Monkey Grip (35 page)
Authors: Helen Garner
âHave you seen Javo?'
âNo â or not to speak to, anyway.'
âIs he spending all his time at Claire's?'
âI guess so.'
A funny kind of pain, dull, not sharp, spread through my body as if by way of the bloodstreams. Doesn't matter, doesn't matter.
In the middle of the night I woke up and went outside to piss on the grass. The moon hung low in the sky above the quiet hedge. I squatted down at the corner of the house and let my piss run down the bare, grey earth in a trickle. I stood up, wiped myself with my hand, and rinsed my hand under the tap. I stood still, staring at the moon and feeling the soft air on my skin. Claire's car sat there behind me, a big silent bulk in the dark. I thought again of her and Javo, and instead of that pain came the thought,
âWell . . . so be it. Let it be what it is.'
I went back up the steps and crept under the woollen blanket.
In the morning the sky was clear. The sunlight lay on the scrubby grass in long, pinkish-gold strips. The absent-minded carolling of magpies dropped out of the pine trees half a mile away.
Time to go home.
Acknowledgement is made to the following: Judith Wright for permission to quote from her poem âTrain Journey' from Collected Poems, published by HarperCollins; the Essex Music Group for the lines from Joni Mitchell's songs âBarangrill' and âelectricity'; Special Rider Music/Sony Music Publishing Australia for the lines from Bob Dylan's song âI Shall be Free no. 10'; the lines from Noel Coward's poem âThe Boy Actor' are reproduced by kind permission of Michael Playwrights Ltd on behalf of the encore of Noel Coward.
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First published by McPhee Gribble Publishers, 1977
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The Children's Bach
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In two of Helen Garner's finest short stories, she examines the idiosyncratic and bothersome notions of honour by which her characters â adults and children â shape their untidy lives.
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From one of Australia's most celebrated writers come eleven stories about the complexities of life and love; of looking back and longing; of what it means to be a stranger, on foreign ground and known, told with the piercing familiarity and resonance we have come to expect from Helen Garner. Remarkably honest, often very funny and always woven in ways that surprise, these stories tease out everyday life to show the darkness underneath â but also the possibilities of joy.
âShe glories in the ordinary and makes it glow'
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