Musa hadn't walked a step. 'My story ends with me a little richer
than I was.' He looked at Shim: 'Your learned commentary,
please. Don't disappoint us now.' He took a breath and held it
in his lungs, so that his face began to redden. Now was the time
to take them by surprise.
'This is a story,' Shim said, with care, 'that might serve for us
all. The first thirteen monkeys that you followed did not reach
the water that you sought. It was only that you persevered until
the fourteenth. It's perseverance you are teaching us. For that
my neighbours will be grateful . . . I am sure . . . '
He would have said a little more, attempted to improve his
standing, if Musa had not cried out suddenly, and slapped his
hands across his stomach. 'This pain . . . is more than I can
tolerate,' he said. He closed his eyes and blew out air. He put
his hand into his hair. 'I'm burning hot. My head.'
'Shall I bring more water?' Aphas said.
'No, no. Just let me rest.'
Musa opened half an eye, and looked around. Shim, he noticed,
was almost smiling. Marta had stood up and looked alarmed. His
wife had put her hand up to her face. He could not see her
mouth. She'd be concerned, he thought, that the devil had come
back to him and that she'd soon be widowed by a second
onslaught of the fever. On a rock, beyond the furthest of the
caves, he saw the badu balancing on one leg like an egret, one
foot resting on his other knee.
'No, no,' Musa said again. 'I must lie down. It's here.' He
pointed to his side - a sharp pain in his liver - and ran his hands
across his abdomen - an area of general suffering.
'Something you've eaten,' said Aphas helpfully, although he
could not imagine that anybody's liver pains were worse than
his. He'd defer to Shim for cleverness and to Musa for a blinding
tongue, but he'd counted general suffering to be his own reserve.
'That meat,' said Musa, in his most boyish voice, 'it was bad.
Your honey hid the taste.' He'd let his tenants think they'd
poisoned him. 'I'm hot.' And then, once Miri had come up to
fan him with her scarf, 'I'm cold. This is bad . . . They steal my
meat, and now they poison me. ' Musa would have doubled up
with pain ifhe could. He was too big to bend. Instead he rolled
over on his side, and spread out in the dust, a wounded animal,
its great head cushioned only by some stones. He'd seen Aphas
acting out his cancer in the last thirty days, and had not been
impressed. Musa could do better. Winces and deep breathing
weren't enough. He experimented with some uncontrolled
spasms in his leg. He clutched his ear. He looked as frightened
and as baffled as he could. This was not low cunning. Musa did
not like to be accused of that. His cunning was the highest kind;
it was his version of a miracle.
The wind had lifted. The afternoon was cold and coming to
an end. The clouds had brought the darkness early. He had no
time to waste. 'I need to sleep,' he said.
The women lifted up a leg apiece, while Aphas, Shim and the
badu dragged their landlord by his shoulders to the nearest empty
cave - the one a few steps along from Marta's which opened on
to the sloping terrace, screened only by a few salt bushes and the
coppery debris of the cliff. They laid him on the soil with only
Marta's shawl as his cot-clothes. They put his head on it. He put
his nose in it. He liked the warmth of Marta and her smell.
His wife and his tenants stood in the entrance of the cave,
blocking out the light, whispering. What should they do with
him? Not one of them had said, 'Be well again, ' or stroked his
brow. Everybody knew of people who had died as suddenly as
this - the same unheralded pain, the cry, the fingers stretched
across the chest, the grey-red face, the final, chortling breath.
The world might lose some stories if Musa died, but not much
else worth keeping. The prospect ofhis death was tolerable. His
death was overdue. Miri did not even dare to pray. Her prayers
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had let her down before. Would there be a second chance of
rolling Musa down the slope into the cistern she had dug for
him? Why waste good water on the man? They'd only have to
block his cave with stones to make a sepulchre and mark the
stones with chalk to warn future quarantiners and any passing
Jews that there was a corrupting body inside.
'Miri, Miri, come to me,' he said at last, his voice more
vulnerable than she had ever heard it before, his face invisible.
He made her kneel and put her ear against his lips. His breath
was warm and dry. No eggy smells, this time. 'Go to the tent
for me, take care of everything,' he said. 'I cannot walk. I must
sleep here. Bring back a flask of date spirit in the morning as
soon as it's light. Bring rugs and blankets, some pillows for my
head. Collect some herbs. Bake something sweet for me tonight.
The honey's there. And don't forget to fill the water-bags. Tell
him to come.' He pointed at Aphas.
