

“I think you know it’s not,” she said softly. She came over and sat down on the coffee table, staring at me. Her bright hair fell into her face and she pushed it back. “You left Iowa because you weren’t happy. If you go back, is that likely to change?”

“No.” I dropped onto the couch and buried my face in my hands.

The
one
place I’d been happy had been here, for the past six weeks. Working for the Winter Corporation. And it hadn’t
just
been because of Dominic. Yes, I loved working with him, even when he drove me crazy, but I loved my job and what I did.

“I don’t know what to do, Molly.”

“I think you do.” She lifted a brow. “You have to face him. You have to deal with this. And you know it. Running away…Aleena, that’s not you.”

“And facing him is going to make me happy?” I muttered. I was grateful she didn't see me leaving Iowa to come here as running away.

Molly nibbled on her lower lip for a minute and I could tell she was thinking hard. Finally, she said, “I had a roommate for a little while not too long after I came out. I was still nervous about it. She didn’t know. I mean, I wasn’t telling everybody. She found out one night when she got home from work earlier than planned…I had a girlfriend with me. We were on the couch, messing around. She just kind of stared at us and then gave a little laugh like it was no big deal. After that, she started acting weird around me. It wasn’t hard to figure out why. I tried to let it go and try to act like it didn’t bother me, but it did. The longer I ignored it, the worse it got and the more it bothered me. And then I started noticing people treating me weird. I couldn’t figure out why. Then one day Mrs. Hagerty from upstairs said something to me. I didn’t know what she meant at first, but I wasn’t going to let it go, so I asked her.”

I just waited. She'd finish when she was ready.

Molly leaned forward, her eyes flashing. “She said that she’d heard I was doing sex shows and dirty movies on the side to make ends meet. Then she offered to help me out if I ever needed cash because I was such a sweet girl…I didn’t need to do that sort of thing for money. It wasn’t safe.”

I gaped at her. “How did…what?”

“You heard me.” She shrugged as if it didn't matter. “I’d freaked my old roommate out. She wasn’t comfortable with me being bisexual so she decided to tell weird stories about me. First, it went from me having orgies up to me being a stripper and then suddenly I was having gang-bangs and selling amateur sex videos.” She pushed her hair back. “The point is, I’d known all along she wasn’t comfortable with me after that night she walked in on me. I should have confronted her and dealt with it, then. I didn’t. But I did after that mess with Mrs. Hagerty. She tried to laugh it off like it was a joke, but then she spun me this crap about how if I slept with other women, she’s pretty sure I’d have to be involved in that other dirty stuff too. And oh…
by the way,
she’s not happy with me being her roommate and she has other people lined up, so how about me vacating…”

“But…this apartment, isn't it in your dad’s name?”

Molly grinned. “Yes. I booted her out on her ass.”

I tipped my face back to the ceiling. “What a bitch,” I muttered. “Okay, so…
A-
if
you were stripping for money, so what? That’s your concern. And
B-
it’s none of her business if you’re asexual, bisexual, trisexual, metrosexual or anything else.”

“Damn straight.” Molly pursed her lips. “Trisexual, huh?”