Rewriting Destiny (Forsaken Sinners MC #1) (4 page)

He looks me in the eye and finally agrees. “If I don’t hear from you in an hour, I will come looking for you. And you.” He points to Gunnar. “If anything happens to her, I will hunt you down and bury you where no one will ever find you. You got me?” Fuck. Zane is hot when he is pissed and in protective mode. I need to stop thinking like that, though, because Zane and I will never be.

“I said I would text when I got home and I will, but you will not threaten Gunnar.” He makes me so angry sometimes!

“It wasn’t a threat, Baby Girl. It was a promise.” He gives one last glare to Gunnar, looks at me, and then walks away.

“Well, that was fun,” Gunnar says as he squeezes my side.

“I’m sorry about that. He’s a good friend and worries about me,” I whisper to him. I’m so embarrassed right now. I wouldn’t blame him if he never wanted to see me again.

“Hey,” he says and grabs my chin to force me to look at him. “I completely understand. He doesn’t know who I am and wanted to make sure you were safe. I would have done the same thing if I were in his shoes.”

I look at him doubtfully. “Well, I still feel horrible that he acted that way toward you.”

He gives me a small laugh. “Don’t worry about it, beautiful. Let’s get you home.” He called me beautiful. No one has ever said that to me before.

We start walking in the opposite direction from my car, which has me a little worried. Maybe I should have gone with Zane. “I’ll give you a ride. I’m sure your car will be okay here until the morning.” We stop at a black truck. Holy shit, this thing is huge! He opens the door and I stare up inside. I'm suddenly nervous and unsure if I should go with him, but I really want to spend more time with him. I look at the truck, then up at him. “That’s a long ways up.” I laugh nervously.

He grabs me by the waist and hoists me inside. “Up you go, beautiful.” He gives me a wink and closes the door before walking around to his side.

Once he is settled in, he starts the truck and turns the music down. “Where to?” he asks. I smile and give him directions to my house. We keep a steady conversation going the entire time. I can’t stop staring at him, waiting for the next time he’ll glance my way.

When we pull up to my house, I turn to thank him for the ride and grab hold of the door handle. Before I can open the door, though, Gunnar grabs my hand. I turn to look at him.

“When can I see you again?” he asks.

I give him a nervous smile. “Um…I could give you my number if you want?”

He reaches over and cups my cheek, then slowly leans in toward me. Oh God, is he going to kiss me? “I’ve wanted to kiss you since you first sat by me.”

He doesn’t wait for my reply, just presses his lips to mine. I close my eyes, wanting to experience my first kiss fully. It’s a gentle kiss, nothing earthshattering, but makes me feel good.

He pulls away slowly and I open my eyes to look at him. “Wow…” I whisper to myself.

He gives me a sexy smile and pecks my lips briefly once more. “Give me your phone.”

I hand it over and watch as he programs his number. Then he sends a text to himself so he can save my number. “Call me tomorrow, and I’ll take you to pick up your car.”

I nod and turn to get out of the truck. “Goodnight, beautiful,” he says when I’m out the door.

“Night, Gunnar,” I tell him. I turn around and walk in a daze to my front door. He waits till I’m inside before he drives away.

I walk up to my room, get into my pajamas, and slide into bed. I can’t believe he kissed me! It was really sweet. I can’t wait to see him again tomorrow.

I close my eyes, but a couple seconds later I hear my phone chime. I grab it and see I have a new text message.

Zane: Where are you?!

Me: Home. In bed. I’m fine.

Zane: You were supposed to text me as soon as you got home!

Me: I forgot, so sue me.

Zane: Smartass

Me: Jerk!

Zane: Night Baby Girl ;)

Me: Night Zane :)

Well, at least things seem better with me and him now. I still can’t believe I saw him having sex with some random girl, but I don’t have any say in what he does. Tonight wasn’t as bad as it could have been, and I have Gunnar to thank for that. Remembering what I saw still hurts, and I don’t think any guy will be able to take that away fully, but it’s a start I suppose. Maybe with time things will grow with Gunnar and me, and then everything won’t be so awkward with Zane. I’m glad I still have him as my friend, and in the end, that’s all I really care about.

