âMike ...' I stumbled to a halt, my face burning.
âAbout the baby?' he said quietly. âIt wasn't mine, Emily.'
I let out my breath on a sigh, not looking at him. âI'm sorry.'
He laid his hand over mine. âShe was Derek's girl, and it's my guess he was the one, but you never know. Does it matter?'
I knew that it shouldn't, but it did. I was greatly relieved Mike wasn't the father, but I found that I didn't want it to be Matthew, either.
As though reading my thoughts, he added, âShe had a soft spot for Matthew, mind you. Sorry for him, I suppose â wanted to mother him.'
âWhy did his marriage go wrong?' I asked curiously, ready, now, to drop the subject of Linda.
âIt was always the attraction of opposites; Kate's a social animal, better suited to the bright lights, but Matthew wouldn't leave Cornwall. So the house was always full of people â parties, weekend guests â they were never alone together. Eventually she just upped and left him, but it's my belief he'd have her back any time. They rowed like hell the whole time, but he was knocked for six when she went. We â my mother and I â saw a lot of him at that time, and the stuffing just seemed to go out of him. It's taken him a long time to get back more or less to normal.'
âPoor Matthew,' I said softly. And poor Sarah, too.'
âYes, she's a nice little thing. Loves to come to the farm and watch the animals being fed. I bring her here sometimes for an ice-cream.' He patted my hand. âDon't fret about her, honey. Kate wasn't much cop as a mother, and she gets love of a sort from old Tammy.'
He grinned suddenly. âThe old battle-axe couldn't abide Linda! Came upon her and Derek once in what are known as compromising circumstances. She was outraged.'
âI can imagine,' I said. So we were back to Linda again. Well, her ghost was surely laid and I could now forget her. And for what it was worth, if Matthew was still in love with his wife, he was unlikely to have been Linda's lover. I was surprised how little comfort there was in the thought.
Mike glanced at his watch. âNow, Cinderella, we'd better be going. I've a man coming to see me about some poultry feed at five.'
âThanks for meeting me, Mike. I needed to talk to someone.'
âA pleasure, always!'
We drove back in silence, and again he stopped outside the gates. He kissed me on the mouth.
âDon't worry your pretty head about the past, my love. The future's all that matters. See you tomorrow?'
âFine. What shall we do?'
âHow about dinner at the farm â you've not been there yet. Derek and Sandra are coming too.'
My precarious happiness faded and my face must have shown it.
Mike said a trifle impatiently, âLook, Emily, they're my friends. Try to like them.' It sounded to me like an ultimatum â like them, or you kiss me goodbye. And I didn't want to do that. They'd a longer-standing claim on him than I had, I reminded myself, and if I wouldn't play ball on his terms, there were plenty of girls who would.
As I dressed for my date with Mike the next evening, I was determined to be good company. I would not let Derek's suggestiveness or Sandra's inanity get under my skin as I had on Saturday. Mike was worth the effort of being pleasant to his friends, whatever my private opinion of them.
I opened my bedroom door to come face to face with Matthew, on his way upstairs. His eyes took in the new lilac dress.
âMike again?'
âMike again.'
âWell, enjoy yourself. You make me feel old!' He nodded and went along the passage to his room.
This time, Mike was alone when he called for me.
âThe others will be along later â they're calling at the pub for a crate of beer.' His eyes went over me, warm, personal and admiring â quite different from Matthew's non-committal gaze. âYou look good enough to eat!'
We drove down to the main road and turned left, away from the town. The road hugged the coast for a while and I guessed we must have come this way through the fog to the Flamingo. Now, it was a calm September evening, the sky washed with deep blue, pink and gold as though splashed by a careless paint brush. Tiny fragments of cloud trailed like purple chiffon, and the seagulls, soaring into the sunset, became birds of flame. I drew a deep breath. It was all so perfect that it hurt.
After a while the road left the coast to turn inland, passing scattered cottages and farms until we branched off it altogether up a steep, twisting lane with high hedges on either side. A wooden post announced âChapel Farm. Private Road.'
âVery imposing!' I said.
