Part of Me
Authors: Kimberly Willis Holt
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For Jerry and Shannonâyou are my home
P
APA LEFT
the summer the windmill broke. Our fields dried up along with Momma's heart and for a while I thought each day was the end of the world. Then the peach tree burst into full bloom and I knew somehow we were going to surviveâMomma, Pie, Possum, and me. Momma must have known, too, because she got out of bed one morning and announced, “I t'ink today is a good day for a picnic.” So we packed a basket with bread and the last jar of dill pickles, and spread a blanket near the trickle of water that used to be Muddy Creek. That afternoon we listened to the mockingbirds' sweet songs, and when the sun set, the cicadas serenaded us all the way home.
That night in bed, Pie curled under the crook of my arm. “You know what, Rose?”
“What?”
“When Papa comes back, he's going to take me to the World's Fair in New York City. I'm going to ride the Ferris wheel a hundred times and eat cotton candy.”
Our little farm outside Amarillo was a long way from New York City. I wondered if Papa was also. I let Pie rattle on and on, though, because she was only nine years old, and because
I
wanted to believe it was true, too.
There was something magical about my little sister. When she was born she came out smiling, dimples and all. Momma named her Vesta Evangeline, but when Papa took one look at her perfectly round face, he said, “You can call her what you want, but she looks just like a pumpkin pie to me.” And from that day on she was Pie to all of us. She truly was like dessertâsweet as sugar, but too much of her could give me a bellyache. Sometimes I just didn't feel like being in a good mood and always seeing the sunny side of life.
The only note Papa had left was for me.
Rosebud, fetch Wilbur to fix the windmill.
I guess he feared Momma would let us die of thirst before she asked for help. Wilbur was Papa's former hired hand. That day he fixed the windmill in exchange for some peach preserves.
“I'll do it for nothing, Mrs. McGee,” Wilbur had said. “Conrad always did right by me.”
Momma straightened her back when he'd mentioned Papa's name. “You take de peaches.” It was an order, not an offer.
Wilbur lifted his hat and wiped his forehead with his kerchief before taking the jars from Momma. “I don't know how long that old thing is gonna work.”
That's why we stopped watering the fields. Momma wanted to make sure there was enough water for us and the peach tree.
We were the only folks around for miles that had peaches. The story goes Papa had teased Momma when she told him she wanted to plant a peach tree here in the Panhandle. But he drove eighty miles to buy one for her. She babied it like a child, always making sure it had enough water and was covered before a freeze. It had even survived the Dust Bowl. Though we almost didn't. While all the farmers around us took government handouts, to keep from losing their farms, Papa struggled. When it came down to feeding us or letting Wilbur go, Papa begged Momma to let him get some government money. “Today it might be losing Wilbur, tomorrow we could lose the farm.”
Momma had folded her arms and narrowed her eyes. “I don't take no charity. And I don't marry no man who take it.”
I wondered if that's why Papa left us. Maybe he thought Momma would give up and turn to the government for help.
One August evening we sat at the table eating dinner and heard shuffling coming from the porch. No one admitted they were hoping that the sound was Papa scraping his boots on the mat instead of the wind causing the cottonwood branch to brush against the pillar. But you could see that hope in all of our eyes, even Momma's.
When Papa left, the smokehouse had two hams and a slab of bacon remaining. By late summer, the meat was gone.
We ate beans and cornbread almost every night. And peaches. Thank goodness for the peaches. We'd picked every last fruit off the tree and Momma had filled all the Mason jars we owned with them. Their sweet juice tasted like honey after eating our bland meals.
The only one brave enough to say anything about it was Pie. “Are we ever going to have meat again?” she asked, twirling a long brown lock with her finger. Momma shot her such a glare that Possum and I left the room to find something to clean.
“If it was cooler, I'd take Radio out and we'd go hunting,” Possum said, smoothing down the cowlick he could never tame. “There's nothing but a few measly squirrels around. And they're too bony to be any good.” Last winter when he was hunting, Possum rescued a puppy and brought him home. Pie named him Radio because she'd wanted an Emerson radio so bad. We were the only family around that couldn't listen to
The Lone Ranger
and
Little Orphan Annie.
