Saving Grace (Katie & Annalise Book 1) (25 page)

I speared the earth with the point of the shovel. I shoved it in firmly, then stomped it in further with my foot. When the blade was threequarters of the way submerged, I shifted my hands so I could push down on the handle with all my weight. The shovel levered free of the ground. I lifted a bladeful of dirt, and with a twist of my wrist and arms, heaved it to the top of the small pile I had created. The hole was ten inches deep, ten inches wide. More than big enough now for what I needed.

Sweat trickled down my chest and pooled in my cleavage, dammed off by my bra. I turned to look behind me, up the cleared grassy hill at the imposing yellow hulk of my house in side view. From this angle, I could see the third-story balcony to my favorite room, one I would use as a guest suite before too long. Not so long ago, that balcony was only a jutting concrete ledge. Now it was covered in red pavers that matched those on the patio by the nearly-finished pool. Soon, twisted black metal spindles would support a matching railing. It was nearly a real balcony now. A rock-covered chimney sprouted from the roof above it. Crazy had worked a miracle on Annalise. I’d done my share, too, including staining the mahogany staircase to a deep brown sheen. She wasn’t done yet, but I’d move in before summer.

I soaked her in, then returned to my work, down on a knoll that overlooked the long valley full of mango trees. A cluster of cashew trees peeked over the edge of the slope, its fruit red and ripe. I sank to my knees in the dirt. It was cool, in contrast to the hot March air. I needed to hurry.

I scooped a last few handfuls of dirt out of my burial pit, then patted the earth down to create a perfect resting place. My hand dug in the right pocket of my pleated khaki shorts until I found the cold metal I sought. My mother’s ring. My grandmother’s ring. A ring that I would have worn some day, too, if my mother had lived to give it to me on my wedding day. Assuming I ever got married, which I didn’t really foresee. If I had confessed to another woman alive that I was putting this heirloom under nine inches of dirt, they would have called the police for a 5150 pickup. I clutched it, stricken with an urge to keep it, to wear it, to feel it on my finger, but I didn’t waver. It was time to put the past to rest. Past time to do it.

I dropped the ring into its grave. It landed with a soft thump, almost a plink. My eyes stayed dry. In the six months since Walker had flown off Baptiste’s Bluff, I had shed very few tears, and then only tears of vindication. When the charges against Ava were dropped. When Jacoby told me that the police had officially reversed their finding about my parents’ deaths, and posthumously charged Walker with murder, the murders of Frank and Heather Connell, and the murder of Guy Edwards. They left only Michael Jacoby’s death unsolved, but it was forevermore under a cloud of suspicion. When Bonds and Lisa were captured on St. John, gassing up his yacht before they tried to make their break out of U.S. territory, I’d wondered how far out to sea Lisa would have made it before Bonds tossed her overboard. The U.S.V.I. police had charged them with conspiracy to commit murder, times three. Word on the street was that the Feds would come after them for money laundering soon, too. I looked skyward and said, “Thank you, God.”

I kneaded dirt from my hand. A thin layer formed over the ring. It hurt. It hurt a lot. “You’ll always be with me, Mom. You, too, Dad.”

My next burial item was easier.

A clear plastic Cruzan Light Rum bottle, empty. The same one I had poured down Ava’s sink on the day we almost suffered the same fate as my parents. I didn’t need it anymore. I had stayed dry ever since then, and I credited hard work and the influence of a big jumbie house.

Not that I hadn’t faced temptations. When your boyfriend owns the hottest restaurant on island and hosts incredible wine tasting parties, temptation is a constant. Bart didn’t understand my decision to completely stop drinking, but he hadn’t known the old me. He thought I was the next best thing since crème brûlée, so maybe he didn’t need to understand. I looked over my shoulder and said, “Thank you, Annalise.”

Bart’s car motored up the drive now. I couldn’t see him, but I heard the sound of the wheels on the dirt road. Spending time up here, I had come to recognize engines by sound: the loud rumble of Rashidi’s Jeep, the whine of Crazy’s truck as it strained under loads of building supplies, the purr of Bart’s well-tuned black Pathfinder. I picked dirt up in both hands, closed my hands over it like a book, then opened them from the reverse side, dumping the dirt in a splat on the liter bottle.

One more item to go. The hardest one. The most secret one. The one no one else had to understand but me. The one I certainly hadn’t trusted Ava with. Even though we’d reached an understanding about how we would act toward one another’s men after she was so flirtatious with Bart, I knew Ava was still Ava. I didn’t feel safe putting this information in her hands, or anyone’s. I loved her, but I’d keep my boundaries, thank you very much.

