Micah (6 page)

 

He put his hands under my thighs and pulled me off the mound of pillows. Pulled me so that my lower body was flat to the bed, but my upper body was still a little propped up. He put a finger inside of me, just a finger, but the sensation of it writhed me across the bed, made me cry out.

“So wet, but so tight. You're always so tight after I do you by mouth.”

He was kneeling between my legs, his body so hard, so ripe, so ready. I said the only thing I was thinking.

“Fuck me, Micah, fuck me.”

“You're tight, Anita, really tight.”

I raised up on my elbows. “But wet. I'm so wet. You've made me so wet.”

He licked his lips and swallowed. I could see his pulse jumping in his throat. “I don't want to hurt you.”

“If it hurts, I'll say so.”

He looked down at me, and his face didn't look lustful now; it looked nervous, uncertain. I knew he wanted to try to shove himself inside me, but he was afraid to. How many women had hurt him? How many had told him he was a freak, a monster, simply because he was so very male? I sat up enough to wrap my hand around the hard length of him. Just holding it in my hand threw my head back, made me cry out. I stared at him, knowing my eyes were wild, squeezing my hand around him until his head went back, his eyes rolled into his head.

I slid my hand up over him, caressing the soft, luscious head. I leaned back on my elbows, looking at him. “Fuck me, Micah. Fuck me before I stop having little spasms inside me. You made me so wet, so tight,
my body is still having little mini orgasms. I want you inside me while my body is still spasming.”

He bent over and kissed me, his mouth still wet from me, still tasting like meat and that fresh taste, almost like rain. People can make fish jokes, but not every woman tastes the same.

He drew back from the kiss, kept himself propped up on his arms. But his body was already pushing against me.

Feeling the weight of him against me made me fall back against the bed. He kept his body above mine so I could see every inch of him as he began to try to push his way inside me.

I was wet enough, but he was so wide, so very wide, that he had to ease his way in, and even easing had a level of force to it. He had to force his way in. If I'd released the
ardeur,
I would have been more open, more ready for him. The
ardeur
alone without much foreplay could make my body ready, eager, and more open. But we both wanted me tight, both wanted to feel him fight his way inside me.

The tip vanished inside me, with so much left still. Watching him push inch by inch inside me made me cry out, made my body rise up, so that my hands went around my own thighs. So that I held my legs up and made my body a little ball. So I could see, and feel, all of it.

Halfway through his eyes closed, and he stopped moving, head down. His voice came strained. “So wet. God, so tight. You keep gripping me with your body. It's like the farther in I push, the more you spasm. Just me pushing inside you, causing small orgasms.”

“Yes,” I said, and my voice was breathy, it was eager. “Yes, the sensation of you inside me, when I'm this tight, this wet. It's amazing. Oh, God, Micah, don't stop, don't stop.”

He raised his face up then and met my eyes. He searched my face as if he thought I was lying to him.

“You're serious?”

“Yes, God, yes.”

“You're wet enough, but we've never tried this when you were this tight, Anita.” Eagerness fought in
his eyes with worry. “I can push in faster, but I don't want to hurt you.”

I stared into his face and said what I was thinking. “I don't know whose ghost you're fighting right now, but it's not me. Whoever you thought you hurt, it wasn't me. Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me the way we both want you to.”

I watched him decide with our faces inches apart, our bodies already wedded to each other. I watched him decide. His hips moved forward, shoved himself inside me. I'd told him to stop being careful. He took me at my word.

He shoved himself inside me, fought to push his hardness inside me, as far and as fast as he could. I was too tight and he was too wide for speed, but whereas before when he felt resistance he'd hesitated, now he shoved harder. My body resisted, and his body crashed through. He shoved all that hard, wide meat inside me. He forced his way in, while my body was still trying to figure out if it was a good thing or a bad thing.

On one hand it felt amazing, so hard, so long, so wide, and all inside me. God, it felt good. It flung me back against the bed, tore screams of pleasure from my mouth. It made me writhe around him, wriggling and struggling, caught between orgasm and my body telling me that maybe we shouldn't be doing this. About the time I thought,
Too much, too wide, slow down,
and actually drew breath to say it, the orgasm stopped being spasms and was suddenly full-blown. It caught me off guard as a lot of intercourse orgasms did. It turned almost-pain to unbelievable pleasure. It made me throw my body around him, over him, fling my upper body against the pillows, over and over again like a puppet whose strings had been cut. I writhed and screamed, and fought, and danced under him. And he shoved himself as far inside me as he could, hitting the end of me when there was still some of him yet to go.

