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Authors: Tanith Lee
woods.
I have wondered if my eyes replied,
I know. I know, but have mercy.
That day, I do not believe there was any mercy in the eyes of the
wolves.
You cannot even survive yourselves,
said the glittering amber eyes.
Ask yourself for charity.
And I have wondered if a mother can pass on dread to her child.
Nix Severn reaches the ladder leading up to the crawlspace, only
to find it engulfed in a tangle of thick vines that have begun to
pull the lockbolts free of the ’tainer wall. She stands in waist-high philodendrons and bracken, glaring up at the damaged ladder.
Briefly, she considers attempting the climb anyway, but is fairly sure her weight would only finish what the vines have begun, and the
resulting fall could leave her with injuries severe enough that she’d be rendered incapable of reaching Oma’s core in time. Or at all.
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• Caitl
Í
n R. Kiernan •
She curses and wraps her right hand around a bundle of the vines,
tugging at them forcefully; the ladder groans ominously, creaks, and leans out a few more centimeters from the wall. She releases the vines and turns towards the round hatchway leading to Three and the next
vegetation-clogged segment of the
Blackbird.
The status report she received when she awoke inside the home-away, what little there was
of it, left no room for doubt that all the terraforming engines had
switched on simultaneously and that every one of the containment
sys banks had failed in a rapid cascade, rolling backwards, stem to
stern. She steps over a log so rotten and encrusted with mushrooms
and moss that it could have laid there for years, not hours. A few
steps farther and she reaches the hatch’s keypad, but her hands are
shaking, and it takes three tries to get the security code right; a fourth failure would have triggered lockdown. The diaphragm whirs, clicks,
and the rusty steel iris spirals open in a hiss of steam. Nix mutters a thankful, silent prayer to no god she actually believes because, so far, none of the wiring permitting access to the short connecting
corridors has been affected.
Nix steps through the aperture, and the hatch promptly spirals
shut behind her, which means the proximity sensors are also still
functional. The corridor is free of any traces of plant or animal life, and she lingers there several seconds before taking the three, four, five more steps to the next keypad and punching in the next access
code. The entrance to Isotainer Three obeys the command, and
forest swallows her again.
If anything, the situation in Three is worse than that in Four. Her
red gloves have to rip away an intertwining wall of creepers and
narrow branches, and then she must scale the massive roots of more
strangler figs before she can make any forward progress whatsoever.
But soon enough she encounters yet another barrier, in the form of
a small pond, maybe five meters across, stretching from one side of
the hull to the other. The water is tannin stained, murky, and half
obscured beneath an emerald algal scum, so there’s no telling how
deep it might be. The forest floor is quite a bit higher than that of the
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• The Road of Needles •
’tainer, so the pool could be deep enough she’d have to swim. And
Nix Severn never learned to swim.
She’s sweating. The readout on her visor informs her that the
ambient temperature has risen to 30.55˚C, and she pushes back
the hood. For now, there’s no rain falling in Three, so there’s only her own sweat to wipe from her eyes and forehead. She kneels and
brushes a hand across the pond, sending ripples rolling towards the
opposite shore.
Behind her, a twig snaps, and there’s a woman’s voice. Nix doesn’t
stand, or even turn to see. Between the shock of so abruptly popping from the dream-away sleep, her subsequent exertion and fear, and
the effects of whatever toxic pollen and spores might be wafting
through the air, she’s been expecting delirium.
“The water is wide, and I can’t cross over,” the voice sings sweetly.
“Neither have I wings to fly.”
“That isn’t you, is it, Oma?”
“No, dear,” the voice replies, and it’s not so sweet anymore; it’s
taken on a gruff edge. “It isn’t Oma. The night presses in all about us, and your grandmother is sleeping.”
There’s nothing sapient aboard but me and Oma, which means I’m
hallucinating.
“Good day, Little Red Riding Hood,” says the voice, and never
mind her racing heart, Nix has to laugh.
