More than a Mistress/No Man's Mistress (11 page)

“If the number and splendor of the gifts she brought with her from London are any indication,” he said, “she doted on us. My father did not depend upon his months in London for pleasure. There is a picturesque cottage in a remote corner of Acton Park, Jane. A river flows at the foot of its back garden, wooded hills grow up around it. It is an idyllic setting indeed. It was home during several of my growing years to an indigent relative, a woman of considerable charm and beauty. I was sixteen years old before I understood just who she was.”

He had always intended to give the order to have that cottage pulled down. He still had not done so. But it was uninhabited now, and he had given his steward specific orders to spend not a single farthing on its upkeep. In time it would fall down from sheer neglect.

“I am sorry,” she said again as if she were personally responsible for his father’s lack of taste in housing his mistress—or one of them anyway—on his own estate with his children in residence there. But Jane did not know the half of it, and he was not about to enlighten her.

“I have much to live up to, you see,” he said. “But I believe I am doing my part in perpetuating the family reputation.”

“You are not bound by the past,” she told him. “No one is. Influenced by it, yes, perhaps almost overwhelmingly drawn to live up to it. But not compelled. Everyone has free will, you more than most. You have the rank, the wealth, the influence to live your own life your own way.”

“Which, my little moralist,” he said softly, narrowing his eyes on her, “is exactly what I am doing. Except now, of course. Such inaction as this is anathema to me. But
perhaps it is a fitting punishment, would you not agree, for having taken my pleasure in the bed of a married woman?”

She flushed and looked down.

“Does it reach your waist?” he asked her. “Or even below?”

“My hair?” She looked back up at him, startled. “It is only hair. Below my waist.”

“Only hair,” he murmured. “Only spun gold. Only the sort of magic web in which any man would gladly become hopelessly caught and enmeshed, Jane.”

“I have not given you permission for such familiarity, your grace,” she said primly.

He chuckled. “Why do I put up with your impudence?” he asked her. “You are my servant.”

“But not your indentured slave,” she said. “I can get up and walk out through that door any time I please and not come back. The few pounds you are paying me for three weeks of service do not give you ownership of me. Or excuse your impertinence in speaking with lascivious intent about my hair. And you may not deny that there was suggestiveness in what you said about it and the way you looked at it.”

“Certainly I will not deny it,” he agreed. “I try always to speak the truth, Miss Ingleby. Go and fetch the chess board from the library. We will see if you can give me a decent game tonight. And have Hawkins fetch the brandy while you are about it. I am as dry as a damned desert. And as prickly as a cactus plant.”

“Yes, your grace.” She got to her feet readily enough.

“And I would advise you,” he said, “not to call me impertinent again, Miss Ingleby. I can be pushed only so far without retaliating.”

“But you are confined to the sofa,” she said, “and I can walk out through the door at any time. I believe that gives me a certain advantage.”

One of these times, he thought as she vanished through the door—at least
one
time during the remaining two weeks of her employment—he was going to have the last word with Miss Jane Ingleby. He could not remember
not
having the last word with anyone, male or female, any time during the past ten years.

But he was relieved that their conversation had returned to its normal level before she left. He did not know quite how she had turned the tables on him before that. He had tried to worm out of her something about herself and had ended up telling her things about his childhood and boyhood that he did not care even to think about, let alone share with another person.

He had come very close to baring his heart.

He preferred to believe that he had none.

OME HERE,” THE DUKE OF TRESHAM SAID TO JANE
after a game of chess a few days later, in which he had prevailed but only after he had been forced to ponder his moves and accuse her of trying to distract him with her chatter. She had spoken scarcely a word during the whole game. Jane had moved away to return the chess board to its cupboard.

She did not trust the tone of his voice. She did not trust
him
when she thought about the matter. There had been a tension between them during the past few days that even in her inexperience she had had no difficulty in identifying. He saw her as a woman, and she, God help her, was very much aware of him as a man. She breathed a prayer of gratitude as she approached the sofa for the fact that he was still confined to it, though she would no longer be employed if he were not, of course.

The thought of leaving her employment—and Dudley House—in another week and a half was becoming more and more oppressive to her. In their careless conversation, his friends had several times referred to the fact that her father’s cousin, the Earl of Durbury, was in London and that he had the dreaded Bow Street Runners looking for her. The friends and the duke himself appeared to be on her side. They jeered over the fact that she had overpowered Sidney, a man who was apparently not universally liked. But their attitude would change in
a moment if they discovered that Lady Sara Illingsworth and Jane Ingleby were one and the same person.

“Show me your hands,” the duke said now. It was, of course, a command, not a request.

“Why?” she asked, but he merely raised his eyebrows in that arrogant way he had and stared back at her.

She held them out toward him hesitantly, palms down. But he took them in his own and turned them over.

It was one of the most uncomfortable moments of Jane’s life. His hands dwarfed her own, cupping hers loosely. She could easily have pulled away, and every instinct urged her to do so. But then she would reveal her discomfort and its only possible source. She felt the pull of his masculinity like a physical force. She found it difficult to breathe.

“No calluses,” he said. “You have not done much menial work, then, Jane?”

She wished he would not sometimes lapse into calling her by the name only her parents had ever used. “Not a great deal, your grace,” she said.

“They are beautiful hands,” he said, “as one might expect. They match the rest of your person. They change bandages gently without causing undue pain. One wonders what other magic they could create with their touch. Jane, you could be the most sought-after courtesan in all of England if you so chose.”

