Making Waves
Authors: Tawna Fenske
Copyright © 2011 by Tawna Fenske
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for looking the other way when I read under the
covers with a flashlight past my bedtime.
“I’m sorry, he wants me to do
what
?”
Juli Flynn didn’t think to hide the incredulity in her voice. She did, however, think of hiding beneath her mother’s kitchen table. If it weren’t for the memory of her brother wiping boogers there thirty years ago, she probably would have crawled right under.
Juli stared at her mother. Tina Flynn was chopping carrots for a Jell-O salad that would, in all likelihood, hold as much culinary appeal for the funeral guests as the actual corpse.
“You know you were always Uncle Frank’s favorite,” Tina said in the same voice she’d used to suggest her children not stick lima beans up their noses. “I think you should be flattered.”
“Mom. I’d be flattered if he asked me to read a poem at the funeral or look after his cat or take his clothes to Goodwill. But this—this is just weird.”
“Don’t be so dramatic, Juli.”
“Dramatic? Dramatic is making a deathbed request that your niece travel to the freakin’ Virgin Islands to dump your ashes over the edge of a boat near St. John—that’s dramatic. Why not spread them off the Oregon coast or on Mount Hood or something?”
Tina finished with the carrots and began chopping beets, her knife making neat little slivers of purple that scattered over the green countertop. Juli sighed and began hunting in the cupboard for sesame seeds to add to the Jell-O.
“Frank had fond memories of his years sailing over there,” Juli’s mother said.
“He had fond memories of the Polish hooker he traveled with while he was fleeing that federal indictment.”
Tina smiled and set her knife down. “That’s right—what was her name? Olga or Helga or something like that?”
“Oksana,” said Juli, thinking this was
so
not the point.
Juli closed her eyes, hating the fact that at age thirty-seven, she felt like a petulant toddler. She had a sudden urge to stomp her feet and bang her fists on the counter in a full-blown tantrum.
It’s not like she and Uncle Frank had been
that
close. She’d been living in Seattle for the past six years, coming home to Portland for the occasional holiday. Until last week, she hadn’t even seen Uncle Frank since her birthday party a year ago when he’d gotten drunk on a quart of vanilla extract from Tina’s baking cupboard and spent the evening pretending to be a stegosaurus. The rest of the family had been embarrassed. Juli had been delighted that, for once, she wasn’t the oddest member of the family. That common bond was the reason she and Uncle Frank had always enjoyed a special relationship.
Well, that, and the fact that advanced dementia had led him to believe his niece was Celine Dion.
“You didn’t happen to tell Uncle Frank that I’m—”
“Terrified of the ocean? No, I didn’t have the heart to mention that.”
Juli nodded and watched her mother consult her handwritten recipe before reaching for the Worcestershire sauce.
“Did Uncle Frank say when I need to complete this mission?” Juli asked, grabbing three packets of orange Jell-O and her mother’s fish-shaped Jell-O mold. “Do cremated remains have—um—a shelf life or anything?”
“He didn’t really say. He was choking on his tongue a lot there at the end, so it was hard to understand him. Could you hand me that feta cheese?”
Juli gave her the container and scooted a knife out of the way, aware of her mother’s tendency to drop sharp objects on her bare feet.
“So maybe you didn’t understand him right?” Juli asked hopefully. “Maybe instead of ‘throw my ashes off a fishing boat,’ he said, ‘roll my ass over, you stupid whore’?”
“Those bedsores were sure something! Hand me those Junior Mints?”
Juli sighed, sensing the conversation was going nowhere. Maybe she was arguing the wrong point.
“I can’t just pack up and go to St. John. I have a
life
.”
Tina beamed at her daughter. “Are you dating someone new, sweetie?”
Juli scowled. “That’s not what I meant. I haven’t dated anyone since—well, for a long time.”
“Oh. Well, you know it can be a little bit intimidating for some men to date a woman with your particular—”
“Mom, can we not talk about this now?”
“Sweetie, I don’t know why you’re always so embarrassed about your special—”
“Please, Mom,” Juli said weakly, feeling her ears flame the way they always did when someone drew attention to the fact that she was—well,
different
. She touched her fingers to her lobes, trying to cool them. “Could we just stick with the subject of Uncle Frank?” she pleaded.