“Fuck you,” she says, only cursing her subconscious self, and
stands, wiping wet fingers on her jumpsuit.
“Where are you going so early, Little Red Riding Hood?”
“Is that really the best I could come up with?” Nix asks, turning
now, because how could she not look behind her, sooner or later.
She discovers that there
is
someone standing there; someone or something. Which word applies could be debated.
Or rather,
she thinks,
there is my
delusion
of another presence here with me. It’s
nothing more than that. It’s nothing that can actual y speak or snap a
twig underfoot, excepting in my mind.
In my terror, I have made a monster.
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• Caitl
Í
n R. Kiernan •
“I know you,” Nix whispers. The figure standing between her and
the hatchway back to Four has Shiloh’s kindly hazel-brown eyes, and
even though the similarity ends there, about the whole being there is a nagging familiarity.
“Do you?” it asks. It or she. “Yes, I believe that you do. I believe that you have known me a very, very long while. “Whither so early, Little Red Riding Hood?”
“I’ve never seen you.”
“Haven’t you? As a child, didn’t you once catch me peering in your
bedroom window? Didn’t you glimpse me lurking in an alley? Didn’t
you visit me at the bio that day? Don’t I live beneath your daughter’s bed and in your dreams?”
And now Nix does reach into her left hip pouch for the antipsychotics there. She takes a single step backwards and her boot comes down in
the warm, stagnant pool, sinking in up to the ankle. The splash seems very loud, louder than the atonal symphony of dragonflies buzzing in her ears. She wants to look away from the someone or something she
only
imagines
there before her, a creature more canine than human, an abomination that might have been created in an illicit
sub rosa
recombinant-outcross lab back on earth. A commission for a wealthy
collector, for a private menagerie of designer freaks. Were the creature real. Which it isn’t.
Nix tries to open the Mylar med packet, but it slips through her
fingers and vanishes in the underbrush. The thing licks its muzzle with a mottled blue-black tongue, and Shiloh’s eyes sparkle from its face.
“Are you going across the stones or the thorns?” it asks.
“Excuse me?” Nix croaks, her throat parched, her mouth gone
cottony.
Why did I answer it. Why am I speaking with it at all?
It scowls.
“Don’t play dumb, Nix.”
It knows my name.
It only knows my name because
I
know my name.
“Which
path
are you taking? The one of needles or the one of pins?”
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• The Road of Needles •
“I couldn’t reach the crawls,” she hears herself say, as though the
words are reaching her ears from a great distance. “I tried, but the ladder was broken.”
“Then you are on the Road of Needles,” the creature replies,
curling back its dark lips in a parody of a smile and revealing far too many sharp yellow teeth. “You surprise me,
Petit Chaperon rouge.
I am so rarely ever surprised.”
Enough . . .
My ship is dying all around me, and that’s enough, I will not fucking
see this. I will not waste my time conversing with my id.
Nix Severn turns away, turning much too quickly and much too
carelessly, almost falling face first into the pool. It no longer matters to her how deep the water might be or what might be lurking below
the surface. She stumbles ahead, sending out sprays of the tea-colored water with every step she takes. They sparkle like gems beneath the
artificial sun. The mud sucks at her feet, and soon she’s in up to her chest.
But even drowning would be better,
she assures herself.
Even
drowning would be better.
Nix has been at Shackleton Relay for almost a week, and it will
be almost another week before a shuttle ferries her to the CTV
Blackbird,
waiting in dockside orbit. The cafeteria lights are too bright, like almost everything else in the station, but at least the food is decent. That’s a popular myth among the techs and co-op officers
who never actually spend time at Shackleton, that the food is all but inedible. Truthfully, it’s better than most of what she got growing up.
She listens while another EOT sitter talks, and she pokes at her bowl of udon, snow peas, and tofu with a pair of blue plastic chopsticks.
“I prefer straight up freight runs,” Marshall Choudhury says
around a mouthful of noodles. “But terras, they’re not as hinky as
some of the caps make them out to be. You get redundant safeguards
out the anus.”
