Read Neanderthal Marries Human: A Smarter Romance (Knitting in the City) Online
Authors: Penny Reid
I found corroboration for his assertion that all crimes involving
exploitation of individuals were immediately passed through to the FBI, CIA, or police. Anything mentioning drugs, rape, human trafficking, fraud, corruption, or the like had a plan attached to it where the client relationship was severed and the evidence was anonymously delivered to what Quinn had called the right people.
I did see that he also used people
’s secrets to push them, but it wasn’t precisely
using
.
One of the files I
’d reviewed detailed how a private client was stepping out on her husband. I listened to a recording of Quinn as he showed the client the pictures, confirmed that he wouldn’t be sharing the information, then suggested she put pressure on a Senator Watterson to hand down a maximum sentence to a crooked CEO.
Most of the
blackmail
examples were of this type. He would show the evidence to the clients then make a suggestion—like suggest an alternative business practice, one that wasn’t corrupt—or he would request a meeting with a high-ranking official in the government, or ask for a meeting with a corporate security liaison for a casino or bank.
He was using people
’s secrets, but not in the way he thought. He showed them their files, said he wouldn’t betray them, then asked for a favor.
These people trusted him.
And that was probably why they were so reluctant to lose his services.
I
’d put off reviewing the private account files because a big part of me was afraid of what I would find, especially after Quinn’s description of his behavior. But now, I saw the humor in it, the irony. He was talented at using people. He was so talented, they had no idea that they were being used; they trusted him, and they thanked him for it.
I hadn
’t had a chance to discuss my findings with Quinn since reviewing the files two days ago; I was still marinating in all the details and looking for holes in my theory. But I was finding none.
After I finished talking some sense into Shelly
, I would have to talk some sense into Quinn. Somehow, I would have to reason with him, get him to see that he was already one of the good guys.
The SUV rocked as we pulled into the dirt driveway leading to Shelly
’s farm, and the jarring movement pulled me from my thoughts.
I saw Shelly right away
, or at least, all that was visible of her—cutoff jean shorts, work boots, and a tank top. Her brown hair was in a braid down her back, and she had grease smudges everywhere skin was showing. She was bent over a car, her head in the hood.
Stan pulled to a stop in the circ
ular driveway some twenty feet from where she was, and I saw her head lift out of the engine. Her eyes narrowed, and I thought I saw her frown, but instead of coming toward us, she went back to tinkering under the hood.
I firmed my jaw, and with it my resolve, then exited the car.
I was also in jeans, but I was wearing a plain grey T-shirt. I wanted to be dressed for any eventuality—like a food fight or an arm wrestling match. I had purposefully worn my Converse tennis shoes. The farm was no place for Jimmy Choo stilettoes.
“
Go away.” She said this before I’d reached her.
I continued to walk toward her and the car.
“I’m not leaving until you and I discuss some things. Since you won’t pick up the phone or answer emails and text messages, you must have known that I would drive down.”
I saw her shoulders rise and fall as she exhaled a large breath.
“Maybe it means I don’t want to talk to you.”
“
Oh, really? I hadn’t thought about that.” I rarely employed sarcasm, but made an exception since I’d just driven quite a distance to speak with surly Shelly.
My tone or my words caught her attention, because she peeked at me, her eyes narrowing.
“Are you upset?”
“
Yes, I’m upset.”
She straightened, her gaze flickering over me, and she pulled a towel from her pocket
and wiped her hands. “Why are
you
upset?”
“
Because I miss you and you won’t talk to me.” This tumbled out before I could deliver my planned response.
No
…that’s not right.
I frowned because I was deviating from my rehearsed speech.
I’m upset because I want her to come to the wedding. That’s why I’m upset.
But maybe it wasn
’t.
She blinked at me,
and something shifted in her gaze. But like her father and brother, she was almost impossible to read, especially for me and especially since I’d had such limited interaction with her; really, just Saturday breakfasts for five months.
“
You miss me?”
“
Yes.”
“
No you don’t.”
“
Don’t tell me what I think. If I said I miss you then I miss you.” I put my hands on my hips to show her I meant business.
The side of her mouth tugged upward like she was going to smile, but she didn
’t. “I’m not coming to the wedding.”
“
Fine,” I said, surprising myself.
She squinted at me.
“I can’t come to the wedding.”
I threw my hands away from my sides.
“Fine.”
She huffed.
“Damn it. What do you want me to say?”
“
How about you’re sorry? How about you’re sorry for cutting me out of your life and not telling me why? How about that?”
Shelly glanced at her boots and kicked the dirt, covering a drop of oil that had fallen to the ground.
I glared at her, feeling maybe a little more emotion than made sense, then started to talk stream of consciousness. “I don’t know why I’m so upset, okay? I mean, I look at you and your brother and your parents, and I want that. Not the not-talking-to-each-other-for-ten-years part, but the we-have-happy-memories-together part. And you’re all so stupid! You have this great family—Quinn is great, your mom is great, your dad is great, you are great—and you don’t talk to each other? I have no words! I can’t—I can’t even….”
I shook my head, paced in a circle, then turned back to her.
“Your mother? She misses you. And your dad too. They accept you for who you are, and you’re weird! I feel comfortable telling you this because I am weird. Your brother died. You all loved him. But his death doesn’t negate the love you all have for each other.”