âWe have to keep the rabble out!' He drew up in front of a white, five-barred gate.
âI'll open it,' I said, and slipped out of the car. The gate swung easily and Mike edged the car through. We were in the farmyard, and I gave an involuntary exclamation of delight.
The farm buildings and the long, low house formed three sides of a square, all of them painted white, and glowing in the setting sun. In the centre of the yard was a patch of grass, smooth and emerald green, with a copper beech tree in the middle of it.
âOh Mike!'
He got out of the car and came to join me. I could see he was pleased by my delight. âYes, it is rather fine. Those are the byres and stables over there, and opposite us the pig and poultry sheds. This gate leads to the men's cottages behind the farm house. It's quite a little colony, as you can see.'
âIt's lovely, and so spotless!' True enough, the cobbles underfoot looked as though they'd been scrubbed.
â“Seven maids with seven mops”!' Mike laughed, taking my arm. âCome inside and meet Mrs Trehearn. Since you're “company” we'll use the front door.'
We went through the low entrance into a tiny flagged passage. There was an oak door on either side and one straight ahead. Mike flung this open and I found myself in a real, old-fashioned farm kitchen, complete with an enormous white-scrubbed table and a huge open grate.
A small, thin woman came forward to greet us, nodding her head and watching me with tiny bright eyes. So this was Mrs Johnson's sister.
âHow do you do, miss, I heard from Patsy as you'm come.'
âHow do you do?' I turned back to Mike, who was smilingly watching my reactions.
âCome through to the sitting-room and I'll get you a drink.'
We went back down the passage and he opened one of the other doors. This opened into a long, low-ceilinged room prettily decorated in blue and white. The chairs and sofa were floral patterned, and there were some Dresden figures on the mantlepiece. Above the fireplace, dominating the room, was a large portrait of a young girl. Mike noticed my eyes on it. âThat's my mother,' he said.
âShe was lovely.'
He stood for a long moment, his eyes on the painting, and I remembered Matthew saying how upset he'd been at her death. To distract him, I went on, And what a lovely room â not quite what you'd expect in a farmhouse!'
He nodded and, as I'd hoped, turned away from the portrait.
âYes, I love the place, even if we haven't been here for generations, like the Haigs at Touchstone. It was actually bought for my uncle, Grandfather's younger son, but he was killed by a tractor soon afterwards. So when â my father died, Mother moved here with me.'
He laughed. âA Grace and Favour residence, as you might say! Fortunately, we have a marvellous bailiff: Simkins. He's virtually run the farm for over twenty years.'
The sun was off the windows now and an autumn coolness breathed through the room. I walked to the log fire and sniffed appreciatively.
âApple wood,' Mike said,
âIsn't it rather lonely out here,' I asked, âwith only Mrs Trehearn for company?'
âShe doesn't live in, either. Her husband's my head cowman â they live in one of the cottages at the back. No,' he went on reflectively, âI can't say I'm ever lonely.' He grinned, sliding an arm round my waist. âI can usually find company when I want it!'
âBut seriously, Mike, I should have thought Matthew would have invited you to Touchstone more often. After all â'
He dropped his arm and turned away. âI don't want Matthew's company any more than he wants mine.'
âBut
why?
I asked helplessly.
The door-bell rang, and Mrs Trehearn's footsteps sounded in the passage as she went to answer it.
âMike?' I insisted, laying a hand on his arm. He paused and looked down at me, an odd expression in his eyes. âThere are some things I can't forgive Matthew, Emily, but you needn't concern yourself with them. Drink your sherry, there's a good girl, and stop asking questions.' There were voices in the hall, and as Mike opened the door, Derek staggered in with the crate of beer, Sandra behind him.
Mike helped him to lay the crate in a corner. Derek straightened. âPhew â it'll be easier carrying that outside than in!' He bowed to me. âGood evening.'
I wondered if they were as disappointed to see me as I them. They probably feared I would cast a dampener on their evening again.