Suddenly, my phone goes off again. Zane is the only one I really talk to, but we already said goodnight so I have no clue who is messaging me now. I pick up my phone again and open up my messages.

Gunnar: Sweet dreams, beautiful. I can’t wait to see you tomorrow.

Me: Goodnight. Tomorrow can’t come soon enough!

I close my phone and fall asleep with a smile on my face. Things may be looking up for me. I only hope that I can get over whatever was going on with me and Zane so it doesn’t ruin what I might have with Gunnar. No one will ever compare to Zane, but it’s time I get over him and move on with my life. There’s no point in pining over a guy that I could never have.

Chapter 4

As soon as I got up this morning, I had a message from Gunnar telling me to text him when I was up so we could go get my car. I let him know to give me an hour and I would be ready to leave.

I went downstairs to make sure Gram was doing okay, and that she ate something for breakfast, and then headed up to my room for a shower.

I throw on my white halter dress with the brown braided belt and slip on my brown cowboy boots. Then I curl my hair and put some makeup on. I don’t want to look like I’m trying too hard, but I still want to look good.

I hear the doorbell, so I run downstairs to answer it. When I open the door, I’m surprised to see Zane instead of Gunnar.

“Oh, hey, Zane. What are you doing here?” I ask.

He looks me up and down and a slow smile creeps onto his face. “Hey, Baby Girl. You look beautiful today.”

I smile shyly and tell him thanks. It's so strange that I've never been called beautiful before in my life by a guy, and now I've heard it twice in less than a day—once from a guy I hope to have a relationship with, and once from one who I’m in love with but will never have.

I step outside on the porch and sit on the swing. “So what’s up?” I say as I push myself a little.

Zane just stands off to the side and regards me quietly. “I came by to take you to get your car. I assumed you left it at the lake last night. Then I was thinking we could order some pizzas and watch movies.”

Well, that’s surprising. I didn’t think I would see him today, let alone have him offer to take me to pick up my car.

I open my mouth to answer him when I see Gunnar pull up to my house. I get up and give Zane a small smile. “Thanks, but actually Gunnar already said he would take me.” As I finish saying that, Gunnar comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my waist.

“Hey, beautiful,” he says before I feel his lips brush the top of my head.

I giggle—yes giggle—and turn around to face him. “Hey.” He’s dressed in a black shirt and a pair of faded blue jeans that fit him like a second skin.

I look back and notice Zane staring at me with an emotion I can’t quite read.

“Hey, man. Zane, right?” Gunnar asks and offers him his hand.

“Yeah,” Zane says as he stares at the offering for a couple seconds before taking it in a firm shake. They both seem to be putting way too much strength behind their handshake, almost like they are testing who is stronger.

“Well, we should get going,” I say and start walking down the steps. “I’ll call you when I get back to make plans for tonight.”

They release each other’s hands, and Gunnar turns to follow me.

“Yeah…I’ll see you later, Baby Girl,” Zane says, then walks over to his house.

Once Gunnar and I are in his truck and driving back to the lake, he finally asks the question I’ve been dreading. “So, what’s the deal with you and Zane?”

God, how in the hell am I supposed to explain this to him when I barely know how to describe our relationship myself lately?

“Well, it’s kind of a long story,” I say, not really knowing where to start.

“I’ve got all the time in the world, beautiful,” I can hear the smile in his voice, and when I look up to confirm my suspicions, he winks at me.

Okay, well, I guess I should just start at the beginning. It’s not like there’s anything to be ashamed of or that I need to hide. But maybe I’ll keep the part where I may have feelings for him that go beyond friendship to myself. Yeah, I’m definitely keeping quiet about that.