She huffed again,
but this time is sounded like a growl. “They kicked Quinn out of the funeral….”
“Yes, they did. And they were heartbroken because their son had just died. People do unimaginable things when they’re distraught with grief. You have to understand that. But instead of trying to be a bridge between your parents and their son, you stopped talking to basically everyone. You only give Quinn one morning a week. That’s not right. He deserves more than that.”
“
But I don’t!”
We stared at each other and I waited for her to elaborate.
I might have been scowling.
When she didn
’t, I pushed. “What does that mean? What do you mean that you don’t deserve more?”
Her blue eyes flashed fierce fire
; it was an expression I’d seen on Quinn’s face very few times and Shelly’s never.
She was angry, but not just upset. She was furious.
“It means that I’m the reason Quinn started working with criminals when he was a teenager. I asked him to do it. I knew he could hide their data. I introduced them and made it happen. I wanted to go to art school in Chicago. He paid for me to go to art school in Chicago. Quinn dropped out of college. Did you know he was accepted to MIT? And when Des died, I didn’t go to the funeral. I stayed in Chicago because I had an installation of my work, a sculpture, that I didn’t want to miss.”
I continued staring at her,
trying to assemble the puzzle pieces she was throwing at me as fast as I could.
She turned toward the car like she was finished talking, but then spun back to me.
“My parents called me three months after Des died and asked if I could get in touch with Quinn. They wanted to talk to him, to apologize. I told them that he never wanted to speak to them again.”
“
What? Does Quinn know about this?”
“
No.” Shelly shook her head, her hands on her hips, and she glanced at my feet. “Then I said that I didn’t want to know them anymore either.”
“
Why would you do that?”
“
Because….” She closed her eyes, shook her head. “I was so angry…at my parents for hurting him…at Des for getting himself killed…at Quinn for needing me…at myself for not being there for him.”
Now I was watching her with dawning comprehension. Quinn
’s parents had been staying away because Shelly had pushed them away. They believed that Quinn wasn’t interested in a relationship. They’d lost a son and their entire family all at once.
“
You’re embarrassed.” I realized, thought, and said the words in a single moment.
Her eyes flew open
, and they were like ice-cold daggers as I continued. “You’re ashamed of what you did, of pushing Quinn to work with criminals, of not being there for your family. You’re ashamed for pushing your parents away, and you think they’ll never forgive you.”
She just stared at me
without a word.
I exhaled a large breath, hoping it would release some of the tension in my chest. It didn
’t.
“
It’s not okay to treat people that way,” I said. “It’s not okay to cut people out of your life, especially your family, because you’re too embarrassed or ashamed to take responsibility for your mistakes. It hurts them.”
She didn
’t move, and made no outward sign that she heard me.
“
They didn’t push you out, Shelly. You pushed them away. But you should know that your family loves you, and that includes me now. You have a family that will forgive you, but you have to want forgiveness. When you’re ready, when you want it, we’ll be waiting.”
I waited for a full minute, waited for her to say something. She didn
’t. So I turned and walked back to the car, opened the door, and slipped inside.
Stan got in the car when he saw me approach and had the engine on by the time I buckled my seatbelt.
He pulled out of the driveway, and I glanced in the rearview mirror. Shelly had turned back to the car, her head under the hood like nothing had happened.
Like
I hadn’t been there at all.
***
When I arrived
home, I turned off all the lights in the penthouse, drew all the curtains, poured myself a glass of whiskey, and sat in the dark.
I took maybe one sip, but didn
’t actually drink the whiskey. It just made me feel better to hold it.
Growing up I watched a lot of film noir, read a lot of comic books. When a character wanted to brood, they
’d sit in the dark, usually in a large leather chair by a table with a single unlit lamp, holding a tumbler of whiskey.
I wasn
’t a big brooder. I’d done it maybe four times in my life. But today, after my discussion with Shelly, I needed to brood.
I didn
’t know if I should tell Quinn about Shelly’s admission. At the very least, I decided to wait, to brood on it. Maybe I would ask Dan the security man what to do.
The other uncomfortable realization that came out of the conversation was that I needed to talk to my sister Jem. She
’d wanted to talk to me, and I’d ignored her. On the off chance that she’d broken into my future in-laws’ house with a gun in order to apologize to me and/or forge a healthy, loving relationship, I needed to talk to her. I needed to give her that chance.
Quinn found me this way
, brooding in the dark, when he came home after work. Just like in the movies, he walked in and flicked on a light switch, illuminating the lamp next to me and causing me to squint from the sudden brightness.
He narrowed his eyes, his gaze flicker
ing to the glass of whiskey then back to my face.
“
Hey…what’s going on?”
I gathered a deep breath, closed my eyes, and let my head fall to the chair behind me.
“I’m brooding. This is how I brood. You should know this about me before we get married.”
“
Yes. It’s a good thing you told me now.” I heard the humor in his voice, though it was his typical deadpan, and then I heard him walking toward the seat next to mine. The leather creaked a whisper as he sat.
“
Anything else I need to know?” He took the full glass from my hand and helped himself to a swig.
I opened my eyes and considered his question. I hadn
’t yet decided whether to tell him what I’d learned from Shelly about his parents. I couldn’t decide if it were my place to do so or even if he would want to know that they’d tried reaching out to him only to be lied to by his sister.