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Authors: Allen Steele

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He found a bottle of Cutty Sark in the wheelhouse and poured her a shot into a cheap plastic cup filled with packing ice which smelled vaguely of shrimp.

As the pod inflated, he rested his left hand on the chest rocket’s firing switch and watched as the artificial horizon slowly settled itself into position, millimeter by millimeter. His breath was rasping in his throat.

While she drank
,
sitting on top of a locker on the aft deck
,
he untied and cast off the ropes
,
then went into the wheelhouse and started the engines. The
Jumbo Shrimp II
rumbled deep within and her dual inboard diesels plowed a white froth of water from her stern
,
and she pulled away from the dock as he pointed her blunt bow toward the cool blue Gulf waters beyond the harbor. Laura bitched about the way her drink tasted and asked if he had any coke.

When the heat shield was fully erected—a huge, stiff umbrella behind his back—he watched his gauges, waiting for the moment to come. Moments later it did, and he pressed the rocket’s firing switch.

He looked at her
,
and said
, “
I’m sorry
.”

Laura shook her head.

No
,”
she said
,
her voice a lazy
,
stoned drawl.

You should never say sorry. Sorry is how you’ll always be if you keep saying you’re sorry
,
so never say you’re sorry. Never
,
never
,
never
.”
She shook her head vigorously back and forth
,
her hair flying across her face
,
shrouding it with fine
,
moving wisps of brown. Then she gazed at him with smiling lips and hungry eyes and said
, “
Well
, do
you have any coke
?”

The miniature rocket engine flared, a nova exploding against his chest, and its sudden thrust kicked him backwards; his eyes squeezed shut, and for a moment he thought that he had mounted it on his suit incorrectly, that the engine would stamp through his body or scorch a part of his suit. Then he opened his eyes and saw that the engine had already died, its white-hot parasol of liquid fuel exhausted. That single thrust was all he needed to escape from orbit. Now he was falling to Earth. He unstrapped the engine and tossed it away with one hand.

He had intended
,
first
,
to throw away the cocaine he had bought from Rocky
,
and second
,
to tell her that he had thrown it away. He had even intended to dump it into the water as she watched
,
to show her how easily the precious dope dissolved in common salt water
,
a demonstration of how little it was worth compared to the money he had spent on it. But he did neither. He told her where to look in the wheelhouse
,
and she grinned and took it out of its hiding place next to the fire extinguisher while he watched
,
cursing his own weakness. As he steered the
Shrimp
out into open water
,
he observed Laura out of the corner of his eye
:
carefully tapping a tiny white mound out onto the glass dial of his compass
,
using a rusty scaling knife to cut the mound into four uneven white lines
,
rolling a limp dollar between her fingers into a tube
,
all with the practiced ease of someone who knew how to use this stuff. Meanwhile she kept up her side of a conversation in which only she participated
,
a monologue about movies she had seen and how much she loved old Dustin Hoffman films and how she was thinking about sending in an application to the University of California at Los Angeles so that she could take graduate level courses in filmmaking
,
if only she wasn’t so involved with teaching herself
,
and
God,
Claude
,
this stuff is dynamite
,
you want some
?
He shook his head slightly
,
no
,
and couldn’t help but notice the avarice in her eyes as she bent over the two remaining lines on the compass

she had saved the smaller ones for him

and inhaled them greedily through the dollar tube
: snuuuuf,
sigh
, snuuuuuuff!
sigh.

It seemed as if it was only a couple of seconds after he had released the rocket that he began feeling the first hints of turbulence, the signs that he was making contact with the upper atmosphere: a jar to the left, a jar to the right, a sudden dipping sensation which felt as if he had been suddenly thrown backwards ten feet, then bounced back out again. His stomach felt cramped and roiling; he willed himself against nausea, knowing that within minutes it was going to get far worse. Through either side of his helmet he could see flat planes of incandescent white; straight ahead, a narrowing cone of starfield. He gasped, feeling suddenly afraid, and gulped down his panic. Concentrate on something, he told himself. Anything. His mind burped up a fragment: a line from a song Virgin Bruce used to croon sometimes. “Goin’ home… goin’ home…” he whispered, trying to recall the tune. “Goin’ home… goin’ home… by the water’s… by the waterside I will rest my bones…”

Then he was pitched into the maelstrom and he screamed.