“Zane and I have been friends since I was thirteen. And, as you can see, we’re also neighbors. I started going over to play at their house when Gram had things to do or when I wanted to give her a break. It didn’t take long for us to build a close relationship. We were like the three musketeers; Zane, Zeke and I,” I tell him.

“Who’s Zeke? I don’t think I’ve met him yet.”

Zeke…God I miss him. So much. I look down at my hands, and figure now is as good a time as ever to tell him what happened. “Zeke was Zane’s brother, and has been gone a little over a year now. He was a Marine stationed over in Iraq…” It’s still so hard to even think, let alone talk about him. I haven’t done it in a long time, and when I do, it’s only with Zane.

A tear slides down my cheek and I go to wipe it away. “He, um, he was doing a routine security check when they were ambushed. He was shot and died before a medic could even make it over to him,” I whisper.

Gunnar reaches over, rubbing his thumb along my hand, comforting me. “Baby, I’m sorry.”

I don’t reply because I never really understand why people say they are sorry anyway, like they had a hand in what happened.

After a couple minutes of silence, I continue. “After Zeke died, Zane and I became even closer. He’s always been there for me, and I’ve always tried to be there for him. He took the loss of his brother pretty hard.” I stare out the window and try to clear my head a little. It kind of feels like I’m betraying Zane by telling Gunnar about Zeke, but hopefully now that I’ve told him what happened, we won’t talk about it again.

“And that’s pretty much it. He’s my best friend, well, I should say my only friend.” I look over and give him a little smile.

“You mentioned you started going over there because of your grandmother. Do you live with her?” Of course he wouldn’t miss that part. Now he’s going to want to know about my parents. I guess it’s better to get all of the sensitive subjects out of the way right away.

“Yes, I’ve lived with Gram since before I can remember. My mother died when I was three, and right after, my father signed his rights over to her. She’s been raising me ever since.” There, now it’s out there and he knows everything. Well, almost everything. As much as I’m willing to tell.

He starts to say something, but I cut him off. “I really don’t want to talk about it, if that’s okay. It was a long time ago, so can we please drop it?” I turn to stare out the window. My words came out a little harsher than I wanted them to, but I can’t stand talking about my past. It brings up too many emotions and feelings of being unwanted. I hope he understands, but I don’t want to dwell on the past anymore.

“Yeah, baby, sure. What would you like to talk about?” he asks and squeezes my hand. I glance over at him to gauge his reaction. He doesn’t look upset or disappointed, which makes me let go of the breath I didn’t know I was holding.

“Tell me about Florida,” I say, since I’ve always wanted to go there. I’m even thinking about applying to college there when I graduate. Gunnar smiles and tells me about where he used to live, his family and friends from back home. It’s nice hearing about his life.

When we pull in by my car, I turn to thank him for taking me. “What are you doing tonight?” he asks. Tonight is Saturday and I didn’t have plans before, but now I’m not so sure. I should check with Zane first, since I want to spend as much time with him as possible. He leaves Tuesday for college.

“Well, Zane mentioned possibly hanging out tonight.” I hope this doesn't upset Gunnar. I know sometimes guys get jealous when girls have guy friends, but he only smiles and leans over to give me a chaste kiss.

“Of course, beautiful. I understand. You should spend time with him. Why don’t you call me later if you want to hang out, okay?” I smile back at him and nod, then head over to my car.

He ends up following me to my house to be sure I make it there without problems. When I pull in my driveway and get out to wave him off, he surprises me by getting out of his truck. He walks over to me, grabs my hips and pushes me back against my car. Then he grabs my face with both hands and devours my mouth. Holy. Fucking. Shit. Where last night his kisses were soft and sweet, now they are hard and demanding.

By the time he pulls away, I’m a hot, breathless mess. I slowly open my eyes, gasping for air. “What was that for?” I finally ask.

He smirks at me and kisses me one more time on my forehead. “I wanted to make sure my girl doesn’t forget about me tonight.” Did he really just call me that? I must say, I like it.

