Obsession (19 page)

Faith

Six months later

I can’t believe today has finally arrived. I stand in our bedroom with Cami and Lily, wearing my ivory corset and panties. The silk is so soft against my skin, it’s like I’m wearing nothing.

My dress hangs on the rail inside the wardrobe, the strapless ivory silk mermaid style with the lace over dress, with fitted sleeves flows over the top of the gown like a glove, a perfect match all held together with the diamond belt. I still don’t know how much the dress cost and if I asked, I probably wouldn't have bought it but as soon as I saw it while shopping with Cami, I knew it was the dress I would be saying “I do” in.

The journey to get us to this point has been hard and not without its trials, Damien asked me to marry him pretty much as soon as we got home from the hospital. I said Yes, but it would not be until everyone I loved could attend.

There was no way I was getting married without Cami there with me. Her journey has been worse than mine, she only left the hospital 8 weeks ago. At first she refused to see anyone, demanded that I go away, that I had caused all of her pain.

Damien made sure she got the best help, I kept going back and slowly as time went on she let me back in. That day was hard, I think we spent the 2 hour visiting session just crying and holding hands. I tried not to look at her differently but she was different. Gone was the girl that got me out of the apartment for a haircut and dinner.

The girl in her place was devoid of all feelings, she went through the motions of living; she slept, she ate, and she read but that was all she did.  She is still dealing with what happened to her and the one person that seems to be able to get her to do anything would be Malc, he has been there every day even when she shouted and screamed at him; he never gave up, never lost his temper with her.

He was the one that finally told me to marry Damien, because I could be waiting forever for her to come back to me, to be the friend she was. So here I am, having my hair and make-up done, getting ready to walk down the aisle to my future.

“Faith, this belonged to my mother.” I look up and notice the beautiful blue hairpin, the little stone that is surrounded by two intertwined gold rings. “That’s stunning Lily.”

“The two gold rings represent you both and the blue gem is your marriage, it shows that as long as you are honest and love each other, the gem will stay intact but pull them apart you risk breaking it.” Her voice is so gentle you could get lost in it forever.

“I want you to wear it today as you walk towards my son, it is your something old, something borrowed and something blue. And before you say no, this is a tradition all the women in our family have.” My fingers tentatively reach out to take it from her but she bats my hand away and proceeds to put in to my hair, slotting it in at the veil that is sitting just under the bun in my hair.

They say that people who get married quickly go in blind, not knowing what each person is like. I know this man that I am walking towards inside out.

Malc is walking me down the aisle of our garden ceremony at the house, he promised to show me the garden at night with the twinkling lights, when he did I fell in love and I knew then that this would be where we would marry, under the stars. Why would I want to get married anywhere other than our secret garden? This is the first place I saw the sweeter side of Damien, the one only I see.

As I walk closer to Damien I get ready to meet him at the altar, Malc stops and turns me to face him, then leans in close to my ear.

“Never give up on him Faith, you’re his whole world.” As I turn back the tears fill my eyes, I give him a kiss on the cheek as he finally gives me away to Damien.

I gaze up at him so I can speak my written vows for him.

“I promise to always be your light, when you need to be shown the way.

I promise to always stay and fight, and never take flight.

I promise to love you until my dying day: to be by your side and show you a better way.

With my love, I am yours,”

I see the tear that falls down his face, he speaks his vows to me and I lose myself in his words.

“You’re the good to my evil, the light to my dark, you brought me back and showed me the way. I thought I lost the man I was before but you saved me Faith and for that, I give you my heart, to keep with you. You’re my forever Faith, ever thine, always mine.”

We speak the rest of the vows together, the love, obey, honour and cherish till death us do part,

I hear the minister announce you may kiss the bride, it’s official, I am now Damien’s wife. He kisses me with such sweet passion, that of a man who cherishes his woman.

The rest of the evening passes in a blur and it’s soon time for us to jet off on our honeymoon. All the bags are in the car waiting. All I have to do is throw my bouquet. I stand in front of the door to the house with my back facing everybody; I hear the cheers and whistles from all of the guests as I get myself ready to throw.

I close my eyes, grip my bouquet in both hands and throw my arms up to release it over my head. I spin around to see who has caught it and I smile so brightly when I see that it’s Cami who has hold of it, though I can’t say she looks best pleased.

As we prepare to leave, we say goodbye to all our guests and say our thanks to everyone for coming to make our night so special.

I take Cami to the side; tell her I love her and that I will see her soon. Pulling her into my arms I hug her giving her a kiss on the cheek, we are not back to where we used to be but for now we are whole in the only way we can be.

I slide into the back of the waiting limo, which is going to take us to the airport. I have been waiting all day to get to speak with him alone. I have been waiting since I had the scan the other day confirming my suspicions. I kept putting the weight gain down to comfort eating, the dress fitter was not best please having to keep altering my dress, but Damien had been away on business for a month. I pined for him, that feeling of being alone after everything that had happened, so I was eating more, well now I know why, I was eating for two.

I turn to face my husband whom I love with all of my heart, knowing that today is the start of our future, one where we plan the journey, no one else.

“Damien?” I ask using that tone, which tells him I want to talk.

“Yes, Mrs Volkov. I love you having my last name finally you’re mine in body, soul and name now.”

He places his lips against mine this time it’s a kiss that sends a jolt of pleasure straight to my core, I open my mouth so that he can slip his tongue in, and deepen the kiss, I pull away knowing that I have to talk to him.

“Damien, I have to tell you something.”

His lips never leave my neck or my collarbone he is nipping at the lace of my dress and it is driving me to distraction.

“Yes my love?” He says in that oh so sexy tone.

“You have me in one more way now, other than name.” I say waiting for him to click, but it never happens.

“What way is that,
moya lyubov
.” Oh god he is pulling out the Russian he is killing me slowly.

“We’re going to have a baby.” I just say it as quick as I can; it’s not something we have really talked about before, so I’m not sure if this is a good or bad thing.

“I’m going to be a father? So the new curves I have been feeling is you carrying our child” I just nod not able to form words yet the look of sheer joy crosses his face.

“I love you Faith, I could not have asked for a better wedding gift, I have my wife and our child, you complete me Faith.”

I start to cry I don’t care if I get panda eyes on my wedding day, what I need is for my husband to take me into his arms and never let me go.

I have everything a girl could ever want a loving, sexy husband, a home, a family, and now our child growing in my tummy, ready for us to keep her safe. 

I wonder if now is the time to tell him that it’s a girl.

THE END

Cami and Malc will get there story

Thank you to my beta readers, Anne and Karen. Your thoughts and words have kept me grounded.

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I am a mum to six wonderful children, and married to an amazing man who supports my dream to write.

I wouldn’t say that I wanted to be a writer from when I was little.

I only really started reading often when I had baby number five, as he was born very early and spent thirteen weeks in special care. It was then that I discovered my love for reading.

From then on, I was hooked. I read all types of romance books.

It dawned on me that I wanted to be more than a mum/reader/blogger. I wanted to write, as I have a very active imagination, so I put pen to paper.

I wrote my first book,
Obsession
, this year and I am super excited to say that it will be published on the 29/09/2015.

Coincidentally, this is my thirtieth birthday (at least I won't forget the day my first book went live).

I write romance - contemporary, dark and erotic.

I like to write about loss, pain and love, and what it's like to fight for your happy ever after.