Authors: Trevor Hoyle
It was gone nine o'clock before Janice showed up. Kenny, Andy and a few other lads were sitting in the White Lion arguing about how many cinemas Rochdale used to have before most of them either closed down or were turned into bingo halls. Kenny said ten: Regal, Rialto, Palace, Empire, Hippodrome, Victory, Pavilion, Kings, Ceylon, and a fleapit in Castleton whose name he couldn't remember.
âYou can't count that,' said one of the lads Kenny hadn't met before. âWe're talking about cinemas in Rochdale. And the Ceylon doesn't count either; that was up Heybrook way.'
âHeybrook's still in Rochdale, you dozy pillock,' Kenny said.
âIt's not in the centre though.'
âI know it's not in the centre but it's still Rochdale, innit? We're talking about cinemas in
Rochdale
.' He put his arm round Janice as she sat down. He said, âAll right, love?' feeling kindly disposed towards her. (He was in the mood for a good poke.) âDo you want half of mild?'
âHave you enough money?'
âThe old lady lent me a quid. Well sort of lent it me. Here, get us a pint while you're there,' giving her a fifty-pence piece.
Fester said, âHow do you fancy going over to Leeds tonight?'
âWhat's in Leeds?' Andy said.
Fester leaned his squat elbows on the table. âAll-nighter. It's a soul club Alan and Rod have been to. Great. Stacked with talent.'
âIt's too bloody far,' Kenny said. âBy the time we get the train and waste time pissing about trying to findâ'
âAlan's got transport,' Fester said, his tiny slitted eyes flicking
excitedly from face to face. âWe can do it in an hour on the motorway. What do you think? The five of us.'
âSix,' Kenny said. âIncluding Jan.'
The car was a dark-blue 1968 Ford Consul with rusty bumpers and a rear nearside spring in danger of collapse. Kenny, Janice and Andy sat in the back and Fester and Rod got in the front next to Alan.
âIs it taxed?' Kenny asked, not having seen a disc on the windscreen.
âNo,' Alan said, grating into first gear. âIt hasn't got an MOT either.'
âWhen did you pass your driving test?' Andy said.
âHaven't taken it yet,' Alan said.
Snow was blowing horizontally across the motorway as they climbed up beyond Milnrow, crossed the Rakewood Viaduct and topped the moors into Yorkshire. It was cosy with the heater on, gazing out from the dark interior of the car at the flurries of snow being driven silently through the beams of the headlights. Kenny had his hand on Janice's thigh. Andy said to Rod:
âYou've trapped off at this place, have you?'
âYeh. Last week.'
âShe all right?'
âFit as a butcher's dog.' Rod was a handsome boy with long blond hair and intense brown eyes surrounded by soft dark lashes. He kept glancing at Janice, Kenny noticed, no doubt he fancied his chances; if only he knew that just a few days ago Kenny had knifed a bloke for less. But then some of these turds always had to push their luck until it was too late.
When they got there the club turned out to be a bit of a dump. The bar consisted of three trestle tables in the shape of a U and there was no draught beer or lager, only bottles and shorts.
âWorse than fucking Chorley,' Fester complained. Nearly everybody was high on something, mostly pills, and by midnight
there were more bodies on the floor than standing upright. Many of the girls looked as if they hadn't had a wash or brushed their hair for several weeks. Kenny was proud of Janice: compared to the slags she was a contender for Miss United Kingdom.
She said, âMe mum wasn't for letting me come out tonight.'
âWhy, what's up?'
âShe's still mad about the meters.'
âWeren't your fault.'
âShe blames me for not reporting it sooner. She's had to pay it back to the Electricity Board.'
âWhat, all of it?'
âYeh.'
âAll seventeen quid?'
Janice nodded.
âWhat about the insurance? Didn't she claim off them?'
âThey wouldn't pay up. They said the flats should have been looked after by a responsible person and as I'm under-age I don't count. So she's had to pay for new locks as well.'
âShe doesn't think â¦?' Kenny said.
âNo,' Janice said quickly.
