Quest for Anna Klein, The (37 page)

He opened his arms to her tenderly, a gesture meant to draw her into his embrace, but she instantly stepped back as if from a repulsive approach, then glanced toward the still-open door, the guards who stood on either side of it, now peering in.

“Anna,” Danforth said in a voice that seemed jarringly loud. “Whatever you were then . . .”

She lifted her hand to silence him and he saw how rough it was, scarred by hard labor.

“I have nothing for you,” she said, then looked again toward the guards at the door.

Her eyes widened and he saw something terrible come over her, a brutal ferocity. It was as if a wholly different human being had always lived inside this other shell and was only now fully revealing itself, the old skin falling away, a different creature slithering out of it, alive and squirming before him, as frightful as Aaron's serpent.

“
Heil
Hitler,” she said coldly. Her eyes glimmered with fanatical zeal as she lifted her arm in salute and stood before him as stiffl y as any SS fiend. “
Heil
Hitler,” she repeated.

Danforth suddenly realized how right Bannion had been so many years before when he'd told him that he was a romantic fool; he was, and so much so that even during these last seconds, he'd hoped to find a happy ending for the long waste of his life, a moment of redemption for both himself and Anna, the revelation that she had never, never been what he now knew her to be.

“
Heil
Hitler,” she said a third time, words that brought back all his memories of the trials and the camps along with Anna's vile treachery, and at last the boiling wave crested, and in what Danforth knew would be his last gesture toward her, he stepped forward, and with all the force of lost romance, and with all the passion of what he'd hoped to be a kiss, he slapped her face.

“Slapped her face,” Danforth repeated. He remained quiet for a moment, then said, “Were you expecting some great love scene, Paul?”

I stared at him in shocked silence.

“A happy ending?” Danforth asked.

“I suppose I was,” I admitted shakily. “I mean, one always hopes for that.”

“Oh, how true,” Danforth said grimly. “But false illusion is life's chief ally, don't you think, Paul?”

“I don't know what you mean,” I said.

“Believing you know a person or can control the final outcome of your life,” Danforth said. “I certainly know what that happy ending would have been in my case: that Anna would begin to talk, tell me all about Rache, a story that would make clear that she had never been in league with him. It didn't matter how absurdly improbable this story might be. In my romantic fantasy, I would believe it, and so would the Russians. They would be so won over by it that they would release Anna from the clutches of the Gulag, and I would whisk her back to New York, where we would grow old together, a silver-haired couple strolling arm in arm through Central Park.” He released a weary sigh. “I'm afraid that was not to be.” He looked at me quite piercingly. “Do you know what the one great fact of life is, Paul?”

“No,” I admitted.

“How easily it is wasted,” Danforth said. “All our precious little days.”

An old fury rocked him, and he appeared barely able to suppress it. A few seconds passed, and during that time an uneasy calm returned to him, after which he said, “I came home at last, but there was nothing left of my old world. Danforth Imports had limped along in my absence, but by the time I got back, it was heavily in debt. I sold it, along with Winterset, and paid off the company's bills. I knew that I no longer had a heart or a head for business, so I took a job in a language school here in New York. I tutored students on the side.” He glanced toward the table where two places had been set, making it clear that
he'd long planned to bring me here. “And I thought of Anna, of course.” A coldness came into his eyes. “But never again in the grip of a delusion, and never again with love.”

“But wait,” I said. “You didn't get any information about Rache out of Anna, did you?”

“No.”

“Then why did the Russians let you go?”

Danforth smiled. “Ah, a chirp from the nightingale floor.”

But rather than going on to answer my question, Danforth simply shrugged and resumed his tale.

And so the years passed, Danforth said, and his first students grew older and became fathers and mothers while he remained alone, moving through the faceless crowds as skirts shortened and hair lengthened, and the niceties of language, along with all that he had once called reticence, faded in the glare of new therapies, and the old verities of his class and kind proved insufficient to command the age.

