round her shoulders to stop the ropes from cutting into her,
soaked up the sun and soon was wet and heavy with her sweat.
She was a bit annoyed with Marta. She had expected her to take
her time, to stay as close as possible, so that they could at least
stretch out to touch each other once in a while or exchange a
word or two on their last day together. Miri knew that she and
Marta would have to go their separate ways as soon as they had
reached the trading road. Sawiya was a village near Jerusalem,
towards the west. The summer markets where her husband
would want to go were beyond Jericho, far to the north. But
Miri's friend was rushing ahead far too quickly and was impatient
if Miri walked too slowly or started to chatter.
It was easy for Marta to hurry, thought Miri. She only had
one bag to carry and some clothes. Her load was relatively light
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for such a tall and wide-boned woman. And she was not six
months pregnant with a child. Her hips and back were not
oppressing her. 'Slow down, slow down,' she said a few times
to herself. But not too loudly. She was increasingly annoyed and
tired, but beyond all that she understood why Marta seemed so
selfish and distracted. She had been raped. She was weighed
down with twenty panniers offear. The fattest man in Judea was
sitting on her back. Of course she'd want to break away from
him.
Miri could have stopped and rested had she wanted to. She
could have found some block of shade and waited for her husband.
Then she could have walked at his slow pace and made Marta
wait alone for them at the summit of the landfall where the scrub
collapsed into a steep ravine of scree. But Miri wanted time
alone with Marta. She wanted to recapture, if it were possible,
the cheerful times when they had worked together on the loom.
The landfall was the final opportunity for them to finish what
they'd started. While her slow husband laboured like a swaying
cart across the scrub, she and Marta could sit cross-legged, facing
each other, with the purple and orange birth-mat stretched
between them. They'd spread the still untied ends across their
laps. They'd bunch the warps in fours and each complete the
birth-mat with a hundred knots. They'd finalize their bold,
unlikely friendship by tying it into the bold, unlikely wools.
So Miri did her best to keep her friend within sight. It didn't
matter that her arms felt stretched and that her shoulders ached
almost beyond endurance so long as she could still see Marta
walking ahead of her. By early afternoon they had crossed the
plateau and were waiting side by side, at last, at the summit of
the landfall as Musa had instructed. Below them, Shim and Aphas
had already begun the descent. They could see Shim's blond
head and hear the tumbling scree as he slid through the stones.
Aphas was a little way behind, using all the larger rocks to steady
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himself but moving quickly for a man who'd been so faltering
and ill. They were not carrying their loads.
'Look there,' said Marta, pointing to a ledge of rocks a few
steps from the summit of the scree. There were Musa's saddlepacks, the rugs and bedding, the sack of grain, the two bags of utensils. The men had simply dumped them there and fled.
Miri dropped her bags and panniers where she stood and
stretched her arms and shoulders to relieve the pain, and drank
a little water from the bag. It was too warm to be refreshing.
Now she had an extra worry. Her husband would be furious
when he discovered how his porters had betrayed him. Who'd
pay for that? Who'd have to add the saddle-packs, the rugs and
bedding, the sack of grain, the two bags of utensils to her load?
His wife, of course. But she kept her worries hidden. She couldn't
bring herself to speak to Marta yet. She did roll out the birth-mat,
though. She sat with one end on her lap, as she had planned,
and began to bunch and tie the threads. She'd see if Marta
volunteered to help without asking. She'd not forgive her otherwise. But Marta did not volunteer to help. She stood and looked out across the valley to the peaks of Moab. Her lip, in profile,
was still fat and misshapen. Her hands were trembling.
'Come on,' said Miri. 'Sit down with me. Let's finish this.
Before he comes.'
They had not finished it when Musa finally came into view.
He waved Shim's staff at them from the sloping plateau which
led down to the landfall, and called, 'Wait there.' He was tired
of his own company. He hadn't spent so much time alone
and without assistance for years. The journey so far had been
unnerving and exhausting. His ankles ached. His chest was tight.
He had to pause after every few steps to catch his breath. He'd
not been born for walking. Just one more day, and he'd be back
with camels where he belonged. Only the landfall stood between
him and the markets ofJericho.
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It would be difficult to go down the landfall. He knew how
treacherous the scree could be for anyone as large as him. He
had already pictured how stones would fall out beneath his feet
and slide away, how larger rocks would tumble at him from
above. He'd need the women to take him by the elbows and
help him down. Marta would refuse, of course. She would not
want to touch him.
'I need more help than you,' he'd say to Miri. He'd lift his
chins at Marta. 'She has to help as well. Come here.'
'I won't.'
He pictured ways of making her.
But when he was just a few hundred paces from the women,
so close that he could see the colours of the mat, Marta suddenly
stood up, wrapped her fingers round Miri's wrist and pulled her
to her feet.
