My Cousin's Keeper (20 page)

I waited until much later to ask him. I waited until the quiet part of the evening when we were both in the room that had been for sleepovers, that was now Bon's bedroom. I was still getting used to this different shape of things. There was still the set of shelves with the old books and toys, but there were new things crowded onto them as well, things that Nan and my mom had bought for Bon — books, a large set of drawing pens and a pad of real art paper, a new desk, a chair, and a large bulletin board, where some of Bon's artwork was already hung. His class photo was there, too, and it was easy to spot Julia and Bon, their smiling faces.

“Was it good hearing from your mom?” I asked.

Bon lay on his tummy on the bed, drawing and writing. “Yes,” he replied, without looking up.

I was curious and persistent. “Did she tell you where she was and what she was doing, and everything?”

Bon nodded. “About her job, the rental house, about visiting. And,” he added with a sigh, “she told me she missed me.”

The way he said it worried me. “Don't you believe her?”

“I believe her.”

“Do you miss her?” I had wanted to ask that for more than a while.

“A bit. Yes.” His voice drifted a little, and then he said, “Most of all, I'd just like her to be happy.”

My space at Nan's was now a mattress on the floor near Bon's bed, and after sitting up on it to ask Bon about the phone call, I lay back and stared up at the ceiling, taking a few moments to think of something that might make Bon talk some more. Once, it had been as though he barely knew how to speak, but now I knew that he was full of stories and things to say. I looked across to the chest of drawers and saw a photo of Bon with his mom. It wasn't a recent photo; they were both a bit younger. Bon's hair was strangely shorter and sat on his head differently, and his mom was smiling in a way that somehow didn't quite show
happy.
I tried for a moment to read what that smile could mean. She wore the same jewelry that I remembered her with at Dad's party all that time ago.

Bon said it again, his voice soft and distant. “Most of all, I just want her to be happy.”

“What was it like moving around all the time and going to different schools?”

“Sometimes I didn't go to school at all,” Bon replied. “It was just me and my mom. Nothing to do and no one else to talk to. So I don't miss moving around and living in different places. I don't miss that at all.”

I decided to tell Bon a kind of story as well. “That time you visited us, that time with your mom and that guy in the big black pickup, when you left, Nan was nearly crying.”

“Was she?” Bon's pen stopped writing, and he looked down at me.

“Yes. She hadn't seen you for so long and she didn't know when she was going to see you again. When the pickup drove away, it was only you that turned and looked back at us. I still remember that. You kept looking, all the way down the road, until the pickup turned the corner and was gone. Until
you
were gone.”

Bon didn't say anything for a while. His eyes were perfectly still, but I could see that he was thinking or remembering.

At last, he said, “Because I wanted to stay. I wanted to
live
here. Now I do.” His eyes met mine again. “I'm sorry I touched your toys that time, and messed up your room.”

Suddenly, that part seemed so distant and unimportant. “It's OK,” I said. “Gina's bedroom looks like that
all
the time.”

“I'm sorry I took your things,” he said.

I shrugged a reply that I hoped meant,
Don't worry about it.
But I began to think about my medieval castle and its army of little people and horses. I thought about all the times I had played with them, had imagined the castle in a real landscape, and had imagined the voices of the wizard, the royal family, and the knights on horseback. I thought about what Bon had taken, and then about the pictures he had drawn, the story he had written to bring us together in his own imagination. Bon the Crusader, Julia the Fair, and Kieran the Brave had traveled together and alone in pictures and in Bon's scribbled handwriting. I wondered how that story was going to end.

“Nan gave me that castle for my eighth birthday,” I told him at last. “There was a movie about castles, knights, and wizards that I used to watch over and over. I had a birthday party with kids from school. And somehow, Connor —” I stopped. It was still hard to say his name, and I had to think what to say next.

“Your best friend,” Bon said. “I remember.”

“Out of all the kids I invited, Connor guessed the right kind of gift. He bought me a set of horses and knights that matched the other figures Nan had bought to go with the castle.”

“Oh.”

I knew Bon was still feeling guilty about the stealing. I remembered how he had come to our town and come to us with no toys of his own. I added, “I don't mind if you play with the castle whenever you stay at our place. Actually, I don't play with it much anymore.”

Bon blinked and frowned a little, as though I were making no sense.

“It's OK,” I reassured him.

He hesitated and then nodded. “Thank you.” Then he said, “You're smiling, Kieran. Why are you smiling?” He used the serious, precise voice I hadn't heard in a while. “I've never seen you smile like that before.”

I changed the subject. “What have you written? What have you drawn?”

Bon hesitated. “Here,” he said, turning the open book to me so that I could see. Two knights stood at a high castle parapet that overlooked a village of tiny, crowded houses. They looked toward a far horizon with mountains the shape of those around our own town. And in that distance, two figures on horseback rode away toward the very edges of the picture. Underneath, Bon had written,
And so Julia the Fair was reunited with her true parent. Bon the Crusader and Kieran the Brave returned safe to their castle, ready for whatever challenges lay ahead.

I nodded. “Is the story finished?”

“Not quite,” Bon replied. “But almost.” Suddenly, his eyes were wet and he wiped at them with the back of one hand. He closed the book and held it to his chest.

I woke quite early the next morning, just as the room began to brighten with daylight. Bon was up in his bed, asleep. I didn't mind sleeping on the spare mattress down on the floor. It made the room taller and larger from where I lay, and it somehow made me feel younger and smaller. When I listened closely, I could hear Bon's slow, steady sleep breathing. His head was buried under his blankets, and only his braid showed, trailing almost over the edge of the bed.