She pulled her hands back then, but his own tightened about them a little faster than she moved.

“I did add ‘if you chose,’ ” he pointed out, a wicked gleam in his eyes. “What other magic can they create? I wonder. Are they musical hands? Do you play an instrument? The pianoforte?”

“A little,” she admitted. Unlike her mother, she had never been any more than a proficient pianist.

His hands were still tight on hers. His dark eyes burned upward into her own. Her claim to be able to escape him at any time by simply walking out through the door was ridiculous now. By just a slight jerking on her hands he could have her down across him in a moment.

She glared at him, determined not to show fear or any other discomfort.

“Show me.” He released her hands and indicated the pianoforte on the far side of the drawing room. It was a lovely instrument, she had noticed before, though not as magnificent as the one in the music room.

“I am out of practice,” she said.

“For God’s sake, Miss Ingleby,” he retorted, “do not be coy. I always withdraw in haste to the card room whenever the young misses of the
ton
are about to demonstrate their party pieces at any fashionable entertainment. But I have degenerated to the point at which I am almost eager to listen to someone who openly admits that she plays only a little and is out of practice. Now go and play before my mind turns to other sport while you are still within grabbing distance.”

She went.

She played one of the pieces she had committed to memory long ago, a Bach fugue. By happy chance she made only two errors, both in the first few bars and neither glaring.

“Come here,” the duke said again when she had finished.

She crossed the room, sat in the chair she usually occupied, and looked directly at him. She had discovered that doing so protected her from being bullied. It
appeared to suggest to him that she was capable of giving as good as she got.

“You were right,” he said abruptly. “You play a little. A very little. You play without flair. You play each note as if it were a separate entity that had no connection with what came before or after. You depress each key as if it were simply an inanimate strip of ivory, as if you believed it impossible to coax
music
out of it. You must have had an inferior teacher.”

The criticism of herself she could take quite philosophically. She had never had any illusions about her skills. But she bristled when he cast such aspersions on her mother.

“I did not!” she retorted. “How dare you presume to judge my teacher by my performance. She had more talent in her little finger than I have in my whole body. She could make it seem as if the music came from
her
rather than from a mere instrument. Or as if it came
through
her from some—oh, from some heavenly source.” She glared indignantly at him, aware of the inadequacy of words.

He gazed at her in silence for a moment, a strange, unfamiliar glow in his eyes.

“Ah,” he said at last, “you do understand, then, do you? It is not that you are unmusical, just that you are without superior talent of your own. But why would such a paragon come to an orphanage to teach?”

“Because she was an angel,” Jane said, and swiped at the tears that threatened to spill onto her cheeks. What was the matter with her? She had never been a watering pot until recently.

“Poor Jane,” he said softly. “Did she become a mother figure to you?”

She almost told him to go to hell, language that had never passed her lips before. She had almost sunk to his level.

“Never mind,” she said weakly. “You do not own my memories, your grace. Or me either.”

“Prickly,” he said. “Have I touched a nerve? Go away now and do whatever it is you do during your hour off in the afternoons. Send Quincy to me. I have letters to dictate to him.”

She walked in the garden as she did most afternoons except when it rained. Spring flowers were in glorious bloom, and the air smelled sweet. She was missing the air and exercise that had been so much part of her life in Cornwall. But fear was something that was closing about her more and more. She was afraid to go beyond the front doors of Dudley House.

She was afraid of being caught. Of not being believed. Of being punished as a murderess.

Sometimes she found herself on the verge of blurting the whole truth to the Duke of Tresham. Part of her believed he would stand as her friend. But it would be foolishness itself to trust a man renowned for ruthlessness.

A
FTER TWO WEEKS
J
OCELYN
decided that if he had to spend another week as he had spent the last two he would surely go mad. Raikes had been quite correct, of course, damn his eyes. The leg was not yet ready to bear his weight. But there was a middle ground between striding about on both legs and lying with one elevated.

He was going to acquire crutches.

His determination to delay no longer strengthened after two particular afternoon visits. Ferdinand came
first, bursting with the latest details of the curricle race, set for three days hence. It seemed that betting at White’s was brisk, almost all of it against Ferdinand and for Lord Berriwether. But his brother was undaunted. And he did introduce one other topic.

“The Forbes brothers are becoming increasingly offensive,” he said. “They are hinting that you are hiding out here, Tresham, pretending to be wounded because the thought of them waiting for you has you shaking in your boots. If they ever so much as whisper as much in my hearing, they will all have gloves slapped in their faces hard enough to raise welts.”

“Keep out of my concerns,” Jocelyn told him curtly. “If they have anything to say about me, they may say it to my face. They will not have long to wait.”

“Your concerns
are
mine, Tresham,” his brother complained. “An insult to one of us is an insult to all. I just hope Lady Oliver was worth it. Though I daresay she was. I have never known a woman with such a slender waist and such large—” But he broke off suddenly and glanced uneasily over his shoulder at Jane Ingleby, who was sitting quietly some distance away, as usual.

Ferdinand, like Angeline and Jocelyn’s friends, seemed uncertain how to treat the Duke of Tresham’s nurse.

Trouble was brewing, Jocelyn thought restlessly after his brother had left. Just as it usually was over something or other. Except that normally he was out there to confront it. He had always reveled in it. He could not remember thinking, as he sometimes caught himself doing these days, that there was something remarkably silly and meaningless in his whole style of life.