Needing You #2 - Wanting Him (13 page)

“Earth to Nat,” Harp says
, snapping her fingers in front of my face bringing me back to reality.

“Shit, sorry, what did you say?” I ask now looking at her.

“You were staring at Parker like you wanted to eat him for dinner,” Rowan says with a laugh, causing Harper to laugh too.

I hit her will a pillow, thankful only I heard her. “No I wasn’t.  I was just staring off into space,” I lie.

“Yeah sure and I’m the Queen of England,” she says calling me out.

“You can’t say that shit out loud.  You know how I feel about him.  I can’t help it,” I state truthfully glancing back in Parker’s direction.  I catch him looking at me and smile.

“I think you guys need to talk and figure it out.  It’s obvious that you both miss each other.  You need to come up with a solution that can allow you guys to try again.  Give him another chance,” Harp says sounding hopeful.

“I can’t.”

“Actually, you can.  How about for just this weekend you forget about all the bullshit and just enjoy how you two were before the shit hit the fan,” she says looking all serious.

“I can’t,” I repeat.

“Yes, you can.  You and Parker can enjoy each other, hang out, and have fun today and tomorrow.  Just be yourself,” she says smiling.

“It’s not that easy.”

“You worried you’ll sleep with him?  I completely get that.  If I were you I would get in as much sex as possible before we head home Sunday morning,” she says rambling on.

“I’m not sleeping with him,” I say as I slap her on the leg.

“You should.  If I were you I totally would,” Rowan says as she turns to look at Parker.

“So would I,” Harp says excitedly.

“You have a boyfriend.  When did you become a little slut?” I ask with a giggle.

“Not a slut, but now that I know how much fun sex is, I can’t seem to get enough.  Plus Nat, I bet that Parker is a beast,” she says with big eyes.

“I’m not commenting,” I state trying to hold back a smile.

“You don’t have to.  His hands say it all.”

“His hands…what?” I ask confused.

“You know the saying about how you can tell the size of a man’s anatomy based on his hands.  Parker has hu
ge hands…that goes to say he’s gotta be hung like a horse,” Rowan says looking all serious at me.

“Damn, I thought the same thing,” Harp says excitedly.

“Oh my God, stop, both of you.  Harp, if Tucker hears you, he will get pissed you’re talking about Parker’s manhood,” I say nervously.

“What?” Tu
ck asks looking at us.

“Nothing,” we
all say in unison.

“Oh, I thought I heard my name,” he says before looking back at the screen to continue on with his video game.

Harp glares at me for saying his name too loud.  It takes everything in me to hold back my laugh.

“So, what are your thoughts on doing what I suggested just for this weekend?” she says through a whisper.

“We can’t,” I say through a whisper back.

“What if Parker was on board with it?” she asks.

“What?” I say louder than intended causing all the guys to turn and look in my direction, “Sorry guys, continue on doing what you’re doing,” I say with a fake smile.

“We talked,” is all she says.

“You talked to Parker about what…him and I having a sex filled weekend?” I snap as quietly as possible at her.

“
Well not really that per se.  I know he wishes he could have another chance with you and I said about having a weekend where you don’t think about what’s going on and just be how you were,” she says kindly.

“He said he wants that?” I ask confused.

“Nat, are you serious right now.  That man would take whatever he could get from you.  He loves you,” she says sweetly.

I just stare at her in disbelief.  I mean, I know he still cares about me, but he’s having a baby to another girl.  He’s having his first child with someone, someone who isn’t me.  Can I really put that all behind me for a weekend so I could remember how we once were?  How great we were?

Damn it.  I know I miss the shit out of him, but would it break me to give myself this one last weekend with him?  Only two days to be happy and in love like I was, or will it end up hurting me more than I already am?

Fuck it.  One weekend of having Parker is definitely worth it.  I can’t give him my forever because he did mess up and we have to pay for those consequences. But for once, just once
, I’m going to do something unlike me and be careless for one weekend.

“You should do it,” Rowan says softly.

