"I think that when I am about to kiss you, I would like you to use my given
name. You may call me Julian." He was suddenly very conscious of her firm,
rounded little bottom pressing against him. The folds of her skirt clung to his
breeches.
She steadied herself with her hands on his shoulders. "Need I remind you so soon
that you gave me your word of honor you would not… would not force yourself on
me?"
She was trembling. He could feel the small shivers going through her and it
annoyed him. "Don't be an idiot, Sophy. I have no intention of forcing myself on
you, as you call it. I am merely going to kiss you. There was nothing in our
bargain about kissing."
"My lord, you promised—"
He wrapped one hand around her nape and held her carefully still while he
covered her mouth with his own. Her lips parted on more words of protest just as
he made contact. The result was that the kiss began on a far more intimate level
than Julian had planned. He could taste the damp warmth of her instantly and it
sent an unexpected flare of desire through him. The inside of her mouth was soft
and wet and faintly spicy.
Sophy flinched and then moaned softly as his hands tightened on her. She started
to pull away but when he refused to allow the small retreat she went quiet in
his arms.
Sensing her cautious acquiescence, Julian took his time and gently deepened the
kiss. Lord, she felt good. He had not realized she would be so sweet, so warm.
There was enough feminine strength in her to make him vividly aware of his own
superior strength and that realization had a startlingly arousing effect on him.
He felt himself growing hard almost at once.
"Now say my name," he ordered softly against her mouth.
"Julian." The single word was shaky but audible.
He stroked his palm down her arm and nuzzled her throat. "Again."
"J—Julian. Please stop. This has gone far enough. You gave me your word."
"Am I forcing myself on you?" he asked whimsically, dropping the lightest of
kisses just below her ear. His hand slid down her arm to rest intimately on the
curve of her knee. Julian suddenly wanted nothing more than to ease her thighs
apart and explore Sophy far more thoroughly. If the heat and honey between her
legs were anything like that promised by her mouth, he would be well satisfied
with his choice of wife. "Tell me, Sophy, do you call this force?"
"I don't know."
Julian laughed softly. She sounded so wretchedly unsure. "Allow me to tell you
that this is not what is meant by the expression forcing myself on you."
"What is it, then?"
"I am making love to you. It's perfectly permissible between husband and wife,
you know."
"You are not making love to me," she countered very seriously.
Startled, Julian raised his head to meet her eyes. "I'm not?"
"Of course not. How could you be making love to me? You do not love me."
"Call it seduction, then," he retorted. "A man has a right to seduce his own
wife, surely. I gave you my word not to force myself on you but I never promised
not to attempt to seduce you." There would be no need to honor the stupid
agreement, he thought with satisfaction. She showed every sign of responding to
him already.
Sophy leaned away from him, a deep anger lighting her turquoise eyes. "As far as
I am concerned, seduction is but another form of forcing yourself on a woman. It
is a man's way of concealing the truth of his motives."
Julian was stunned at the vehemence in her voice. "You have had experience of
it, then?" he countered coldly.
"The results of a seduction are the same for a woman as the use of force, are
they not?"
She scrambled awkwardly off his thighs, the wool skirts of her traveling dress
twisting awkwardly around her in the process. The broken feather in her bonnet
drooped further until it hung over one wary eye. She reached up and snatched it
out of the way, leaving a broken feather shaft behind.
Julian shot out his hand and snagged her wrist. "Answer me, Sophy. Have you had
experience of seduction?"
"It is a little late to ask me now, is it not? You ought to have made your
inquiries into the matter before you offered for me."
And he knew quite suddenly that she had never lain in a man's arms. He could see
the answer he wanted in her eyes. But he felt compelled to make her admit the
truth. She had to learn that he would tolerate no evasions, half-truths, or any
of the myriad other shapes a woman's lies could take.
"You will answer me, Sophy."
"If I do, will you answer all my questions about your past amours?"
"Of course not."
"Oh, you are so grossly unfair, my lord."
"I am your husband."
"And that gives you a right to be unfair?"
"It gives me a right and a duty to do what is best for you. Discussing my past
liaisons with you would serve no good purpose and we both know it."
"I am not so certain. I think it would provide me with greater insight into your
character."
He gave a crack of laughter at that. "I think you have enough insight as it is.
Too much at times. Now tell me about your experience with the fine art of
seduction, Sophy. Did some country squire attempt to tumble you in the woods?"
"If he had, what would you do about it?"
"See that he paid for it," Julian said simply.
Her mouth fell open. "You would conduct a duel because of a past indiscretion?"
"We stray from the topic, Sophy." His fingers closed more firmly around her
wrist. He could feel the small, delicate bones there and took care not to
tighten his hold too far.
Her eyes fell away from his. "You need not worry about avenging my lost honor,
my lord. I assure you I have led an extremely quiet and unexciting existence. A
somewhat boring existence, to be precise."
"I rather thought so." He released her hand and relaxed back against the
cushion. "Now tell me why you equate seduction with force?"
"This is hardly a proper conversation for us to be conducting," she said in
muffled tones.
"I have the impression you and I will have many such improper conversations.
There are times, my dear, when you are a most improper young woman." He reached
up and plucked the broken feather shaft from her bonnet.
She glanced at the shaft with an expression of resignation. "You should have
considered my improper tendencies before you insisted on offering for me."
Julian turned the feather shaft between thumb and forefinger. "I did. I decided
they were all quite manageable. Stop trying to distract me, Sophy. Tell me why
you fear seduction as much as force."