He drew himself out of me, and it rubbed, because orgasm was tightening me around him, trying to hold on to all of him as he pulled back out. He began to shove himself inside again as far and hard as the
tightness would let him. He fought his way in and out, while I writhed and screamed. I had to hold on to something. My hands found his shoulders, his arms, and drew blood down them. Too much pleasure, too many sensations, as if all that pleasure spilled out of me in the blood that ran down his body.

His voice came gasping. “Feed the
ardeur
soon, Anita, please. God, soon. I'm not going to last much longer.” I'd forgotten what we were doing. I'd forgotten about the
ardeur
. I'd forgotten everything but the sex. It took only a thought, and the
ardeur
was suddenly there. But I was too far gone in orgasm, pleasure, our bodies. Always before, the
ardeur
had felt like more, like its own presence, but now it was only another part of the sex. It was like an extra layer of heat added to a bonfire that was already burning down the room.

It tore sounds from my throat, raked my nails down Micah's back, and only then did I realize he was on top of me, not above me, but pressed on top of me in a more standard missionary position. I hadn't remembered when he changed position.

The
ardeur
had opened me to him, and he was finally able to shove himself in and out of me, not fighting my body now but sliding in and out. He came to the end of me before his thrust was finished, but there was no more of me, nowhere else for him to go. He raised up on his arms for a moment so I could gaze down my body at the meat of him going inside me, over and over and over, and the orgasm was almost, almost, almost. I could feel his body changing rhythm, feel that he was close. The
ardeur
couldn't feed off of Micah until he orgasmed. He was too dominant, too controlled; only orgasm let his shields down enough to be food for me.

He cried out above me, his hips doing one last thrust that brought me screaming off the bed, bowing my back, closing my eyes. I screamed for him a long time after he had finished, and he lay on top of me, trying to relearn how to breathe. I screamed and writhed underneath him, still caught in the aftershocks of what we'd done.

When he could move, he pulled out of me, and that made me writhe again, but almost as soon as he was
out the ache began. That the endorphins had begun to fade that fast meant I'd be sore later. But it was the kind of sore I didn't mind. The kind of sore that would be like a keepsake, that I could take out and look at and remember what we'd done. I'd remember the pleasure of it with every ache between my legs.

Micah lay oddly, half on his stomach, half on his side. The arm that was toward me was bleeding. He'd have his own aches and pains to remember this by. He moved, propping himself up on his elbows, and I saw his back.

I gasped and said, “Jesus, Micah, I'm sorry.”

He winced. “The nails don't usually hurt this soon after great sex.”

I nodded. “When the endorphins go quick, you know you're hurt.” His back looked like he'd been attacked by something with more claws than I had.

“Are you hurting?” he asked.

“A little ache.”

He gave me serious eyes. “When I drew out, there was blood. Not much, but some.”

“We've had color before,” I said.

“Yeah, but that's usually near your period. This isn't.” His face was serious again. That shadow of old memories, old girlfriends in his eyes.

“How does your back feel?” I asked.

He grinned for me. “It hurts.”

“Do you regret it?”

He shook his head. “God, no, it was a-fucking-mazing.”

“Ask me how I feel,” I said.

“Did I hurt you?”

“I ache already, which means a little.” I touched his face before he could look away. “Now ask me if I regret it.”

He gave me that sad, mixed smile of his. “Do you regret it?”

“God, no,” I said. “You were a-fucking-mazing.”

He smiled then, and it was a real smile. I watched the ghosts fade from his eyes until there was nothing but warm pleasure left.

“I love you,” he said. “I love you so much.”

“And I love you.”

He looked down at the bedspread, which was a
little worse for wear. “I better get up off this before we get more blood on it.” He got to his feet, steadying himself on the edge of the bed as if his legs weren't quite working yet. I couldn't have walked if a fire alarm had gone off, so I sympathized.

There were spots of blood here and there, almost outlining the upper part of his body. There was also a spot of crimson where his lower body had been pressed to the bedspread. White had been a bad choice for it. I pushed myself up enough to look down at my own body. There was blood between my legs and a little on the bedspread below my body. “Think the maid will call the cops?” I asked.

