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Morning
is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

2014 Ballantine Books eBook Edition

Copyright © 2014 by Nancy Thayer

Introduction copyright © 2014 by Nancy Thayer

Excerpt from
Nantucket Sisters
by Nancy Thayer copyright © 2014 by Nancy Thayer

Author photograph copyright © Jessica Hills Photography

All rights reserved.

Published in the United States by Ballantine Books, an imprint of Random House, a division of Random House LLC, a Penguin Random House Company, New York.

BALLANTINE and the HOUSE colophon are registered trademarks of Random House LLC.

Originally published in hardcover by Charles Scribners’ Sons in 1987

eBook ISBN 978-0-553-39105-3

Cover design: Eileen Carey
Cover image: © Jamie Grill/Getty Images

This book contains an excerpt from the forthcoming book
Nantucket Sisters
by Nancy Thayer. This excerpt has been set for this edition only and may not reflect the final content of the forthcoming edition.

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Contents

Cover

Title Page

Copyright

An Introduction from the Author

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Dedication

Acknowledgments

Other Books by This Author

Excerpt from
Nantucket Sisters

An Introduction from the Author

Morning
is a novel about female creativity. Sara, a new wife living on Nantucket, cannot seem to conceive, while her husband’s friends are all having babies easily. I titled this book
Morning
because of the implied word “mourning,” which is what women do every month when they wish to be pregnant and discover they’re not. But morning is also the beginning of a new day.

Sara is also a freelance editor for a romance writer, Fanny Anderson. She helps Fanny change her life, and it is in this book that my most quoted sentence occurs: “It’s never too late—in fiction or in life—to revise.”

I’m delighted that my early novels are being made available to my readers as ebooks. My style has changed slightly, as the world has grown faster, but my subject, family life, remains as mysterious and fascinating to me now as it was in these early books: falling in love, raising children, friendships and betrayals and forgiveness.

Looking back at all my books, I note one other consistency: most books are set somewhere near water. I’ve always found the blue immensity of water inspirational, and of course the storms and sunny beachside days provide wonderful settings and metaphors for novels.

I hope you enjoy these early novels and discover some new friends there.

Nancy Thayer

Chapter One

When she awoke, his hand was already under her nightgown, on her breast.

“Steve,” she said, stretching, rolling her body to face him.

“Good morning,” he said. “Sara.” He spoke into her neck, her name coming on his breath as if it were a word of praise, or need. He lifted her nightgown higher, so that it bunched up around her hips.

“Wait,” Sara said, “bathroom.”

She rose, shivering in the cold house, and hurried off. She hurried back, not pausing even to brush her teeth. They were so married, they were like animals. Every bodily smell was aphrodisiacal. She wore perfume now only to treat herself; for Steve she washed off all scent but her own.

The bed with its homely flannel sheets was deep and warm and receptive. Once under the covers, she raised her arms to pull her nightgown over her head and off. She tossed it onto the floor. Steve already had his T-shirt off, and she nuzzled against his chest, foraging into his prickly hair, his sweet sweaty smells. Foraging—to search for what one needs—and she found it, and raised herself up over her husband. With his hands he pulled the sheet up around her back and shoulders, holding it there to keep off the chill until she grew hot from her laboring against him and with one quick movement shoved it away. When finally she fell against him, he pulled the covers up again, and stroked her back beneath the warm quilt as she calmed down. Around her forehead her hair and even behind her kneecaps her skin was sticky with sweat.

Between her legs she was sopping, and she lay against her husband, so intimately, as close to him as his skin, and yet in her own female way as far away from him as the moon, thinking of those fluids now, almost
listening
to those fluids: his, and hers, from this morning’s love—and what else? What else.

While Steve showered, she made breakfast for him, eggs and bacon and toast and honey, because he worked as a carpenter and needed the calories. There had been a frost last night, but golden chrysanthemums and a few pale, summer-pink roses still bobbed
brightly against the stone wall at the back of their yard. The five maples that towered along the fenceline blazed, but beneath them summer’s pink impatiens broke upward through the russet leaves that layered the ground. All that triumphant, spectacular nature made Sara smile. She thought she had a secret.

She had turned up the thermostat when she came downstairs and now the furnace came on, filling the kitchen with warmth as the coffeepot filled the air with its tantalizing aroma. She inhaled deeply. God, she was such an aroma-nut she should hunt for truffles like a pig. Or root around for drugs at airports. She laughed out loud at the thought.

“What’s so funny?” Steve asked, coming into the kitchen, all fresh and clean, his blond hair still damp.

Her heart kicked like the furnace, with a forceful
thump
, just to see him. After two years of marriage, the sight of him still moved her to her depths.

“Oh, nothing. Everything. It’s such a beautiful day,” she said, going to him for a hug.

“You’re such a beautiful lay,” he said.

They sat across from each other at the kitchen table. Another ordinary day, Sara thought, smiling to herself—but then again, maybe not. She looked down at her lonely cup of coffee and pitiful grapefruit half, then over at Steve’s abundant plate where salty bacon curled seductively, waving at her. She grabbed up a letter she’d tossed onto the table the day before and began to read it again, just to keep her hands off that bacon.

