On the Head of a Pin (31 page)

They were almost home when another question occurred to him. “How did you persuade the girl to come and talk to me?” he asked. “The girl at Simms's house?”

Spicer looked sheepish. “I told her I was a preacher and that I knew she was in possession of knowledge that could prevent a crime. And … I sort of told her that she would end up in hell if she didn't come forward with it.”

“Morgan! That's just the sort of thing you've got to stop doing!”

But then he let it go. If it hadn't been for Morgan Spicer he would probably never have found Simms. We are sometimes given strange tools to further our work, he thought. Who am I to argue with that?

VII

L
ewis should have returned to the Brighton Circuit right away, but he felt bruised and unsettled and decided to give himself a day with his family before setting off. Betsy was surprised when he turned up with Spicer in tow, and gasped when she saw the bruising on the side of his face where Simms's punch had landed. She quickly made a compress for it, and bathed Spicer's skinned knuckles — the result of the flying tackle that had brought Simms down during the initial chase.

Spicer was reserved with her at first, but she made little comment as she washed his wounds, and slowly he overcame his shyness, helped in a large part by Martha, who was pleased to have a new target for her charms. She kept the young man quite occupied with trying to guess what it was she was hiding in her hand. He seemed scarcely to know what to make of this, but gamely guessed incorrectly for some time, until Lewis intervened and sent the little girl to play with Henry instead.

It was only when Minta appeared in the doorway that he was able to relate what had happened. He was reluctant to talk about it; he needed time to absorb it himself. But if anyone had a right to know, it was Seth, and he knew that Minta would break the news to him gently, and be there to temper his reaction. Besides, he knew that Betsy was bursting to ask, but was waiting until he was ready.

When he finished, Minta only nodded. “Should I keep Martha with me?”

“No,” Lewis said before Betsy could reply. “Thank you, but I think I need her here.” On this day of answers he would find comfort in this most physical reminder of his dead daughter.

There was not much conversation after that; Spicer sat and stared into the fire. Lewis did little more than pace the kitchen until Betsy dished up plates of stew and bade them sit. Slowly the horror of the day began to seep away from him, sped by food, the warmth of the kitchen, and the pleasure of being fussed over.

He offered to listen to Martha's prayers and put her to bed that night. He watched as the little chestnut head bowed over the chubby folded hands, then she climbed into her cot and he covered her carefully with the quilt.

“Grandpa?”

“Yes, my sweet.”

“Seth said you caught a bad man.”

“Yes, I guess I did. Me and Mr. Spicer.”

“Was there only one?”

Lewis was slow in his reply. He knew what she was asking — were there more bad men who would come and do something awful in the night? Was there a bad man even now under her bed, or in the outhouse, waiting to leap out as soon as everyone's back was turned?

“Listen to me very carefully, Martha. It's not often that men are as bad as this one. Most men, and women too, have only a little badness in them, like when you won't do your chores, or when you tease Henry, or when you have thoughts that aren't very nice.” She giggled at this. “But the badness is always there, in everybody, and you have to work hard not to let it out, and not to act on it. And you have to take the blame when you fail, and you've done something wrong. You have to make up for it. This man was very bad, indeed, and now he has to take the blame for what he did. He couldn't control the badness that was in him, and it kept coming out. But, thank the Lord, I do believe that there was only one of him. And you don't have to worry about him, because he's safely locked away.”

“Why would God let him be so bad?”

It was the question Lewis had asked himself as he paced the kitchen.

“We don't really know why God lets bad things happen. I'm sure there's a reason, but we just don't know what it is. All we can do is try not to be bad ourselves and ask for His help in doing it.”

“And that's why I say my prayers every night? So God can help me do what I know is right?”

“Yes, that's exactly why.” But even as he said it, he wondered again how God could let such a creature as Simms exist. He would pay the price for his evil, that much was clear, but what of the innocent women? They had done nothing to call this down upon themselves. Sarah had found the Lord before she died, and had counted on Him to protect her from evil. Rachel had been groping toward the same understanding. He knew nothing of the beliefs of the other women, but surely they must have led largely blameless lives. There were too many innocents in this world, too many twisted, lifeless bodies left as ransom for the actions of others, in spite of the rituals they surrounded themselves with. How could this be when God was supposed to have a plan for us all?

“I just hope God is listening,” Martha said.

He sat with her until she drifted off to sleep, marvelling at the intelligence of children, and how they seemed able to cut through so neatly to the heart of a matter.

Part VI
Belleville 1842

I

F
ar from remaining in an unsettled frame of mind, Lewis was strangely content as he headed west two days later. Betsy seemed very happy in the Jessup's half-house, although from what he could see, she spent more time in Minta's kitchen than in her own. Minta seemed just as pleased with the arrangement and Lewis thought again of his daughter-in-law, and wondered how she and Will were getting along. Unlike Nabby, Minta merely smiled when Betsy was too abrupt, and would answer with a meek, “Yes, ma'am” while the corners of her mouth dimpled, and then Betsy would realize that she had spoken too forcefully, and soften her approach. It had taken very little time for the two women to establish the ground rules.

Martha and Henry were thriving in this environment, and with the sharing of the household labour between them, Minta and Betsy both had more time with the children. Betsy had decided to begin their education, and Martha proved quick at picking up her sums and could already read a few words. Henry, anxious to imitate Martha in all things, repeated her answers, although he was still far too young to make genuine sense of it.

“Never mind, he'll make all the more out of it when he does start to understand,” Betsy said. Lewis noticed that Spicer listened attentively when the children demonstrated their abilities. Spicer and Simms, he thought, neither of them knew what a happy family was, but they had chosen very different ways to deal with it. He couldn't claim the same ignorance, and again his thoughts turned to Will.

