Masquerading the Marquess (35 page)

She didn’t answer and he finally gave in. "I will take my leave too. It strikes me that there are a few things I need to do."

The look of anticipation on Stephen’s face didn’t bode well. "I’ll see you tonight," he said. He gave her one last squeeze and left.

What would she do? Calliope had no idea.

She stared at the pile of letters. She picked the pile up and went to the desk.

Calliope sifted through the letters and then smoothed the one from Lady Salisbury.

It was short but to the point.

Miss Minton,

Please understand that I tried to do all I could for my son. In hindsight I probably smothered him. But then, I was never what you would call a good mother. I wanted him all to myself
The
night I turned you away has haunted me. My son mourned your death, and died without knowing his daughter was still alive. It is the worst thing I have ever done.

I have followed your progress for these long years since my son’s death.
Watching you, wondering if I should approach you.
Maybe someday I shall discover the nerve.

Until then, I give you my most sincere apologies, for whatever they are worth. Please accept these letters with my blessing.

Sincerely,

Pamela Salisbury

Calliope had forgiven her father and Lady Salisbury. She had forgiven them before she had been presented with proof of her father’s love and her grandmother’s remorse. She felt light-hearted for the first time in a very long while.

Calliope stared at the pile of unread letters. Later, when she was alone, she would read each of them and cry for what might have been. Right now she just wanted to savor the precious feeling of being loved.

She opened her writing desk and carefully placed the letters inside.

Years ago she had thought she had plenty of time to speak with her father. And Stephen had thought he had plenty of time to speak with her about her father. Time wasn’t something to trifle with.

An eagerness to see James coursed through her. She wanted to share her good news; she wanted to share her feelings and to explain her drawings.

Stephen was right. She needed to decide what to do about James and take action. She couldn’t wait, she couldn’t count on time. .

Some of her unfinished sketches and practice papers were lying in the drawer.
Stuffed there out of James’s sight during their searches.

Calliope picked up the top one and smiled.

She would take over some of her sketches. Call a truce between Thomas Landes and the marquess. Maybe get him to understand why she had acted the way she had. It was very important to make him understand.

Calliope bundled the papers and grabbed her pelisse.

James stared broodingly at the fireplace.

Damn, he should have known better than to become emotionally involved.

He had only himself to blame. He had witnessed his father consumed by love, despair and finally death. James just hadn’t been wise enough to keep his own heart out of the fire.

And now that fire would blaze on someone else’s hearth.

"Hullo, James. Thought I’d let myself in."

"And you can let yourself back out, Stephen," James growled.

"What has you so crotchety?"

"None of your concern."

"I came to talk about Calliope."

"What about her?"

"What happened between the two of you?"

James looked at him. "Why, do you want to marry her?"

Stephen frowned and raised his voice. "No, James, what are you--"

James narrowed his eyes and raised his voice as well. "That makes sense. Why would anyone have to marry her? You don’t have to worry about her state anymore. She is happily broken in. She can even become your real mistress now."

Something fell in the hallway, but James barely heard it.

Stephen moved so quickly and unexpectedly that James found himself pinned against the wall. "I swear, James, if I didn’t feel sympathy for your situation, I would beat the living hell out of you."

Stephen gave him another shove. James didn’t fight back and Stephen released him. "All you have to do is look at her caricatures."

"Yes, they are quite flattering of me. It seems you both want your pound of flesh."

Stephen narrowed his eyes. "I’d like to feed your words to you right now, but I’m sure you will be eating them soon enough."

Stephen headed for the door. It was already slightly ajar. He turned around as he reached it.

"You’ll find they taste like crow."

"Good evening, Templeton."

"Good evening, miss. May I say, you’re looking well this
evening.
"

Calliope knew she still looked frightful, but she gave him a warm smile. Templeton took her coat and moved toward James’s study.

"Oh, I think I will just come with you, Templeton. Now that I’m here, I’m in a bit of a hurry to state my business."

A dash of a smile may have flitted across the butler’s impassive face, but she couldn’t be sure.

"I don’t think he’d mind, miss. However, Mr. Chalmers is with him now, so I need to announce you first."

Calliope nodded and followed him, clutching the sketches to her chest. Having Stephen there might bolster her courage. Yes, his presence would be to her advantage.
 

Light streamed from the room. Someone had forgotten to shut the door. Loud voices issued from inside.

"Why would anyone have to marry her? You don’t have to worry about her state anymore. She is happily broken in. She can even become your real mistress now."

Calliope froze.

Templeton had just reached the door, and he stopped as well.

He turned to her, horror and sympathy etched on his face.

She was speechless.

How could she have followed in her mother’s footsteps? How had she let this happen?

The sketches slipped from her fingers.

"I--I--"

Calliope turned and ran.
Her screeching demons chasing behind.

James reached for the decanter. If he was going to be like his father, he might as well act the part. His mission was to get foxed.

A knock interrupted his progress.

"What is it?"

Templeton entered and cleared his throat. There was an unusually disapproving look upon his face.

"Miss Minton was here while you were speaking with Mr. Chalmers."

"What did she want?"

"I believe she wanted to speak to you."

"Then why didn’t you announce her?"

"Well, my lord, I suppose I felt I owed her dignity that much."

James frowned. "Speak English, Templeton."

"It was unfortunate that she overheard part of your conversation."

James stilled. "Which part?"

·

"Something about 'breaking in' and marriage."

James swore violently.