âJust you be careful then. Keep your mouth shut. I don't want any twat of a copper knocking on my door.'
He recalled the moment of seeing the Juvenile Liaison Officer standing there and his heart moved again as though the incident had to be re-lived and wasn't safely past, over and done with. Then he thought about it rationally and the tension drained out of him: there was no way they could connect him with what had happened in Luton. Was there? He had to think very hard and when he had was almost certain there wasn't. There wasn't, was there? He had never been to Luton in his life â that was it â on âthe day in question' he had been⦠with Janice? Yes, he had been with Janice all that day; they had gone to Manchester on the train. Why did you go to Manchester? We went to Manchester⦠now then⦠we
went to Manchester, yes, to buy soul records. Bradleys in Rochdale don't stock the records we like, so Jan and me went to Manchester to buy soul records. For my birthday. Which records? Ah. (He'd better buy some new soul records just in case.) Here they are, look, the ones we bought. Okay? Satisfied?
⦠Anyway, calm down, he told himself, no need to get worked up. Jan would stick by him and none of the lads he'd been with would dare squeal because they knew what they'd get. They all knew he could do it. They'd all seen him knife a bloke.
Janice is snuggling against him, giving him ideas. The room is hot with bodies and yet has a dank sour smell like that of sweat gone cold. Janice closes her eyes and lifts her mouth for his kiss, blindly, her thin young face passive and trusting. He kisses her and afterwards she holds him tight and murmurs in his ear, âI'll never let you down, Kenny. Never.'
Kenny is strangely moved by this and a lump fills his throat. He knows he has found the only girl for him and that whatever happens â whoever else might attract him â Jan is the one he wants to stay with. He has to have someone he can depend on in this rotten miserable world and she is the only one. The realisation of this makes him shiver, a swift tremor down his back that of all the people in the world Jan is on his side. It is a thought that brings comfort.
He hesitates for a moment and then forms the words: âI love you, Jan.'
âI love you,' Janice says. âOh I do.' She kisses him impulsively, in a dream of perfect happiness. She is loved by someone, loved in return by the person she loves. Everything becomes comprehensible to her, everything is clear and sharply defined as though a mystery has, in an instant, resolved itself and in so doing given her fresh eyes and a new vision of life.
On the way back (it was half-past one when they left the club) they sit holding one another, their closed eyes shutting out the dark
rushing motorway and the headlights splayed out ahead. The floor of the car vibrates through their feet, with occasionally the hard jarring irritation of the failing rear spring. Andy is asleep in the corner, snoring gently.
âDo you think people should get married early â you know, young?'
âWhat brought this on?'
âSomething me mum said.'
âWhat, about me?'
âWell: yeh. It was to do with you.'
âWhat did she say?'
âShe asked me â I think she was having a joke â she asked me when we were getting engaged.'
âOh aye.'
âYeh. Last week.'
âWhat did you say?'
âI didn't say owt. It's not up to me, is it?'
âDoes she reckon you're old enough to get engaged?'
âNot right yet. Not now. But I'll be sixteen later this year. Loads of girls get engaged at sixteen. Some even get married.'
âAye they do. Some don't get wed till they're twenty-odd.'
âIs that what you think?'
âUp to them, innit? Suits some folk to get married early and doesn't suit others. Depends who it is.'
âWhat do you think though?'
âHaven't thought about it.'
âYou must have an opinion about it.'
âWhy?'
âMost people have.'
âWhat are you fishing for?'
âI'm not fishing. I just wondered what you thought.'
âI suppose it's all right for some.'
âBut what do you think?'
âDo you want to get engaged when you're sixteen?'
âI don't know. Depends, I suppose.'
âYou think we should get engaged then?'
âIt's not up to me.'
âYou don't know what you want.'
âI do. I do know. But it's no good me thinking one thing and you thinking another. It's no good me wanting to get engaged if you don't.'
âI never said I didn't.'
âI know you didn't.'
âI bet your mother never said anything about us getting engaged.'
âShe did, Kenny, honest.'
âWhy do you want to get engaged, anyway?'
