Moonbreeze (The Dragonian Series Book 4) (41 page)

“You could say that,” I said.

“Who, Elena?”

“Master Longwei.”

She closed her eyes.

“Becky, what are you hiding? I need to know. I’m leaving with him tomorrow and if something is going to happen that I should know—”

“It’s not like that,” Sammy interrupted. “My brother might be a huge douchebag Elena, and heaven knows he has seriously fucked up any chance he had with you, but he would never ever hurt you like that.”

I swallowed hard at her choice of words. What did she mean by any chance he had with me? It wasn’t like that. We were never going to become anything like that.

“I’m sorry, I just get upset that you always think the worst of him. I know what he did, okay. He hurt you more than any guy here, and yes, it’s unfair that they’re forcing you to go on this trip with him, and he will probably never be enough, but he does deserve a chance to tell his side of the story, Elena.”

“His side? What are you…” I looked at both of them. “This is what Master Longwei was referring to wasn’t it? What are you not telling me, Sammy?”

“Don’t ask me that. I promised Blake I wouldn’t say.”

I squinted. “You promised your brother you wouldn’t say what?”

“Tell you the truth,” Becky interrupted. “Sammy can’t, she is taking her promise quite seriously.”

“As it should be, Becky,” Sammy snapped back. “You promised him too.”

“I refuse to leave with him if you don’t tell me what the hell is going on here.”

“We can’t Elena. It’s not our story to tell.” Becky had that look on her face. The same one Master Longwei had had when he’d uttered that stupid line about forgiving him.

My arms were folded. They were my friends, but still, I meant what I said and I turned around and left. If they were not going to tell me, someone else would.

I KNOCKED ON the infirmary door a bit louder than I intended.

I could hear Constance walking around and then she opened the door slowly.

“Elena!” She sounded surprised. “I wondered if you were going to come by.” She stood in the doorway blocking my view.

“Can I come in?”

“I’m really busy, but give me an hour please, then we can talk.”

“It’s fine.” Blake’s voice came from inside as his figure appeared behind his aunt’s. “I’ve said all I wanted to say anyway.”

He kissed her on the cheek. “Just be careful, Blake,” she said to his retreating figure and he laughed. “Everyone, except Elena, seems to forget what it is I really am.”

She smiled and I just stared at her. “Come in.”

I entered and went to her office. I took a seat and waited for her to sit down too, after she switched on the kettle.

“You want some tea?”

“No, thank you. I need answers.”

“Okay, what sort of answers?”

“Nobody wants to tell me, Master Longwei said something to me and now I can’t seem to stop wondering about it.”

“What did he say?” She sounded worried.

“It was Blake-related. He said when the time came and I discovered something, that he hoped forgiving myself would be as easy as it will be to forgive him.”

She closed her eyes and shook her head.

“Constance, please. Becky and Sammy didn’t want to say anything, they promised – which is seriously messed up by the way.”

“Is it?” She squinted.

“Just tell me.”

She shook her head slowly. “I can’t. I made a promise too, Elena.”

I fell back into the chair. “So what, I have to leave with him tomorrow, not knowing anything?”

“I didn’t say that, you can always ask him.”

I took a deep breath. I hadn’t spoken to Blake directly since I’d come back. Well except for that day with the barcode.

“I can call him back, if you like?”

I had to know so I nodded my head. She smiled, picked up her Cammy and spoke his name.

I didn’t watch his holograph appear on the tiny screen. His face still reminded me of Billy.

“Everything okay?” he asked when he saw Constance’s face. “Yes, you need to come back, Blake.”

“Constance, I was basically done when Elena knocked. I don’t—

“Yes, you do,” she said and put down the Cammy.

I sighed. The waiting was excruciating.

“Just be open-minded and if you want to ask anybody else if what he says is the truth, ask Emanual.”

“Emanual?”

“It’s a long story, Elena. But I know you still trust Emanual.”

I didn’t, not really. He was on team Blake too.

The knock on the door made me flinch and Constance got up. I listened as she opened the infirmary door.

“I really said all I needed to, but if you don’t want to part with me yet…” he joked.

“It’s not that, Blake, come.”

“Okay, what’s up? Elena okay?” he asked in a worried tone that didn’t belong to him at all. I hadn’t expected that.

Constance giggled softly before she entered.

Blake froze at the doorway when he saw me still sitting in the chair. I didn’t look at him.

“Sit, Blake.”

“Is it safe?”

“Just sit down.” I said irritated.

He didn’t say anything and the chair screeched as he sat down.