News of the murder and of the murderer's apprehension had spread quickly. Everyone seemed to know that he had had something to do with it, but Lewis refused to answer any of the many questions he was asked as he made his rounds.

“Wait until the trial,” was all he would say. “You'll hear everything then.”

He had expected Spicer to make much of his role in the affair, for it was known that he, too, had been a part of it, but to his surprise the boy merely echoed the words, “Wait until the trial.” Lewis was amazed. For once in his life, Spicer really had done something important, and might have been forgiven had he crowed a little. He was gratified that his decision to help the young man had so quickly been validated, for he had shown a quickness of thought that betokened a good mind, and now was displaying an unexpected modesty. It brought home to Lewis the terrible waste that occurs when children have no chance to develop their talents. He knew that this was the schoolmaster in him talking, but was pleased when he heard that it was a position that was being adopted officially by the leaders of the Methodist Church, particularly Egerton Ryerson, who wanted Canada West to establish a comprehensive system of schools that would be available to everyone regardless of their connections or their ability to pay. Only then could the Morgan Spicers of the world have an equal chance at success.

Isaac Simms was incarcerated in the jail at Belleville, and Lewis visited whenever he could slip away for a time, but he had little success in getting the prisoner to talk to him in any kind of coherent manner. He huddled in the corner of his cell, gibbering to himself and ignoring whatever was said to him. He appeared to have sunk deep into the madness that had taken him, giving himself over to it completely. The guards reported that he did experience short periods of lucidity, when he seemed amazed at his surroundings and the crimes of which he was accused, but that he would soon fall back into his twisted world again, and then nothing he said would make sense. Surprisingly, Spicer had better luck, and spent hours sitting just outside the cell with his books, waiting until Simms the likeable peddler fought his way up through the layers of torment to reality.

They compared notes on whatever they learned, attempting to place all of the puzzling details into a picture of what had occurred. Lewis directed Spicer to the Book of Proverbs, and pointed out the relevant verses to him. Morgan struggled with making sense of the words, but the clear import of the passages eventually formed into meaning for him.

“It's obvious that Simms was tortured by those verses about strange women,” Spicer said. “What I don't understand is the part about ‘rejoice with the wife of thy youth.' He didn't have a wife. So why would he be troubled by strange women?”

“There's no doubt in my mind that it has something to do with the sister, Esther,” Lewis said. “But unless Simms comes to his senses and wants to talk about it, we'll probably never know for sure exactly what went on.”

“I wonder if Sally knows anything about it,” Spicer said. “I'll ask her.”

Sally was the girl who had pointed them in Simms's direction, the girl who worked for his family, although she had now been let go. Lewis knew that Spicer had gone back to see her, and that their relationship was now based on something more than an exchange of information. Morgan had sought her out, and had confessed that he wasn't really a preacher, or at least not yet, and to his surprise she had laughed.

“Oh, I knew that,” she said. “I didn't know it at the time, but I figured it out pretty fast. It was Mr. Lewis who was the preacher; that was pretty clear. It doesn't matter though, you'll be one soon.”

With this cheery faith in his future, the girl had won Morgan's heart.

It was an ugly story she told him, if it were all true. As Sally had said before, Esther had been courted by any number of young men, but in her mother's opinion, none of them were quite suitable enough, and the old woman insisted furthermore that the older girls must marry first. In the meantime, Simms was expected to generate enough income to keep the household comfortable in a manner that was far beyond his means, and all the while his mother railed against him for being nothing more than a peddler. Where was the empire her husband had promised her? Where were the wealth and the status that would have come with the establishment of a shipping enterprise, or a forwarding company, or even a store on Belleville's main street? Her husband had failed her, now her son was doing the same, and it was his fault that his sisters remained in spinsterhood. If he were more successful, if they were richer, then looks wouldn't matter. Young men would be beating a path to their door. And all the time, Simms saw his profits dwindling, driven away by unrest and rebellion, his hope of realizing his father's dream fading until it was no longer discernible.

“You wouldn't believe the waste that went on in that household,” Sally said. “And the money spent on
foo-fer-ahs
.”

But there was more, and at last Lewis arrived at the root of Simms's desperation.

Frustrated by her mother's refusal to let her accept any of the proposals she received, Esther had apparently turned her attentions to her brother. By Sally's account she “flirted with him something terrible.” And Isaac had responded. The girl had no way of knowing, of course, how far this flirtation had progressed, but Lewis had a suspicion that it had gone far enough to engender a despairing guilt in the man. He had his own frustrations to deal with after all, for how could he ever afford to marry, himself, when his family sucked up every penny he earned?

Now his wanderings became welcome; he could remove himself from the temptation that tortured him, but could still never rid himself of the desire: “Let thy fountain be blessed: and rejoice with the wife of thy youth. Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe; let her breasts satisfy thee at all times; and be thou ravished always with her love.”

But the wife of his youth was his own sister and her love was a sin. Lewis was disgusted and repelled by the story, and yet a part of him felt an overwhelming pity for them all. Snared in the web of pretension and financial folly, the old woman had set in motion a series of events that brought them all to destruction. The two plain older sisters would have no hope of marriage now. Like so many women — like his own daughter-in-law for that matter — they had never been allowed to acquire the talents that might allow them to earn their own ways in the world, and their mother would never countenance a match with any farmer or local tradesman who was looking for a working partner as much as a wife. The younger one, Esther, could marry yet, but all her life she would carry the guilt of what she had done with her brother, and the end it had brought him to.

Most of all, he felt sorry for Isaac. Guilt and failure were his only companions now, and it was he who would pay the ultimate price for them all. A part of Lewis hoped that he would stay in madness until he had paid it.

As far as he knew, only one member of Simms's family ever came to visit him in jail — and only once.