“Of course, dear. Can you hand me the dill?”
Juli spun the spice rack and located the appropriate jar. “I have a job, Mom. I have a bank account that can’t exactly handle the strain of a Caribbean vacation.”
“Well, Uncle Frank left a little bit of money in his will to cover some of the cost of your travels.”
“Okay. That’s half the equation. What about my job?”
“Didn’t you say they asked for people in your department to volunteer to take a little time off? That sounds so nice.”
That sounds like a layoff
, Juli thought, biting into a carrot as she watched her mother mix the Jell-O.
Not that the idea didn’t hold some appeal. She’d worked in the marketing department of a software company for less than a year and already she was so bored her skin itched. She’d hardly bothered to hide her delight the week before when the vice president had stood at the center of their cube-farm, running his fingers through his comb-over, asking if anyone was interested in a severance package of three weeks’ salary and a scone-of-the-month club membership in exchange for “taking a little time off.
Indefinitely
.”
Later that day, Juli had flung herself onto the sofa in her therapist’s office and sighed. “I feel like my career is going nowhere,” she told Dr. Gordon.
“What makes you say that?” he’d asked, looking wise and vaguely constipated on the edge of his orange armchair.
“The fact that my boss told me yesterday, ‘Juli, your career is going nowhere.’”
“Right,” Dr. Gordon said, nodding. “And how does that make you feel?”
Juli shot him a look. “Terrific.”
Dr. Gordon was not amused. Dr. Gordon was seldom amused. Juli had fantasies about pinning him down on the carpet and tickling him until he peed.
“Juli, we’ve spoken before about the social oddities you’ve developed as a coping mechanism to deal with your self-consciousness and your lack of a sense of belonging, which is the direct result of the attention you’ve generated in the scientific community and the media for your—” He stopped and stared at her, then shook his head. “Are you covering your ears so you don’t have to listen, or are you cooling them like you always do when you’re embarrassed?”
“A little of both,” she admitted, lowering her hands.
“I see,” Dr. Gordon said, looking morose. “You’re uncomfortable with this subject. Let’s talk about your career. What did you want to be when you were a child?”
“The Bionic Woman.”
Dr. Gordon didn’t smile. “What was your first job after college?”
“I was a newspaper reporter for three months before an on-the-job injury forced me to change careers.”
“Injury?”
“I fell asleep in a City Council meeting and stabbed myself between the ribs with a pencil.” She lifted the hem of her shirt. “Check it out, five stitches right here—”
Dr. Gordon sighed and began to flip through his notes. “Let’s go back over some of the other jobs you’ve held. After you were a reporter, you spent some time as a data analyst?”
Juli lowered her shirttail and sat up straighter. “Oh. Sure, there was that. And marketing, of course. And I got my helicopter pilot license about seven years ago, and there was that stint as a pet store manager, and four months as a scout for forest fires, six months working in that hat shop, and—”
“Juli, your employment history leaves something to be desired.”
She nodded, pleased to be understood. “You’re right. I’ve never been a brain surgeon.”
“It’s very typical for someone with your IQ level to—”
“Are those new drapes? I like the little tassels.”
Dr. Gordon sighed again. “Juli, if you’re ever going to have close, intimate relationships with people, you’re going to need to work on grounding yourself a bit more.”
“My mother never believed in grounding—always thought time-out was a much more effective method of punishment.”
“Juli—”
“I know.
I know
. I was making a joke.”
He didn’t smile. “Why don’t you start by taking a step back and reevaluating your career and life choices? Gain some new perspective.”
Perspective. That’s what she needed.
She’d raced home to Portland from Seattle the day she’d heard about Uncle Frank. Now here she was, chopping steak for her mother’s Jell-O salad on the afternoon of her uncle’s funeral, wondering if a spur-of-the-moment jaunt to St. John might not be the best thing for her. Or maybe the worst.
“Honey, could you hand me those garbanzos?”
No. Not the worst. Not quite the worst.
***
The post-funeral reception was still going strong back in the house, but Juli was hiding out in the backseat of the limo, listening to the thrum of raindrops on the roof as she lay back against the plush seat. Her eyes were closed, and she was trying not to notice the smell of Old Spice on the upholstery or the shrill memory of her cousins’ voices demanding to know why she was still single.
