Rotten to the Core (14 page)

             
“Shall I fetch you a cuppa love
?”

             
“A
ctually Sonia, you could do me a favour, I need you to go back home and get me my two mobiles fr
o
m the cabinet in my room, I need to
sort some stuff out
.
”
             
Glad to finally be of some use to her son
,
Sonia agreed, she
also
wanted to make sure that Kate was ok
ay
, and to warn her that it might not be a good idea to tell Jay that she had moved in, at least not yet
.
T
he boy seemed to have other things on his mind.
 

Sonia hurried off, leaving Jay to mull over what he was going to do once he was out of hospital.
W
hen he did get back out there he would be on his own, there would be no more backup for him, so he needed to get things organised.
 

14

Tanya had
a
major hum
p again. She felt as if s
he had the permanent hump. Billy had been out every bloody night now for the best part of this week
,
and she was fed up.

Scrap
i
ng yet another of his dinners into the waste disposal unit, she looked at the clock above the oven
;
it was
ten o’cl
ock
. She wasn’t the best cook in the world but she had made a real effort with dinner tonight,
making
chilli con carne,
which was
Billy’s favourite. She had mentioned to him earlier that she was going to cook for him tonight, and still he couldn’t be bothered to come home to eat with her. No guesses
as to
where he would be tonight
,
she sighed. Looking around her gleaming kitchen
,
Tanya felt depressed.

It had been a month now since Kate had moved in with Jay and his mum, and for the entire
time
Billy had been like a bear with a sore bleeding head, he was moody, on edge and had been down The Dog every night not coming home until the early hours.

Tanya scrubbed the already gleaming kitchen sides, taking her anger out on her pristine Italian marble worktops, forgetting in her anger that they had cost a fortune, just like the rest of her designer kitchen. Throwing the sponge into the sink
,
Tanya sighed to herself loudly. The night
that
Billy had the row with Kate had been unbearable
.
A
pparently
he
had gone home to find that Kate had packed her bags and left. Fuming, Billy had
 
called her mobile at least twenty times
, although
it kept going to
voicemail
. Pl
eading with her to answer her phone, she had finally
done so
and told him that she knew it was him who had beaten Jay up, and as far as she was concerned she had to make a choice for her unborn baby
:
Billy
or Jay. She had chosen Jay. After informing Billy that he was no longer anything to her or her child and that she never wanted to hear from him again
,
she
had
hung up on him.

Billy couldn’t believe the way Kate was acting. He hadn’t laid a finger on that piece of
shite
. Billy was sure that Jay
loved
this
.
The smug bastard was probably laughing his mug off.

Even Tanya had to admit, only to herself of course, she wouldn’t dream of voicing her doubts to Billy
,
that she
had her suspicions that Billy was behind Jay’s beating
,
especially after the way he reacted to the news of Kate being pregnant, but she knew that if Billy had done it, despite Kate
’
s reaction to the whole situation
,
Billy would have
con
fessed to them both by now if it had been him. He was the type to stand by his actions, and Tanya knew he was genuinely upset by his sister
’
s reaction to him, because he really was telling her the truth, he really hadn’t dished out the beating to Jay. When he had found out that his sister had then gone and moved into Jay’s mum’s place he felt sick to his stomach
, imagining
that she would be round there attending to that scumbag
’
s every whim. He realised now that he had played it all wrong, now his sister had chosen that piece of filth over him. Hoping that in time Kate would calm down and reconsider
,
Billy had left
her
alone
.
He had no other choice, he didn’t want to lose her forever so he thought he would bide his time, although
inside he was stewing. It had been a whole month now and there
had been
no word from Kate at all. His sister was all he really had, he had always
been
so protective of her, and growing up as the only man in the house he had kind of taken on the whole provider/protector role too. He wasn’t very good at being on his own, like most men
,
there was
too much shit going round inside his head, being on your own meant that you had to think about stuff, and who could be bothered with all of that
?
So he had stayed most of the month at the flat with Tanya. He was getting in the way though,
and
she
often
had an irritated tone to her voice when she spoke to him
. H
e just wanted to lounge around, chill out a bit, smoke a few joints,
but
Tanya was clean and tidy and organis
ed
,
and she knew
it was driving him nuts.
He sometimes said she
had OCD. He w
anted her to be
more chilled, loosen up a little. After this month living together
,
the cracks were definitely starting to show.