“So what’s up?”

“Someone told Elena something about you-know-what and now none of us can say anything because of that stupid promise we made.”

He stayed quiet for a while then sighed. “Who?”

“Who do you think?” Constance said.

“Idiot.”

“It’s Master Longwei. He’s not an idiot.” I looked at him.

“Yes, he is,” Blake answered harshly and just stared at me.

“Just tell me what they don’t want to.”

He laughed sarcastically and shook his head. “It doesn’t matter, you’re never going to believe me.”

I didn’t like this Blake. It was the one from the mountains, always smiling and making jokes.

“Stand up, Blake,” Constance said.

“Why?” Blake asked.

“Just stand up. Remember the advice you got from Leo and don’t mess this up.”

What advice, and mess what up?

He got up and lifted both his hands in the air as if to ask her “What now?”

Constance walked over to him and turned his back toward me. She lifted up his shirt and I froze. He had a huge, brown, reddish circle on his back.

“Okay, that was not what I thought you were going to do.” Blake pulled down his shirt and stared angrily at his aunt.

That was a new mark, that much I knew.

“She needs to know that you tried Blake.”

“It doesn’t matter.”

“Yes, it does. You are not that Blake anymore. Now tell her how you searched for her, Blake.”

“What?”

“Yeah, a shocker isn’t it. I couldn’t find you.”

I blew out a deep breath as he sat down again.

“Blake,” Constance said.

“She doesn’t need to know everything.”

“Yes, she does. This is your chance to speak to her.”

“Actions speak louder than words, and believe me I’m the last person she will believe.”

“You are the only one that can tell her. Blake, what is wrong with you? Stop being such an idiot and speak to this girl. You’ve been waiting for this for five months now, speak to her and stop being such an ass. This isn’t who you are.” Constance was seriously angry with him.

“It’s the only Blake she knows, Constance.”

“Then let her meet the new one.”

Everything that had happened over the past six months flashed through my mind and every horrible thought, every horrible feeling I’d had since the day Blake had kissed me felt like it was burning through my blood. I stood up. “I’m right here!” I yelled. “Don’t talk about me like I’m not in the same room as you. I want to know what’s going on. What’s that thing on your back?” I looked at Blake and he just stared at me.

“It was a Creeper.”

“A what?”

“He flew too close to the Creepers, Elena,” Constance said. “If it hadn’t been for Emanual, he would’ve died.”

“Emanual?”

“He helped me after a whil
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.
I tried okay.” Blake sounded annoyed. “I failed miserably. I couldn’t find you. Something was wrong with my tracking ability when I woke up – everything was wrong when I woke up. The thing we used to share, it’s gone. I can’t hear a peep anymore.”

Emanual had helped him. That was why Emanual said those words that night of the hearing.

“Why did you go to the Creepers?” I asked angrily.

He smiled again. “She is never going to get this.” And got up. “See you later.”

“Blake, don’t do this.” Constance looked at his retreating figure.

“Bye, Constance. See you tomorrow at three, Elena, and don’t be late.”

He left the infirmary.

I just looked at Constance.

“Don’t you dare look at me like that. I tried to tell you and you didn’t want to listen.”

“What was he doing so close to the Creepers?”

“He dented Elena. When he woke up after two weeks—”

“He was out for two weeks?” I interrupted her.

She nodded. “The only thing he did was try to find you. He didn’t even care about his own health. That was when Emanual started to search with him.”

I couldn’t believe this. It didn’t sound real at all, but I’d seen that mark. He didn’t even want her to show me, had gotten angry after she pulled up his shirt.

“His tracking ability really didn’t work. He couldn’t pick your scent up anywhere. He forced me to do tests on him, and the fact that he couldn’t hear you anymore, it wasn’t as easy on him as you may think.”

“Why did he go to the Creepers, Constance?”

“I don’t know, Emanual was worried about that after a while. We all thought it was a death wish.”

“What?” I said. “You know how this sounds, right?”

“Oh, not what you expected? He Dented, Elena,” Constance said.

It was a spell. It wasn’t real. None of this was real. He was stuck in the twilight zone too and would do anything I told him to. That was dangerous, very dangerous. I could not fall for him again. I wouldn’t.

“I’ve got to go,” I said and left too. She didn’t even call after me.

I walked into my room and the girls were missing.

Blake tried to find me?
I’d seen the mark. I grunted and pushed it out of my head. It wasn’t real.

NCE I WAS settled, I took a bath and climbed straight into bed. I didn’t want to think about anything. If Blake had Dented, he was under a spell now and there was nothing I could do about it.

