Pawleys Island-lowcountry 5 (11 page)

It may have been a conceit to admit, but I was itching to dismember Harry Albright almost as much as I relished the vision of Nat Simms writing checks for Rebecca. It made me feel lighthearted.

I looked around my living room, which until that moment had seemed like a perfectly fine living room to me—two old lumpy sofas, slip-covered in charcoal ticking, two old armchairs with ottomans, upholstered in pale blue pinwale corduroy, a scuffed up walnut coffee table from the Ding Dynasty, with neat stacks of
National Geographic
magazines from the seventies and every end table sagging under the weight of family photographs that chronicled our lives. The furniture needed Botox worse than I did.

What did it mean that I had kept things as they had been for fifty years? Did I think that keeping my parent’s furniture and even the layout somehow kept them alive? No, that was too weird to consider. My encounters with them were for late nights on the porch. I think the state of my décor meant I was too lazy to do anything about it.

I had a cell phone in hand, and my parent’s old rotary phone from the sixties sat on the phone table—end of office equipment inventory. I had no fax, no copier, no laptop, no printer. It didn’t exactly look like Churchill’s war room.

I decided I would use my parent’s old bedroom as an office. Why not? It had great light. I pushed open the door and looked inside for the first time in a very long while. It did not have great light. The windows hadn’t been washed since I had moved in. The shades were yellowed and split. Their old creaking iron bed and nightstands were still there, made up for company that never came. Two overstuffed chairs upholstered in sun-rotted floral print chintz sat in front of the windows that faced the beach. I mean, we Pawleys Islanders prided ourselves on being “arrogantly shabby,” but this was testimony to the state of denial in which I had been living. When I had moved in permanently three years ago, I hadn’t noticed any of these flaws.

The bedroom needed everything. At the very least, the bedroom needed to be thoroughly dusted and cleaned. The housekeeping required was beyond my available time. I would ask Byron if he could help me find someone to pull this place together and maybe even maintain it.

I decided to begin the reluctant resurrection of my career by buying a laptop and a printer. Although I was determined that Rebecca’s case would be the only one I would handle, I could use a laptop and a printer for many other purposes—shopping, general correspondence and reading about the outside world on the odd occasion when the mood struck.

I knew there was an office supply store or something like it on Highway 17 that would do the job. These were places I had diligently avoided since I retired, and now I was about to be a customer.

I pulled into the parking lot of the shopping center and sat in my car thinking about what was ahead of me. I didn’t want to go back to work. I mean, I
really
did not want to print business cards and letterhead. But Nat’s behavior was so well, evil. Nat Simms had all the earmarks of a narcissistic sociopath. If I had believed in demonic possession, I would have said that Nat Simms might be an example of it.

No matter how successful I had ever been, this would not be easy. I was in for a fight. Experience told me that Nat Simms and Harry Albright would do everything in their power to discredit Rebecca and see the judgment stand. I knew that the judge’s decision was a terrible mistake but at the same time, it was clear that I would have to take this one careful step at a time to earn the win.

I
was pretty well caught up on all the framing jobs at the gallery, so I took the day off to paint. Huey was sweet about it. He knew I was a bundle of nerves. I was.

I was in the middle of setting up my easel and thinking about how screwed up I had become. With each passing day, it was increasingly hard to concentrate on anything. I was upset all the time. In fact, I think I was more upset since Abigail had taken over than I had been when Nat had me thrown out. Maybe that was because I had seen Nat’s blow coming and now I didn’t know what would happen. The only thing working in my favor was that I didn’t have anything else to lose.

I wouldn’t say I was elated to have someone like Abigail in my corner because I didn’t want to rehash everything. She was the kind of person who would dig and dig. However, when her PI friend produced those pictures, I realized that Nat was a complete liar. Almost comical, really, except that he had the house, the kids and all the money. If Abigail could at least work out a better settlement, then it might be worth it to suffer some more. One thing was for sure, unless there was a huge change in their attitudes, I didn’t want to go back to Charleston and raise those kids.