He started a shaky walk toward the door. I think he was headed for the bathroom. “Not if we tip her enough.” He caught the door as if he'd have fallen without it.

“Careful,” I said.

He leaned against the door for a moment, then looked at me. “You make everything all right for me, Anita. You make me feel like a human being instead of a monster.”

“And you love all of me, Micah, every last hard-boiled, ruthless bit of me. You make it okay that sometimes I am the monster. You know what I do, and you still love me.”

“You're not a monster, Anita”—he grinned at me—“but you are ruthless. But then I like that in a girl.” He went toward the bathroom still a little shaky but moving better. I settled back on the bed and waited for my knees and thighs to work enough to walk. I might as well get comfortable; it was going to be a while before I could move.

 

Philly was a pretty city, what little I'd seen of it. The visit so far had consisted of the airport and the hotel room and some amazing sex. We could have been anywhere. The cemetery reminded me that the city was in one of the thirteen original colonies. It was old, that cemetery. It breathed its age and the age of its dead. Breathed it along my skin the moment we stepped out of Fox's car. Once, a cemetery this old would have been peaceful for me. Too old to have ghosts, maybe a few shivery spots if you walked directly over a grave, but mostly the dead here would
be inert, earth to earth, dust to dust, and all that. But now the dead called to me, even through my shielding.

Theoretically, no one could raise the long dead without a human sacrifice. I probably held the record for oldest without one, but even two-hundred-plus years dead should have been beyond me. So why, lately, did the long dead whisper power across my skin?

I shivered, but it wasn't from the early November cold. In fact, I was too warm in the leather jacket. Micah was suddenly at my side. He helped me slip the jacket off, whispering, “Are you all right?”

I nodded. I was all right, better than all right. Standing there in the power-kissed darkness was intoxicating. It was as if my skin were drinking magic from the very air. Which, with necromancy, wasn't possible.

Micah asked Fox if we could put the jacket back in the car. I didn't wait to hear what Fox said; I was already walking out into the dark. I absently trailed my fingers along the weathered tops of the tombstones as I walked between them.

Old cemeteries are crowded things. The ground was smooth and rough, but there was no longer much to differentiate ground from grave, so that I walked one step on the ground, then on the second step walked over a grave. You know the old saying
Someone walked over my grave?
This was like the reverse of that. I didn't feel bad, or shaky, or scared. With every grave I walked over, I felt better, steadier, more confident. I took a little energy from every body I passed over, no matter how old. I could have drunk in the power of the dead underneath me and done . . . Done what?

The thought stopped me literally in my tracks. What I hadn't realized was that Franklin was following me, close. I hadn't even known he was there.

He ran into me, or nearly. He had to grab my arms to keep from smacking into the back of me. It startled both of us. He apologized before I'd finished turning around.

“I'm sorry, I didn't know you were . . . stopping.” He sounded breathless and way more upset than he should have been.

I was left staring up at him, wondering why he was nervous. Then I saw what he was doing with his hands. He was running them up and down the sleeves of his trench coat, as if he'd touched something and was trying to wipe it off. He wasn't being insulting. I doubt he even realized he was doing it. I might have done the same thing if I'd touched someone else's magic unexpectedly. It was like walking through metaphysical cobwebs; you had to brush it off. He had felt at least some of the power I was getting off the graves.

I might have asked Franklin why he'd been hiding that he was psychic, but Fox and Micah came up to us, and somehow I didn't think Franklin would want me being that insightful in front of them. Had he told the FBI that he was talented? I was betting not. It had been a plus in only the last two, three years tops. Before that they looked at it as a psychological disorder. You didn't get to be a federal agent with a psychological disorder.

It did explain why he had a serious dislike of me. If he was hiding what he was, he wouldn't want to be
around someone who complemented his talents, whatever they might be. No, if you were hiding, you didn't want to be around people who were out of the broom closet, as it were.

“Is there a problem?” Fox asked.

Franklin said, “No, no problem,” a little too fast.

I just shook my head, still looking up at the taller man.

I don't think Fox believed us, but he let it go. We weren't talking, so he was out of options. He gave us both a look, then said, “Then if there's no problem, everyone is waiting for us.”