I crept out to the kitchen. Nan was already at the table with a mug of tea and the morning newspaper. Bon's wool hat lay at the end of the table.

“You're awake!” she exclaimed. “What about Bon?”

I shook my head and sat down opposite her.

“He sleeps a lot better lately,” she said, quietly pleased. “Not so much waking up at night or standing out here at two in the morning, staring out the window and scaring me witless.” She paused. “Maybe it's a sign that he's content. That he feels safe. That's a thought I rather like.”

“He misses his friend Julia,” I said.

“I know,” Nan replied. “You went through the same thing when your friend Connor left. So you understand how it is for Bon. And you can be there to help him.”

The purple bike was propped up on the back porch, and Nan pointed to it. “He's very excited to own her bike. It's a special thing for Bon to have that, thanks to your father tracking it down. I think that fellow at the trailer park was hoping to keep it for himself.”

I gazed out the window at the bike that had been Julia's, and then at Nan's garden and the view beyond of the town. I was silent long enough for Nan to finally ask, “Are you OK, Kieran?”

“I feel different,” I said, knowing how lost my voice sounded.

“How?”

“I don't know. Just different.”

Nan looked at me for a while and then answered, “Well, you don't look any different. Or sound any different.” She watched me from above the brim of her mug and took a long sip. Then she asked gently, “Does it feel different in your head and heart, Kieran?”

I shrugged and then nodded.

“A lot has happened in a pretty short time, and a lot has changed. Life is a little different for all of us. It can take a while to get used to things changing. Are you bothered about Bon living here?”

I shook my head. “No, I think it's good.” My eyes found the magnetic picture frame on the fridge door. It had three new photos in it now: this year's school photos of Gina, Bon, and me. “It's
really
good,” I added. I reached over and picked up Bon's wool hat.

“I gave that a wash,” Nan said. “Perhaps the first wash it's had in a very long time.”

I slipped a hand inside the hat and turned it around a bit, so that the pom-poms waved and jiggled.

“It's hand knit,” Nan said. “I thought at first it was probably from a thrift shop, like everything Bon came to us wearing. But there's a name inside. He said someone gave it to him.”

“Who?” I asked, turning the cap over and searching. There was a little name tag stitched on the inside along a seam. It read
SAM IRVINE
.

“Someone
did
give it to him,” I said. “Someone important.” And I told Nan what I knew about a man named Sam who had taught Bon to swim, who had given him his book of maps and inventions, and who had written that special message to Bon about writing and drawing his dreams. Sam, who Bon remembered so well and wanted to find, using one of his crazy inventions. “Is there any way we can find Sam Irvine?” I asked.

Nan thought about it and nodded. “There may be. Anything can be possible using a computer. And,” she added with a sigh, “if I pick the right moment, I could try asking Renee. She may be able to help. What do you think?”

“I think we should try to find him. I think it would make Bon very happy.”

“Good morning, my dear,” Nan said suddenly and brightly, and there was a sleepy-eyed, hair-frizzed Bon in the kitchen doorway. I sensed that he had been there for a while and had heard every word.

I counted down the days till Saturday, till the moment I woke up under the darkness and warmth of my blanket and heard the clock radio in my parents' bedroom explode into talkative life. Two weeks of being grounded was over.

I could hear Gina's footsteps in the hallway as she thumped out to the living room TV and the early-morning cartoons. I could hear Dad's voice, doors opening and closing, and the waterfall crash of the bathroom shower that would fully wake him up. Today was his soccer game, in the last season he said he might ever play. And today, Bon and I were allowed to ride our bikes again.

Bon was awake. His arms stretched straight out from under the covers and then bent to rub his eyes. He looked up at the ceiling, and then across at me. When he smiled, I knew he'd also remembered that today meant no more being grounded.

“Me and Bon,” I told Mom as we crunched mouthfuls of toast, “we're going to ride to Dad's game today.”

“Pardon?”

“We're riding our bikes. We'll meet you there.”

In that instant her face had gone from calm to serious. “What makes you think you're doing that?”

“The two weeks are over, Mom. We're not grounded anymore. Two weeks, you said. And today's the day after two weeks.”

She glanced over at the calendar on the fridge door and saw that I was right. “Ah, yes,” she said slowly, stretching the words out like elastic.

“We'll be OK. We'll go straight there.”

“We
promise
,” Bon added.

“I'll be OK.
We'll
be OK. We don't want to be driven everywhere forever until we're grown-ups.”

“But we're talking out of town, Kieran. It's three miles. Bon might not have your experience when it comes to bike riding.”

“Mom, it's easy. There's a bike path some of the way. You can drive back and make sure we're OK.”

Her look told me I'd gone a little too far. “I don't want to check up on you,” she said. “I just want to know that you'll get there safely. Will you be able to ride that far, Bon? ”

Bon nodded happily. “I'll be OK. I'm a better rider than I used to be.”

I heard the
clunk
of Dad's gym bag as he dropped it by the front door.

“These two want to ride their bikes out to the soccer field,” she told him.

Dad, whose head had probably been full of soccer-match thoughts, looked a bit stunned at first. “Ride? Bikes?”

“We're not grounded as of today,” I reminded him.

“Oh, yes,” he said, remembering. It came out as
Ooooohhhh, yeeeessssss
, in the same elastic voice as Mom's. He glanced at her for a moment, then said to us, “Trust. That's what it's going to be about from now on: trust. No more running off by yourselves.” He looked at Bon. “Or your
self
. You both show us you can do the right thing. You look out for each other from now on.”