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In September, Pie went to fourth grade, Possum to fifth. I entered my freshman year at the high school, happy because my eighth-grade teacher, Mrs. Pratt, would be teaching me again this year. She liked my stories and I treasured the remarks she made on my papersâ
Keep writing. This is outstanding. Your descriptions are lovely.
Our nearest neighbors lived half a mile away, but word about Papa must have traveled to them. The Saturday before Christmas, the Calvary Baptist Church Visiting Committee came by with food. We had attended services there with Papa, but Momma was a Catholic from Louisiana and often said, “I worship at home before I do it in a Baptist church.”
Once when she said that, Papa had winked at me and whispered, “It was good enough for her to get married in.”
Papa teased that he kidnapped a Cajun princess and hauled her all the way to the Texas Panhandle. Those were the kind of moments I tried not to think ofâPapa with his little winks and wisecracks that sometimes made even Momma laugh. Mostly they had made her mad. These days anger seemed to be the only thing that could swallow her sadness. Now if she broke a glass, it was Papa's fault. She said his name like a curse until the words “Conrad McGee” faded away and were never heard in our house again. Except for the winter day the Calvary Baptist Church Visiting Committee came calling.
From the kitchen window I watched them walk toward the porch with baskets in their hands. The wind whipped at their skirt hems, exposing their white slips. Skinny Mrs. Ingle wore a red hat while both Miss Thunderwood and Mrs. Cooper wore blue from head to toe. They reminded me of two plump blue jays and a frail cardinal.
“Hello, Rose,” Miss Thunderwood said when I opened the door. “My, you're a pretty thing.”
Mrs. Ingle centered her hat, which had slid to the right side of her head. “My word, Marie. Is that a peach tree out front?”
“Yes,” Momma mumbled.
Mrs. Ingle shook her head in disbelief. “I didn't know peaches would grow up here. My cousin grows them, but he lives all the way over in Hedley.”
Momma made them some coffee while they settled at our kitchen table. Possum and I tried not to stare at the baskets of food, even though our mouths watered from the aroma. But Pie just bolted into the room and asked, “What smells so good?”
Miss Thunderwood pinched Pie's cheeks. “Why, honey, we've got biscuits and gravy and fried chicken with corn on the cob.” She still had ahold of Pie's cheeks when she added, “You are the spitting image of your daddy.”
Pie pulled away from Miss Thunderwood and stepped closer to one of the baskets covered with a gingham cloth. I could see her fingers just itching to dive inside.
Then Miss Thunderwood looked up at Momma. “Where is Conrad anyway?”
“Yes,” said Mrs. Cooper, “where is that rascal?” She took a sip of Momma's strong coffee, then squinted.
Mrs. Ingle chirped up, joining in with the blue jays. “We haven't seen him or the children in months.”
Momma's hands flew to her hips. “You bring dis food for my children and me because you t'ink we are starving without Conrad?”
“Oh, goodness no,” said Mrs. Thunderwood. “We're just out visiting andâ”
Momma picked up the baskets one at a time, and one at a time, handed them back to the ladies of the Visiting Committee from Calvary Baptist Church. They were out the door and driving away from our house in no time. My stomach growled and I thought Pie was going to burst into tears. Possum walked out of the room and I heard him kick the wall. Somehow I felt like everything I'd hoped for went outside the door with those baskets. It was only food, I kept trying to convince myself. But it was as if my dreams of becoming a writer were tucked between the biscuits and the fried chicken.
That night I slipped my sweater over my nightgown and stepped onto the porch. I needed the cool air, but most of all I needed to get away from Momma. I collapsed onto the porch swing and rocked back and forth on the balls of my feet. The sky was black and the stars covered it like sugar sprinkled across a cookie. I was thankful that I couldn't look out and see the dry fields that made me think of Papa and how hard he'd worked trying to keep them watered. And I was glad that I couldn't make out the road leading up to our house. Many days I stared at it so long that I could almost imagine Papa walking toward us, smiling like he was about to burst with the best news in the world.
Straightening my legs, I held the swing back for a moment. Then I heard something hit the wood floor.
It was too dark to see so I patted the floor, searching until I felt two books and an envelope. Maybe the church ladies dropped them accidentally. I took off my sweater and wrapped the items with it before going inside the house.