Authors: T. J. Kline
She took his little hand in hers, his blond hair still wet from his impromptu bath. She was amazed at times with how grown-Âup he acted for a six-Âyear-Âold. He'd already surpassed her signing skills and could read lips like a pro, but it was his calm acceptance and beguiling charm that won over everyone who met him. It was a strange feeling to wish to be more like her son but Bethany did. If she could face adversity with even half of his upbeat attitude, she'd consider her life well-Âspent.
He paused at his doorway, his little bare feet planted firmly. “Are you mad?”
“Me? No, baby, why?” She squatted down so she was eye level with him.
“Because you looked mad on the phone.” He brushed his little fingers over her forehead, smoothing out the wrinkles of her frown. “Did I make you mad?”
“Oh, James, no. It's just that Mommy doesn't usually meet with strangers at the park so I'm a little nervous about it.”
“But Grant plays football and said I could play with him. That means we're friends.”
She smiled at his simplistic views on the way life worked, wishing again that she could see the world through his eyes. “I guess you're right but, sometimes, grown-Âups like to know each other a little better before they go places together. Even when they're friends.”
He pursed his lips, thinking about what she was trying to explain to him, so she stood up and opened the drawer where he kept his shirts. She found a bunch of t-Âshirts already stuffed inside and knew he must have been trying on several, trying to decide on what to wear.
Like mother like son
, she thought. She moved the shirts aside, tugging the jersey from the bottom of the drawer.
“Here it is,” she announced. James raised his arms and she slipped it over his head. “There, now you're all set.”
“I need his football.”
“What football?”
“Grant forgot to take his ball when he left yesterday. I need to bring it back to him at the park today.”
She smiled. “Oh, honey, I think he was giving that to you.”
James planted little fists on his hips and gave her a disapproving frown. “I can't take things that aren't mine, Mom. He forgot it so I was taking care of it until I can give it back.”
She pinched her lips together, trying to hide her smile as he repeated her own words back to her. She'd taught him from a very young age that he shouldn't take things that didn't belong to him. It was nice to see he listened and understood. “Okay, you're right. Let me finish getting dressed and we'll make sure the ball is still in the car.”
“Hurry up, Mom,” he scolded, tapping his finger where a watch would eventually sit on his wrist.
You
'll make us late
, he signed.
Okay
, she signed back.
Be patient.
She was trying to share his excitement for their afternoon plans, and there was a part of her she didn't want to acknowledge that was excited. The last time she'd had a date was in high school, with Matthew. But the thought of her ex-Âhusband was enough to squash any anticipation that might be building.
This is not a date
, she reminded herself as she hurried into her bathroom, checking the time on her alarm clock as she passed. She was going to have to forgo the shower if she didn't want to be late for work. She fluffed up her dark hair with her fingers. Maybe she could manage to curl it. Bethany glanced back at the bedroom doorway and saw James waiting and smiled at her reflection. It looked like she was going to have to put it into a ponytail after all.
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B
ETHANY WAS
EXHAUSTED.
The last thing she wanted to do was to head to the park but James hadn't stopped talking about meeting Grant McQuaid there today. She'd tried to shush him, especially when several of the older kids had suggested he was lying, but he wasn't having any part of it. He was meeting with his hero today, at the park, and nothing was going to change that. Not even his mother's exhaustion.
“Wait, James,” she warned as he unbuckled himself from his booster seat before she'd even put the car into Park. “You have to stay buckled until the car is stopped.”
“Sorry.” She glanced at him over her shoulder. He didn't look one bit apologetic as he bounced in his seat, trying to see if Grant was already there waiting. “There he is!”
James rose onto his knees and waved at Grant out the back window of her car. Reaching for the football on the seat, he held it up. Bethany quickly glanced into the rearview mirror, checking her makeup, even though she realized there was nothing she could do about it if she wanted to. She saw the reflection of Grant jogging toward them and quickly took a deep breath, trying to mentally prepare herself for the next hour or so. Surely he didn't expect them to stay longer than that.
She opened her door, surprised to see Grant had gone to James' door immediately. He lifted his brows in question and, when she nodded, he opened it for her son.
“Hey, little man, I've been waiting for you.”
Ready for some fun?
he signed.
James scrambled from his booster seat in the back of the car. “Yeah!”
“Wait a minute. You can't just run through the parking lot.” She walked around the back of the car and held out her hand. Instead of taking her hand the way he always did, James reached up and grasped Grant's index finger.
She felt a twinge of jealousy at her son's choosing someone else over her but she couldn't be too angry. At least her competition was his hero. She knew it meant James was growing up, even if it made her heart ache for it to happen. Grant looked over at her, as if recognizing the poignancy of James' actions, his eyes filled with apology.
“So, what do you want to do first?” Grant asked as James looked up at him with wide blue eyes.
“Football.”
Bethany tried to bite back a grin. “Of course.” She shrugged a shoulder at Grant. “Would you expect anything else?”
“Probably not.” He pointed to an open area along one side of a field and headed toward it. “Why don't we go over there?”
His gaze slid over her and she felt the blood move through her veins slowly, growing hot, warming her from the inside out. “Your mom looks too pretty in her dress to play football so I guess it's just the two of us boys.”