“Count me in,” I say nervously to Harp.

“Seriously?”
Harp squeals.

“Yeah.  One weekend, then we move forward with our lives.  I think maybe this will give me some closure and hopefully afterwards I can truly move on with my life, post Parker,” I admit.

“Honey you will never get over that man, but hell it’s worth a try. I can’t wait to tell him,” she says bouncing in her seat.

“You don’t need to tell him anything, I think he knows the answer based on your reaction,” I tell her with a laugh.  I look over at Parker and sure enough he’s watching us and he has the biggest grin ever. I haven’t seen him smile that big since, well a long time ago.

I look over at Harper who is looking straight at Parker and she’s shaking her head up and down non-stop.

“What are you doing?” I ask confused.

“Letting Parker know that you agreed to a worry-free weekend with him; enjoy the sex,” she says with a wink as she stands up and heads towards the kitchen taking Rowan with her.

Before I can say anything
they’re gone and Parker is sitting in her place.

“Hey,” he says with a smile.

“Hey.”

“You don’t have to.  I know I messed up and I don’t deserve to have a weekend with you. I was just hoping to spend time with you.  Nat, I really…”

I cut him off. “I told her I would do it.  We can have this last weekend together without the thoughts of our reality.  This will be our closure,” I admit to him.

The smile he had on his face a few minutes ago is now gone and he’s looking at the floor.

“I got it Nat.  Thank you for this weekend,” he says with a smile, but it doesn’t look sincere.  I can see the hurt in his eyes, but I can’t give in.  He hurt me.  He lied to me. Hell, he cheated on me and is having a baby because of it.

“Sure.  So did you have anything in mind that you want to do this weekend?” I ask trying to change the topic.

“Yes.  Can we go somewhere to talk and hang out? Like old times,” he says with a hopeful look.

“Absolutely,” I tell him with a smile.

He stands up and holds his hand out to help me up off the couch.  He leads me to the door still holding my hand.

“Where are you two going?” Declan yells from the couch, causing everyone to turn and look in our direction.

“We’re going to talk.  We’ll be back later,” Park says as he opens the door and allows me to walk out in the hall first.

He closes the door and stand
s in the hall threading his fingers through mine.

“Where to?” I ask slightly nervous.

“I’m not sure.  I didn’t think you would actually agree to this,” he says with a slight laugh.

“How about we hang out in my room?”

“Are you sure?  I mean, we can go out somewhere if you prefer,” he says quickly.

“Parker
, you are well-known now.  We wouldn’t make it far before you are hounded by your crazy fans.”

“True, alright, but I don’t expect us to do anything, just so you know,” he says
nervously.

“Okay, come on, I’m down a few floors,” I tell him as I lead him towards the elevators.

We take the short ride down to my room and the closer we get to the door the more nervous I become.

What was I thinking inviting him to my hotel room?  Can I really do this weekend with him and move on?  Shit I hope so.

I slide the key card in and open the door.  Park holds it open allowing me to enter first.

“Sorry, I didn’t unpack anything,” I tell him as I grab the luggage and move it out of the way.  The room is a decent size, but now I feel like it’s too small for the two of us in here.

“You don’t have to apologize for anything Nat,” Parkers says sweetly.

“Make yourself at home,” I tell him, motioning for him to sit.

He heads over to the sliding glass door and looks out the balcony.  The sun is setting and the view looks amazing.

“Come here,” he says as he holds his hand out for me to come to him.

I obey and walk to him, taking his hand in mine.

He stands behind me and wraps his arms around my waist.  My back to his front.  I can smell him and damn do I miss the shit out of him.

“I’ve missed you,” he whispers as he places a kiss at my temple pulling me tighter to his body.

I let him.  I miss the way he would hold
me; protect me from any and everything.

I’m no
t sure how long we stand at the balcony just looking out watching the sun set; it could have been seconds, minutes, hell hours, for all I know.

Once it was dark out, I turned to face him, “Why don’t we sit and talk?”

