Ill thank her for you, Gwen promised. It had been agreed that Laura and Vera werent to know how thoroughly obnoxious Mrs Merton was. It would only make them worry, yet it didnt bother the girls a bit.
Anyway, Gwen, Laura said warmly, its you who does all the work. That meal was delicious and I know the children have become very fond of you.
Gwen flushed with pleasure and said they were no bother and she loved having them. I dont know what Ill do when theyre gone. Her eyes rested, not on the girls, but on Jimmy Nicholls.
At first, it seemed as if they wouldnt get home for Christmas. With December came snow, several feet deep, covering most of the British Isles. The roads were impassable. As soon as it was cleared, more snow would fall, but on the Friday school broke up, Miss Larkin announced that two coaches were leaving Bootle the next morning and would hopefully arrive in the square about midday. Their families had been told to expect them. Lets pray it doesnt snow tonight, she added. I want to be home as much as you do to spend Christmas with my parents.
Everyone must have prayed very hard. That night, the snow remained in the heavens and next morning the road through Caerdovey was relatively clear, though snow was still banked in dirty heaps at the side and the pavements were covered with a thickly frozen layer.
As soon as they arrived in Glover Street, Mary made straight for the Monaghans, and Laura came to the door of number twenty-two. I thought I heard voices, she cried delightedly. Ive been coming out to look for you for ages. Ive got the kettle on.
It looks dead pretty. Queenie breathed a sigh of pure happiness. She was home!
The living room was drenched with paper chains and a warm fire burned in the grate, which Laura said wasnt as big as she would have liked, but fuel was difficult to get at the moment, Along with all sorts of other things, tea for instance, and sugar. You cant get fresh fruit for love nor money, not that I mind. The Merchant Navys got more important things to do than bring luxuries into the British Isles. However, months ago, I put my name down with the butcher and weve got a lovely big chicken for our Christmas dinner.
No, Roddy wasnt coming home, he couldnt get leave, she went on, her voice faltering slightly, when Hester asked if Daddy would be there. Youll be pleased to know hes now a First Lieutenant in the Royal Artillary. Hes sent cards theres one for you, Queenie and presents, but I cant put them under the tree because we havent got one. Ill put them beside the beds with the ones from Santa Claus on Christmas morning.
They had cottage pie and jam tart for tea. It felt strange, preparing a proper meal, Laura said. I make do with things like beans or sardines on toast when Im alone, and never bother with a pudding. Im usually too tired to eat. Her job was very exhausting. She was a riveter in an aircraft factory in Kirkby, which was quite skilled work. It was murder at first, but easy now Ive got the hang of it.
Vera and Albert came over later to say hello. Vera said indignantly that Mary had complained the meal wasnt as nice as the ones Gwen made. I told her, if thats how she felt, she could go back to Caerdovey and spend Christmas with Gwen. Needless to say, she ignored that. Shes too busy being petted to death by all and sundry.
The Monaghans were still there when the new residents in the flat upstairs came down bearing a bottle of sherry; two brothers, Eric and Ben Tyler, both in their thirties, and Erics son, Brian, who was fourteen. The Tylers were from Newcastle, Eric was a widower, and he and Ben were electricians whod come to Liverpool to work on the docks. Brian had passed the scholarship to grammar school at eleven, and had transferred to Merchant Taylors in Crosby. When theyd first come, Eric had asked Laura if shed do their washing, but shed refused.
Cheek! They expected Id look after them, being the only woman in the house.
Next thing, Idve been doing their cooking too. I told them they could do their own washing, that I worked just as hard as they did.
Queenie saw that Ben, the younger brother, who was quite handsome, though not as handsome as Roddy, kept throwing Laura admiring little glances, but Laura made no sign that shed noticed.
On Christmas Day afternoon, it was Queenies turn to be in receipt of admiring glances when they went over to the Monaghans for tea.
Youve changed, said Charlie.
Youve turned into a proper bobby dazzler, Victor claimed, looking at her speculatively. He was the best-looking of all the Monaghan boys.
You look different, Queenie, said Tommy, whod made fun of her mercilessly in the past. Youd never dream you still had a funny arm.
