Across the road, in number twenty-two, Roddy Oliver sat on the sofa with his legs stretched out so Laura could nurse his heavily bandaged ankle. His thin, handsome face looked terribly worn, she thought compassionately, and the palms of his hands had been badly grazed as he slid down the ladder. Hester, more tired than usual after her activities that afternoon, had been put to bed hours ago.
Does it still hurt, darling? she asked.
It throbs a bit, thats all, he said stoutly.
He was enjoying being made a fuss of for a change. For a long time now, hed been terribly brave, burdened by far too much responsibility for someone so young, yet never once complaining.
When they had first run away together, theyd had money. Roddy had been left five hundred pounds by his grandfather. The first thing he did was buy Laura a wedding ring. From then on, she had handled the money carefully, or so shed thought at the time. Theyd rented a flat in Islington, thinking that they were slumming it rather, and shed bought the cheapest food. Hester had been born in a private nursing home, Laura unaware that she could have gone into a maternity hospital, which would have been considerably cheaper. Baby clothes were bought from an inexpensive High Street shop.
In retrospect, the flat had been a palace compared to the places theyd lived since. The cheap food lamb and pork chops, spare ribs had become nothing but fond memories. The only meat they ate these days were sausages, mincemeat and streaky bacon.
Still, theyd thought they were managing wonderfully. Straight away, Roddy had got a job as a messenger with a bank they were sensible enough to realise the money wouldnt last for ever. It was a job with prospects. He decided to forget about architecture and take an accountancy course at night school, make banking his career, but had been sacked within a fortnight.
I thought you were too good to be true, the manager had snarled halfway through his second week.
I said to him, What do you mean? Roddy told Laura that night, visibly shaken. Apparently, he wrote to St Judes for a reference and they said Id left, under a cloud.
Oh, dear! Laura said inadequately.
It means theres no use applying for another job where theyll want a reference.
Oh, dear! she said again. What will we do now? What she really meant was, What will you do? because she was barely sixteen, five months pregnant, terrified out of her wits, and unable to do anything other than ineffectually keep house.
Ill just have to find a job where they dont care about references, Roddy said grimly. Almost a year older, he had matured with astonishing swiftness over the last few months.
Hed gone to work in a menswear shop where the wages were so poor they wouldnt even pay the rent, let alone buy food. They moved to a smaller flat, then an even smaller one, just one large room. By then, Hester had been born. She was an irascible baby, always crying. The nappies had to be washed in the communal kitchen and there was nowhere for them to dry.
It was about this time, Laura remembered, as she sat on the sofa in Glover Street nursing Roddys ankle, that hed suggested she went home to her father.
Do you want me to go home? shed asked, her heart in her mouth.
Lord, no! He shuddered. I love you so much, I cant imagine life without you but, Lo, darling, the five hundred pounds has virtually gone. At least your father would provide a roof over your head. You and Hester would be warm and have enough to eat.
My father would never accept Hester. Shed have to be farmed out, adopted. Id never see her again, and Id never see you, either. He wouldnt allow you near the house, and your family wouldnt allow me near yours. Laura managed a smile.
Were outcasts.
Then well have to stay outcasts. He looked at her ruefully. I wish I werent so hopeless, though. And helpless. At St Judes, it was taken for granted wed give orders when we grew up, not take them. We werent taught to do anything sensible. I cant even knock a nail in straight.
The mention of nails reminded her that hed given in his notice at the shop and was starting work on a building site on Monday. Hed been told it was the best paid unskilled work, if not exactly regular. She could tell he was dreading it.
Laura had flung her arms around his neck. Youre anything but helpless and hopeless. Youre the most capable man I know and Ill love you till the day I die.