I reached into my left pocket and pulled out the SIM card to my iPhone. The old SIM card, the one for my Dallas phone number. I’d lived on St. Marcos for seven months now, and only this morning had I changed my cell phone to a 340 area code number.

Letting go of my Dallas life shouldn’t be this damn hard. I squeezed the tiny black rectangle, and before I even knew it was coming, a sob escaped me.

“Not now. I can’t cry now. I can’t let Bart see this.”

It wasn’t letting go of my Dallas life that hurt. It was severing the last link to Nick. A number he knew. A number he could still call, if he wanted. A number he had not called in the months I’d lived here. A number he wouldn’t call.

My breath came in sharp gasps now, but I held the tears in. I extended my hand over the hole, SIM card hidden away in it.

“Drop it. Let go of it,” I ordered myself.

I sensed a presence to my left. I whirled, feeling foolish but holding the SIM card behind me.

Her. She stood only ten feet away from me, under the farthest branches of a flamboyant in full bloom. Her ebony skin shimmered below the crown of brilliant orange flowers. Her eyes glowed like agates. There wasn’t a drop of breeze, but her skirt was flowing out behind her. She shook her head, then held her arms open. I stepped toward her, toward those arms, that embrace.

“Katie?”

Bart’s voice. I willed my eyes to track the sound. He stood on the side of the house next to  mini towers of biscuit-colored travertine floor tile ready for installation, up the hill from me. He looked taller from this angle, and blonder. He wore a powder-blue t-shirt and navy shorts, and he was fresh, like crisp linen and spring sunshine. He squinted, sunglassless. But he had seen me, and he waved.

“What are you doing?” he called out.

“Hey,” I replied, stalling.

I turned back toward my mysterious friend, and saw what I expected. Nothing. Dammit. With my back to Bart, I flung the SIM card into my little pit, and I kicked dirt into it, then rotated my foot longways and used it to shovel more dirt in the hole. The SIM card disappeared. I shoved more. Now soil covered the entire bottle. Another, and another, and then one last time I pushed the dirt in. I couldn’t see anything but earth in the shallow, narrow hole. Good enough.

Only seconds had passed. I faced Bart now. He had closed the distance between us.

I said, “Just digging a test hole. I was thinking of planting a banana tree down here.”

I held my fingers crossed behind my back. My pulse was so loud in my ears that I wondered if he could hear it. My mind ping-ponged between the hole and its contents and the here and now with Bart.

Bart’s arms slipped around me and he pulled me in tight to his chest. I exhaled, and circled his body with my own arms. I laid my head on his chest. His heart thumped at an almost normal pace. He nipped my ear, then whispered into it.

“I thought we would do that together. What are we going to do with you, little Miss Independent?”

Before I could answer, he kissed me, something I had grown to like a lot, and a darn good way to forget about what lay beneath five inches of dirt at my feet. I sank into his kiss for a moment, then pulled back to answer his question.

“I think you’ll figure something out,” I said, lacing my voice with as much Angelina Jolie as a tall, skinny redhead could muster.

He smiled, and his white teeth gleamed against his island-tanned skin. He looked like California, like the cover of
Men’s Journal
, like a man who wanted to lick my toes and eat me for dinner. He grabbed my hand and gave me a tug.

“Yes, I know a few things we could try,” he said.

“Wait,” I replied.

I pulled my hand out of his and picked up the flat gray rock I had brought to mark the burial spot. I dropped it into position. I wondered if I should have put the SIM card in a ziplock, just in case.

“What’s that for?” Bart asked.

I looked straight into his eyes, blue as the Caribbean Sea. “To remind me this spot is too far from the house for the banana trees.”

Bart scrunched his forehead, then threw back his head and laughed. “Only you, Katie. Only you.”

And I put my hand back into his. I snuck one last glance at the earthen pile, then inhaled soundlessly through my nose. We walked up the hill, away from my buried ghosts, back toward Annalise and the sparkling promise of something new, together.

The End

Now that you’ve finished
Saving Grace
, won’t you please consider writing an honest review and leaving it on the online sales channel of your preference and/or Goodreads? Reviews are the best way readers discover great new books. I would truly appreciate it. And now, here’s an excerpt from
Leaving Annalise
, the second book in the
Katie & Annalise
series. ~ Pamela

I don’t know why on God’s green earth I said yes to it.

I was taking my star turn as master of ceremonies for the Mrs. St. Marcos pageant. That’s right, I said Missus, not Miss. I had the honor of hosting the old married ladies’ pageant. Forgive me for saying so, but I’ve never been much of a pageant person in general—despite my dear friend Emily’s insistence that her Miss Amarillo title helped pay for her degree from Texas Tech University—and these Mrs. pageants took me to a whole new level of “huh?”