I heard Becky and Sammy entering late.

“Well, at least she knows now,” I heard Becky say.

“I hope it’s going to be a new beginning, but my brother doesn’t think that it will make any difference.”

“We’ll see what she’s like when she comes back. Four weeks is a long time, Sammy.”

“I hope you are right.”

Each of them took their turn in the bathroom and I kept pretending to be asleep each time they came out.

The light soon went off and I was once again in darkness. Darkness of the room, darkness of my mind. I had noticed that my heart always beat faster when the night came.

I looked out the window from my bed and the curtain showed some stars. I sighed. Stars were the only good signs now.

It didn’t make sense why I couldn’t find stars in the Wyvern city, but I saw them now as some sort of protector. As long as I could see them, I knew I was safe.

The dream where the Rubicon didn’t show up played in my head as soon as I drifted off. It felt so real. Seymour’s face was inches from mine as he called me his little bird. I whimpered slightly. In the dream I experienced everything as it should have been. My soul never left my body in the dream, I didn’t have that small piece of mental protection. He ripped my pajamas open and forced me to watch as Billy unbuckled his belt.

I was being shaken real hard and my eyes flew open. I found Becky.

“It’s just a dream, you are okay.”

She grabbed me tight around my shoulders. “She’s awake,” I heard Sammy say and looked past Becky. It was only us three.

“Thank you.” I buried my head in Becky’s shoulder.

“They are just dreams, Elena.”

I knew that, but I couldn’t put voice to it. The dream might have been over, but the memory of that night was still real. It would never change.

It had screwed up my life forever.

“Why don’t you go take a bath, and go have breakfast?” I looked at the clock and it read one. I had set my alarm for one. Why hadn’t it started to beep? I was angry as it had been a few minutes too late and killed the buzzer real hard with a slap. I closed the door and opened the taps.

I wielded my shield around me so that I couldn’t hear my friends’ concerns. I couldn’t deal with it right now. I had way too much shit going on.

The water filled up the bathtub and I climbed in. As the water lapped against my body, my eyes landed on my barcode.

I thought about how privileged I was to have running water. Charles and the rest didn’t have that luxury anymore.

I pushed Charles to the back of my mind too. I’d hardly thought about Annie, other than trying to find her. Was she still alive?

I could always ask…No Elena, you ask him nothing.

I was glad that he couldn’t hear my thoughts anymore, but to hear him say it out loud tonight, it seemed he didn’t like the fact that he’d lost that connection.

I was glad though, I would die if he knew that I’d trusted someone just because they looked like him.

I scrubbed myself and then climbed out the bath when I felt sort of clean. I knew I was never going to feel clean ever again. Men had no idea what they were doing to a woman when they forced themselves on us. It left an invisible mark that could never be washed away.

I got dressed and found Sammy and Becky up and dressed too.

Sammy took my backpack and they both went with me to the cafeteria.

“I really wish that I could come with.”

“Me too,” I said. “I’m going to miss you guys.” I hugged them both.

They didn’t say anything.

“I know I haven’t been the best friend to be around these past five weeks but I did need you guys, and I will always need you both.”

Sammy flung her arms around me. “I just want you to be okay. That’s all.”

“Me too.”

Becky stroked my back and we walked down the steps again to the cafeteria. Blake wasn’t there yet, but when I found an empty plate, I figured he had already left. I glanced at my watch. Two-thirty. I had thirty minutes more with my friends and then I was facing four long weeks with a dragon that I thought hadn’t tried to find me. It was harder knowing that he’d tried.

Why couldn’t he find me? Now that was one question I didn’t want to know the answer to.

I poured some coffee. It was still dark outside, and I looked at the sky that peeked through the windows again.
Stars, plenty of stars.

I took my coffee and walked back to the table. My backpack was gone and so was Sammy.

“She quickly took your backpack down,” Becky said as I handed her a cup.

“Thanks, Elena. So, remember, if he turns, don’t be afraid okay?” Becky had a worried look on her face.

“I know what his dragon form is like Becky.”

“Believe me you don’t. He’s gotten bigger since the last time you saw him.”

“Bigger?”
Was that even possible?

“And faster too. Easily the fastest dragon out there. We tried to help him in the beginning but we could never keep up, so we searched on our own.”

“Why did he make you guys promise not to tell me anything?” I had to know.

“He did that at the hospital, that day you discovered he was still alive. I hated that day, I hated seeing you like that,” she said softly. “I don’t know, he kept saying “it’s the Dent thing” and that George was the only one that knew what he was talking about. It’s like they invented a language all on their own. It’s frustrating.”

