Revived (The Lucidites Book 3) (13 page)

“I’m even better at pretending doom isn’t about to fall down on me. Watch this,” I murmur, pushing my asparagus and white bean salad away. “Hey, George.” I turn my attention to him sitting on the other side of me, not quite as close as Joseph.

He finishes the line he’s reading in his book and looks up at me. “Hey.”

“Sorry to interrupt,” I say.

He flicks his eyes across my face, studying me. A knowing smile forms on his mouth. “No you’re not.”

“Oh, all right, I’m not,” I say, grabbing a bean from my plate and tossing it at him. “Just trying to be polite.”

He ducks out of the trajectory of the bean. “You don’t have to use pretenses with me.”

“What are you reading?” I say, gesturing to the book his hand is still pinned between so he doesn’t lose his place.

“
Love in the Time of Cholera
,” he says, tucking his bookmark between the pages and showing me the cover.

“Is it good?”

“It is.”

“Well, maybe I’ll start it. I like the idea of us reading the same book at the same time.”

“Me too,” he says with understated satisfaction.

“It would give us more to talk about.”

“Yes, more.”

“Maybe we should start a book club,” Joseph says, breaking the lovely tension that was building. “But we can only read stuff that’s ancient, written with flowery language, and about characters that live miserable lives of lost love and sacrifice. I for one cannot wait to curl up, eat a scone, and bore myself to death reading that drivel.”

I turn and give Joseph a wink that only he can see. Of course he’s fantastic at pretending. It’s his thing. “Those sentences you just constructed are the most intelligent things I’ve ever heard you say. I don’t think your hillbilly accent flared up once during your monologue. I already see that this book club idea is going to be good for you.”

“Oh, it will do somethin’ for me, that’s for sure,” he says, over-embellishing his southern drawl.

Turning back to George, I say, “Some people just can’t be helped. Anyway, I was wondering if you’d help me practice emotional shielding this afternoon. Ren thinks it might help me against Chase.”

“He’s probably right.” George nods. “And absolutely I will. I’m meeting with Aiden after lunch, but how about as soon as I’m done?”

“Sure,” I say slowly.

Aiden and George are still working on the emotional modifier together?
I’m not sure why this surprises me, but it does. It’s not that I worry like I used to that they’re perfecting a device that manipulates people’s emotions without them knowing it. What bothers me is that the two of them are working together and I still feel strangely tethered between them, even though Aiden and I are history. But we still have just that: history. I wonder if they talk about me during these meetings.

“I think the emotional modifier is close to complete,” George says, interrupting my thoughts. “Then Aiden can begin working on the patch for your protective charm. We think that it will prevent Chase from embedding you.”

“I hope so,” I say.

“Aiden’s been working on it nonstop, churning out different models that get closer and closer to working seamlessly.”

Although I’m glad they’re trying to help, it still feels strange to know their work is centered on me. For a person who is used to a whole lot less attention, I’m kind of on overload. And the two guys who’ve owned pieces of my heart, teaming up to protect me from a love affair from a third guy, is the most peculiar arrangement I can imagine. I feign a smile. “Well, thanks for working on the project, although I know you have mixed feelings on the whole device.”

“My feelings aren’t mixed,” George says, voice low. “It’s wrong to manipulate emotions, even if against a dangerous person. There are other ways to protect ourselves. I wish I would have known that before I started the work. Then you wouldn’t be in the situation you are.”

I’m shaking my head before he’s even done speaking. “Don’t. You can’t berate yourself for hindsight. You’re working to save me now and for that I’m grateful.”

“I need everyone’s attention.” Trey’s voice echoes from the front of the room. “At one-thirty this afternoon everyone is required to attend a meeting in the auditorium. That is all. Thank you.” Trey walks across the stage with practiced grace. His confidence looks unmarked by the weight of what I know he’s dealing with. And although I wish I didn’t care, I still take in his every movement, studying him for the similarities that I undeniably share with him.

