Searching for Mine (Searching For #4.5) (10 page)

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She’d kissed Connor Dunkle.

Ella nodded and smiled as Luke chattered nonstop through dinner. He’d met two boys from school during snow tubing and spent some time with them in the arcade. Watching her son bloom from sullen to joyful filled her with such relief her muscles seemed to actually sag. The weeks spent with Connor had been good for him. He never complained about shoveling, and got into the habit of doing his homework next door with Connor. They’d gotten close, and a bond had developed between man and boy she’d never seen before.

Of course, it was dangerous.

Especially after the kiss.

Ella sipped her wine and picked at her salad. Luke was her main priority, and she didn’t want him to be confused with the relationship between her and Connor. Somehow, they’d become good friends. He was also still technically her student. She wasn’t about to screw anything up just because she had a physical weakness and was tempted by rock-hard muscles and stinging blue eyes. She’d need to forget the way his thighs had pinned her in the snow, parting her legs just enough so she could feel his erection through his jeans. She refused to think about the drugging, addictive taste of him on her lips, or the way his tongue had slid inside her mouth and taken charge with delicious, drugging thrusts.

No way. They had a good thing going, and she knew how Connor worked. Women fell into his path like they’d been hypnotized, helpless against the mix of gorgeous looks, physical stature, and melting charm. She wasn’t the type of woman he dated or looked for in a mate. She had small boobs and dressed like a sparrow rather than a peacock. She had no idea how to flirt or play games. She had no desire to have a one-night affair and wreck their friendship. Pretending that kiss was anything but an impulse, quickly forgotten, would be disastrous.

The encounter proved one thing to her. She needed someone in her life. It was time. The image of the business card from Kinnections flashed in her mind, and Ella knew what she was going to do.

“I’m going to the bathroom,” Luke announced.

“Okay, honey.”

Her son left them alone. An awkward silence descended.

“Ella?”

She dragged in a breath and forced herself to look up. “Yeah?”

His blue eyes filled with worry. “Did I screw up? With us?”

She wondered what she’d do if he boldly stated he wanted her. Woman to man. Naked. When he kissed her, she’d experienced such an intense bolt of hunger, her body had wrested control of her mind and let her fly free. Maybe this was a sign it was time for her to begin searching for what she needed. His kiss proved she had her own needs. It had been two years since she had a date or sexual experience. Hadn’t she sacrificed enough yet? She loved her son, but didn’t she deserve to find love or companionship, too? Wasn’t it her turn?

Ella forced a smile and shook her head. “No. We’re friends, right? We’re not going to let a kiss ruin that for all of us.”

Relief flickered over his face. “Good. Wouldn’t want to lose the best neighbor I ever had. Or Luke, of course. He’s an incredible kid.”

“Yeah. I’m kind of crazy about him.”

“He seems to be happy. Making some friends.”

They stared at one another for a bit. Again, the connection hummed between them. Ella cleared her throat. “So I made a decision. Remember when you offered to babysit for me?”

“Yeah?”

“I may need to take you up on that. I found a card for a matchmaking agency called Kinnections. I’m calling them to start the process.”

“Did you say Kinnections?” he asked in disbelief.

“Yeah, why? Have you heard of them? They’re located in Verily.”

He shook his head and grinned. “My brother’s girlfriend is an owner.”

They were interrupted when the waitress came back and placed their dinners on the table. She was young, with pretty blonde hair, a short black skirt, and a gaze that focused solely on Connor. Ella bit back her irritation while she fluttered around him and completely ignored her. He shot the girl his standard, charming smile, and she practically sighed with pleasure.

“Thanks, darlin’. I appreciate you working so hard.”

The girl boldly stared at him, cat green eyes hungrily roving over his body. “Don’t mind working for a man who appreciates it.”

“Well, I do appreciate it. Your pretty face brightened up my day.”

Ella blanched at the awful line, but the girl smiled with pride. “Well, you can brighten my day anytime.”

What? Oh, she was so going to lose it.