Templeton approached and handed him a pile of papers.
" She
left these and her coat behind."

"Thank you, Templeton."

Templeton let himself out at the dismissal.

Gideon stretched out his paws as James sat down next to him in front of the fireplace. James set the papers down and eyed his glass. He ignored it and reluctantly picked up the first drawing.

Stephen looked silly in a picture at the opera. The next one featured Stephen walking in the park with an overly exaggerated grin and carefree air. The sketches of Stephen had been done with an inordinate amount of fondness. There were drawings of Robert and Deirdre and of the four of them plotting and cooking up schemes, literally. All were done with affection and fraternal love.

James tightened his lips, unwilling to see anything unusual in the emotions brushing the pages. He lifted the next one. It was one of the drawings Calliope had done of him. He was splayed across a garden bench staring at the sky, watching Hercules fight the Hydra. Hercules looked to be losing.

James studied the sketch for a long time. Passion burst from the image. Not with the familial love of the previous sketches, but with a flurry of jumbled feelings. A thoughtful expression adorned his face in the sketch, as if he were learning something from the battle. Jagged wounds cut across both Hercules and the Hydra, and one fallen head from the Hydra lay on the ground, carelessly tossed there by Hercules.

His mind had known what his heart had refused to believe. Her drawings of him had always been personal.

When she had been lying in his arms outside the burning house, he had felt as if his world were complete. She had stroked his cheek. She had promised him with her eyes. Her beautiful scent had enveloped him through the smoke. How had he felt?
Powerful.

Now?
Now he felt defeated.
Alone.
Weak.
Yes, he felt weak. Why had he ever thought love made one weak?

Love was powerful, and he had allowed his father’s problems to interfere with the only woman he had ever cherished.

His head fell onto the back of the sofa. "Calliope, I’m so sorry."

Calliope stared out her window. She hadn’t moved in hours. She was stiff.
Both in body and soul.

She had been an automaton when Robert and Deirdre had come to collect her personal belongings from Stephen’s townhouse. She hadn’t seen Stephen since he had given her the letters and she was glad. She didn’t know what she would say to him.

Robert and Deirdre had tried to cheer her up, but she had seen the worried looks pass between them. And when she had finally returned to the Daly’s home the same worried glances had passed between the other members of her family. She had claimed exhaustion from the day’s events. Her family had relented and left her alone, hoping that a good night’s rest would restore her spirit.

She was truly exhausted, and if she had been able to sleep a wink maybe she would have felt better. But it was hard to imagine her spirit returning even with a full night’s rest. Everything seemed so bleak.

Daybreak came and people woke to their morning routines. Vendors assembled their products; servants drowsily began their employers’ tasks. She noticed a man in the distance walking purposefully up the street. She recognized his gait and followed his progress. He had probably come to pound in the last nail.

A commotion ensued downstairs and a short time later her door creaked opened.
"Calliope?"
The unusually hesitant voice came forth.

She remained motionless as she felt him step behind her.

"Please turn around." His voice was soft.

She shook her head sadly as she looked through her shadowed curtains at the milieu carrying on their daily lives. Her heart cracked as she spied a nicely dressed woman tweak the bonnet of a little girl standing by her side.

"Please go."

"I came to apologize. I know you were in my townhouse last night."

"You said nothing that wasn’t the truth."

"Of course it wasn’t the truth. I was angry and in pain."

Calliope looked down at her bandaged hands--working hands, not a lady’s hands.

She looked over her shoulder. He was shrouded in the early morning shadows.

She turned back to the street. "My lord, we are from different worlds, you and
I
. You are a marquess, a peer of the realm, and I am a . . . well. . ." She let her voice trail. "Who knows what I am?"

"Who cares what worlds we are from?"

"Everyone cares, James."

"No, not everyone does. My friends care only for my happiness, and I care not a whit for the opinions of my peers. You should know that by now. You fit with me. That’s all I care about."

"What do you mean?"

"I want you to come back with me."

"Why?"

"Because I need you."

Something bittersweet broke and coursed through her. She felt a sudden connection with her mother. At last Calliope understood her mother’s decision to remain with the man she loved no matter the situation.

Calliope turned sadly and placed a hand on his cheek. "I love you, James, but I can’t be with you."

"You love me?" It was barely a whisper.
"Then why not?"

Calliope turned back to the window, unable to face him. "I didn’t like playing the role. I loved my mother, and I am beginning to understand the choices she made, but those were her choices, and it is something I just can’t do right now. "

"What?" His voice was confused, but something registered, because his voice softened as he said, "I can’t say I like making a muddle of this, but I have never been in love before and haven’t had the practice."

Her heart stopped and she looked at him. "What did you say?"

"I’m asking you to let me prove it to you."
 

Had he just said he loved her?

"I’ve kept myself shut away from that emotion for so long,
Cal
. It may take me a while to rub the rust off, but it’s something I desperately desire.
Even if it takes forever to get it right."

James pulled a blue and purple flower from his jacket. It was a single beautiful bloom like the one from the Killroys’ ball. Her hands automatically reached for it as he held it between them. She noticed the petals were somewhat crumpled from being stuffed in his coat and the edge of the stalk was sandy. Just like them.

She fleetingly wondered whose garden he had robbed.

It didn’t matter. Calliope understood the gesture.
 

"Yes.
" ?

And as she stepped toward him her arm brushed the curtain. A ray of sunshine streaked through the window and pooled at their feet. James stepped into the light and pulled her into his arms.