“Do you know what Burke called manners, Paul?” Danforth asked. “The ‘decent drapery of life.'”

I smiled at the quaintness of both the phrase and the sentiment. “So you still believe in knight-errantry?” I asked.

“Well, someone has to, don't you think?” Danforth replied. “Otherwise each generation would awaken to utter emptiness.”

This might or might not be true, I thought, but it was far from his tale. “Anyway,” I said, “you were at least released from Anna.”

I was far from a starry-eyed romantic, and yet I couldn't help but be impressed by Danforth's long pursuit, Victorian though it seemed in an age of e-mail hook-ups and speed dating. To feel so deeply even once in the course of life struck me as a blessing, mixed though Danforth's had surely been.

“Released, yes,” Danforth said. “And so I settled into an uneventful middle age that might placidly have followed its course year by year until I reached old age, then further still until at last
I was laid to rest. But something happened to change my course, something that wouldn't have happened had I not been standing on the curb at Lincoln Center one evening. A cab pulled up and a passenger got out. He wore a red fez, and the driver spoke to him in Turkish, and at the sound of that language, I recalled that when I'd loved Anna, she had once spoken of Baku.” He seemed to marvel in the twists of his own mind. “For some reason, a burning nostalgia seized me, Paul. I knew what Anna was, and I no longer cared where she was or how she was being treated. And yet, for all that, I felt an overwhelming need simply to see someone she had once seen, someone who had seen her, heard her voice. By then there was only one person left in the world who'd done that.” He smiled. “LaRoche.”

“LaRoche?” I asked, surprised that he'd resurfaced in Danforth's story.

“After the war, he'd become quite successful as a sweets wholesaler,” Danforth said. “He agreed to meet me at the same place we'd met so many years before.”

“Smoke, smoke, smoke,” the young man whispered as Danforth passed by, an illegal solicitation Danforth found amusing given his steel-gray hair and clean-shaven face, the conservative look of his three-button suit. Danforth was now sixty-four years old, after all, a lowly language teacher, hardly the usual customer for a park-bench pot dealer.

For a time he watched as the young man made his rounds, then, like one entering a neighborhood much changed since his youth, Danforth headed farther into the park.

This time it was LaRoche who'd arrived first, now dressed in a gray suit that couldn't completely hide his considerably
expanded waistline. He no longer glanced about, no longer seemed on edge, but instead looked almost like a member of the old burgher class, well-fed and well-heeled. But for all that, something of the dispossessed still clung to him, an Old-World melancholy that both his years and his New-World success had failed to shake. De Tocqueville had called them “the habits of the heart,” and LaRoche seemed proof that they were harder to change than one's country or one's circumstances.

“Hello,” LaRoche said with a smile that seemed hard-won.

“Mr. LaRoche,” Danforth replied with a nod. “It's been a long time.”

“How did you find me? I forgot to ask.”

“You're in the book,” Danforth said. “LaRoche Wholesalers. You specialize in Middle Eastern sweets.”

“I always had a taste for honey,” LaRoche said in an English that now bore only the hint of an accent.

They talked briefly of the old days, when Winterset was clothed in snow and, later, strewn with spring flowers.

Danforth knew that LaRoche had been told of Anna's arrest and Bannion's suicide, but whether he'd been told more than that, Danforth couldn't say.

“I saw Anna only one time after Munich,” he said. “She was in Russia.”

He told LaRoche about the final encounter, how he'd tried to get some small kernel of information about a German agent the Soviets believed had betrayed them, how she'd suddenly transmogrified into the ardent Nazi she had no doubt always been, a narrative that still wounded him despite all the time that had passed.

LaRoche listened silently through it all and remained quiet for a time after Danforth finished, so they simply sat, speechless, staring straight ahead, looking curiously desolate, as if recognizing at last that all their riches had been spent.

Then LaRoche said, “And they let you go after this last meeting with Anna?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

Danforth shrugged. “What would have been the point of keeping me? They must have realized that all I was ever looking for was Anna. And now I had found her. I suppose they simply had no more use for me.”