I nodded again, then thought to ask, “Is Rose's grave the newest one in this cemetery?”

Fox thought about it, then nodded. “Yes, why?”

I smiled at him and knew that it was a dreamy smile, as if I were listening to music he couldn't hear. “Just wanted to know what I was looking for, that's all.”

“I can take you to the grave, Marshal. You don't need to look for it.”

I wanted to look for it. I wanted to walk the cemetery a tombstone at a time and find it myself.

Micah answered for me. “That would be good, Fox. Lead the way.”

I looked at him and fought to make it friendly. He gave me a look in return that was a warning. In the dark, with all the trees around, I doubted anyone else could have seen his expression as clearly as I did. But we both had better-than-normal night vision, though I doubted mine could compare to his kitty-cat eyes. Those eyes were bare for all to see now. Too dark for his black-lensed sunglasses, but you'd be surprised how many people wouldn't notice the strangeness of his eyes. Even in full light, a lot of people wouldn't see his eyes for what they were. People see what they want to see, unless forced to see the truth.

I looked full into his eyes and read the warning there, the worry. Was I really all right? the look asked.

The truth was yes and no. I felt great, but it was the kind of great that could go south fast and hard. One minute fine, the next moment the power could do something unfortunate.

I took a deep breath and tried to center and ground, the way I'd been taught, but that was a skill I'd
learned from a psychic and witch. Her talents ran to prophecy and empathy so finely tuned it was almost telepathy. She didn't raise the dead. She didn't truly understand my talent.

Drawing myself into the center of my body was great—I felt steadier, more myself and less power-fuzzed—but the moment I tried to ground all that power into the earth, to bleed some of it off, it turned. Turned so that it didn't go deep but out and away. My power chased through the ground so that I sensed the graves, all the graves, like I was the center of a great wheel. The graves were the points along the spokes, and I knew them all. I didn't drop my shields that I hid behind to keep the dead from bothering me. The shields were just not there.

I'd known that my power was growing, but I hadn't truly understood what that might mean until right this second. I knew the dead in every grave here. I knew which still had a remnant of energy. What graves would have shivery spots if you walked over them, the last gasp of what had once been a ghost. Most of the graves were quiet, only bones and rags
and dust. I'd been able to stand in a cemetery and do this for years. But what had changed was: one, I hadn't done it on purpose, and two, every grave I touched was a little more energetic for my power having breathed over it. That was new.

“Stop it, Blake.” Franklin's voice was tight with anxiety.

I looked at him. “Stop what?” I asked, but my voice was lazy with power.

“Don't toy with him, Anita,” Micah said.

“I'm missing something,” Fox said.

I nodded. “Yeah, you are.” I could have let Franklin's cat out of the bag, but I didn't. I knew what it felt like to be different and to want nothing, absolutely nothing, as much as simply to be normal. I'd given up on that a long time ago. It wasn't possible for me and never had been. Maybe it wouldn't be possible for Franklin either, but that wasn't my call. I did the only thing I could for him. I lied.

“When Franklin and I bumped into each other, he caught an edge of my power. It happens sometimes when my shields are down.” That was a lie. It
happened only if your abilities were similar to mine in some way, or you were so strongly psychic in some other way that you would sense any strong psychic gift used near you. Either Franklin had abilities with the dead like mediumship, being able to talk with the recently departed. Or he was powerful in some other way. Naw. If he'd been that gifted, he wouldn't have been able to hide it. I was betting that somewhere in his background was a family member who could talk to spirits. Someone he probably hated or was embarrassed about. You dislike most in others what you hate in yourself.

Fox said, “Is that right, Franklin? You bumped into the marshal.”

Franklin nodded. “Yes.” One word, no emotion to it, but the relief in his eyes was too raw. He turned away from Fox, from me, to hide those relieved eyes. He knew I knew, and he knew I'd lied for him. He owed me. I hoped he understood that.

Fox looked from one of us to the other, as if he suspected we were lying, or at least hiding something. He looked at Micah and got a shrug. Fox shook his
head and said, “Fine.” He looked at us a heartbeat longer, then shook his head, as if he'd decided to let it go. “We're going to be the last to arrive at graveside, Marshal Blake. I don't want to leave the federal judge and the lawyers waiting too long in the middle of a cemetery, so I'll lead the way. I think it will be faster that way.”