“Sure,” he says leading me towards the bed.  He takes a seat and pulls me down onto his lap.

“Parker,” I start to say.

“Please Nat, just let me have this weekend, please,” he says solemnly.

“Okay,” I whisper.

He pulls me tighter to his body and I go willingly this time.

I wrap my arms around his neck wanting to get closer to him.  “I’ve missed you too,” I finally admit to him.

He kisses my forehead and then leans his forehead to mine, staring me in the eyes.

“If I could fix everything I would.  I want you to know
that.  I love you Nat and I always will,” he says sweetly.

“I know.  I love you too, but it doesn’t change the way things are.”

“I know babe, I know,” he says sadly.

He continues to stare into my eyes, practically hypnotizing me with those gorgeous green eyes.

“Parker,” I start to say before I turn his head slightly so that my lips can graze his.

The kiss starts out slow, real slow and quickly turns passionate.  I nibble on his lower lip wanting access for more.  He grants me access and I
slide my tongue inside his mouth to join his.

Somehow we move and I’m now straddling Parker’s lap,
he’s pulling me closer to him, though I can’t seem to get close enough.

I grip his hair wanting more, wanting him, all of him.

Chapter Thirteen

After what seems like forever of us making
out, he slowly pulls back.

“Babe, we don’t have do to anything more,” he says softly, piercing me with those gorgeous greens.

Hell I know I should stop, but one more time won’t kill me right?

“I thought we had an agreement,” I state.

“We do,” he says with a surprised look.

“Then, as far as I’m concerned what we do is our business.  If we want it to go further we will, if not, then we don’t,” I tell him before meshing my lips with his again.

He doesn’t say anything, just continues to kiss me while pulling me as close to his body as possible.

I can feel his erection and as much as I know this is a bad idea for one night
, I’m giving in.

I move my hands down to his waist to find the hem of his shirt and slowly pull it up and over his head.  His eyes are filled with lust and he stares at me, but doesn’t say a word.

Tossing the shirt aside I lean back, on his lap admiring his sexy tattooed chest.  Thoughts of licking his tattoos have me even more turned on, but then I see them.

“When did you get those?” I ask pointing to his nipple piercings.  There
is a small bar through each one and damn if they don’t look sexy as hell on him.

“A while ago,” he says as he pulls my head back towards his so our lips can touch again.

I make sure to run my hands up and down his chest and then down his back before pulling my lips away to start my adventure on my his body.

“Lay down,” I instruct him and he does so immediately.

His legs are hanging off the bed, but the rest of him is on the bed, looking sexy as hell.

I make sure to move my hips allowing my sacred spot to rub his erection, causing him to moan.

He moves his hands to rest them on my hips as I continue to move slowly over him. 

“Come here, I want to kiss you,” he says through lust filled eyes.

I do as he says.  His kisses start out slow and sensual and then turn fervor.  I slowly pull away and start to kiss down his jaw, to his neck, making sure to kiss every inch of him.  I kiss and lick at his collar bone down his chest to his sexy tribal tattoo and follow it with my tongue to his right sleeve of tattoos.

As I continue to lick and kiss his sleeve of tattoos I can feel his left hand on my hip, under my shirt drawing circles and different shapes on my skin.

I make my way back up his arm and onto his chest, wanting to take his nipple ring into my mouth. As soon as I see them, I can’t help but lick on one causing Parker to jump.

“Fuck,” I hear him grit out as I continue to suck and pull the jewelry between my teeth, using my tongue to play with the nipple.  I take a hold of the other piercing and flick it before moving from his right nipple to his left.  Making sure I pay attention to both.

I never knew men with piercings would be such a turn on or that he would be so responsive to my touch.

“Nat, you
gotta stop,” he says as he tries to pull me from his piercings.

“Okay,” I tell him as I start my kissing and licking path down his chiseled chest. “I need you to move more on the bed.”

He complies by lifting his legs and moving them on the bed, along with me, since I’m still straddling him.