The building site was hard, back-breaking toil and, at first, he came back to their squalid room full of cuts and bruises. The other labourers, mainly huge, fiercesome Irishmen, made fun of the fine-featured, graceful young man whod been to public school and spoke with a cutglass accent but, as time passed, they began to admire his tenacity and willingness to work as hard as they did, sometimes seven days a week. They became good friends, or mates, as Roddy referred to them. He no longer looked out of place as he wielded a pick axe or a spade. His shoulders were gradually broadening, powerful muscles were developing on his arms, and his oncedelicate skin became weathered and brown from working in the open air. He was gradually acquiring skills; bricklaying, plumbing, plastering.
He seemed quite happy. After all, as he pointed out, he was working on buildings, if not designing them, as had been his ambition. Its all grist for the mill. He began to get books on architecture from the library, but fell asleep after only a few pages.
They moved to a bigger room in a more gracious house in Highbury. The weekly rent was a shilling more, but they had their own sink and use of the garden where the washing could be hung out to dry. Hester was walking and able to totter over the long grass that nobody cut. Roddys earnings were enough to start putting money in the bank, only small amounts but, for the first time, they were able to look to the future. They felt a sense of achievement that theyd managed to come so far without help from a soul. When Hester went to school, Laura would get a job and theyd be able to rent an entire house to themselves. One day, they planned to have more children, but that day seemed very far away.
In the meantime, the big room had become their home. Laura had managed to make it look quite charming. The ugly sofa was covered with a length of cheap material shed bought from a market and shed embroidered cloths for the sideboard and made flowers from tissue paper there was a huge bowl of frilly red roses on the table.
From the window, they witnessed the changing seasons; admired the blossom on the old gnarled apple tree, picked the fruit when it appeared, watched the leaves fall and cover the grass with a crisp carpet. Then winter would stealthily creep in and the entire scene would become a wonderland of snow or ice.
Theyd run away to be with each other and their baby, and were happy at last.
Hester was four when Roddys brother, Thomas, appeared on the scene. The builders Roddy worked for had been renovating a row of Regency properties in Primrose Hill that were almost finished. Prospective purchasers were already being shown around. One night, Roddy came home, his face full of smiles, and described with amusement the expression on Thomass face when hed come into a bedroom and found his younger brother on his knees painting the skirting.
He looked shattered, Roddy chortled. But the thing is, Lo, the most amazing thing, is that I felt superior! I felt a proper man, a genuine worker, not a poncey git who spends his life buying and selling shares, like Tom does.
A poncey git! Laura exclaimed, shocked. She wasnt sure what it meant, but it sounded awfully rude.
Thats mild compared to some of the names we call the people who come to view.
I darent tell you the others.
Roddy wasnt laughing a few days later when he told Laura that his father had turned up that morning.
What did he want? she asked, suddenly scared.
Hell forgive me everything if I come home, even put me back in his will. He said its not too late for me to go to university. He paused. Whats the matter, Lo? Why are you crying? he asked in alarm.
I dont want you to leave, thats why. Oh! She was being selfish. But I understand completely if you do. Ill manage on my own. Ill be all right.
He was on his knees in front of her in a flash, his arms around her. You ridiculous girl! As if Id leave. I told my father to … well, I wont say what I told him to do. How could you think such a thing of me?
You looked so serious. I thought youd made up your mind, Laura sobbed.
I looked serious for quite another reason. My father has discovered our address. Hes written to your father. I think we can expect quite a few visitors soon.
Laura was horrified. She wasnt yet twenty-one and wasnt sure how much control she had over her life. Theyll try to prise us apart.
I know, Roddy said gravely.
Your mother will want Hester. She refused to see me, but she offered to take the baby, remember? His family hadnt wanted him to get involved with a vicars daughter. They had high hopes for their youngest son. Thomass wife was the daughter of a viscount.
I certainly do. She was desperate to get her hands on her.
I think we should move. She glanced around the room. Shed become very fond of it. It would be a wrench to leave, but the last thing in the world she wanted was to come face to face with her father. He might bring his sister with him, her domineering Aunt Caroline, whod called her a slut when shed broken the news that she was pregnant.