Yet there I was. Half of the population of the island came, too. The rowdy half. I was sure that the object of my unreturned and supposedly buried affections, a guy back in Texas named Nick, would have said they were acting like they were at a tractor pull, not a beauty pageant. Or so I imagined, as we hadn’t spoken in many moons.

Jackie, the pageant director, hiked her low-slung blue-camouflage pants up over her considerable bana, almost covering her two-inch thong-panty-T, and gushed, “I can’t believe we so lucky someone as talented as you gonna do our pageant.” In her island lilt,
can’t
sounded like
cyahnt
and grammar took on a much simpler and present-tense-oriented role.

I nodded at her, but she couldn’t fool me. She was just relieved to have found a big enough sucker to do the gig at all. She had tried to book my singing partner, the sultry Ava Butler, after seeing us perform together one night at The Lighthouse on the boardwalk downtown. Jackie liked our banter and stage presence, but she preferred Ava’s status as a bahn yah (born here) local to mine as a continental transplant. Ava, wisely, had found an excuse not to do the pageant, and recommended me. I would make her pay for that.

The pageant officials were holding the event in an “open-air” theater, which was a genteel way of saying un-air-conditioned. The wooden doors and shuttered windows were propped open, but no discernible light or breeze penetrated the interior. The event was running on island time. Warm bodies sardined too long together were making for a stifling environment, even backstage. Living on St. Marcos, I had learned to appreciate the cleansing properties of sweat, but the other things heat brought, like flies and ripe body odor, not so much. I swatted at a fly.

My sort-of-boyfriend Bart, head chef at and one of the owners of the popular Fortuna’s Restaurant in Town, was sitting somewhere out there in that people soup, whether I wanted him to or not. A girl could only eat so much of his signature mango-drenched Chilean sea bass before growing gills. I wasn’t even sure why he’d come, since he’d found his new kitchen manager dead that morning. I would have thought he’d have things to do, but apparently not.

Lately it felt like I never quite got outside his field of vision, and I was going to have to fix that. Like right away. I wanted to time travel into the next day, past the part of the evening where I told him that he wasn’t Prince Charming and my life was no fairy tale. Maybe. If I got my courage up.

I parted the red velvet stage curtains half an inch and peeked through, but I couldn’t find him. I let the slit in the curtain close.

Jackie spoke again. “Move your things over there, mind.” She was tugging at her black tank top, which clung to the individual rolls around her middle and the indentations carved by her bra. Her tugging better revealed her lacy bra straps, but at least they matched her shirt. Her red doo rag didn’t.

It was hard to take her seriously looking like she did, but I tried. I lugged my overstuffed wardrobe bag across the plank floor to the back corner, sweating my makeup off within those twenty seconds. My bag held the many outfits I had brought at Jackie’s explicit instructions. She decreed that we would change clothes each time the contestants did, to “keep it interesting.” That meant five changes, Lord help me.

Jackie walked toward a dressing room marked with a glittered aluminum-foil-covered star with one cardboard point exposed. Her flip-flops slapped the floor with each step. I checked my watch. We were now officially thirty minutes beyond the announced start time. Jackie blamed her delay on the day’s drama, which she had inserted herself into. The dead kitchen manager, she had informed me, was her third cousin on her mother’s ex-husband’s side.

As she entered the dressing room, Jackie turned back to me and said, “If the police come to talk to me about Tarah, I’ll just be in here,” then closed the door.

Lord Harry.

The crowd out front grew noisier. I could hear their bodies shifting in the rows of wooden fold-down seats, their makeshift fans swishing back and forth, as small feet ran up and down the narrow aisles of the dark theater. A baby shrieked and I winced. My thirty-sixth birthday was fast approaching, but my biological clock wasn’t keeping pace.

I busied myself arranging my dresses, shoes, and jewelry in order of their upcoming appearances until Jackie emerged from the dressing room. Somehow she had managed to one-up her last stunning ensemble by sausaging herself into a ruffly, too-tight, too-short tangerine number. A toothy smile split her ebony face. “I wore this dress to my own crowning. It still fits.”

“Wow,” I said, and sucked in my stomach.

Jackie was a former Mrs. St. Marcos herself, a tall, beautiful woman, but she had put on forty pounds since her pageant days two years before. Some memories just aren’t made for reliving.

And then it was time to begin. Jackie took the podium and welcomed the audience, calling out attendees’ names individually, starting with the most important people in the room.

