Authors: James Lee Burke
He thought of Pam Tibbs and the way she had always covered his back and incessantly brought him food. He thought of the way her rump filled out her jeans and the bold way she carried herself and her mercurial moods that vacillated from a martial flash in the eyes to an invasive warmth that made him step back from her and put his hands in his back pockets.
Why think about her now, at this moment, as he sat on the side of his bed with the coldness of a pistol on his naked thigh, like an old fool who still thought he could be the giver of death rather than its recipient?
Because he was alone and his sons were far away, and because every unused second that clicked on the clock was an act of theft to which he was making himself party.
He went into the office at seven on Monday morning, hung his dove-colored hat on a wood peg on the wall, and pulled from his desk drawer the DMV fax that contained the 173 possible registrants of the Honda driven by Preacher Jack Collins. He flattened the pages on his ink blotter, placed a ruler under the name of the first registrant, and began working his way down the list. He had gotten through six names when the phone rang. The caller was not one he cared to hear from.
Ethan Riser, Hackberry said, trying to hide the resignation in his voice.
I heard you had a bad day up at the game farm, Riser said.
Not as bad as the guys Jack Collins eased into the next world.
A couple of my colleagues say it was a real mess. They appreciated your help.
Thats funny, I dont remember their saying that.
So you know about Nick Dolans wife?
No, not the particulars. Just what I got from this guy T-Bone Simmons. Hackberry leaned forward on his desk, his back stiffening. What about her?
She was carjacked or kidnapped, I guess it depends on how you want to put it. Her vehicle was found on a side road off I-10, just east of Segovia.
When did you know about this?
The day it happened, Saturday afternoon. Mr. Dolan is a little distraught. I thought maybe hed called you by now.
Tell me this again. You knew Mrs. Dolan was abducted Saturday afternoon, but I have to hear about it from a dying criminal a day later? And you thought I had probably gotten word from the husband of the victim?
Or from my colleagues, Riser said wearily. Look, Sheriff, this is not the reason I called. We have information that indicates you may be giving sanctuary to Vikki Gaddis and Pete Flores.
I dont know where you got that from, but I dont really care. You know why the right-wing nutcases around here dont trust the government?
No, I dont.
Thats the point, sir. You dont know. Thats the entire point.
Hackberry hung up. Thirty seconds later, the phone rang again. He glanced at the caller ID, picked up the receiver, and without speaking, hung up a second time, his eyes returning to the list of names on the DMV fax.
Pam Tibbs came into his office and looked over his shoulder. It sounded like you were talking to Ethan Riser, she said.
Theres no such thing as a conversation with Riser. The two voices you hear are Riser talking and his voice echoing.
Get enough sleep last night?
He raised his head. She was silhouetted against the light from the window, the tips of her hair lit by the early sun. Behind her, he could see the silver flagpole and the flag popping hard in the breeze. I didnt eat breakfast. Lets go down to the café.
I have a pile of stuff in my intake basket, she said.
No, you dont, he said, lifting his hat off the wood peg.
At the café, he ordered a steak, three scrambled eggs, grits, hash browns and gravy, fried tomatoes, toast and marmalade and orange juice and coffee.
Think you can make it to lunch? she said. Her fingers were knitted on top of the table. Her nails were clean and unpainted and closely clipped. There was a shine in her hair just like the light in polished mahogany. Behind her, tumbleweeds were bouncing through the streets, the tin roof on an old mechanics shed rattling, forked lightning striking the hills in the south. You trying to make me uncomfortable? she said.
Why do you say that?
Looking at me like that.
Like what?
Her eyes went away from him and came back. You think Im your daughter?
No.
Well
Well, what? he said.
God! she replied.
A calendar hung on a post not far from their booth. No one had folded back a page on it since June. The days in June had been marked off with a black felt-tip pen, up to the twenty-first. He wondered what event in June had been so important that someone had in effect indicated all the previous days were to be gotten past and rid of. Then he wondered why the events after June 21 were so lacking in significance that no one had even bothered to turn the calendar page to the following month.
Know why people in jail use the term stacking time? he said.
It makes a collection of dimwits sound clever?
No, it makes them sound normal. The goal for most people is to get time out of the way. I learned that in No Name Valley, under the sewer grate. I counted the threads in my sweater so I wouldnt have to think about the time being stolen from my life.
She turned a University of Houston class ring on her finger. The waitress brought coffee and went away. Pam watched a church bus pass on the street, its headlights on in the mixture of blowing dust and rain. Youre the most unusual man Ive ever known, but not for the reasons you might think, she said.
He tried to smile but was disturbed by the tenor in her voice.
Youre blessed with an innate goodness the Communists couldnt take away from you. But I think in your mind, Jack Collins has become the prison guard who tormented you in North Korea. Collins wants to make you over in his image. If you let him do that, he wins, and so does that prison guard in the POW camp.
Youre wrong. Collins is a defective amoeba. Hes not worth thinking about.
Lie to God, lie to your friends, but dont lie to yourself.
If youre going to talk church-basement psychology to me, would you lower your voice?
Theres no one sitting around us.
He looked sideways and didnt reply.
Dont blow me off, Hack. She pushed her right hand across the table and bumped the tips of her stiffened fingers hard against his.
Do you think Id do that? Do you think any intelligent man would ever treat a woman like you with disrespect?