Once positioned to where he is full on the bed, I continue with my path.  I unhook his belt and
unbutton his jeans and pull his zipper down.  I’m not surprised at all when his erection springs free.  Parker has a tendency to go commando.  Works for me; one less item to remove.

I try to tug his jeans down but obviously they don’t budge. Parker lifts his ass allowing me to pull his jeans over his sexy firm ass and down his toned legs.  His shoes are already
off; he must have taken them off at some point. I pull his jeans off and toss them to the floor admiring the sexy view I get to take in.

Parker doesn’t say anything.  He’s watching me intently though.

“You look amazing,” I tell him, not sure on where I want to start next.

“Can I touch you?” he asks on a whisper.

“Yeah,” I softly say back. Before I can get a chance to start my next attack on his body, he has me flipped over and he’s on his knees between my thighs.

He leans down and starts to place kisses on my neck pulling me toward him. I lean up wanting to get closer, wanting more. He pulls my shirt over my head and throws it, then unhooks my bra and tosses that too.

“God I’ve missed you,” he states before he takes my puckered peak into his mouth.  He continues his assault on my breasts alternating between the two.

I can’t help but pant and moan wanting more.

In my lust filled daze I don’t even recall Parker unhooking my jeans or removing them.  I let out a gasp when I feel his fingers enter into my wet core.  He’s using his thumb to rub circles over my clit making me gasp and pulling him toward me, wanting more.

“Damn baby, you’re so wet,” he says proudly, knowing he’s the reason why I’
m drenched.

“Please Parker,
more, I want more,” I pant.

“Holy shit,” I shriek when I feel his tongue run over my most sensitive spot, through my wet folds to where his fingers are inside of me.  Then he slowly moves his tongue back up, driving me insane.

He continues his assault on my core until I’m screaming out in pure bliss. Once I’ve come down from my high, I feel him at my entrance.

“Are you sure?” he asks nervously.

“Yes.”

Before I can say anything else, he thrusts inside of me, causing me to scream out.

Parker stills and says, “Shit, baby did I hurt you?” he asks looking at me worriedly.

“No, no it’s good, best kind of hurt,” I tell him as I start to move my hips wanting to feel all of him.

He starts to continue moving inside of me slowly, very slowly.

“Parker.
”

“Huh?” he asks confused.

“Fuck me,” I deadpan.

The look in his eyes changes from worry to feral in seconds and he starts to move faster causing me to
whimper.

I move and we meet thrust for thrust allowing him to completely fill me.  He doesn’t stop his thrusts until he has me calling out his name with him following me.

“That was amazing,” I say through my heavy breathing.

“Fucking incredible,” he says as he moves beside me pulling me to him, so my back is to his front.

“We’re having a few more rounds tonight, just so you know,” I tell him excitedly.

“I can go all night for you,” he says
, as he places a kiss on my head.

“I miss us,” I tell him softly.

“Me too babe, me too,” he says as he pulls me even tighter to his body.

I can feel a tear break loose and I try to catch it
, but I’m too slow because it hits Parker’s arm.

“Babe why are you crying?” he says as he turns
my body so we are facing one another.

“I wish things were different,” I admit sadly.

“I’m going to fix things.  I’m not sure how, but I will,” he says as he wipes an escaped tear.

“How?” I ask
, as more tears are falling freely.

“I don’t know babe, but I’ll figure it out,” he says as he pulls me to him to comfort me.  We stay wrapped in one another’s arms for hours not saying a word.

I’m not sure how long we lay snuggled together, but I must have fallen asleep.  I wake up to Parker still wrapped around me, sleeping too.

Hmm..
Should I wake him?

Thoughts about our so called weekend of acting like nothing has changed have
me thinking yes, absolutely yes.

I untangle myself from his arms and legs and he turns over lying on his back. PERFECT!

I maneuver myself down between his legs hoping to give him the best wake-up call ever.

Cupping his balls I start to massage them in the palm of my hand.  I take his
dick into my hand and slowly start to stroke him, hoping to wake up his anatomy before waking him.