The limo door creaked open, and someone jumped into the front seat, slamming the door behind him. Juli didn’t have to open her eyes to know who it was. She wrinkled her nose as the smell hit her.
“Sorry my Aunt Gretchen dumped the apple cider vinegar over your head,” Juli said. “It’s a family tradition.”
“Family,” Brian repeated with obvious intrigue. “Family like kinfolk, or family like
Godfather
?”
Juli sat up and straightened her black wrap dress. She looked at the back of Brian’s head, wondering if he knew he was developing a bald patch the exact shape of Zimbabwe.
“Thank you for volunteering your limo service for Uncle Frank’s funeral,” Juli said, giving Brian’s shoulder a squeeze. “And thank you for letting me hide out in here while my family holds the leg-wrestling tournament in the dining room.”
Brian loosened his tie and leaned back against the driver’s seat. “No problem. Anything for my favorite ex-girlfriend.”
Juli gritted her teeth. “You know, we split up seven years ago. I think your wife would appreciate it if you stopped calling me that.”
“Nah.”
“And if you stopped patting me on the butt when we run into each other.”
“Mandy says she doesn’t mind that,” Brian mused, tugging his tie all the way off and setting it on the dashboard. “She says she’s never considered you a threat.”
Juli pressed her lips together and tried not to be annoyed by that. “Anyway, thanks for staying late,” she said finally, shoving her feet into her black patent leather Via Spigas and smoothing her hair. “I’ll get out of here so you can be on your way.”
“No rush, actually. The limo’s stuck in park, and I can’t get a mechanic out to look at it until after
Wheel of Fortune.
You can sit here all evening if you want.”
Juli sighed and held out her hand. “Give me the manual.”
Brian reached over to the glove box to dig out a leather-bound book the size of a dictionary. He dropped it into her lap and grinned. “You’re the best,” he said, sliding around on the front seat to look at her. “Why did we break up, anyway?”
Juli flipped the book open to the first page and tried to ignore him. She began to read, starting with the history of the car and progressing quickly to the recommended octane ratings. She felt his eyes on her, knew he was still awaiting a response. She planted her index finger on page 242 and looked up at him.
“You threw my Scrabble board out the bedroom window and yelled that board games weren’t considered foreplay even if I spelled dirty words.”
“Right,” Brian said. “I forgot.”
“The neighbor didn’t. He’s still mad about the vowels in his pond.”
“Sorry about that.”
Juli returned her attention to the manual, reading faster now that she had reached the section on oil viscosity. “Anyway, it’s fine. We weren’t right for each other.”
Brian laughed. “You’re too much woman for most men to handle,” he said. “But there’s someone out there for you, Jules; I know it.”
Juli gritted her teeth, focusing hard on being pissed off instead of wounded. She did that a lot these days. Sometimes she even believed it.
She got to the end of the book and slammed it shut. She leaned over the seat and handed it back to him.
“The electronic release for the transmission is controlled by the same fuse as your backup lights,” she said as she picked up the little black clutch she’d carried to the funeral. “It’s a safety feature that disables the transmission if those lights aren’t working. Check the fuse.”
Brian grinned and set the manual on the seat beside him, his expression amused.
Amused, but not aroused
, Juli thought, knowing she didn’t care about his arousal anymore, but feeling stung just the same. It wasn’t like she’d had a future with him. It wasn’t like she’d had a future with
anyone
she’d dated.
The story of my life
, she thought.
She watched him reach beneath the dash and pry the panel off the fuse box, poking around inside as the rain sputtered against the windshield outside.
“I’ll be damned,” he said as he pulled out the dead fuse and held it up for her to see.
Juli popped the door open and stepped out into the rain. “Thanks again, Brian,” she said, wrapping her arms around herself as she turned away. “Give my love to Mandy.”
***
Three thousand four hundred miles away, Alex Bradshaw stared at the yellow piece of paper in his hand. Beyond the stuffy, peanut-scented air of the barroom, the Key West sun bathed an army of sailboats bobbing merrily in the bay.
For once, Alex didn’t care about the boats.