“Whmmph?” Steve asked, his mouth full.

“A letter from Julia,” Sara said. Julia was her best friend, her direct line to Boston, her safety valve and counselor. “Listen to this, I meant to read it to you Saturday when it arrived. She’s such a nut. She’s been digging little tidbits up for me from the BU library. This is from Frazer’s
Golden Bough
.

“ ‘In the county of Bekes, in Hungary, barren women are fertilized by being struck with a stick which has first been used to separate pairing dogs.’ ”

“Charming image,” Steve said, grinning, “but hardly practical.”

“I don’t know,” Sara said, laughing. “There are lots of dogs on Nantucket.”

“And I’d have to beat you with a stick which has separated the mating dogs? Sounds a little kinky to me.” Steve paused, then grinned across the table at her. “All right, I’ll do it. I think I could really get into it.”

“Oh, great,” Sara replied.

Steve rose and pulled his grubby red vest over his tattered but clean flannel shirt. “I’ve got to go now or I’ll be late.” He leaned over and nuzzled the back of Sara’s neck. “Sorry I can’t stay here and beat you with my stick.”

Sara turned in her chair and their lips met. They smiled at each other when he straightened.

“See you later,” he said. Then, at the door, he paused. “Meet me at the Atlantic Café tonight about five, okay? It’s Mick’s birthday and the group’s going to get together.”

“Oh, sure,” Sara said, feigning enthusiasm. “Fine. Well—do you want me to pick up a present for Mick? Something funny?”

“I don’t think so, hon. Mick will be happy if we just sing happy birthday and buy him a few beers.”

“All right. See you then.” Sara looked back down at Julia’s letter.

“Of course you’re feeling crazy,” Julia had written. “If you didn’t feel crazy now, I’d think you really were. I mean, in the first place, you gave up all the power and prestige and a
carpeted office
and your name carved in wood on your door at Walpole and James to follow your true love, just like Annie Oakley in a dinghy, across the ocean to live on an island that has fewer people than a shopping mall parking lot. And Nantucket is Steve’s territory—nobody knows you and
everyone
knows Steve—some quite a bit better than others, which has got to be a little wearing now and then. Now you say you want an instant baby? I don’t know. I think this calls for one of our all-night alcoholic powwows in front of my fireplace. Perhaps all that sea air has clogged your brain. Though you know I wish you well.”

Something about her friend’s letter irritated Sara. “That’s not fair!” she said aloud, to Julia, who was at this moment across the ocean in her Back Bay apartment getting poshed up for a day at her art gallery on Newberry Street. “One year is not exactly
instant
!”

Sara tossed the letter aside and rose, restless with her thoughts. Children had been in their plans from the start. When she and Steve moved to Nantucket a year ago, they bought a house with an extra bedroom—for the children. Sara had been glad to give up her position at Walpole and James and start freelance editing because she knew that kind of work would be more suited to a life with children. Julia knew all that. She knew Sara’s life every step of the way. “Instant baby” was really not fair.

It was true, though, that it had never occurred to Sara that there wouldn’t be an instant baby—not after all the years she had spent guarding against one. The first few months, she had been just simply amazed, each time her period started, as if something really bizarre had happened.

When the sixth month of not using birth control and still not getting pregnant rolled around, Sara had become scientific and efficient. She went to see a gynecologist. He had laughed at her worries—actually laughed. “You’ve only been trying six months,” he said after giving her a pelvic exam. “The average time
—the average
—it takes a woman to get pregnant is three and a half months. That includes all the young teenagers who get knocked up just thinking about sex. You’re a perfectly healthy young woman, you’re only thirty-four, you’ve got lots of time. Just go home and relax and screw a lot.”

Sara had been shocked that a doctor would say “screw.” Now, six months later, when she was beginning to worry about herself, she wondered if her reaction to the word “screw” hadn’t been puritanical, indicating some deep inner prudishness that was keeping her from getting pregnant. She’d have to mention that to Julia. Or was she overanalyzing?

If only Julia were here, where she could talk with her every day. Sara was certain that she and Steve were as close as any man and woman could be, but he couldn’t talk about the juicy female things that she talked about with her women friends in Boston. And he seemed baffled by her increasing fears about her fertility. Well, she was baffled, too. Fate before had always been so kind. Her achievements had not been effortless—she had always worked hard—but she had never before met with this kind of repeated failure.

Perhaps at the very grown-up and accomplished age of thirty-four there was something basic about procreating that Sara needed to learn. Something along the lines of the old wives’ tales that Julia was beginning to jokingly send. Sara longed for a good woman friend here in Nantucket, someone she could call every day to confide in, without worrying about long-distance phone bills. Steve had plenty of friends here, and they all had wives, except for Mick, who was the eternal bachelor of the group. And she liked the wives—but felt shut out by them. They were part of a network of friends who had known one another for years and years, and when Steve returned to this island, where he had grown up, he slipped right back into place; he had always been one of them. Everyone was pleasant to Sara, but she was kept at arm’s length. The people who chose to live year-round on this island thirty miles away from the mainland were independent and inner directed; they were strong, but hard to get to know.

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