Montana 1948 (20 page)

Our only link with Montana was Grandma Hayden. She wrote to us regularly and even visited us a few times until she became too ill to travel.

As far as I know, she never spoke of the events of 1948, but she kept us up to date on some of those who played roles in the tragedy.

Aunt Gloria left Montana less than a year after we did. She moved to Spokane, where her sister lived, and Gloria eventually remarried.

Len McAuley was unable to complete his term in office. He had a stroke that left him partially paralyzed, and he had to turn the badge over to his deputy, Johnny Packwood, who had been in the military police. Thus, the Hayden-McAuley control of the Mercer County sheriff's office was broken.

Len lived on a number of years after his stroke, but ironically, less than a year after Len's cerebral hemorrhage my grandfather had one too. Which he did not survive. He was dead within three days.

Two strokes. I used to think, my interest in symbol and metaphor far surpassing my medical knowledge, that they died from keeping the secret about my uncle Frank. They held it in, the pressure built, like holding your breath, and something had to blow. In their case, the vessels in their brains. In my father's case, it was not only the secret he held in but also his bitterness. Which eventually turned into his cancer. Well, there I go, blaming an incident that happened over forty years ago for what was probably brought on by Len McAuley's whiskey, my grandfather's cigars, and my father's diet.

My happiest memory of Marie, the one that gradually separated itself from the general tangle of pleasant, warm moments, was from the autumn before she died.

Unhappy with my general lack of success at team sports, I decided I would do something about it. By sheer disciplined practice, through diligence, I would overcome my lack of natural ability and become good at something. Football was the sport I chose, and I further narrowed my choice of skills by concentrating on just one aspect of football. I would become an expert dropkicker. Drop-kicking, of course, has long since ceased to be a part of football, but in 1947 players drop-kicked field goals; they dropped the ball, let it hit the ground for the briefest instant, then tried to boot it through the goal posts. That fall I spent hours in the backyard, trying to drop-kick a football over a branch of our oak, then shagging the ball and kicking it back the other way, back and forth, back and forth. . . .

One afternoon when I was practicing after school, Ronnie Tall Bear burst out the back door of our house, Marie close behind him. Although Marie was obviously chasing him, they were both laughing.

Ronnie ran across our yard. When he came to my football, he fell on it, rolled with it through the leaves, and came up running, exactly as he no doubt had done with recovered fumbles countless times in football practices or in actual games.

When Ronnie picked up my football, Marie was able to gain some ground, but now he began to run like the football star he once was, tucking the ball under one arm, faking, spinning,
stopping, starting, shifting direction. Ronnie turned when he came to the railroad tracks and doubled back toward me. Once he got close enough, he lateraled the ball to me. Now Marie, tiring and slowing but still pursuing, was after
me.

For the next half hour we chased up and down the yard, throwing the football back and forth, running after each other. It was a game, yet it had no object and no borders of space or time or regulation. It was totally free-form, but we still tried to use our skills—throwing accurate spirals, leaping to make catches, running as fast as we could in pursuit or escape. I felt that what we played, more accurately
how
we played, had its origin in Ronnie and Marie's Indian heritage, but I had no way of knowing that with any certainty. All I could be sure of was that I never had more fun playing ball, any kind of ball, in my life.

When we were too tired to play any longer, we went back to the house by way of the garage. There my mother kept a gallon of apple cider. Was it Marie's idea to uncap it? No matter. We passed the cider around, each of us drinking from the heavy jug, the cool, sweet cider the perfect answer to the question, how do you follow an afternoon of running around in the warm autumn sun?

I believe I remembered that incident so fondly not only because I was with Marie and Ronnie, both of whom I loved in my way, but also because I felt, for that brief span, as though I was part of a family, a family that accepted me for myself and not my blood or birthright.

My wife, Betsy, lived in seven cities before she graduated from high school. All of the communities were in Minnesota, Wisconsin, and northern Illinois, and during one summer vacation we drove to each town so she could photograph her childhood homes. (My wife also teaches, and this trip was exactly the sort of thing that teachers, with all that time and so little money, are likely to come up with for their summers.)

Since Betsy was immersed in all this nostalgia, it was natural for her to suggest that we drive to Montana to see
my
boyhood home. No, I told her, that was all right; I had no desire to go back. This she couldn't understand, and I finally gave in and told her why I—why no one in my immediate family—wanted to return to Bentrock. I told her about what happened in the summer of 1948.

The story stunned her, but it also fascinated her. She couldn't wait for the next meeting with my parents, so she could ask them about their memories of that summer.

I could have warned her off. I could have told her that in my family that is a subject never discussed. We all know what happened—we know it is there, in our shared past, we don't deny it, but we don't talk about it, as if keeping quiet is a matter of good manners. But I didn't tell my wife any of this. I suppose I wanted to see what would happen when someone else brought out into the open a topic that had never been discussed in any detail in my presence.

A few months later we were all together, gathered at my parents' house for Thanksgiving dinner. We had been seated for only a few minutes when Betsy said, “David told me all
about what happened when you lived in Montana. That sure was the Wild West, wasn't it?”

My father, at this time, had already had one cancer surgery, and he was not strong, but at Betsy's question he slammed his hand down on the table so hard the plates and silverware jumped.

“Don't blame Montana!” he said. “Don't ever blame Montana!”

He pushed himself away from the table, left the room, and never returned to the meal.

Later that night, after everyone was in bed, I came back down to the dining room. I sat in the chair where my father had sat and lightly put my hands on the table. For an instant I thought I felt the wood still vibrating from my father's blow.

About the Author

Born and raised in North Dakota, Larry Watson is the author of many novels, including
In a Dark Time, White Crosses, Orchard, Laura,
and
Montana 1948,
which has been acclaimed widely around the world. Also the author of a collection of fiction,
Justice,
and a chapbook of poetry,
Leaving Dakota,
Watson has received numerous awards and prizes for his work. He lives in Milwaukee, Wisconsin.

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