Aphas knelt as best he could, and strained to listen to his
landlord's slowly fading words. 'Go with my Miri, uncle. Keep
her safe, for there are brigands in these hills. And wolves, bad
wolves. A woman should not be alone out here. Call him and
her.' Now Shim and Marta were summoned. She knelt a little
distance from Musa's side, her head cocked to hear what he
wanted from her. Shim, though, was reluctant to kneel down
at all. He worried for his ankles and his little toe, despite his
landlord's sudden, devastating illness. But Musa found the
strength to raise his voice: 'I beg you, one of you, it doesn't
matter which . . . Stay in your cave tonight, and bring me water
if I call. Say prayers for me ifl should die. Take care ofMiri and
the goats . . . ' He struggled for some breath. 'The other one of
you. This is my final wish. The Gaily saved my life before. Go
down to him while there is any light. Stand on our rock where
we have stood so many times. Call out until your voice has gone.
Stay through the night and pray to him. Say that I'll die unless
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he comes. Have pity on a man . . . Which one of you will go?'
He meant, of course, which one of you will stay. He knew it
would be Marta, naturally. An unattended woman could not
stand out on a rock, past midnight, praying to a madman in a
cave. There was a risk, of course, that Shim would be the one
to stay behind. Then Musa would go to his cave at night and
smash his yellow head in with a rock. A secondary pleasure.
Everybody gladly did as they were told. Aphas and Shim
would rather go down to the tent and to the promontory than
stay with Musa. Let him die or let him recover on his own. They
did not want to witness either. Aphas thought how comfortable
he'd be, sleeping on rugs for a change. Miri thought of the hours
she could spend, in candlelight, tying knots on to her mat. Shim
had reclaimed his curly staff, almost as soon as Musa had fallen
to the ground. He liked the idea of a private vigil on the
promontory, wrapped in his thickest cloak, alone at last with
Musa's very stupid boy - although, of course, he'd not call out
too loudly to the Galilean or press too hard for him to come and
minister to Musa. He had no faith in shepherd boys. He did not
want a miracle.
They hurried off, the three of them. They ran away.
Marta shrugged. She didn't really care that she was left behind.
Another night of quarantine, so what? She was the least resentful
of them all. Musa's stories softened her. She couldn't really fear
a man who was so captivating, and so sick, and who had fathered
Miri's child. If only Thaniel had been able to tell a tale like that.
If only he were not so dull. Perhaps she would be pregnant, too.
Musa kept away from Marta. He played with time and let the
woman go about her evening tasks. He heard her footsteps,
smelled her fire, heard her coughing in the smoke. He did not
bother her. He was at peace. The cave was warm enough. Its
floor was soft. He slept. He'd wait till night. They were alone
at last, or only separated by the earth between their caves.
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There was the badu left, of course. An easy person to forget.
After everyone else had received their whispered instructions
from Musa, he had come and knelt inside the cave. He'd felt his
landlord's forehead and shaken his head as if to say, This illness
is bad. You stand no chance; or, This is Nothing. I'm not fooled.
Get up and go back to your tent. He'd pressed his cheeks, his
hair into Musa's face. Musa could have bitten him. He could
have smashed his hennaed head in with a rock. Instead, he
whispered in his ear, 'Enjoy your run, you monkey boy . . .
Keep out of sight.' But, really, Musa didn't care about a madman
such as him. He was too small to intervene between such large
adversaries.
It would have been the perfect night for Musa's death, if he'd
been truly ill or if some god, fooled by the noise that Musa made,
had decided that the time had come to put an end to him. The
sky was mourners' black. No stars. Nor hardly any moon. What
little light there was was muffled in the stacks of mist, which
made the outline of the hills seem less solid even than the
clouds. A passing world, but heavens everlasting. The earth was
insubstantial and the sky was hard.
On such a night, death could have crept in unobserved, rubbed
its fingers over Musa's eyes and passed his heavy soul up into
the heavens without betraying its stem work by casting any
shadows in the scrub. Ifhe'd cried out, 'It touches me,' in those
few moments when the vapours of his life were pressed out of
his flesh and mixed in with the clouds, no one would have come
to cling on to his chubby toes and plead, 'This man is merchandise
that can't be touched. We will not let you take this man from
,
us.
The badu was awake all night, it's true, but he would not
come to Musa's aid. He would not and he could not hear the
vapours and the flesh divide. Marta was only dozing, possibly,
but she was meek and sensible enough to stay inside her own
cave for the night, whatever noises she could hear. Musa might
call for help from his small family, as he had done before, 'Miri,
Miri. Come to me, quick, and save me from . . ' A dying man
.
could reasonably expect his wife to battle for his life. But Miri
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was too far away to care that he was calling. She and the old
man, Aphas, were sleeping better than they'd slept for many
days, out ofhearing, in the tent, and for the moment unconcerned