Shes a teacher now, Vera beamed. Were all dead proud of Queenie, arent we, girl?
Queenie didnt answer. Never, not in a million years, had she thought the day would come when she would be embarrassed by so many compliments.
This had been her first real Christmas, she thought in bed that night. Last year, and all the years before, thered been no presents, nothing so grand as chicken for dinner. The day had been no different from any other, except that Mam was out much longer because the Black Horse had an extension or something, and stayed open until midnight.
This year, shed got loads of presents; a handbag from Laura, a purse to match from Hester and Mary, which had loads of pockets, and Vera had bought her a lovely notebook with a swirly cover, a box of pencils and a silver sharpener.
I thought itd help with your teaching, Vera said with a twinkly smile.
But the thing that Queenie treasured most was the scarf that Roddy had sent. It was soft blue chiffon covered with little gold moons and stars and went perfectly with the navy blue coat Laura had got her from Paddys Market.
Shed saved enough pocket money to buy everyone presents and had had a marvellous time in Woolworths where nothing cost over a tanner, getting scent for Laura, gloves for Vera, a book each for Hester and Mary, a big white hanky with R embroidered on the corner for Roddy and the same with an A for Albert. She bought a belt for Jimmy to keep up Hugh Joness trousers, two pretty hair slides for Tess, and a wind-up car for Pete. She remembered Jimmy had promised to come and see them tomorrow and Laura thought thered be enough chicken left to have with chips. And Ive got a tin of peas, she added.
Queenie supposed that before shed met Laura she must have been very unhappy.
She hadnt realised she was unhappy. She hadnt known it was possible to feel any different to the way she felt then, not until shed discovered what happiness was and that the years spent with Mam had been dead miserable. She snuggled under the covers and resolved never to be miserable again, too young to realise that misery, and happiness, werent just dependent on herself, but on other factors, including people over whom she had no control. Indeed, the very next day brought some unpleasant news she hadnt been expecting.
When Jimmy came, he had on a thick jersey and trousers even shorter than the ones hed worn when he first arrived in Caerdovey, though he still had his hat.
He was shivering and his legs were blue with cold.
Whats happened to Hugh Joness trousers and tweed jacket? Queenie gasped.
Come and sit by the fire. You look frozen to death.
Me mam pawned them to pay for the Christmas dinner, Jimmy replied with a brave grin. The pawn-broker wouldnt take me hat.
But thats not fair.
Yes, it is, Queenie. Mam got two bob and we had pigs trotters and roast spuds and a sandwich cake for pudding, otherwise wed have just ended up with scouse.
Gwen will be dead upset when we go back.
Our Tess and Pete are going back, its two less mouths for me mam to feed, but Im staying put. Mam reckons its about time I started work. Ill be fourteen in March.
You cant go to work in them trousers. Oh Jimmy! Queenie wanted to cry.
Caerdovey wont be the same without you.
Bootlell seem dead funny without you, Queenie, girl, Jimmy said soberly.
Ill miss our den and the shore. Ill even miss me old lady.
Laura came in and also wanted to know what had happened to his nice warm clothes. The ones that you found in that den of yours?
His mam pawned them to pay for their Christmas dinner.
Sensing a hint of disapproval in Queenies voice, Jimmy immediately sprang to his mams defence. Me dad hasnt worked in years cos of his lungs. If Mam didnt work herself to a standstill, cleaning, there wouldnt be a penny coming in.
Whats wrong with your dads lungs, Jimmy? Laura asked gently.
Its something called emphysema. It gets worse all the time. There was a suggestion of tears in Jimmys kind eyes. Sometimes, he can hardly breathe at all.
Im so sorry. Laura squeezed his hand and Queenie rather hoped shed offer to redeem Hugh Joness clothes from the pawnshop, but realised it would be a waste of time. The minute Mrs Nicholls needed money, theyd be pawned again. Laura, however, had a better idea.
Would you like me to lend you my husbands working jacket and trousers? she asked. Theres a couple of flannel shirts too. But Id like them back in case Roddy needs them once this damn war is over, so you must tell your mother theyre not to be pawned.
Thank you, Mrs Oliver, Jimmy said politely. Id like it very much.