I couldn't argue the faster part. “Then lead the way, Special Agent Fox.”

He gave me one more hard look. It was a good look, as those kinds of looks go. But if he thought I was going to break down and fess up because of a hard look, he was wrong. I gave him a pleasant, even eager face, but nothing helpful.

He sighed and settled his shoulders, as if his shoulder holster chafed. He started off through the cemetery. Franklin fell into line behind him without a backward glance.

Micah and I followed them. Micah had us drop back enough to whisper, “You're having trouble controlling your power tonight, aren't you?”

I nodded. “Yeah, I am.”

“Why?” he asked.

I shrugged. “I'm not sure.”

“Then should you be raising the dead?”

“I think it will be one of the easier raisings I've ever done. There's so much power.”

He grabbed my arm. “Do you even know that you're touching every tombstone as you walk by it?”

I stood there with his hand on my arm and stared at him. “I'm what?”

“You're caressing the tops of the tombstones like you'd stroke a hand through flowers in a field.”

I looked at the worry in his face and knew that he wasn't lying, but . . . “Was I?”

“Yes,” he said, and his grip on my arm was suddenly almost painful.

“You're hurting me,” I said.

“Does it help?”

I frowned at him, then realized what he meant. The small pain had pushed back the power. I could think about something other than the dead. My first clear thought was fear. “I don't know what's wrong tonight. I really don't. I knew I was gaining abilities
from the vampires, but I didn't think it would bleed over to the zombie stuff. I mean, that's my magic, not Jean-Claude's, not Richard's. Mine. Whatever happens metaphysically, it doesn't usually mess with my basic talent.”

“Should you cancel tonight?” he asked.

I licked my lips, tasting the fresh lipstick I'd put on after we'd made love. I shook my head, moving into the circle of his arms. I hugged him. “If this is a new power level, then one night won't make a difference.” I held him, breathing in the warm solidity of him.

“There's always a learning curve to new abilities, Anita,” he whispered into my hair. “Even if that ability is only a stronger version of something else. Do we really want the learning curve to be on the FBI's dime?”

He had a point, a good one, but . . . “I'll be able to raise this zombie, Micah.”

“But what else will you raise?” he asked.

I drew back enough to see his face. “How did you understand that?”

“Isn't that what you're afraid of? Not that you can't raise the dead, but that you'll raise more than you were paid for?”

I nodded. “Yeah.” I shivered and drew away so I could rub my arms. “That's exactly it.”

“The protective circle is usually to keep things out,” he said. “Right?”

I nodded again.

“Tonight, I think maybe it will be to keep you in.”

“So I don't spread over more of the graves,” I said.

“Yes,” he said.

“They should have chickens waiting for me to slaughter. I know Larry would have told them to bring the livestock.”

Fox yelled, “Marshal, Callahan, are you coming?”

“We'll be there in a minute,” Micah called. He leaned into me, hands on my arms. “Do you really think chicken blood will keep this contained?”

“Not their blood, but their lives, yes,” I said.

“I'm not sure adding fresh death to your magic tonight is a good idea.”

“What choice do I have, Micah? I can make a small cut in my arm or hand and use the blood, but I'm not sure what my blood touching the graveyard will do tonight. So much power tonight, it's intoxicating.”

“Then use my blood,” he said.

I looked at him. “You've never shared blood for a zombie raising.”

“No, but I let Jean-Claude take blood from me. How much different can it be?”

There were many answers to that, but I settled for “A lot different. I can't cloud your mind to make it not hurt.”

“It's a little cut, Anita. I'm okay with it.”

I sighed and hugged him again. A lot of men will date you, and some will sleep with you, and a few are content to play second fiddle to your job, but how many will literally open a vein for you? Not many.

I gave him a quick kiss. “Let's go raise Mr. Rose from the dead.”

He picked up the bag with all the zombie-raising paraphernalia in it. He'd carry it. After all, he was the assistant. He needed to look useful. We finished the
walk to the grave hand in hand. Maybe it wasn't professional, but I didn't care anymore. Besides, once I cut his arm open with the machete, no one would complain that he wasn't assisting me enough. No, they'd think he was more than earning his paycheck. The fact that he didn't get paid to be my assistant would be our little secret.