'We have to go,' she said. 'Don't look at him. Bring that.'
She pushed the mat into Miri's hands. 'We'll finish it another
day. Get water.'
Miri grabbed one of the water-bags - not a moment of
bewilderment or hesitation - and began to gather the other
panniers and her own belongings.
'Leave those.' Marta pushed the panniers away, and added
Musa's clothes and wools, the sack of dried fruit and the woven
bag of odds-and-ends to the pile. They'd have to leave it all
behind. She pulled the other water-bag to the edge of the descent
and threw it down as far as she could on to the rocks. 'Let's see
how he manages,' she said.
With only the smaller water-bag and the birth-mat to carry,
the women were able to move quickly. They did not have the
time to laugh or cry, or answer any ofMusa's threats and promises.
He was too close and dangerous. He was throwing stones at
them. They would not stop their hurtling descent until their
landlord and their husband and the father of their child was
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out of hearing and out of sight. They were light-limbed like
adolescent girls. They had no need of anybody now. They had
no need of miracles.
Marta and Miri hurried on in silence down the landfall,
concentrating on the loose rock and the uncertain footing. The
scree grew softer as the temperatures increased, closer to the
valley floor. The earth was gypsum, spiced with salt. It smelt of
eggs. But by the middle of the afternoon - already covered in a
yellow film of salt - they'd reached more gently sloping and
more sweetly smelling ground, a landscape of soft chalk which
a child could pull apart in its hands as easily as breaking bread.
The land was more reliable, at last, and they could walk side by
side down towards the trading road, where travellers and caravans
and soldiers were going to and coming from the gated cities of
Judea. They walked amongst the donkeys and the men, and only
then could exchange their tears and smiles.
'Where can we go?' said Miri.
'To Sawiya.'
'What will you say to them?'
'I'll say you are a widow, abandoned in the wilderness. I'll
say your husband was a merchant who died of fever. I'll say
the wind took all your things away and that it was my duty to
offer help to you, because you're pregnant and you have no
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one.
'It's almost true.'
'It's true.'
'How will I live?'
'You'll weave. I'll be the baby's aunt.'
Marta's lip was still a little sore, her body ached, but she felt
untroubled for the first time in ten years. All the bad things in
her life had been abandoned at the top of the landfall. The
vultures picked them clean. Was she a foolish optimist, made
rash and heady by their escape from Musa? Most probably. But,
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for the moment, she was sure her fortunes had reversed. She'd
started running down the scree and everything had changed.
Everything outside of her. Everything within. She felt she was
not barren any more. She'd heard it said that women knew
instinctively when they were pregnant, almost from the moment
of conception. They didn't have to wait for periods or pains.
Their faces tingled, as if their cheeks had been touched by angels.
With Miri at her side, Marta felt as if she'd already plucked a
star out of the sky. One more would not be difficult. Perhaps
another star was already brightening inside ofher. It didn't matter
whose it was, if it was Musa's or the scrub's or even granted to
her in a dream, by the Gaily with his single touch. Her husband,
Thaniel, wouldn't know or care so long as she grew fat. He'd
said that she should go away and pray for miracles. She'd been
obedient. He had commanded that she should give birth. And
now he could rejoice with her.
It was bad luck to look behind. They concentrated only on
the way ahead. Even when they saw the thin, blond head of
Shim in front of them, and spotted Aphas walking with a new
authority beside him, seeming younger than he had and vigorous,
they did not call out a greeting. They kept themselves entirely
to themselves, as they had planned to do. Two women with the
fleshly scriptures of at least one pregnancy imprinted on to them.
Two women blessed with god and child. They walked until the
evening closed in. It did not matter where they spent the night.
They were back in the world of the sane and would be safe.
Only their faces ached, from smiling.
In the morning, they would carry on along the valley towards
Jericho and then take the hilly route through Almog. Green
hills. In two days they would reach the approaches to Jerusalem
and skirt around the city, through the mud-faced houses on the
mud-faced hills, towards Sawiya. They'd join Marta's neighbours, raising voices, raising sheep, competing for the shade 23 7
beneath the fig trees in their yards, fighting for their places by
the fire. The uneventful world of villages.
They'd be in Sawiya before the end of quarantine. Quite
soon, they'd share a table in a room, colourless except for candle
flame and the orange and the purple of their mat. They would
be dining well on fish. It would be still, the stillness of the small
and tired. If there was something in the world that was bigger,
stronger than their table-top, they would not care. It had not
spoken to them yet. They were not listening. They were contented with their grainy universe of candlelight and wood and wool.
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Musa did not waste his energy. He could not vent his anger on
the scree. He rested for a while to catch his breath, then gathered
his possessions in a pile, the goods abandoned by the men, the
goods abandoned by the woman and his wife, the wools, the
bedding, all the fabrics of their life. He could not leave them on