Last night I sent my children emails at camp again. No response. I could see on the server that they had been opened and I assumed delivered. Last week I sent Evan a box of water guns for every boy in his cabin. It was a surprise gift, bought in a moment of thinking I had to win them back. I mean, even though Evan had sided with Nat, he was still my baby.

I called the camp to see if he had received them and they said, oh yes, all the boys were having a wonderful time spraying each other, the weather was very hot. But when I asked the young counselor if I could speak to Evan he hemmed and hawed around and then said they couldn’t find him. I knew it was a lie. Evan didn’t want to talk to me. Can you imagine how that made me feel?

Sami was worse. I sent her daily emails with no response. I could understand that a young boy didn’t answer mail, or maybe he was afraid to because communicating with me might incite Nat. But my only daughter? What was more painful was that I had written her a letter trying to explain that while I didn’t understand her animosity toward me, I loved her, I would always be her mother and no one could ever replace her in my heart. I told her about a Christmas I remembered, when she was about six. She had asked Santa for and received her first life-sized baby doll. She was so adorable with it. I would stand in the hall outside her door and listen to her repeat the same words to her doll that I spoke to her.
Please don’t cry, baby. You know your momma loves you. There now, that’s better…
I guess I had hoped she would remember too. But there was no response to my letter. I was numb from that rejection.

I began to paint, and the next thing I knew I found myself trying to paint that same baby doll, undressed, walking toward the viewer and away from something. What was she leaving behind? Or who? I drew in a shadow figure of an old man wearing a hat. The undressed baby and the fully clothed man seemed slightly obscene. What in the world had possessed me to create such a thing? It didn’t matter. I had discovered that sometimes painting was like exorcism. It could rid me of demons and bad feelings about almost anything.

My cell phone that never rang rang and I walked over to the table to answer it. It was Abigail.

“Hi! You busy?” she said.

“No, just painting a very strange picture…”

“Oh. Well, good, good…” She could not have been less interested and began to update me on Nat. “Nat’s attorney received the interrogatory, and let me tell you, he is plenty mad too.”

“Why?”

“Because of the questions we are asking him to answer. Remember?”

“Well, I’m glad I’m here and not there. Nat would probably be throwing pots and pans at my head.”

“The good news is that he has to answer them honestly, because if he lies about anything it could be treated as perjury.”

I could hear the excitement in Abigail’s voice, but it wasn’t like she had anything to be excited about, as far as I could tell. At least not so far.

“You know, Abigail, he’s gonna tell his attorney nothing but a bunch of lies. Nat lies to everybody all the time.”

“Probably. Why in the world do people act like that?”

“Abigail?” Where and how do you explain somebody like Nat to a normal rational person? I took a deep breath. “For a couple of reasons. One, I guess he knows that he can get away with it. And two, he rearranges the truth so that people will like him and think he’s wonderful. Nat thinks it’s more important for people to like him than it is for them to think he’s smart or anything else. You see, half the time he lies on purpose and the other half of the time he doesn’t know the difference.”

“Sounds a little pathological to me.”

“It made living with him pretty difficult.”

“I’m sure.”

“I was always apologizing for him. But that same craziness sure made it easy for him to sell a lot of cars.”

“I’ll bet. Well, I’m gonna play nine holes this afternoon. But I’m on my cell if you need me for anything.”

“Why would I have to bother you, hon? You go play and have fun.” I thought I sounded kind of upbeat just then and that not only pleased me but I could hear some relief in her voice as well.

“Well, Rebecca, I don’t want to alarm you, but the cat is out of the bag, isn’t it?”

“Listen, Nat doesn’t know I’m here, and anyway, he knows my cell number and have I heard from him in all this time? No. I have not. He’s too busy screwing his slut to check on his wife.” Then, for the first time since my arrival at Pawleys Island, I really giggled. And Abigail, on the other end of the line (no doubt decked out in black-and-white golf clothes), giggled too. It felt pretty good.

