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Authors: Benita Brown

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Perry didn't look back, neither did he approach Elise again that night, but Tom knew the damage had been done. He had observed the way Elise looked at Perry while he walked away and he had seen that rather startled expression as if she had suddenly become aware of some emotion within herself. Some emotion she did not quite yet understand.
 
When Elise arrived home at one o'clock in the morning her mother was waiting for her by the fire in her own little sitting room. She smiled up at her and then asked the maid to bring them hot milk and biscuits for them to enjoy while they had a little chat. Elise didn't want milk and biscuits but she took them and said thank you because she didn't want to disappoint her mother.
‘Your poor old father has gone to bed,' Selma said when they were alone, ‘but I wanted to wait up for you. Did you have a lovely time?'
‘Yes, I suppose so.'
‘Only suppose so? What's the matter? Are you tired? I mean, I know this is late but Shirley's mother did want you all to stay for what she calls the “witching hour”.'
‘No, I'm not tired. It's just that . . .'
‘What is it, then?'
Selma's tone was impatient and Elise looked at her just in time to catch a flash of irritation in her eyes.
‘No, really, it was fun. Mrs Chapman always goes to great lengths to entertain us. But this party was the same as every other Halloween party I've been to at that house.'
‘And that's not good enough?' Again that slight impatience.
‘Oh, yes,' Elise assured Selma. ‘Nothing but the best at the Chapman house.' She smiled, hoping to make her mother smile in response.
‘But? I sense there's a “but” coming.'
‘Well, blame the witch, the ghost and the mummy!'
Elise looked anxiously at her mother and saw with relief that she had caused her to smile.
‘You'll have to explain.'
‘It's the games we play. Pin the wart on the witch, Guess the ghost, Wrap the mummy, and the scary stories that aren't really scary. The same old games as last year and the year before that and the year before that . . . and well, they're kid's games, aren't they? Honestly, Mum, we're not kids any more, are we?'
Her mother's smile vanished as quickly as it had come. She put her mug of warm milk on the tray on the small table. Elise noticed that she hadn't drunk any of it and a skin had formed on top. ‘No, Elise,' Selma Partington said thoughtfully. ‘I don't suppose you are.'
 
Thoroughly unsettled by her dissatisfaction with the party and disconcerted by her mother's strange mood, Elise took a long time to get to sleep. She tried to think of nice things – new clothes, days out with her mother; that sort of thing usually worked – but this time it was half-forgotten images that came to mind: a witch's hat made from rolled-up paper, a cloak which had once been a curtain, and a turnip lantern swinging, the cut-out pattern of its face chasing across the pavement as she ran down the street saying ‘Boo!' to anyone who might be lurking in the shadows.
 