They were out on the aft deck

Oh no, oh God, don’t focus on that, don’t think about that. He clutched at the hand controls, useless while he made his journey to Hell, clenching his teeth until he could feel his molars grinding and his jaw muscles turning to iron, his eyelids fluttering as he fought to keep them open, his guts turning into a stiff, hollow cavity as he shook violently and dropped backwards into a bottomless pit all at once. Was that a warning light going off inside his helmet? He couldn’t see it long enough to be sure. Don’t think of Laura, don’t think about the boat, don’t…

She kept on talking as they cruised out toward the setting sun
,
the boat’s prow cutting through the whitecaps
,
staring through the salt and fly-specked windows of the wheelhouse at the silver-blue sea under the sun
,
which was now only the width of two fingers from the straight flat horizon
:
how she liked the kids in her class except for a trio of boys who played terrorist and stole other kids’ lunches and wrote things on the bulletin boards
,
and why the PTA meetings were a hassle
,
where she and Doug the gym teacher whom she suspected had a little crush on her went for a drink after work

a garbled mishmash of sense and fantasy and bullshit that warbled somewhere on the outermost externality of his consciousness as he refilled her Scotch and water and stared at her tits.

Then
,
in the middle of Doug and kids and movies and

Gee did you know it was Bob Dylan’s birthday last week
?
I always loved listening to that stuff
”—
in fact
,
while she was saying that Dylan was the greatest love-song writer of the last century

came the hurriedly murmured
,
just-barely understated:

You got any more coke
?”

Damn her for laughing, he prayed through the vibration and the roar that he heard in his ears and felt through his backside. Then in horror he realized for what he had been praying. Oh, no… oh no, Lord, she’s not damned. Give me to Hell, not her. Not her.
(Wham
! he pitched backwards another hundred feet in a fraction of a second.)
Not her
!

“God!” he screamed, in that instant as his one-man heat shield was enveloped in a cushion of white-hot plasma, as four gees piled on his chest and his personal fireball reached a velocity of 600 miles per hour.


You think I enjoyed this
?”
She held up her right hand
,
displaying the gold wedding band in front of his face.

You think I ever enjoyed it
?
Don’t you accuse me of using you
!
All you ever did was use
me,
you bastard
!”
She yanked the ring off with a sudden
,
twisting motion
,
then whirled and threw it overboard. He ran to the side of the boat and leaned over in a vain attempt to save the ring
,
but saw only a glint of gold disappearing into the blue. Gone
,
forever gone

The heat was becoming unbearable; searing, broiling, sweat pouring down his face, stinging his eyes, as the turbulence buffeted his body like pile-drivers impacting against the oblate shield.

He swung the boathook
,
and although he closed his eyes at the last moment
,
he could see in his mind’s eye its steel end crash into the back of Laura’s skull at the same instant as the dull thunk of metal connecting with soft flesh and bone transmitted itself through the long handle
….

“Oh, dear God, forgive me!” he shouted against the roaring around him, and knew that forgiveness was out of the question. He was a falling angel, a Lucifer in transit from Heaven to Hell. Just as he had attempted to escape his conscience by going into space, now he was confronting ill-buried memories in the last instants of his life, in his long, violent plummet back to Earth.

The night was dark and moonless, the sea was calm, the stars shined with an icy, fragile beauty in a clear sky. He lay in the bottom of the inflatable life raft, exhausted, his feet and arms propped up on the sides of the raft, the plastic paddle lying in his lap. His clothes smelled of gasoline, and he knew that he would have to jump overboard to get the incriminating stench out of his clothes before he reached shore or was picked up.