It wasn’t real. I kept saying that over and over because I already knew the before and after. The two made no sense. There wasn’t enough time for that transformation to take place, for that bond to become so strong, so it had to be some sort of spell. Some sort of enslavement.

“All I know is that it’s not a spell, Elena. He said so himself, once. He said he’d gotten it all wrong. You should’ve seen him when he woke up that day and found that you were missing. It felt as if I was witnessing something that I couldn’t put a name to. It didn’t feel real, but it was.”

“George still hasn’t told you?”

She shook her head. “I don’t think he ever will either. They will die with the secret of what a Dent is, that is how it has always been.”

“Or there isn’t anything to tell.”

“You can’t say that, Elena. It didn’t sound like nothing when he asked us not to mention anything to you.”

I squinted. “What do you mean, didn’t sound like nothing?”

“I don’t know, it really sounded like he knew something about you.”

“He knows nothing about me, except that I am his rider, which he has somehow managed to make peace with.”

“I wouldn’t call it that. Did you really set him free?”

I huffed. “It was the night he kissed me. I really wanted to kick him for doing that.”

“But you didn’t.”

“No, because he started to bleed through every hole in his body.”

She just looked at me. “He gave us a heart attack when we came back. When they couldn’t find you, Constance put two and two together when she found his heartbeat on the EKG.”

“EKG?”

“You can hardly hear his heartbeat. That is how soft it is.”

“It would’ve been awesome if someone had told me that, before now.”

“Sorry, it was something I only found out that night. He is so different from all the other dragons.”

“You can say that again.”

Just then, Chef came to our table in his robe. “I thought I heard talking.” He smiled. “So what will it be, princess?”

I giggled. I hated them calling me that. “Eggs would be nice.”

“What about a bit of bacon and some French toast?”

“Oooh, can I have some too?” Becky asked.

“I’m sure if George can have breakfast with Blake, you can too. Should I whip up something for Sammy?”

“She’s always hungry, so yes, please do,” Becky said and he chuckled as he went to the kitchen.

Sammy came back, and her face was flushed. She’d changed into a robe and I knew she’d recently transformed, probably to take my bag down.

“The cockroaches will never give up. They are crawling all over the woods.”

“Blake’s probably not too happy about that,” Becky stated.

“He’s actually addressing them now.”

“What?” Becky asked and I just looked at her.

She looked at me. “There is no other route, but through them, Elena.”

I sighed. “It’s fine. I haven’t given them anything yet. Is Kevin there?” I didn’t know why I asked that.

She nodded.

“Just great.”

“Don’t worry, Emanual and King Helmut are there too. My mom and dad are waiting for you as well, to say hello and goodbye. They haven’t seen you for a long time, Elena.”

“I know, I’m sorry about that.” I felt so guilty.

“They understand.” Sammy stroked my back.

The food came and we all ate in silence. When I was done I looked at my watch. It was five minutes to three.

“I guess it’s time,” I said and got up.

Sammy and Becky walked with me and I found Constance waiting for me in a robe.

“The place is full of press, Elena. We are actually waiting to see if some of them will clear out. Blake even made a speech, but…”

“Calm down. They know that I have to go with. They won’t leave unless someone shoots them.”

She giggled.

“Not an option, Constance.”

Becky and Sammy laughed with me.

“Well, I guess this is as far as we can go,” Becky said and gave me a hug.

“I really wish you could come with me.”

“I do too, it would’ve looked awesome on my résumé.”

I giggled. Sammy was next.

“If that brother of mine breaks his promise and leaves you somewhere all alone, you tell me. I’ll kick his ass.”

“Come here.” I pulled her into a hug. “You wouldn’t hurt a fly, Sammy.”

She giggled. “But I can light an ass on fire.”

I giggled again.

Constance stroked my arm. “I know you probably won’t have time, but if you see a Sun-Blast that looks kind of like me, please…”

“Don’t. You don’t have to ask. I will bring her back.”

She wrapped her arms around me. “Thank you, Elena.”

“You’ve done more for me than I could ever repay you for, Constance.”

“That is not true. You deserved every single thing.” She stroked my face and pulled off her robe, transforming into a beautiful Swallow Annex.

She held out her paw and I climbed into her talons. The flight wasn’t long but I could see cameras going off like mad when we neared our location.

Constance had hardly released me when questions started filling the air. Emanual and Sir Robert were at once at my side.