As I continue to massage his balls
, I lick the tip of his head before slowly licking down to the base of him. He starts to get hard, which only encourages me more.

I continue to lick
the base then the underside of his dick before going back to the head. Now that he’s hard, I decide I can’t wait to taste him.

Taking the tip of his erection into my mouth I suck hard.  I feel him move underneath me and wait to see if he’s awake, he’s not.

So I continue.  I slowly start to take him in as far as I can; licking and sucking as I go.  Taking him in and out of my mouth, using my teeth just a little bit, the way he likes it.

“Oh yeah, mmm…that feels good,” I hear him say through closed eyes.

I look up to watch him as I devour his erection with my mouth.  He has yet to open his eyes, so I’m not sure if he’s awake or if he thinks he’s dreaming.

As I continue to cup his balls I use my other hand to slowly stroke him as I take him deeper in my mouth
, wanting nothing more than to taste him.

I start to fuck him with my mouth faster and faster, excited and completely turned on.

“Oh fuck,” he says as he opens his eyes wide staring at me, watching me.

I watch him as he watches me take him deeper and deeper into my mouth.

“Shit, you look so sexy babe, but I want to fuck the shit out of you,” he says as he tries to pull me off his dick.

I stop him, not wanting to give in.  Shaking my head no, he stops and just watches me confused.

“Not yet, I want to taste you,” I tell him as I take him in my mouth again.

“Hell, I’m close,” he says.

“Fuck my mouth,” I tell him with a devious look.

He threads his hands through my hair pushing my head down further on his
erection taking him even further down my throat.  He starts to move his hips slightly, fucking my mouth.

I continue to move faster, going up and down, devouring him.

“Babe…babe,” he says panting as he comes in my mouth.  I continue taking every last drop he has to offer, loving every second of him.

The moans and sounds of pure pleasure make me exhilarated.  I love hearing him when he comes.  I’m not sure if it’s a power thing or what, but it only turns me on even more.

Once I have every last drop, I remove him from my mouth staring up at him.

I wipe my mouth with my hand, loving how he tastes.

“That’s one hell of a way to wake up,” he says with the biggest smile.

I slide up beside him, watching him.

“I think I owe you,” he says with a wink as he meshes his lips with mine, not caring that he can taste himself on me.

After a few seconds of kissing
, I pull back.  He starts to move but I grab his arm, “Not yet.  I want you inside of me,” I tell him as I lie beside him.

“Umm babe, you’re going to have to give me a few minutes,” he says with a look.

“I know. I figure I can give you something that can help,” I tell him sexily.

“What?” he asks confused.

He watches as I move my hand down and rub my wet folds with my fingers.

“Oh fuck,” he says as he watches me with wide eyes.

“Enjoy the show,” I say devilishly.

I use my left hand and play with my
nipples, pulling, and twisting them until they are hard peaks.

Using my right hand, I continue to rub up and down through my wet folds, circling my clit, enjoy
ing the feeling it’s giving me.

“Damn babe, you are so fucking sexy,” he says as he watches me propped up on his side, “But I want to taste you.”

“Don’t move,” I order him.

I dip my finger inside me coating it with my juices.  I slide it in and out a few times before pulling it out, “Here,” I tell him holding my finger out for him to taste.

He takes my entire finger into his mouth making sure to lick and suck all of me off.

Once I remove my finger from his mouth I move it back down to rub it through my folds, and push it back inside me, ad
ding another finger with it.  I spread my legs as wide as I can, allowing him to fully watch me.

“Babe, I’m hard,” he says pointing to his ready erection.

“Not yet,” I tell him through my labored breathing.  I continue to move my fingers in and out of me, while using my palm to rub my clit.

“Babe, I can’t wait,” he says as he takes a nipple into his mouth sucking hard.

“Oh fuck!”

“Damn babe, I could watch you touch yourself all day, but I want in, I ne
ed to feel you wrapped around me.”

“O
k,” I say excitedly.

“Are you close?” he asks.

“Uh huh,” I say I as I continue to rub myself.