Queenie gave him his belt and the things for Tess and Pete and hoped they wouldnt end up in the pawnshop, too.
At the beginning of January, only one coach was waiting outside St Joan of Arcs to take the evacuees back to Caerdovey.
Whats happened to everybody? Queenie asked Miss Larkin, who seemed to be in charge.
Their parents have decided to keep them in Bootle. Last September, we had over sixty children. Now weve only got twenty-five. If you must know, Queenie, I wish I was staying myself.
Even Mary nearly hadnt come. Vera had said it was up to her. Given the choice of staying at home, her mam out at work all day, her dad putting in all sorts of funny hours, Billy in the Army, George and Dick expecting their call-up papers any minute, her other brothers all with jobs, apart from Caradoc whod be leaving school soon and getting a job himself, Mary had decided shed sooner be in Caerdovey with her friends.
Youll still want me to teach the children two mornings a week, wont you?
Queenie asked Miss Larkin anxiously. It would be unbearable if she lost that as well as Jimmy.
Mrs Waters and I wont exactly be worked of four feet this term, but some extra help is always useful. Unlike us, you can give the little ones individual attention.
Ill miss him, Gwen said tearfully when she learnt Jimmy hadnt come back.
Ill miss him something awful.
We all will, Queenie assured her. The den wont be the same without Jimmy.
Caerdovey seemed to have lost a lot of its charm. It was too cold to play on the shore, where the waves rippled ominously, as if they were terribly angry about something. Their bedroom was freezing, and the only warmth to be found was in the kitchen. Gwen gave them an old paraffin stove for the den, but the heat it gave off was pathetic and the room stank. Hester claimed the smell made her feel sick.
The months dragged by. There was more snow, heavier than before, and day after day the town was muffled underneath a thick, white blanket, the silence unnatural and faintly threatening. Laura and Vera found it impossible to visit, not knowing if theyd get there and back within the day.
Suddenly, it seemed to happen overnight, it was spring. The sun came out and the snow disappeared as if by magic, revealing surprisingly lush green fields.
Little shoots thrust their way bravely through the black soil of the gardens, except the garden of The Old School House where there were no flowers, though Queenie was pleased to find the suggestion of buds on the apple trees, which she found quite heartening. Soon, it would be Easter and they would be going home to Bootle and this time she was determined to persuade Laura to let them stay.
Queenie, dear, you dont know the half of it, Laura said earnestly. Its not true that nothing is happening as you said. Hitler has just invaded Norway and Denmark and you wouldnt believe the number of British ships that the Germans have sunk. Thousands of seamen have lost their lives. Russia has attacked Finland. Im not even sure what that means, I thought Russia was on our side, but it might have been the other way around. Oh, Queenie, she cried, joining her hands together as if she was about to pray, I cant make you go back to Caerdovey, its entirely your decision, but I hope youll do it as a favour to me. I feel so much happier, knowing you and Hester are safely tucked up in Wales and Mary, too, of course. Now that Roddys in France, in the thick of things, as it were, hed be upset if I told him Hester was back in Bootle. She paused for breath. Were short of so many things that youre probably not aware of; meat, eggs, butter, which Gwen manages to get from the local farms. Its nice to know youre eating properly. By the way, Im very grateful for the things she sent. Those pork chops look lovely and juicy, and the eggs are huge. You must take Jimmys fruit cake round later, and the shortbread from his old lady. And dont let me forget to write a note to take back, thanking Gwen for her kindness.
All right, Queenie sighed.
Laura groaned. Im being selfish, arent I? Putting my peace of mind before your and Hesters happiness. She chewed her lip worriedly. I tell you what, if there still hasnt been an air raid by the end of the summer term, Ill assume Hitler has no intention of bombing Bootle and you can leave Caerdovey for good.
How does that suit you?
Mrs Merton had a wireless. When she was in bed, Queenie frequently heard the subdued sound of voices downstairs, or music, singing, laughter. She began to listen daily to the one oclock bulletin, not caring if Gwen found out or if she was discovered by Mrs Merton in her over-furnished sitting room where the wireless had its own special table with curved legs.