Ella cleared her throat. “Yes, thanks so much for doing your
job
. We’re good.” The waitress shot her a glare, then slunk away. Ella pointed her fork at him. “What’s wrong with you? I don’t care if you flirt with every female in a skirt, but why do you have to sound like you have zero intelligence? I mean,
darlin’
? You’re not even Southern!”

He frowned. “I was just trying to lift her spirits. Waitressing is hard work.”

She ground her teeth in frustration. “Then don’t thank her for having a pretty little face! Thank her for working hard and anticipating our needs as customers. Ugh, it’s like you dragged womankind back a few decades. How do you get away with this stuff?”

He gave a suffering sigh. “Now you sound like Nate and Kennedy. I never had complaints before, okay? Women seem to like it.”

“Well, they shouldn’t. And if they do, you’re dating the wrong type of women,” she muttered.

“Can we go back to our original subject? I can call Kennedy and tell her you’ll be calling. She may even be able to give you a discount. I’m excited for you. They screen all their clients and match you with a guy who’s right for you. It’s thorough and safe.”

She picked up her fork and dug into her lasagna. Did he have to sound so damn excited about her suddenly dating? “Sounds good.”

He began eating his ravioli. “They do a consultation and a makeover, too. It’s all included in the price.”

A flash of pain cut through her. She’d never be a woman to inspire a man to rip off her clothes and tumble her on the ground. But she’d be damned if she’d settle for the dregs of his pity for the poor, single mom. Did he want her to get a makeover that bad? If he was so turned off by her appearance, had he kissed her out of obligation? To make her feel better about herself? Shame burned.

She tried to keep her voice light and teasing though she squirmed inside. “Didn’t know you were so excited about hooking me up, Dunkle? Trying to keep me distracted for a bigger curve on your upcoming assignment?”

He grinned. “Nah, I know how that works now. No more pissing off my professor. I just think you deserve to be happy, Ella. You’re, well, you’re—” he stopped off, shaking his head. He rarely stumbled over words or compliments toward females, so she studied him with interest.

“I’m what?”

“You’re an incredible woman,” he said softly. “You deserve...everything.”

She sucked in her breath. Raw emotion flooded her system, but she had no time to answer. Luke came racing back, shoveling spaghetti and meatballs in his mouth in between trading bad knock-knock jokes with Connor.

Ella told herself to forget his intimate words and the way he made her feel. He was right. It was time to move on.

It was time to join Kinnections.

Chapter Ten

“A woman, especially, if she have the misfortune of knowing anything, should conceal it as well as she can.” –Jane Austen

Spring rolled in like a lamb, leaving the lion’s roar far behind. The days turned sunny, and as the snow melted into oblivion, flowers and trees peeked their heads out, deciding it was safe to finally come out and play.

He’d cleared the weekend to work on his brother’s shed and swung by to pick up Luke and Ella. He smiled as they trotted out and climbed in the truck. “I’m surprised you wanted to come with us,” he said to Ella. He took in her loose jeans, rain boots, and hooded sweatshirt. Though it was warmer, they’d be working outside so he’d told them to dress warm.

“I wanted to meet your brother,” she offered, buckling her seat belt. “Also Kennedy said to come and keep her company while you do manly things.”

Luke grunted from the back. “That’s right, Mom. Maybe you can make us lunch while we build the shed.”

She rolled her eyes at his poking. “Wise guy. Turn on the HGTV channel and half of the contractors are women. Is this how I raised you to think of females? Or have you been hanging out with Connor too much?”

They laughed. Connor threw up his hands. “Hey, if you want to take over, I’ll be happy to prepare a meal in the warm house.”

“Point taken. I’ll stay inside.”

“Good choice.”

He drove out to Verily, radio blaring loud, windows cranked halfway down. He was so used to being with them it was almost like his own family. He’d grown close to both of them, and other than the odd electricity that crackled between them, Connor settled into a comfortable routine of companionship.

He never thought about the kiss. Well, hardly ever. Sometimes, the memory snuck up in the night, taunting him with the brief flash of her body underneath his, the sweet taste of her lingering on his lips. He’d never been affected by a simple kiss, but Connor figured it was the typical male game of wanting what he couldn’t have. He wasn’t about to risk losing Ella and Luke over a physical reaction that would pass after one tumble. He’d done it again and again. The next morning, Connor rarely felt anything but the need to move on. He’d never hurt Ella like that by playing games. She’d become too precious.