Pretty good until the phone rang again, that is.

It was Huey. He had cracked a crown and had to rush to the dentist. Could I come and cover for him? Of course I would. So much for my painting day.

I changed clothes and hurried over to the gallery, taking another glance at the doll painting. It was beautiful and bizarre all at once. I wondered what Huey would say about it.

“You’re an angel!” Huey said on his way out.

“Don’t think a thing about it,” I said to his back.

The door closed and there I was alone in the gallery for the first time. It seemed very empty and too quiet. Well, I thought, pulling my sketchpad out of my bag, this might be a good time to draw. But as luck would have it, a customer came in, a nice-looking man.

“Hi! If I can help you with anything, let me know,” I said.

“Okay, thanks.”

Most people just liked to browse, and I wasn’t a pushy salesperson anyway. A little while passed, and I noticed him standing in front of a painting of a creek scene.

“That’s a beautiful painting, isn’t it?”

“Yes, it is,” he said. “I’m looking for a gift for my fiancée for her birthday, and I thought she might like something like this. It looks like Shem Creek, and we spend a lot of time there because she has a bakery in this restaurant…”

“Wait a minute. Do you mean Mimi’s?”

“Yeah, do you know it?”

“Are you kidding? Her pound cake? To die!”

He chuckled a little and said, “Yeah, she’s something else. We’re getting married next summer. By the way, I’m Jack Taylor.”

“Lord! Where are my manners? I’m Rebecca Simms.”

He bought the painting and was thrilled about giving it to her. What a nice man, I thought, watching him leave.

Several hours passed and no one called or came in. I began drawing another doll and then Evan’s favorite Paddington Bear, and somehow they were personified in a way that was so spooky they gave me goose bumps. All my sorrow was present in those toys. The tourists would never buy them in a million years and neither would any interior decorator I had ever known.

I jumped at the sound of the doorbell. It was Huey. He was holding a handkerchief on his swollen lip and his jaw was very puffy.

“Hi!” I said. “How’s your tooth?”

“Uh gawt tho mutch Novocaine tha Uhm dwooling!”

It wasn’t funny but I suppressed a laugh with both hands.

“Poor thing! Let me get you an ice pack!” I ran back to his office, where the refrigerator was. It didn’t have an ice maker, but regulation plastic ice trays. Huey was on my heels. I popped out some cubes and wrapped them in a kitchen towel.

“Thaks. Uck. I juss hay tha dennis.”

“Good thing you have this fridge here. Okay, hold this on your face.”

“I haff ta haff a kithen—Uh maigh staave!”

“Yeah, sure.”

“Well…”

The phone rang and I grabbed it away from him, knowing that if he had spoken, the caller would surely think they had the wrong number.

“Gallery Valentine!” I sang out in as chipper a voice as I had heard myself use in weeks.

“Becca?”

“Nat?”

“I want to talk to you!”

He was screaming so loud that I had to hold the phone away from my head.

“How did you find me?”

“What’s the difference, Becca? And just who the hell is this
bitch,
Abigail Thurmond? I mean, who do you think you are? You know, my lawyer calls me and tells me you have a new lawyer, this old retired hack, Thurmond.”

“What?”

“Yeah, hack. Goddamn it, Becca, you’re so pathetically stupid it’s almost criminal! You hired a washed-up loser and you don’t even know it!”

“Stop it! She’s not a washed-up anything, Nat, and I wish you would stop screaming!”

He laughed and said
Whoo yeah!
I could just see him shaking his head the way he always did when he was telling me how wrong I was about anything and everything. I looked at Huey, whose eyes were wide in surprise as he hung on every word. My face got hot and my whole body broke out in a cold sweat, making me shiver.