âI thought we loved each other.'
âNo excuse to get engaged. Folk can love each other without having to get engaged. You only need to get engaged if you're in the club. You're not in the club, are you?'
âNo. Would it be different if I was?'
âHow do you mean?'
âWe'd have to get engaged then. Married even. We'd have no choice, would we?'
âYour mother'd have a blue fit. Her good little girl with a bun in the oven.'
âYeh,' Janice says, feeling the vibration in her toes.
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That night they slept in Kenny's narrow bed in the fibreboard box behind number 472, having sneaked in as the three chimes of the Town Hall clock were echoing emptily over the flat silent roofs of the Estate. Motorway traffic hummed distantly, the faint scudding
roar of lorries on the overnight run south. Their sound reminded Kenny that other places existed: that the town in which he lived had no claim on him other than that he had been born here. There was nothing to stop him and Janice packing two suitcases and catching the Yelloway coach and clearing out. They could go⦠almost anywhere; it was a free country.
It was warm in bed. Kenny had been feeling randy all day and couldn't get enough of her, his large heavy body almost crushing the breath from her lungs. His lack of consideration both alarmed and excited Janice: it was another of his moods she couldn't fathom, like having to deal with a stubborn and perverse animal whose brute strength carries it mindlessly forward in search of⦠and what that was she didn't know. She was willing to help him if only he would tell her what it was he was seeking. It annoyed her that she couldn't, even yet, understand him. After all, they were in love, so why were they not united as one person? Why did he drive himself blindly, using his strength as a battering-ram, crashing headfirst into the future as though desperate to break through a barrier that Janice couldn't see? Life was simple to her: it lay before her like a map with all the landmarks clearly shown: there was no need to fight life or to change it because what was there would, given time, fulfil all their hopes and dreams. And in any case it never did any good to fight. It never got you anywhere, and more often than not would only lead to trouble.
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A week later, walking through Rochdale market with Andy some time between eight-thirty and nine o'clock in the evening, Kenny was stopped by a man in plain clothes and asked if he wouldn't mind coming along to the police station. They walked with the Detective-Constable along the Esplanade past the GPO and the
Town Hall and up the tarmacadam incline into the greyish-white block where Andy was told to wait by the desk in the sleek reception hall while Kenny was shown into a room and asked to take a seat. He smoked three cigarettes one after the other, biting his nails between drags and waiting for the Detective-Constable to reappear pushing a trolley on which a corpse lay stiff under a white sheet with a gaping bloody hole in its stomach. He knew nothing about corpses; he supposed they could be kept indefinitely in cold storage and transported all over the country in refrigerated vans. That would be their way, he felt sure; confront him with the evidence and measure the shock on his face. He stiffened his face in readiness, setting the jaw muscles in squat defiance and bringing the brows close together; he couldn't control his lips, however, except when he was dragging on the cigarette.
The Detective-Constable came in, not with a corpse on a trolley, but with a constable in uniform. They both appeared to be agreeable young men, both with sideburns, and the constable with a small black moustache. The small room seemed to Kenny to be filled with neatly-pressed suits and dark-blue uniforms and pink fleshy hands and faces. He was intimidated by their cleanliness.
âIt's Kenny, isn't it?' the Detective-Constable said. He was holding two sheets of paper.
âYeh.'
âWhat?'
âYeh,' Kenny said, clearing his throat.
âFour-seven-two Irvine, Ashfield Valley. What's your father's name?'
âBrian.'
âBrian Seddon,' the Detective-Constable said, writing it down. âHow old are you, Kenny?'
âSixteen,' Kenny said. âSeventeen.'
The Detective-Constable waited.
âIt's me birthday,' Kenny blurted out. âToday.'
âMany happy returns. Where do you work?'
âHaven't got a job at the moment.'
âUnemployed,' the Detective-Constable said, writing it down. âHave you ever been in trouble before?'
âHow do you mean?'
âHave you ever been in trouble before? With the police.'
Kenny swallowed. âI was picked up one time at Rochdale football ground.'