"It is a private matter, my lord. I do not speak of it."
"You will speak of it to me. I am afraid I must insist, Sophy. I am your
husband."
"Do stop using that fact as an excuse for indulging your curiosity," she
snapped.
He slanted her a considering glance and considered the defiant tilt of her chin.
"You insult me, madam."
She shifted uneasily, attempting to straighten her skirts. "You are easily
insulted, my lord."
"Ah, yes, my excessive arrogance. I fear we must both learn to live with it,
Sophy. Just as we must learn to live with my excessive curiosity." Julian
studied the broken feather shaft and waited.
Silence descended on the swaying coach. The sound of creaking wheels and harness
leather and the steady beat of the horses' hooves suddenly became very loud.
"It was not a matter that affected me, personally," Sophy finally said in a very
small voice.
"Yes?" Again Julian waited.
"It was my sister who was the victim of the seduction." Sophy stared very hard
at the passing scenery. "But she had no one to avenge her."
"I understood that your sister died three years ago."
"She did."
Something about Sophy's clipped voice alerted Julian. "Are you implying that her
death was the result of a seduction?"
"She found herself with child, my lord. The man who was responsible cast her
aside. She could not bear the shame or the betrayal. She took a large dose of
laudanum." Her fingers clenched together in her lap.
Julian sighed. "I am sorry, Sophy."
"There was no need for her to take such a course of action," Sophy whispered
tightly. "Bess could have helped her."
"Old Bess? How?" Julian frowned.
"There are ways that such situations may be remedied," Sophy said. "Old Bess
knows them. If only my sister had confided in me, I could have taken her to
Bess. No one need ever have known."
Julian dropped the feather shaft and leaned over to capture his wife's wrist
once more. This time he deliberately exerted pressure on the small bones. "What
do you know of such matters?" he demanded very softly. Elizabeth had known such
things.
Sophy blinked quickly, apparently confused by his sudden, controlled rage. "Old
Bess knows much about medicinal herbs. She has taught me many things."
"She has taught you ways to rid yourself of an unwanted babe?" he demanded
softly.
Sophy seemed to realize at last that she had said far too much. "She… she has
mentioned certain herbs that a woman can use if she believes she has conceived,"
she admitted hesitantly. "But the herbs can be very dangerous to the mother and
must be used with great skill and caution." Sophy looked down at her hands for a
moment. "I am not skilled in that particular art."
"Bloody hell. You had best not be skilled in such things, Sophy. And I swear, if
that old witch, Bess, is dealing in abortion, I will have her removed from my
land immediately."
"Really, my lord? Are your friends in London so very pure? Have none of your
amours never been obliged to resort to certain remedies because of you?"
"No, they have not," Julian rasped, thoroughly goaded now. "For your
information, madam, there are techniques that may be used to prevent the problem
from occurring in the first place, just as there are ways to prevent contracting
certain diseases associated with… never mind."
"Techniques, my lord? What techniques?" Sophy's eyes lit up with obvious
fascination.
"Good God, I don't believe we are discussing such matters."
"You opened the discussion, my lord. I collect you do not intend to tell me
about these techniques for preventing the, er, problem."
"No, I most certainly do not."
"Ah, I see. This is yet another privileged bit of information available only to
men?"
"You have no need of such information, Sophy," he said grimly. "You are not in
the one business that would require that you learn such things."
"But there are women who do know such things?" she pressed.
"That is quite enough, Sophy."
"And you know such women? Would you introduce me to one of them? I should dearly
love to chat with her. Perhaps she would know other such amazing things. My
intellectual interests are quite far-ranging, you know. One can get only so much
out of books."
He thought for an instant she was teasing him again and Julian came close to
losing his temper completely. But at the last moment he realized Sophy's
fascination was oddly innocent and totally genuine. He groaned and leaned back
into the corner of the seat. "We will not discuss this further."
"You sound distressingly like my grandmother. Really, it is very disappointing,
Julian. I had hoped that when I married I would find myself living with someone
who would be a more amusing conversationalist."
"I shall endeavor to amuse you in other ways," he muttered, closing his eyes and
resting his head against the cushion.
"If you are talking about seduction again, Julian, I must tell you, I do not
find the topic amusing."
"Because of what happened to your sister? I can see where such a situation would
have left its mark on you, Sophy. But you must learn that there is a vast
difference between that which goes on between husband and wife and the sort of
unpleasant seduction your sister endured."
"Really, my lord? How does a man learn to make such fine distinctions? At
school? Did you learn them during your first marriage or from your experience of
keeping mistresses?"
At that juncture, Julian's temper frayed to a gossamer thread. He did not move
or open his eyes. He did not dare. "I have explained to you that my first
marriage is not a topic for discussion. Nor is the other subject you just
raised. If you are wise, you will keep that in mind, Sophy."
Something in his too-quiet words apparently made an impression on her. She said
nothing more.
Julian took up the reins of his temper once again and when he knew he had
himself in check he opened his eyes and regarded his new bride. "Sooner or later
you must accustom yourself to me, Sophy."
"You promised me three months, my lord."
"Damn it, woman, I will not force myself upon you for the next three months. But
do not expect me to make no attempt whatsoever to change your mind about
lovemaking in the meantime. That is asking entirely too much and is completely
outside the terms of our ridiculous agreement."
Her head snapped around. "Is this what you meant when you warned me that a man's
sense of honor is unreliable when it comes to his dealings with women? Am