“You listen to me, Becca. What the hell is this? I mean,
You will please take notice that you are hereby required to answer in writing the following interrogatories, pursuant to Rule 33(b) of the South Carolina Rules of Civil Procedure and Rule 25 of the South Carolina Rules of Family Court
…You know what, Becca? I had been sitting here thinking maybe you and I could work things out—you know, go to a marriage counselor or something and try to get back together. But with this bullshit staring me in the face? I don’t think so, Becca. No, I don’t think I want to be with you anymore because of what you have done. It’s obvious you don’t trust me and…”

Huey was scribbling madly and pushed his note across the desk for me to see.

Tell him to tell his lawyer to call Abigail! Don’t let him harass you!

I looked at it and nodded my head. Nat was still raging like a lunatic.

“She wants my income tax returns for the last seven years! She wants all my bank statements! My credit card statements! I don’t even know where they are! Do you know how much time it would take to get all this shit together?”

“No,” I said.

“Well, let me assure you, it’s time I don’t have! Just listen to this question!
Have you ever smoked marijuana or used any kind of illegal drugs?
What kind of bullshit is this? Me smoke pot? You must be out of your fucking mind, Becca! And this!
Have you ever been arrested for driving under the influence of alcohol?
Tell your stupid lawyer, Becca, just tell her that if I had, it would be matter of public record and she can go get off her fat ass, go down to the courthouse and look it up!”

At this point, Huey was gesturing wildly for my attention and mouthing,
Hang up! Just hang up!
I shook my head at him. I couldn’t hang up because I wanted to hear what he would say next. You see, at the Nat Simms’s School of Abusive Behavior, I had mastered the skill of standing still while the firing squad did its job.

“Wait! Listen to this, Becca!
Have you ever viewed or purchased pornography on the Internet or shopped at an adult bookstore?
I mean, what the fuck is the matter with you? Are you completely fucking crazy now? Is that what’s happened to you? You run off to Pawleys Island, and what? Get some job selling clown paintings with big sad eyes? God! You’re such a loser!”

“No,” I said. “That’s not what I’m doing, and I am not a loser, Nat.”

“Then what do you want me to think?”

The gallery door opened and Huey left to see who had come in. Huey was thoroughly offended by the language he heard Nat use and by his aggressive tone.

“Nat? You’re going to think what you want to think. All I want you to do is answer the questions honestly. That’s all. And Nat?”

“What?”

“Please don’t call me at work.”

“Call you at work? You’re goddamn lucky I didn’t drive up there and beat the crap out of you…”

That was when I put the phone back in its cradle. I just hung up. I was so light-headed that I knew if I didn’t sit down I would faint. He had said he was thinking about us getting back together? Did he break up with Charlene? Did he mean it? Was he finally sorry? Was I crazy? I put my head in my hands and considered having a good cry, and then I felt Huey’s hand on my shoulder.

“Thoo all ight, honey?”

Well, at least his Novocaine was wearing off. Somewhat. “How could I be?” I looked up at him and I could see that he was worried.

“Nuh, of course thoo aren’t.” Huey turned his desk chair around and sat opposite me. “Wan to talk abou it?”

“What is there to say?” This was when my eyes started to tear. “He got the interrogatory Abigail sent to his lawyer.” I stopped to take a tissue and wipe my eyes. “Huey? He’s as mad as he can possibly be. He said I was lucky that he didn’t, quote,
come up here and beat the crap out of me
.”

“He threatened you like that? He actually used those words?”

Suddenly, Huey was perfectly articulate.

“Oh, big whoop. He says things like that every five minutes.”

“It’s not right.”

“He doesn’t mean it. He’s too lazy to do it. Guess what else? He said that Abigail was a washed-up hack. That’s not true, is it?”

“Certainly not. She simply doesn’t practice law because she doesn’t need the money.” I looked into his eyes and he added, “She was the finest divorce attorney in South Carolina for years!”