“Good evening, Honorable Senator Popo, Senator Nelson, he lovely wife, and they three beautiful chirruns dem,” she said. When she had made it through her list ten minutes later, she finished with “And a pleasant good evening to all the rest of you ladies and gentlemen.”

I was used to this pompous circumstance by now, after moving to St. Marcos in search of serenity all of nine months before—which I had found, thanks mostly to the half-finished jumbie house I’d bought.

Jumbie as in voodoo spirit.

Yeah, that kind of jumbie.

That may sound wacky if you don’t live in the tropics, but everyday life interwoven with the supernatural was something else I’d gotten used to. Estate Annalise was quite famous on island, and between my gigs as half a singing duo with Ava and my association with my house, apparently so was I.

Finally, Jackie moved on to introduce me, and I took the stage feeling awkward without Ava there to validate me. I regretted my long black spaghetti-strapped dress as soon as the thigh-high slit exposed my skinny white gam and got me the first wolf whistle of the night. Not what I’d aimed for. Still, the rest of the crowd laughed good-naturedly at the whistler, and it felt like I was off to a good start.

The contest itself was painful. There were only three contestants, which I found surprising. After the first segment, evening gown, Jackie and I did a quick change together in the dressing room.

“Why aren’t there any more contestants?” I asked as I finger-combed my long red hair and held it up in a twisting fall. Nah. I dropped it and the waves resettled against the middle of my back.

Jackie struggled with the side zip of her asymmetrical dress. The gap seemed insurmountable and the tune to “The River’s Too Wide” sprang into my mind. “It hard to find a Local married woman on St. Marcos,” she said.

I couldn’t argue with that.

Her voice rose, and with it, her index finger. “My cousin Tarah never gone be married now, and all because she give everything to her job.”

The recently deceased Tarah already had her halo and wings.

I went onstage to introduce the fashion segment, then stood to one side. The first contestant strutted out in a long-sleeved cropped top that was completely open in the front. I didn’t close my mouth the entire time she was on stage. The crowd lustily cheered her on. We’d gone from tractor pull to strip club.

Bart’s blond head stood out against the sea of black hair. He caught my eye and pumped his fist in the air.

God, please make this evening end soon, I begged.

Jackie motioned me in for another wardrobe change, but when I emerged in my next outfit, she stopped midstride and put her hands on her hips.

“Katie, change that dress,” she barked. “It too much like what I wearing.”

My, how things had changed since the judges named this woman Mrs. Congeniality. I was hot. I was sweaty. I was reluctantly channeling Nicole Kidman with my red hair and “couture.” I was not happy to be there, and I don’t like people to boss me around. Plus, my Michael Kors slate-blue Grecian dress was my absolute favorite garment, and this was the only foreseeable opportunity I’d have to wear it on island. She was not going to rob me of my one small joy of the night.

“Change yours,” I retorted. “Mine fits perfectly, and your back seam just split.” I turned on my heel and walked to the mirror, stretching to make the most of my five foot nine inches plus three of heel. I stole a glance back at her in the glass.

Jackie was gaping open-mouthed and craning her head toward the guilty seam. Everyone in earshot backstage flashed thumbs-up and OK signs. Katie, the instant hero.

I strode straight to the stage to launch the intellect portion of the competition. First up, one of the contestants used her allotted time to speak on the importance of breastfeeding.

“Sagging is a misguided fear,” she explained to the rapt crowd. “I still breastfeeding my eight-month-old boy, and I no think I saggy, wah you think?”

The audience loved this, and shouted back their high opinions of her breasts (or was that “opinions of her high breasts”?). Whatever it was, it was torture to behold. Not as bad, say, as when I crumbled to the floor and mewled like a kitten during my last trial in Dallas, a moment captured for generations to come on YouTube, but it was still pretty bad. I projected myself to my happy place, imagining the soothing rush of water across the rocks at Horseshoe Bay.

Somehow time passed. We were nearing the end of the pageant after four exhausting hours. I had sweated less in steam rooms. I calculated the small fortune I’d spend on dry cleaning while I waited backstage for the judges’ final tabulations. I changed back into my Michael Kors dress just to torment Jackie and was retrieving my lipstick for a touchup when my iPhone buzzed from the depths of my purse. I picked it up and took a look.

The text read, “I vote for the MC.”

Weird message. Was it from Bart? I looked at the number. Nope. One of the judges? Couldn’t be. It was from the 214 area code, my old Dallas stomping grounds. I looked at the number again, and my stomach lurched.

“Who is this?” I replied, knowing the answer.

“Nick.”

I lost my breath and couldn’t catch it.