Public Secrets (15 page)

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MMA COULDN’T BELIEVE
her time was almost up. In less than a week she would head back to New York and Saint Catherine’s. True, she missed Marianne. It would take weeks for them to talk through all the things that had happened over the summer. The best summer of her life, even though they’d only spent two weeks of it in New York.

They’d flown to London to film part of a recording session for a new documentary, and had had tea at the Ritz just as she and Bev had so many years before. She’d been able to spend time with Johnno and Stevie and P.M., listening to them play, eating fish and chips in the kitchen while they discussed their next album.

She’d taken rolls of pictures and could hardly wait to store them in her photo album where she could look at them over and over and relive the memories.

Her father had treated her to her first grown-up salon session as an early birthday gift. Now her shoulder-length hair was permed in corkscrew curls that made her feel very grown-up.

And she was starting to develop.

Emma took a quick, surreptitious look down at her bikini top. They weren’t much as breasts went, but at least she wouldn’t be as easily mistaken for a boy. And she was tanned. Emma hadn’t been too certain she would enjoy spending her last weeks in California, but the tan made it worthwhile.

And there was the surfing. She’d had to launch a major campaign before Brian had agreed to let her try her hand at
shooting the waves. Emma knew she had Johnno to thank for the bright red board. If he hadn’t joked and teased Brian into it, she would still be whiling away her hours on the beach watching everyone else skim the water.

Maybe she couldn’t do much more than paddle out and fall in, but at least the process took her farther away from the bodyguards who sweated under nearby beach umbrellas. It was ridiculous, she thought as she carried her board toward the water. No one even knew who she was.

Each year she was sure her father would let them go, and each year they remained with their solemn faces and big shoulders. At least they couldn’t follow her out here, she thought as she stretched out on her board and began to paddle through the cool water. Though she knew they watched her through binoculars, she pretended she was alone, or, better, with one of the groups of teenagers who haunted the beaches.

She crested over a wave, enjoying the swells and the way her stomach seemed to dip with the motion. The roar of the sea was in her ears, mixed with the riot of music from dozens of portable radios. She watched a tall boy in navy trunks catch a curl and ride it smoothly to shore—and envied him both his skill and his freedom.

If she couldn’t have the second, Emma decided, she would work on developing the first.

She waited with the edgy patience of a surfer watching for the right wave. Sucking in her breath, she brought herself up to a crouch on the board, then stood, and with the faith of the young let the roll take her. She was up for nearly ten seconds before she overbalanced. When she surfaced, she saw the boy in the navy trunks glance her way, tossing his wet, dark hair out of his face with a careless hand. Pride had her struggling back onto the board.

She tried again, and again, each time lasting only seconds before the wave snatched the board from under her feet and sent her flying. Each time she dragged herself back on the board, and with muscles aching, paddled and waited.

She imagined the bodyguards sipping their warming drinks and discussing how clumsy she was. Each failure became a public humiliation and made her only more determined to succeed, just once. Just once to ride the wave all the way to shore.

Her leg muscles trembled as she pushed herself up. She could
see the wave curling toward her, the glassy blue-green tunnel, the dancing white froth. She wanted it. Needed it. Just one ride—one success completely and totally her own.

She caught it. Her heart slammed into her throat as she skimmed along the pipe. She could see the beach rushing toward her, the glint of the binocular lens. The drum of water was like music in her head, in her heart. For an instant she tasted it. Freedom.

The tower of water closed in behind her, shoving her off the board, tossing it and her up. One moment she was in the sun, the next she was tumbling in the wall of water. It slammed her, knocking away her breath, sending her wheeling, arms and legs flailing like rubber.

Lungs burning, she struggled to break the surface. She could see it shimmering above her, but the power of the water dragged her deeper, viciously pitching her. She clawed at the water, then was plunged down, gyrating helplessly until the surface was below her and just as out of reach.

As her strength failed she wondered giddily if she should pray. The Act of Contrition floated dreamily through her brain.

Oh my God I am heartily sorry for having offended thee
.

As she was sucked back, sucked down, the prayer faded and music seemed to fill her head.

Come together. Right now. Over me
.

Panic stabbed through her. It was dark. Dark, and the monsters were back. Her efforts to reach the surface were only wild flailings now. She opened her mouth to scream and gagged.

There were hands on her, and in her terror she fought them, beat at them as the water beat at her. It was the monster, the one who had smiled at her, the one who wanted to kill her as it had killed Darren. As an arm hooked around her throat, red balls danced in front of her eyes. They faded to gray as she broke the surface.

“Just relax,” someone was telling her. “I’ll get you in. Just hang on and relax.”

She was choking. Emma started to drag at the arm around her throat before she realized it wasn’t cutting off her air. She could see the sun, and when she dragged in a painful breath it was air that burned her throat, not water. She was still alive. The tears started as much in shame as in gratitude.

“You’re going to be okay.”

She laid a hand on the arm around her. “I wiped out,” she managed.

There was a chuckle, quick and a little breathless. “Big time. But, man, you had a hell of a ride first.”

Yes, she had, she realized, and concentrated on not humiliating herself further by being sick. Then there was sand, hot and rough on her skin. She let her rescuer lay her down, but the first faces she saw were of her bodyguards. Too weak to speak, she sent them a furious look. It didn’t make them back off, but it kept them from coming closer.

“Don’t try to stand up for a few minutes.”

Emma turned her head, coughed up some seawater. There was music—the Eagles, she thought groggily. “Hotel California.” There had been music before, in the dark, but she couldn’t remember the words now, or the melody. She coughed again, blinked against the dazzle of sunlight then focused on her savior.

The boy in the navy trunks, she thought and managed a weak smile. Water was dripping from his dark hair. His eyes were dark too, rich deep gray, as clear as lake water.