I made a conscious effort. âCome and get warm,' I said to Sandra, and she moved over to join me at the fire. She was quite beautiful with her silver blonde hair hanging like a pale curtain and her wide, china-blue eyes â not, I thought suddenly, unlike Linda. But there had been animation on the face in Sarah's album, whereas Sandra's, perfect and heart-shaped though it was, was almost doll-like in its lack of expression.
âTime for a quick one before we eat,' Mike said, handing glasses to the new arrivals. âWant yours topping up, Emily?'
I was about to refuse when it occurred to me that an extra mouthful of sherry might help me into the party mood, and I held out my glass.
âAnd how's Emily tonight?' inquired Derek jovially, standing with his back to the fire and rocking backwards and forwards on his heels.
âVery well, thank you.'
âMaking the most of the sunshine, I see.' His eyes rested on my brown neck and shoulders and I felt uncomfortable.
âI have to keep out of it.' Sandra said complacently, âor I
scorch,
with my skin being so fair.'
âGive me the nut-brown maiden,' murmured Derek in an undertone, as she turned to speak to Mike.
Mrs Trehearn knocked on the door. The meal's ready when you are, sir.'
âRight, thank you, we'll go straight in.'
I moved forward quickly, noticing from the corner of my eye that Derek's hand was coming up to take my arm. I remembered all too well the unpleasant warmth of his fingers, and wondered how Sandra could bear to let him touch her.
The dining-room was tiny â barely enough space for the table and four spindly-legged chairs. A huge copper plate hung on one wall and a gas fire glowed on another.
The meal was simple, but beautifully cooked. Succulent roast shoulder of lamb followed a clear soup, and we finished with apple pie and thick yellow cream.
âI pity the girl who marries Mike,' Derek said, with a sly look at me. âShe's a lot to live up to!'
Mike said, âMrs Trehearn's a wonderful cook, but she has her limitations in other ways!'
Derek laughed loudly and banged his hand down on the table, setting the glasses tinkling.
The meal finished, we returned to the sitting-room. Mike threw another log on the fire, and we settled round it.
After a while Mrs Trehearn knocked on the door. âI'm going now, sir, if there's nothing else you want. Nice to have met you, miss. Goodnight, all.'
We complimented her on the meal and she beamed with pleasure. âSee you in the morning, sir,' and she was gone.
Mike put on another record. The meal and the warmth made me sleepy. I leant back and closed my eyes, opening them after a moment to find Derek watching me. The firelight flickered grotesquely on his face, liquefying his eyes to molten gold and glinting redly on his black hair. He looked like a harbinger of hell at some obscene ritual. I stirred uneasily. Across the room, Mike said, âDamn, I can't find the opener.'
âIt's on the kitchen table,' I said. âI'll get it.' Glad to escape from Derek's gaze, I slipped out of the room and down the short passage into the kitchen. The big room was full of shadows, lit only faintly by the now-dying fire. A memory of the roast lamb hung on the air. I fumbled round the wall for the light switch but couldn't find it. Then I saw the bottle-opener glinting in the light from the passage. I moved forward, and as I reached for it the light was blotted out by a figure in the doorway. I turned, startled, and two hands gripped my shoulders.
Derek's voice said breathlessly, âLet's look for it together.'
âI've got it!' I said shrilly. âPlease let go, you're hurting me.'
He laughed excitedly and his mouth, open and searching, fastened on mine. I pummelled frantically against his chest with clenched fists, and his teeth bit into my lip as he pressed himself against me.
With both hands I wrenched his face to one side, opened my mouth to scream, and found despairingly that I had no breath. âMike!' It was little more than a gasp.
Derek was breathing fast. âPlaying hard to get, sweetheart?'
âYou're disgusting!' I half-sobbed, forgetting my resolution. âNo!' This as his head turned and his mouth moved over my face again. Instinctively I jerked away and as I did so, ground my high heel with all my strength into his foot. He let me go then, swearing fluently, and in that moment the room flooded with light and Mike stood in the doorway. I staggered back against the table for support, scrubbing the back of my hand against my mouth.
âI thought you were going to the bathroom,' he said tightly to Derek.
âSo I was, but Emily in the dark was more than I could resist. Quite a little spitfire, isn't she? You're a lucky fellow.'