I think we should move too, but they know who I work for and can always track us down that way. Ill have to find another job. That would be another wrench.
He would be leaving behind a whole crowd of friends mates.
Next morning, Laura frantically began to pack their things in Roddys school trunk, but theyd acquired so much over the years; bedding, dishes, cutlery, Hesters clothes, that not even half would fit. Not that it mattered yet; they still had to find somewhere else to live.
She decided to go out and look in the windows of sweet and tobacconists where cards were displayed advertising rooms to let and items for sale it was how theyd found their present room as well as Hesters pram and pushchair. The pram had eventually been sold the same way.
From being an irascible baby, Hester had become a quiet, self-contained child.
She rarely bothered her parents with demands. Laura often felt guilty, wondering if her unplanned daughter sensed the impact she had made on their lives. Their worlds had been turned upside down. When theyd first made love, theyd been little more than children. It hadnt crossed their minds they might be making another human being.
Shall we go for a walk, darling? She tried to keep the edginess out of her voice. Her father might have received the letter that morning telling him of their whereabouts. He might come looking for her straight away. Any minute, there could be a knock on the door. She wouldnt answer, and prayed there was no one else in the house who would it was usually empty except for her and Hester during the day.
Hester was always ready for a walk. Laura dressed her in one of the pretty frocks shed made from a scrap of pink and white gingham. It had smocking on the front and lace trimming on the collar and cuffs. Shed never been much good at needlework at school perhaps it was necessity that had made her an expert.
They were outside the house and she was fastening the straps of the rickety pushchair, when the garden gate flew open and Roddy came in pushing a bike.
The chaps are covering for me at work and I borrowed the bike, he panted.
Laura, how do you fancy moving to Bootle? Its a little town on the edge of Liverpool.
One of the men he worked with had a brother there, Colm, who had his own property maintenance business and was looking for a partner, he explained. The pay wasnt much, but the hours were regular. And Colm will find us somewhere to live. He mainly works for landlords and one is bound to have an empty property.
Rory, thats my mate, will even take us up there in the lorry on Sunday.
It was a perfect solution. Their relatives would never find them so far away. I fancy it very much, Roddy, Laura said breathlessly.
And that was how Roddy, Laura and Hester Oliver came to live in Bootle.
Would you like some cocoa, darling? Laura asked.
Id love some. Roddy was blinking tiredly.
She slid carefully off the sofa, put a cushion under his feet, and went into the kitchen. It was a fine big room, large enough to hold the table where they ate and she cut out material. It had a cast iron range, but she only made a fire once a week to heat water for the washing and for them to have baths the tin bath hung on the wall in the yard. The cooking she did on the relatively modern gas stove.
She had no complaints about their accommodation. The landlord was very pleasant, though it would be nice if the flat had been wired for electricity. Sewing by gas light hurt her eyes and shed noticed Vera Monaghans house had electricity.
They had the entire bottom floor, comprising three rooms, a kitchen, and even an indoor lavatory, to themselves. The only common area was the hallway, which they shared with upstairs. After living in one room for so long, it seemed the height of luxury to have their own, separate bedroom. Hester slept in the smallest room at the back.
No, the flat was fine. It was its situation that she found so depressing. Glover Street must be the most miserable street on earth, added to which the woman who lived in the flat above, Mrs Tate, was truly horrible, screaming at her poor daughter every night when she came home from work, usually very late, almost midnight. The girl was a fragile little thing, who looked about twelve, with a withered arm, and was only seen on her way to and from school. Laura had tried to speak to her a few times, but the girl looked scared out of her wits and didnt answer. She didnt seem quite all there. Mrs Tate rudely ignored her attempts to pass the time of day.
The kettle boiled, she made the cocoa, and took it into the living room where Roddy was almost asleep. She sat in an armchair so as not to disturb his feet.