He refused to delve further into his strong feelings for the two people next to him, choosing to do what he did best. Just enjoy the day, moment to moment.

He drove past the familiar white sign welcoming them to Verily, and headed down Main Street. Nate had been begging him to move here, but the rents were a bit pricier, and his current place was a shorter commute to work. Still, he loved the small Hudson River town. Quaint and artistic, shops lined the streets, lights strung over the large oak trees, and popular cafes set up tables and chairs for guests. They passed the used bookstore, the Barking Dog bakery, and Kinnections, the matchmaking agency owned by Kennedy and her two friends, Kate and Arilyn. The dog park was packed on a sunny afternoon, and he grinned at the crowds of people with leashes gathering for social time.

He reached Nate’s house in a few minutes and pulled into the driveway. They’d moved out of their old apartment and bought a small cottage house with a spacious yard, quirky slanting red roof, and a wraparound porch. His brother came out with Kennedy at his side.

“Hey,” Nate said in his standard greeting. He grinned and leaned in for a half hug. “Good to see you, man.”

“You, too. Looking good, little brother. Growing your hair?”

Kennedy laughed and enveloped him in a bear hug. “No, he’s refusing to see Bennie for a trim until he finishes this round of testing on his current prototype. He’s living in the lab. Thank goodness you’re here to force him to breathe some fresh air.”

Connor hugged her back. His future sister-in-law—well, one day he hoped—was a vibrant, commanding woman who stole Nate’s heart at first glance. Her looks were dazzling, from her caramel-colored hair, curvy body clad in designer clothes, and whiskey gold eyes. But she was so much more than knee-buckling good looks to Connor. She was a friend, supporter, and made his brother happy. She challenged them both on any bullshit, pushed them to their limits, and loved them unconditionally.

She was family.

“Gonna help us build this shed, Ken?” he teased. “Bet you have cute little pink work boots and a matching hammer.”

She tossed her hair in dismissal. “As if. Now introduce me to this charming young man who’s going to break a million hearts.”

Luke flushed from the attention but stared at Kennedy like she was a movie star. “I’m Luke.”

“Nice to meet you, Luke.” She shook his hand. Nate followed. “I’ve heard great things about you. Thank you for helping us build a shed. Nate has so much equipment, we can’t jam it in the house any longer. Hi, Ella! I’m so happy you came to keep me company.”

They hugged. He didn’t get much information, but it seemed she’d already had her consultation, counseling appointment, and was moving forward with securing a date via Kinnections. He trusted Kennedy would keep her safe and set her up with the right man.

His gut squeezed at the sudden thought she wouldn’t really belong to him anymore. But of course, that was stupid. They were only friends, neighbors, and teacher/student. Ella had never been his in the first place.

He shook off the strange emotions and ruffled Luke’s hair. “Okay, dude. Let’s get to work.”

Ella and Kennedy wished them luck and disappeared into the house.

The supplies had already been delivered and were spread out in the backyard. He’d marked out the ground on his last visit, and the plans had been carefully plotted and confirmed with the proper zoning authorities. He called them over and explained the drawings to Luke, going over safety rules and the jobs he’d be responsible for. The boy listened and took it all seriously, his face etched with excitement for his first official build.

“Luke, the first thing we do when we’re getting ready will set the tone for the day. Know what it is?”

He shook his head. “What?”

Connor shot his brother a knowing look. “Take control of the music before your partner does. If you don’t you’ll end up getting tortured by Mozart or bad country songs. Power up my phone, young man.”

Luke laughed and turned away.

Nate gave him the middle finger.

Yeah. It was going to be a great day.

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Ella sat at the high counter in the breakfast nook, her gaze sweeping over the house. “I love your place,” she said, taking in the gorgeously designed pieces that made the rooms pop. From the canary yellow rug to the massive red vase filled with exotic dried blooms, her senses were filled with delight. Lush green plants scattered about, the furniture was comfortable, yet elegant, in rich fabrics of velvet, leather, and linen.