“Far as I’m concerned,” she replies, “cargo is cargo. Jaunts are jaunts.”
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• Caitl
Í
n R. Kiernan •
Marshall sets down his own bowl, lays his chopsticks on the
counter beside it.
“Right,” he says. “You’ll get no kinda donnybrook here. None at all.
Just my pref, that’s it. Less hassle hauling hardware and whatnot, less coddling the payload. More free for dream-away.”
Nix shrugs and chews a pea pod, swallows, and tells him, “Fella,
here on my end, the chips are chips, however I may earn them. I’m
just happy to have the work.”
“Speaking of which . . . ” Marshall says, then trails off.
“That your concern now, Choudhury, my personal life?”
“Just one fella’s consideration for a comrade’s, all.”
“Well, as you’ve asked, Shiloh is still nagging me about hooking
something in the yards.” She sets her bowl down and stares at the
broth in the bottom. “Like she didn’t know when I married her, like
she didn’t know before Maia, that I was EOT and had no intent or
interest in ever working anything other than offworld.”
“Lost a wife over it,” he says, as if Nix doesn’t know already. “She gave me the final notice and all, right, but fuck it. Fuck it. She doesn’t know the void. Couldn’t know what she was asking a runner to give
up. Gets wiggled into a fella’s blood, don’t ever get out again.”
Marshall has an ugly scar across the left side of his face, courtesy of a coolant blowout a few years back and the ensuing frostbite. Nix tries to look at him, without letting her eyes linger on the scar, but that’s always a challenge. A wonder he didn’t lose that eye. He would have, if his goggles had cracked.
“Don’t know if that’s the why with me.” She says. “Can’t say. Obviously, I do miss them when I’m out. Sometimes, miss ’em like hell.”
“But that doesn’t stop you flying, doesn’t turn you to the yards.”
“Sometimes, fuck, I wish it would.”
“She gonna walk?” he asks.
“I try not think about that, and I especially try not to think about that just before outbound. Jesus.”
Marshall picks up his bowl and chopsticks, then fishes for a morsel
of tofu.
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• The Road of Needles •
“One day not too far, the cooperatives gonna replace us with
autos,” he sighs, and pops the white cube into his mouth. “So, gotta judge our sacrifices against the raw inevitabilities.”
“Union scare talk,” Nix scoffs, though she knows he’s probably
right. Too many ways to save expenses by completely, finally,
eliminating a human crew.
A wonder it hasn’t happened before now,
she thinks.
“Maybe you ought consider cutting your losses, that’s all.”
“Fella, you only
just
now told me how much choice we don’t have, once the life digs in and it’s all we know. Make up your damn mind.”
“You gonna finish that?” he asks and points at her bowl.
She shakes her head and slides it across the counter to him.
Thinking about Maia and Shiloh, her appetite has evaporated.
“Anyway, point is, no need to fret on a terra run, no more than
anything else.”
“Never said I was fretting. It’s not even my first.”
“No, but that was not my point, fella,” Marshall slurps at the broth left in the bottom of her white bowl, which is the same unrelenting
white as the counter, their seats, the ceiling and walls, the lighting.
When he’s done, he wipes his mouth on a sleeve and says, “Maybe it’s best EOTs stay lone. Avoid the entire mess, start to finish.”
She frowns and jabs a chopstick at him. “Isn’t it rough enough
already without coming back from the black and lonely without
anyone waiting to greet us?”
“There are other comforts,” he says.
“No wonder she left you, you indifferent fuck.”
Marshall massages his temples, then changes the subject. For all
his faults, he’s pretty good at sensing thin ice beneath his feet. “It’s your first time to the Kasei though, that’s true, yeah?”
“That’s true, yeah.”
“You can and will and no doubt already have done worse than the
Kasei ’tats.”
“I hear good things,” she says, but her mind’s elsewhere, and she’s