My eyes flick to Joseph. He’s already looking at me, obvious apprehension covering his features. Usually I’d just imagine how a person like him felt in his position. However, now I know how awful Joseph feels. Guilt and dread swim around, threatening to tear him into pieces from the inside out. The only other person who feels this as keenly as me is George. I can’t be certain that he knows the details of what’s coming next, but from the expression on his face I believe he’s aware of the torment that’s slowly scraping away at Joseph’s insides.

♦

Half an hour later I dutifully head to the auditorium. I’m rounding the corner into the large room when I collide with Aiden, who’s scribbling on a notepad as he hurries in from the opposite direction.

“Hey,” Aiden says, almost knocking me over. “Sorry.” Something skirts across his face before he recovers his stone expression. Angst maybe?

“Hey,” I say as casually as I can muster. We pause in the doorway, letting people jostle past us into the auditorium. I could stand here forever enjoying the torment in my heart and the opportunity to watch him bury his own. I must love abuse.

“Nice work,” he finally says after an awkward moment of silence.

“Huh?”

“Your report.”

“Oh.”

“Your father is really proud of you.”

“Hmmm…funny I learn this from you and not him.” I roll my shoulders, a sudden tension gripping my back.

“He’s been very busy.”

A hand grabs my arm from behind with a gentle yank. “Hey, sis,” Joseph says, biting on the words. “Saved you a seat.”

I turn to see him not staring at me but giving Aiden a threatening look.

“Thanks.” I turn and let Joseph guide me, not saying another word to Aiden. However, as I walk down the main aisle I feel him behind me, his presence crowding, hoarding every available place in my head.

“Right here.” Joseph stops, encouraging me into the row second from the front. “Right next to my squire,” he says, indicating a seat beside George. Aiden takes the seat in front of me in the front row––just between Ren and Shuman.

“I suppose you’re deluding yourself into thinking you’re a knight, then?” I jab Joseph in the ribs as he takes the seat on the other side of me.

“Suppose whatever you like,” he says, fending off my mild attack.

I turn to George, ready to commiserate over my brother’s immaturity. He halts me with an appraising gaze, worry growing in his eyes.

“Bad news, huh?” George states after searching me. During lunch I had up a shield, which I’ve taken down now since he and everyone else is about to find out about Zhuang.

“The worst,” I reply.

“Anders,” Joseph says, leaning across me. “I find it creepy that you ransack Stark’s emotions every chance you get.”

“I only read emotions Roya gives access to,” George says evenly, unflustered by Joseph’s obvious aggression. “She knows how to shield me.”

“It’s true,” I say, angling Joseph back into his seat with my shoulder. “And I don’t mind.”

George rewards me with a gentle smile which reaches his brown eyes, making them glow. “Reading your emotions is like watching a sunrise,” he says, all his attention on me. “You want to do it every chance you get.”

Aiden sits forward suddenly, resting his elbows on his knees, head hanging low. There’s no convincing myself that he hasn’t heard this exchange.

“It’s strange to think that the last time I was in this room was when I first entered the Institute,” I say, breaking away from George’s eyes, pretending to take in the details of the auditorium. “You know, when I came here it was because
someone
”—I jab a finger in Shuman’s direction—“told me I was the one to challenge Zhuang. They forgot to mention that I would compete for that role.”

“I still remember seeing your face and wet hair when Ren shoved you into the room in front of all of us.” George’s voice carries a hint of nostalgia.

“Yeah, you were the epitome of a deer in the headlights.” Joseph laughs.

“I should have realized right then that this place was going to be a confusing mess of games and lies,” I say, keeping my voice low so hopefully just George and Joseph can hear me. “Instead I decided to willingly compete for an honor I didn’t want while Trey hid the real details of my life.”

“Hey, Stark,” Joseph says, looking around the room watching the various people take seats.

“What?”

“Your bitterness is showing. You might want to tuck it in a bit.”

“I’ll try,” I say, not meaning it. “Hey, maybe in our next life, we’ll be born to some boring Middlings?”

“Good idea. If you were the daughter of an insurance salesman you wouldn’t have to fight some ancient madman and worry about being impregnated by a hot French guy.” Joseph cranes his neck around, seeming to be looking for someone.

“Well, I might, but the details would look a little different,” I say with a morbid laugh.

“Do you really have to put it
that
way,” George says, pressing two fingers against his temple.