“Your girl?” I ask nervously. I don’t know why I’m so nervous around him, but I feel almost giddy at the thought that he wants me. It’s foreign to me. Besides my gram wanting to take care of me, and Zane and Zeke wanting me as a friend, I’ve never been wanted before. And for some reason, knowing that Gunnar wants me as more than a friend tops it all.

He reaches out and grabs both my hands in his. He stares deep into my eyes, like he is looking at my soul. He must be able to tell that I’m nervous and unsure, because he drops my hands and cups my cheek. “I know we only met last night, but there’s something about you, Danielle. I want to get to know you better. So, will you be my girl?”

I smile up at him and decide to be bold. Reaching up on my tiptoes, I kiss his lips. “Yeah, I’ll be your girl.”

He gives me a blinding smile and another mind-blowing kiss. After he has me breathing hard again, he tells me to text him later. I walk up to my door in a daze. I have a boyfriend. Oh my God, I have a boyfriend! I have to tell Gram!

***

After talking with Gram about Gunnar and telling her that he asked me to be his girlfriend, I decide to text Zane to see what he has planned for the night.

Me: Hey you! What you doing?

Zane: Hey yourself. Finishing packing up my room.

Me: :( I’m going to miss you when you leave!

Zane: Oh yeah? Seems to me like you’ll have someone else to fill your days with…

Does he really think that I would replace him, or that I even could? No matter where this relationship goes with Gunnar, there will always be a place in my heart for Zane. Yes, I think I may be in love with him, but that love can go nowhere. He’ll always be my best friend, though.

Me: Please don’t be like that. No one could ever replace you if that’s what you’re thinking…

Zane: Sorry, it’s just weird. I mean, what do you even know about this guy?

Me: I know it’s weird, but I think I really like him. He moved here a few weeks ago, and he is really nice. Can you please give him a chance? For me?

Please say that you understand and you are willing to get to know him
. I don’t think I would be able to do anything that Zane is against. It will break my heart to not have him behind me.

Zane: I’ll try, but only because you asked. So what are your plans for tonight? Going out with the new guy?

Me: Well, you mentioned earlier you wanted to hang out, so I thought I’d check with you first.

Zane: Well, what are you waiting for? Get your ass over here…

Not like he has a choice; I would have told him I was coming over regardless of what he said. Even though I can’t wait to see Gunnar again, I know he will understand. I’ll have the whole year to see him, whereas Zane…not so much.

I send a quick message to Gunnar, letting him know I’m hanging out with Zane and that I’ll text later. Then after I let Gram know where I’m going, I head out the door, excited for tonight.

I don’t bother knocking on the door because I know his parents are out and he knows I’m coming over anyway. I walk in and go upstairs to his bedroom. The door is open so I walk right in.

The first thing I notice are the boxes everywhere. All the things Zane has collected over the years are now packed away. This is too different. I hate seeing his room like this. It’s so empty. He’s really leaving me. I know he’s only leaving to go to school and will be back to visit, but it hurts my heart knowing I won’t see him every day anymore.

Suddenly Zane is in front of me, wiping tears that I didn’t even realize were falling. “Don’t cry, Baby Girl. I’ll be back, I promise. And you know you can always come visit me anytime you want,” he whispers. His words only make me cry harder. I reach up and hug him hard.

“I’m going to miss you so much. What am I doing to do without you?”

Zane rubs my back and holds me tightly. I hardly ever break down like this, at least not in front of people, so I’m sure this is hard for him to see. But ever since Zeke died, it’s been him and me, and I honestly don’t know how I’m going to deal with him not being here.

I finally pull myself together enough to stop crying and look up at him while wiping the last of my tears away. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for that to happen.” I give him a small laugh and pull out of his embrace.

“Danielle, you don’t have to hide from me. I don’t know what I’m going to do without you around either, if it makes it any better.”

I wouldn’t say it out loud, but I don’t think he’ll have any trouble filling his time without me, if what happened last night was anything to go by.

I clear my throat and look in his mirror on the closet door to make sure my face looks okay. “So, what should we do tonight?”