Tanya
had been made up when he had turned up with a bag of his stuff in tow, she thought that maybe now Kate had pissed off and become someone else
’s
problem that she would have Billy
to herself. She
had planned quie
t
little dinners in, thought she could light a few candles, put on a nice bit of
music,
she couldn’t wait to spend every minute with her fella. But Billy was driving her crazy
with his grumpiness
and short
-
temper. When he was
at
home he mainly sat around making the place look untidy, constantly banging on about Kate, almost as if he w
ere
obsessed. He was her brother, but the way he had been acting you
woul
d have thought that he was her poor jilted lover.
And h
e was getting worse
.
Tanya sighed
;
she knew that Kate meant a lot to
Billy,
but this was unhealthy.

Calling him and giving him agro wasn’t Tanya’s style, she would bide her time, she knew that she wouldn’t be able to take much more of this from him, but was well aware that this was actually his place at the end of the day, and she loved this flat, it was her very own little oasis. If things carried on the way they were going and Tanya lost it, Billy would just end it with her, and she’d lose it all. She had no intentions of going back to nothing. She had
a
status
now
, when she went out with the girls, which wasn’t very often these days,
she had got into the habit of being home in case Billy wanted to come by.
She was treated like royalty
when
sge
was out though.
T
hey knew she was
Billy’s girlfriend, and as everyone
wanted to keep him happy, they knew they should keep her happy too. Tanya was sure that her
beauty
also
played a part in the attention she got; she couldn’t help but notice the looks she got from other men when she was out.
It was a s
hame Billy
did
n’t appreciate what he had.

Tanya was glad when
Billy
did finally bugger off out to The Dog in the afternoons, she was enjoying the peace and quiet. Reaching for her glass of wine, Tanya gulped it down, loving the coolness and the feeling of familiar numbness taking over. She had felt more and more like a kid lately, having to sneak a drink whenever Billy wasn’t looking. She
was
careful when Billy was home, he didn’t mind her having a drink, and in fact he had commented a couple of times that she was more chilled when she’d had one. What Billy didn’t know was that she could quite happily do
a whole bottle in an evening just to herself
and sometimes if she was having a shit day she did have the odd glass, even if it was still
 
morning, though that had only happen
ed
a few times
. W
ell
,
maybe more than a few, but she wasn’t addicted or anything like that, she wasn’t an alky. Alcoholics sat on benches drinking
S
pecial
B
rew, they were low down in the food chain
.
She was in control. No, she didn’t have a problem; she just enjoyed a few drinks every now and again.
After
another long swig of wine, her mood started to lift. She loved the calm that swept over her. At least when Billy wasn’t here
,
she could have as much as she liked without feeling guilty or having to justify it to him. Pouring another glass
,
she smiled to herself a
s she remembered
a saying her
n
an
used to say to her all through her childhood
:
“Be careful what you wish for; because one day
,
Tanya
,
you might get it”.
She finally
understood
the meaning, taking the rest of the bottle into bedroom Tanya prepared herself for yet another fun
-
filled night of watching telly in bed, alone.
 

Kate smoothed her crisp white shirt down over her tiny bump, smiling as she felt the flutter of movement. She had had a good pregnancy so far, her skin was glowing, her energy was high
;
she was quite enjoying it. She was over four months gone, and she loved that she now had the tiny start of a little baby bump.
No one else had mentioned it
but Kate could clearly notice it, especially as her
 
trousers were becoming so tight she was worried that if she sat down, she might split them. She needed s
ome new clothes.

M
entally adding t
rousers
to the long list of everything else she was going to need to buy, she looked in
to
the mirror
again
,
giving
herself the once over,
 
and began to worry that perhaps she was a litt
le over-dressed. She looked as if
she was going for a job in a law firm or something, very formal and well turned out, maybe she was overdoing it a little. The job advertisement had been for a cleaner, it was part
-
time hours and cash
-
in
-
hand, and most importantly it was local. Kate knew that in her present condition she
woul
d be lucky if she could get th
e job
. A lot of
 
employers wouldn’t employ a
 
pregnant woman if they could help it, especially someone halfway through their pregnancy
;
it wasn’t worth all the hassle. So she figured that for her interview this morning she needed to make an extra good impression.

Kate
had been at Jay’s house now for a month, and to say that it hadn’t been going that well would be a
n
understatement. He claimed that he
didn’t know who had attacked him that night. Kate had even started to think that maybe she had been wrong, maybe her brother hadn’t been behind it after all, that perhaps she had over
-
reacted.