“Thanks.”

“Sure.” He settled down beside her, feeling awkward in the role of white knight. The guys would razz him for weeks. But he couldn’t bring himself to just leave her there. She was only a kid, after all. A great-looking kid, he thought—then felt still more awkward. He gave her shoulder a brotherly pat and thought she had the biggest, bluest eyes he’d ever seen.

“I guess I lost my board.”

He shielded his eyes with the flat of his hand as he looked out to sea. “No. Fred’s bringing it in. It’s a nice board.”

“I know. I’ve only had it for a couple of weeks.”

“Yeah, I’ve seen you around.” He glanced back down at her. She’d risen up on her elbows and her wet curls tumbled down her back. Her voice was pretty, he thought, sort of soothing and musical. “You English or something?”

“Irish. For the most part. We’ll be here only a few more days.” She sighed as the boy named Fred dragged in her board. “Thanks.” Not knowing what else to say, she concentrated on rubbing the wet sand from her knee.

The boy in the navy trunks gave Fred and the others who had gathered around a friendly wave that sent them about their business.

“When my father hears about this, he’ll never let me surf again.”

“Why does he have to hear about it?”

“He always does.” She made a concentrated effort not to look at her bodyguards.

“Everybody wipes out.” Beautiful eyes, he thought again, then looked deliberately out to sea. “You were doing pretty good.”

“Really.” She colored a bit. “You’re wonderful. I’ve watched you.”

“Thanks.” He grinned and showed a chipped tooth.

Emma stared at him as memory came flooding back. “You’re Michael.”

“Yeah.” His grin widened. “How’d you know?”

“You don’t remember me.” She pushed herself up to sit. “I met you, well, it was a long time ago. I’m Emma. Emma McAvoy. Your father brought you to the rehearsal hall one afternoon.”

“McAvoy?” Michael dragged a hand through his dripping hair. “Brian McAvoy?” As he said the name he saw Emma take a quick look round to see if anyone had heard him. “I remember you. You sent me a picture. I’ve still got it.” His eyes narrowed as he glanced over his shoulder. “So that’s what they’re doing here,” he murmured, studying the guards. “I thought they were narcs or something.”

“Bodyguards,” she said dully, then shrugged it off. “My father worries.”

“Yeah, I bet.” He remembered, clearly, the police photograph of a little boy. It left him with nothing else to say.

“I remember your father.” She began to draw idle circles in the sand. “He came to the hospital to see me after we lost my brother.”

“He’s a captain now,” Michael said for lack of anything else.

“That’s nice.” She’d been raised to be polite under any circumstances. “You’ll tell him I said hello, won’t you?”

“Sure.” They ran out of things to say so that the whoosh of the waves filled the gaps. “Ah, listen, do you want a Coke or something?”

She looked up, dazzled to be asked. It was the first time in her life she had had more than a five-minute conversation with a boy. Men, certainly. Her life had been full of men. But being
asked to have a Coke with a boy only a few years her senior was a wonderful, and heady, experience. She nearly agreed before she remembered the guards. She couldn’t bear them watching.

“Thanks, but I’d better go. Da was going to pick me up in a couple of hours, but I don’t think I’m up to any more surfing today. I’ll have to call him.”

“I could take you.” He made a restless movement with his shoulders. It was stupid to feel so tongue-tied with a kid. But he couldn’t remember being more nervous since he’d asked Nancy Brimmer to the ninth-grade Valentine’s Dance. “Give you a ride home,” he continued as Emma stared at him. “If you want.”

“You probably have something you want to do.”

“No. Not really.”

He wanted to meet her father again, Emma decided after one ecstatic moment. A boy like him—why, he must have been at least eighteen—wouldn’t be interested in her. But the daughter of Brian McAvoy was different. She drummed up another smile as she got to her feet. He had saved her life. If seeing her father was the only payment she could make, then she would make it.

“I’d like a ride, if it’s not too much trouble.”

“No big deal.” He caught himself before he shifted his feet in the sand. She probably thought he was a jerk.

“I’ll just be a minute.” She rushed off in the direction of the guards, snatching up her beach wrap and bag on the way. “My friend is giving me a ride home,” she said in her most dismissive tone.

“Miss McAvoy.” The guard named Masters cleared his throat. “It would be better if you called your father.”

“There’s no need to bother him.”

The second guard, Sweeney, mopped his sweaty forehead. “Your father wouldn’t like you taking rides from strangers.”

“Michael’s not a stranger.” The haughty tone made her feel nasty inside, but she would not, could not, be humiliated in front of Michael. “I know him, and so does my father. Michael’s father is a captain on the police force here.” She pulled the long, rainbow-colored T-shirt over her suit. “You’ll be following behind us, so what does it matter?” She turned, and keeping her head up, walked back to where Michael waited with their boards.

“Hold it.” Sweeney put a hand on Masters’s shoulder. “Let’s give the kid a break. She don’t get many.”

Michael’s gas gauge was hovering dangerously close to empty
when he pulled up at the high iron gates in Beverly Hills. He saw the faint surprise on the guard’s face before the switch was thrown and the gates swung inward. He was sorry as he drove down the tree-lined drive that he had nothing but scruffy sandals and his old track jersey to wear with his bathing trunks.

The house was all pink stone and white marble, four towering stories of it that took up more than an acre of the trim green lawn. Double arched doors of etched glass stood at the entrance. He wasn’t sure if he should be amused or impressed by the peacock that strutted across the grass.

“Nice place.”

“It’s P.M.’s really. Or P.M.’s wife’s.” Emma found herself faintly embarrassed by the life-sized marble lions that flanked the entrance. “It used to belong to someone in the cinema—I can never remember who—but Angie did it all over. Anyway, she’s in Europe filming so we’re staying a few weeks. Have you got time to come in?”