“The hot French guy part or the impregnate part?” Joseph says, spinning back around, sliding low in his chair.

George shudders. “The idea that Chase would ever touch you makes––”

“Would you buffoons mind shutting your traps,” Ren says, spinning around. “Every word out of your mouths kills a dozen of my brain cells. Although I have more to spare than most, I’d still like to hold onto all I can.”

“It’s a free Institute. We can do what we like,” Joseph says, sticking his tongue out at Ren.

He responds to the gesture with a derisive glare. “Well, I guess I’m free to inform George here that Chase touching Roya isn’t just an idea. It’s a reality that has come to pass, which will probably repeat itself over and over and over…”

Aiden’s hand claps Ren on the shoulder, steering him back around. “Lay off them, would you?”

Ren shrugs Aiden’s hand off and faces forward again, muttering something under his breath.

“What does Ren mean?” George whispers in my ear, almost scolds.

I’m just about to lie when I catch Samara moving into the aisle, about to take the seat next to Joseph. Before she can Trent hops over from behind and plucks himself down, stealing her seat. Arrogance beams off Trent’s face as he dusts off his shoulder nonchalantly.

“What was that about?” Samara says, scrunching up her forehead, taking the seat next to Trent.

“Just trying to be a gentleman,” he says, stretching out his long legs. “Didn’t want you to sit behind Shuman where you wouldn’t be able to see properly.”

“Wow, I’m blown away by your chivalry,” Samara says with a bitter edge.

“I do try,” Trent says, sliding his chin around and exchanging a look with Joseph. The two stay locked on each other and although I can’t see Joseph’s expression, I can feel his emotion.

There’s a new tension between Trent and Joseph now. The twitch of a smile on Trent’s face makes me certain he enjoys it. But it fills the open places in Joseph with discomfort. I want to pull my mind from his, but my instinct tells me not to. I can’t help him unless I know everything he’s dealing with. And what I learned in Iceland about Joseph is now confirmed by a tiny spark of emotion he just felt for Trent and quickly admonished himself for. Soon I’ll help him confront this, but right now we have more urgent matters.

“Thank you all for joining me on such short notice.” Trey’s voice carries across the auditorium on a loudspeaker. He’s wearing his usual white button-up shirt, sleeves folded up to the elbow, medallion winking out at the base of his neck. Although I fight the urge, I find myself studying him again. “I recognize that your time is valuable,” Trey says, clearing his throat. “I’ll cut to the reason I asked you here. For a short time now we have known that Zhuang was alive and growing stronger. Although our efforts to defeat him on June thirteenth were effective in weakening him, they didn’t destroy him entirely. He has now risen back to power. This morning a news reporter learned that Zhuang
will
enter the Institute.”

Sudden gasps fill the large space. An eruption of shuffling and muttering follows. Trey holds up his hand; the room silences immediately. “Although authenticating this report isn’t possible, I have every reason to believe these events will come to pass. This news reporter has never given a false report,” he says, eyes careful not to meet mine. “While our security has always been strong enough to deter attacks from Zhuang we are now in danger. He has most likely been able to tap into and determine the specific details that keep us shielded and therefore find a way to forge his way in here.” Beside me I feel Joseph tense. I press my shoulder into his slightly, offering the most subtle bit of comfort I can think of. It was from Joseph that Zhuang learned how to break into the Institute. Sucked it out of him, along with his energy and power.

Silence fills every crevice of the room, mounting the tension brewing in my chest. No one stirs now. All remain focused on Trey, hinged on his next words. “It’s unknown when Zhuang will enter the Institute. Certain security measures will be put into place to alert you, the residents of the Institute, as soon as we know that Zhuang has entered the premises. We do know that he will enter on the third level; therefore, this level will be shut down immediately. All who are officed there will be relocated to new spaces.” Trey drags his hand through his silver hair, looking out at the crowd, which has been absorbed in his every word. “When you hear the siren overhead, signaling that Zhuang has entered the Institute, or if you have any other indication, then it’s imperative that you all dream travel to a GAD-C location. No one, and I repeat no one, but the Head Officials will be staying to battle Zhuang.”