“Perhaps,” LaRoche said, his tone cautious, like one hazarding an unlikely guess, “perhaps, unless this last meeting had a hidden purpose.” He appeared quite pensive, as if turning over all Danforth had just told him.

“When you left her, what was your feeling?” he asked after a moment.

“That it was over,” Danforth said. “My quest.”

“Your quest for what?”

“I suppose you could call it my quest for Anna Klein.”

“Hmm,” LaRoche said with a slow nod.

Danforth looked at him closely. “What's going on?” he asked. “What are you thinking?”

“That maybe she was acting,” LaRoche said.

“Acting? Why?”

LaRoche laughed. “It's a little mind game I play with myself,” he said. “Coming up with other ways of looking at things, no matter what crazy direction it takes me.”

“What crazy direction is it taking you now?” Danforth asked.

“Well, I was just thinking that maybe Anna was forced to do what she did when she saw you,” LaRoche answered. “Maybe there was something she wanted to protect.”

“Rache is what she wanted to protect,” Danforth said bitterly.

“Unless the Bolshies were playing an old game with you,” LaRoche answered casually. “It's one they know well and play very often.”

Danforth could see that LaRoche was playing a game of his own, offering a wild supposition for no other reason than to demonstrate the twisted world of intrigue he'd once known.

“What game?” Danforth asked, going along with him.

“It's an old ploy,” LaRoche said. “They let you find one thing in order to keep something else hidden, something more valuable to them than what you were looking for.”

“I was never looking for anything but Anna,” Danforth told him.

“But was it her you really found?” LaRoche asked.

“What I found was a Nazi spy,” Danforth said bitterly.

“Unless they made her do what she did,” LaRoche cautioned.

“You said that before,” Danforth said, a little impatiently. “Why would they have done that?”

LaRoche's gaze seemed threaded with a thousand complicated plots.

“You'd proven yourself very relentless in this whole business,” LaRoche said. “So suppose they were being pressured to release you. Or maybe they were simply tired of having you on the books, as they say. For whatever reason, they decided to release you. But they wanted to neutralize you first. The only way they could do that was by letting you see Anna. Once you saw she was this crazy Nazi, you could go home and live your life and they'd never have to bother with you again.”

“But why would they care whether or not I stopped looking for Anna?” Danforth said.

LaRoche looked like a man explaining evil to a child. “Because in looking for Anna, you might find whoever it was they were still protecting. Some old agent of theirs. Or maybe a mole, someone who still provided information for them. Or someone who helped them long ago.”

“Like who?” Danforth asked.

LaRoche shrugged, now quite obviously reaching for a wild-card. “Like Rache,” he said.

“But Rache was a German agent,” Danforth said. “The Soviets would only care about Rache if he were . . .” He stopped. “If he were . . .”

“One of their own,” LaRoche said, as if he'd played a trump card. “But that's how this ploy works.” He smiled softly. “Suppose Rache posed as an anti-Nazi German, and in that way fooled Bannion, and in fooling Bannion fooled Anna, who ended up spending her life protecting the very one who had betrayed her.” He smiled at his own cleverness. “Now that would be a great game. And he would have played it perfectly. So that the Germans continued to believe he was a German agent and Anna continued to believe he was an American agent when in fact he was always a Soviet agent.” He looked at Danforth knowingly. “All that worked. Only you continued to be a problem for them, Tom.”

“In what way?”

“Because you kept looking for Anna, and in doing that, you kept looking for Rache,” LaRoche said, clearly pleased with himself for coming up with this scenario. “If you were going to be released, they wanted you to stop searching. And so they played one of their old games.” He smiled at how it all hung together. “It is called the traitor's gate.”

“And I might have walked right through it,” Danforth said. His eyes flared with familiar fire. “So was Anna acting the night she came to me in Munich? Or was she acting in Magadan?” He shrugged. “It seemed to me that only one person would know the answer to that. Code name: Rache.”