But then again, maybe not. He looked back over his shoulder again at the small, burning shape on the horizon, like a funeral barge on the Gulf waters. His alibi would be believed; he knew that already. A blocked fuel line. Laura with a lit cigarette, standing too close to the open fuel tank while he was below decks trying to clear the line. An explosion that killed her instantly; he himself with only moments to ditch into the water, with the raft, with not even enough time to radio a Mayday while the
Jumbo Shrimp II
was going up in flames.

He wouldn’t have to pretend his horror.

Why did she have to laugh? he asked himself again. Why did she have to tell him that their love was, and always had been, a joke, their marriage a convenience? Why had she stolen from him to support her habit? And, oh Jesus, Laura, why did you have to take the last measure of my self-respect, the last ornament of my delusions, and throw it into the sea?

“I didn’t need to kill you,” he murmured, as his head sank back against the cold wet plastic of the life raft.

Hooker knew that he would reach shore by morning. The tide would carry him in, and he could be an appropriate shipwreck victim, a man who had lost his ex-wife to a tragic mishap on the high seas. The Cedar Key police and the Coast Guard would believe his story. But now there was the future to consider. His life had effectively ended at the same instant as he had ended her with the boathook; he had destroyed his source of livelihood when he had soaked the boat with a can of gasoline and dropped a lit match on the deck near her body. In more ways than one, he was adrift.

Gazing up at the night sky, he made out a tiny ring of light, not much larger than the diameter of his little finger. Fascinated, he stared at it for a minute before he recognized it for what it was. The Olympus space station. He recalled the newscast he had watched only that morning (had it been only such a short time ago?) in his cabin.

He gazed at it, his head resting on the raft’s side, fixed upon it with a growing sense of wonder that he had not felt since he was very young, when he had tacked up pictures of space shuttles and floating astronauts on the walls of his bedroom, when his dreams had been alive and he felt his destiny was not as a fisherman but as an astronaut. A pure feeling that seemed to ripple through him again, bringing back an aura of innocence which now seemed well beyond his grasp.

Out of grasp, perhaps, but not beyond reach. Skycorp, the company which had built Olympus Station, was now hiring men to build the world’s first space solar power satellite. Hooker had seen the advertisements in the newspapers, knew that the company was not restricting the job search to trained pilots or mission specialists. There was the possibility that even he could qualify….

He continued to stare up at the tiny little ring in the sky. Yes. There was an escape. There was a way to run from himself, from his unforgivable crime. He could leave Earth and the ashes of his past far behind, take up a new life in the cosmos. Claude Hooker: astronaut, pioneer of the high frontier, builder of the future.

He would make a new life for himself in space. He would never look back.

Suddenly, the heat was gone, the violent shocks had diminished in strength to be replaced by a smooth sensation of falling.

Hooker opened his eyes, and saw deep blue sky and a sun which, although bright, was nowhere near as intense as he had come to expect. Through his helmet he could hear a high-pitched keening whistle, as the wind whipped past him.

His eyes went wide, and he didn’t have to check his gauges to know where he was. He had survived the initial reentry and was now tens of thousands of feet above the ground, somewhere in the stratosphere.

Hooker pulled a handle on the control arm, and felt the heat shield lift away from him like a carapace being discarded by an insect. As he tumbled forward, he caught a glimpse of its blackened, scarred round shape before the cold winds of the upper atmosphere snapped and folded its fragile structure.

The world stretched out before him, the uppermost cloud layers still miles below him. He had no idea where he was falling, and he didn’t care. The parachute was still strapped to his back. Maybe it would work. Maybe it wouldn’t. Maybe he wouldn’t even bother to find out.

Hooker spread his arms and legs wide, transforming himself into a human kite, and embraced the world below him, feeling the wind drag at his limbs and torso as he made his long, long fall. Nice day for flying, he thought.

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