 
14th November 1934
Dear Helen,
I'd better come straight out with it. On Saturday Donald and I got married. You know I've told you about him. The family moved in next door to my mam and I would see him when I went home for a visit. Now don't get worried. I'm not going to leave your aunt in the lurch. I'm not going to set up a home of my own. The truth is, Donald is out of work and we couldn't afford to on what the assistance pays.
No, I'm not leaving. Far from it. Donald is moving in here with me and your aunt will be even better looked after. I mean, you need a man about the house, don't you? Donald and I will take the back bedroom and Louie is going to have the little room that used to be yours.
Your aunt is pretty much the same as ever. She likes her magazines and she listens to the wireless. She eats every scrap of whatever I cook for her – and lots of cakes and sweeties in between – but she doesn't seem to want to make the effort to do much else. Doctor Salkeld calls at least once a week, I'm sure I don't know why. I hope you don't mind, but I've made it plain to him that I don't think his visits are necessary.
Yours truly,
Eva
15th November 1934
Eva's latest report arrived this morning. She doesn't write so often now because, really, there is very little to say. Aunt Jane seems to have opted for the life of an invalid although I'm pretty sure there's no need for it. Perhaps I've been careless, perhaps I haven't bothered to read Eva's letters properly and perhaps I should have noticed the change in her attitude, but this letter has disturbed me.
Why? Aunt Jane is being looked after. I'm sure the meals will be good and the house will be clean. But did she ever know that Eva's little sister, Louie, was spending so much time there? And now it seems she has moved in. And so has Eva's husband. Can my aunt have agreed to this?
And after all that happened after my mother died, why should I care? Nevertheless, maybe I should write to Doctor Salkeld.
3rd December 1934
I shall never forget that moment when he looked up, our eyes met and I knew he was seeing me properly for the first time. At last, I thought, as I saw him smile in wonderment. I knew that the waiting was over.
If I were writing a romantic novel that is how I might begin to describe what happened today. But I'm not. I'm recording the event in my everyday diary and the truth of it is it was more like farce than romance. Let's be honest, it was complete slapstick and I didn't behave like a romantic heroine, I behaved like a clown.
It was so long since Matthew had been to Stefano's that I was beginning to think that I would never see him again. The last report I read of his had been from Afghanistan some time ago. Surely he had come back to London but, if so, why hadn't he been in for a meal? Perhaps he had found somewhere better to go. Then today, at lunchtime, there he was.
My heart stood still!
No, it didn't, it was my feet that came to a duck-toed stop. I was carrying a couple of Fruit Surprises for the two ladies sitting at the table just beyond where he was sitting. I recognized him from the back. The dark hair, the tweed jacket that he always wore, and the way he held the menu up to scrutinize it as if it was some sort of important document. I saw all this but I didn't see the walking stick that he had left carelessly jutting out into the aisle between the tables. How could I have known that he had a walking stick?
One of the ladies was smiling expectantly as she saw me approaching and then I think I registered her surprised expression just before I realized that I had stumbled and was about to fall. With a Fruit Surprise in each hand there was no way of saving myself unless I let one of them go. I did. You can guess which one. The one nearest to Matthew. I watched in horror as the tall sundae glass tipped then fell on to his unsuspecting head.
I heard someone gasp and then badly stifled laughter coming from the nearby customers, and some inane instinct made me dash forward and place the remaining Fruit Surprise on the table in front of one of the ladies. Then I turned to look at Matthew and was appalled. Fruit, jelly and custard covered his hair and dripped down on to his spectacles. He looked up blindly and put out a groping hand to take up the napkin from the table. He began to wipe the lenses of his glasses as if cleaning the windscreen of a motor car.
A hopeless task. Eventually he took them off, looked at them in a puzzled fashion that would have made me laugh if I was not so near to crying, then he looked up slowly and saw me. His eyes widened – at least they widened as far as they were able with custard dripping down his brow on to his eyelashes.
I held my breath just like a heroine in a love story. I really did. I was waiting for the bellow of outrage, the justifiable fury of the outraged hero. Time stood still, as they say, and then, I could hardly believe it, he began to laugh. At that I really did cry; I blubbered like a baby first of all with relief then with apprehension as I saw Marina bearing down towards me.
‘I'm so sorry, Mr Renshaw,' she said. ‘Please accept our most humble apologies.' She picked up the empty sundae glass from the table. ‘Needless to say, there will be no charge for whatever you order today. And as for you,' she turned to face me but before she could say anything Matthew stopped her.
‘What happened is entirely my fault,' he said. ‘Look.' He took up his walking stick and showed it to Marina. ‘It was very careless of me. It is I who should apologize to Helen.'
He knew my name! Even though I was overjoyed I was annoyed with myself and, let's admit it, with him too. Why shouldn't he know my name? I had been waiting on him at the table long enough. I had a moment of sheer resentment at his detached attitude but I didn't have time to brood. I was dispatched to the kitchen to fetch another Fruit Surprise for my patient lady customer while Marina helped Matthew clean himself up then took his order. She told him she would bring his meal herself.
I thought that was the end of it, the end of our brief affair, but when he had finished his meal he sat for longer than he usually did over his coffee. He kept glancing my way until the time came that I had to pass by his table.
‘Helen,' he said. ‘I really am sorry. I haven't got used to this damn stick. I hope you won't be in too much trouble with Marina.'
‘Oh, I shouldn't think so,' I lied.
‘Well, in any case, that's the best laugh I've had for a long time.'
‘You thought it funny?'
‘Didn't you?' He smiled.
This is where my romantic heroine would have been speechless with joy but in reality I giggled like a schoolgirl. We laughed together but at the same time I noticed the dark hollows under his eyes and that the lines of his face were more severe than they used to be.
Then he stopped laughing. ‘Come for a drink with me?' he said.
‘When?'
‘Tonight when you finish work.'
He must have seen my surprise because he looked embarrassed.
‘I can't,' I said. ‘I'm on a split shift today and I won't finish until nearly midnight.'
‘Oh, I'm sorry.'
‘But it's my day off tomorrow.'
Now it was my turn to be embarrassed.
His smile returned. ‘A whole day, then! We'll meet for lunch, then perhaps the cinema. Have you seen
The Count of Monte Cristo
?'
‘No, but I'd like to. I think it's my favourite novel of all time.
And as for Robert Donat . . .'
Matthew smiled. ‘Well, according to my mother Mr Donat will not disappoint you, but she tells me that the film is a little different from the book.'
‘Oh, that doesn't matter at all.' Did I sound too eager?
‘Tomorrow then,' he said. ‘Erm . . . shall we meet at eleven o'clock by the statue of Eros?'
He didn't need to say where the statue of Eros was. Everyone knows that Piccadilly Circus is where you find the god of love.
 
 
When Matthew got back to his parents' house he found his sister Patricia waiting for him.
‘Shouldn't you be at home making a meal for your new husband?' he asked.
‘George is working late. And in any case, I've prepared everything. Only got to throw it into the pots and pans and light the gas.'
‘Efficient as ever.'
‘That's me. Mum and Dad aren't back from the matinee yet, so come into the kitchen, sit down, have this cup of tea I'm just about to pour for you and tell me what happened.' Patricia placed his tea in front of him, poured one for herself and took the chair facing him. ‘Now, then. Talk.'
‘And just as bossy,' Matthew said.
‘Matthew! I'm serious. What happened at work today?'
‘They've agreed I can come back to work – so long as the doc agrees – but I won't be travelling very far for a while.'
‘I should think not. No more globetrotting for you, young man. So what will you do?'
‘Well, they seem to think I'm a pretty good reporter.'
‘Of course you are!'
‘And the only reason I can't go abroad is because I still have to report to the hospital.'
‘I'm not going to like what's coming next, am I?'
‘Jim Dacre is just about to retire.'
‘Jim Dacre?' Patricia frowned and when her brows cleared she looked anxious. ‘Jim Dacre is a crime reporter. Isn't that another dangerous job?'
‘Maybe. But I'm not so likely to stop a bullet here in London.'
‘Oh, darling brother, that's not true. You may not have to consort with rebellious tribesmen who are armed to the back teeth, but some of the criminal fraternity in London here are just as dangerous if not more so.'
‘It's not all like that, you know.'
‘What do you mean?'
‘A lot of the crimes I'll be covering will be the petty stuff. Thieves, fraudsters, men who murder their wives when they come home and find their dinner isn't ready.'
He grinned and Patricia shook her head. ‘Go on, make a joke of it. But I don't know what the old folks will think.'
‘Father will accept that it's what I want to do and Mother will go along with whatever he says.'
Patricia put both hands on the table and pushed herself to her feet. ‘You're right. And I'm not going to nag you because I can see that whatever was said today it has made you happy. You know you've been like a bear with a sore head since you came home?'

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