She bit a hangnail on her thumb and looked at him in a peculiar fashion.
IN FRONT OF the office, Hackberry took one glance at the sky and unhooked the chain on the flagpole and lowered the flag in advance of the impending storm. He folded the flag in a tuck and placed it in his desk drawer. Then he went back to work on the list of registrants given to him by the DMV. He went through the entire list twice, his eyes starting to swim. What was the point? If the FBI couldnt locate Collins, how could he? Did Collins actually possess magic? Was he a griffin loosed from the pit, a reminder of the bad seed that obviously existed in the gene pool? It was always easier to think of evil as the work of individuals rather than the successful and well-planned efforts of societies and organizations operating with a mandate. Men like Collins were not created simply by their environments. Auschwitz and the Nanking massacre hadnt happened in a vacuum.
His phone rang again. The caller ID was blocked. See if thats Ethan Riser, Hackberry called through the doorway. He heard Maydeen take the call in the other room. A moment later, she was standing in the doorway. Better pick up, she said.
Who is it?
Same asswipepardon mesame dude who called yesterday and said you two were the opposite sides of the same coin.
Hackberry lifted the receiver and put it to his ear. Collins? he said.
Good morning, the voice said.
Im getting pretty tired of you.
I watched you through binoculars yesterday afternoon.
Revisiting our murderous handiwork, are we?
Im afraid your thinking is muddled once again, Sheriff. I didnt murder anybody. They tried to set me up. They also threw down on me first. I wasnt even armed. An associate was carrying my weapon for me.
An associate? Thats a great term. The guy with the raincoat on his arm?
The security camera caught that?
You left the camera intact deliberately, didnt you?
I didnt give it a lot of thought.
Whyd you kidnap Mrs. Dolan?
What makes you think I did?
Because you left a witness.
Hackberry heard Collins breathe in, as though sucking air across his teeth while he thought of a clever response.
I dont think I did, he said.
You thought wrong. Youll get to meet him at your trial. I have to ask you something, bub.
Bub?
Hackberry leaned forward in his chair, one elbow on the desk blotter, rubbing one temple with his fingers. Both Maydeen and Pam were watching from his office door. I dont know you well, but you seem like a man with a code. In your way, maybe youre a man of honor. Why do you want to do so much injury to Mrs. Dolan? She has three children and a husband who need her. Set her free, partner. If you have an issue with me, thats fine. Dont punish the innocent.
Who are you to lecture me?
A drunkard and a whoremonger with no moral authority at all, Mr. Collins. Thats the man youre talking to. Let Esther Dolan go. Shes not a character out of the Bible. Shes flesh and blood and is probably afraid shell never see her husband or children again. You want that on your conscience?
Esther knows shes safe with me.
Wheres Hugo Cistranos?
Oh, youll find him. Just watch the sky. It takes two or three days, but youll see them circling.
And you dont think shes afraid?
There was a long beat.
Good try. Ive always heard the inculcation of guilt is a papist trait.
I have an envelope filled with photos of the nine terrified women and girls you machine-gunned and buried. Did they scream when they died? Did they beg in a language you couldnt understand? Did they dissolve into a bloody mist while you sprayed them with a Thompson? Am I describing the scene accurately? Correct me if I havent. Please tell me in your own words what it was like to shoot nine defenseless human beings who were so desperate for a new life theyd allow their stomachs to be filled with balloons of heroin?
He could hear Collins breathing hard. Then the line went dead.
Maydeen filled a cup with coffee in the other room and brought it to him on a saucer. Both she and Pam watched him without speaking.
Yall got something to do? he said.
Were going to get him, Pam said.
Ill believe it when it happens, he said, picking up the fax sheets from his desk blotter again, his thumbs crimping the edges of the paper to the point of tearing them.
AS THE MORNING passed, a seemingly insignificant detail from his conversation with Jack Collins had burrowed itself into his memory and wouldnt leave him alone. It was the sound of Collins breathing. No, that wasnt it. It was the way Collins breathed and the image the sound conjured up from the Hollywood of years gone by. Collins seemed to draw his air across his teeth. His mouth became a slit, his speech laconic and clipped, his face without expression, like a man speaking not to other people but to a persona that lived inside him. Perhaps speaking like a man who had a nervous twitch, who was wrapped too tight for his own good, who was at war with the Fates.
A man with dry lips and a voice that rasped as if his larynx had been fried by cigarettes and whiskey or clotted with rust. A man who wore his hair mowed on the sides and combed straight back on top, a man who wore a hat and clothes from another era, his narrow belt hitched tightly into his ribs and his unpressed slacks tucked into western boots, perhaps like a prospector of years past, his whole demeanor that of tarnished frontier gentility.
Hackberry re-sorted the fax sheets and found the third page in the transmission. He stared at one listing as though seeing it for the first time. How dumb does one lawman get, particularly one who considered himself a student of his own era? Come in here, Pam, he said.
She stood in the doorway. Whats up?
Take a look at the names on this page.
What about them?
Which one of them sticks in your mind?
None.
Look again.
Im a blank.
He put his thumb on the edge of one name. She stood behind him, leaning down, one arm propped on his desk, her arm touching his shoulder.
F. C. Dobbs. Whats remarkable about that? she said.
You remember the name Fred C. Dobbs?
No.