She couldn't deny the pleasure that swirled through her at Grant's compliment. Even if she didn't plan on dating him, it felt nice to know Grant thought she was attractive. She'd seen him in plenty of magazine articles with beautiful women beside him and, while it might be nothing more than a charming line, she couldn't help the pleasure that swirled through her. Before she could thank him, Grant had turned his attention back to James.
“Go long.”
James immediately knew what to do and began running, looking behind him so he could turn when Grant threw the ball. In spite of Grant's instructions, James turned toward him after only running about ten feet and Grant lobbed the ball into her son's arms. She clapped for James, even though it was an easy catch. James was beaming from ear to ear, even when Grant ran toward him and scooped him into the air.
“Blindside,” he teased, setting James back onto his feet. “Gotta watch out.”
She settled herself in the shade of several trees, tucking her feet beneath her, and watched the pair as they played. She'd never seen James so happy, not even with his Grandfather. Granted, it wasn't like her father had really been able to take James out and play with him this way. But it was almost like Grant had a connection to James, as if they could understand one another without words.
Her worries about James' safety faded as she watched Grant play ball with him, careful not to get rough but also discreet so that James didn't notice his diligence. She laughed when James tucked the football in the crook of his elbow and acted like he was going to tackle Grant, only to run through his legs and spike the ball on the other side. It was obvious to her that Grant had known exactly what her son was doing but had allowed him to do it anyway.
After almost an hour of watching the two play, Grant stumbled to where she sat and crumpled to the grass, flopping onto his back. James ran over and mimicked Grant, even folding his arms under the back of his head, just like the man lying beside her.
“Whew, kid, you wore me out.”
“I did?” James frowned for a moment, his brow furrowing, his lips pursed in an adorable pucker. He looked across the grassy knoll at the jungle gym nearby. “Since Grant is too tired, can I go play on the slides?”
“It's Mr. McQuaid,” she corrected. “And, yes. Just stay where I can see you, okay?”
“Okay!” James ran off, heading for his favorite slide that twisted like a corkscrew.
A nervous flutter began in her belly as soon as James left. She adjusted the skirt of her dress, fidgeting, all the while wondering why she was so nervous. She was acting like a girl on a blind date and this, most certainly, was
not
a date.
“He's a great kid.”
She barely glanced in his direction but had already seen him cross his ankles. “Thanks.”
Silence fell between them as they both watched James. But it wasn't the awkward silence she expected, the ones where the longer it continued, the more uncomfortable it became. This was . . . nice. It was a companionable silence, like that of two Âpeople who'd known each other forever, who could just relax and be around one another without needing words. She wasn't sure she'd ever felt that way with anyone but her parents.
And it scared the hell out of her.
Whether she wanted to admit it or not, this was the closest she'd come to a date in over eight years, and sitting this close to
this
man was making her feel things she hadn't realized she missed.
Grant sat up quickly, turning toward her. “Hey, you okay? You look a little pale.”
She fanned herself, feeling her cheeks heat even as she spoke. “I'm fine. It's just warm out.”
“We can leave if you want.” He started to rise.
“No, I'm fine, really,” she insisted when he looked doubtful. Grant sat back down, even closer she realized.
“You're sure?” She nodded, trying to ignore the way her heart was beating at twice its usual pace. “You do look like you have a little color back.”
His eyes twinkled with mischief and she realized he knew exactly why there was color in her cheeks. It was exactly the cocky arrogance she needed to see in order to get her hormones in check.
“So, are you in Hidden Falls to recuperate from your injury?”
She saw his jaw clench slightly before he answered. “Yep.”
“You grew up here, right?”
He nodded. It was pretty obvious he didn't want to talk about why he'd returned to Hidden Falls. But thanks to his charming her son and practically conning her in to acquiescence, she was out here with him instead of grading papers, so he could make polite conversation.
“Then you'd know all the best places to take a six-Âyear-Âold who likes to explore, wouldn't you?”
He turned to her with a slight grin, looking relieved at the change of subject. “I do. Have you taken him down to the river yet?” She shook her head. “Some great fishing.” His gaze caressed her again. “But if that's not your thingâ”
Bethany sat up straighter. “What makes you think fishing isn't my
thing
?”
“I don't know.” He shrugged a shoulder nonchalantly. His gaze fell on the princess-Âcut neckline of her dress before he laughed. “You seem sort of . . . girly. In a good way, of course.”
“Girly? I'll have you know, Mr. McQuaid, James didn't learn how to juke just from watching you do it on T.V.”
“Oh, really?” She could tell he was humoring her.
“I was an All-ÂState hurdler and Powder Puff quarterback, thank you very much.”
“Well, well, I stand corrected.” He acted impressed. “I think you might be able to show me a thing or two.”
“I might be able to at that.” She looked over at the jungle gym to see James standing on a bridge, waving at them. Grant waved back before she could.
“You're a lucky mom.” His voice sounded wistful and she wondered for a moment at the regret she could easy read in his face.
“It's not like you're Rip van Winkle.” She grabbed a handful of grass and threw it at him, watching the blades rain onto the t-Âshirt stretched over his flat abs. “You sound like you'll never have kids.”
He plucked one of the blades from his shirt and twirled it between his fingers. “The life I've got doesn't exactly lend itself well to having a family. Maybe down the road a ways, but I'm not the kind of guy who'd want to leave my wife and kids behind six months out of the year. Serious relationships and football travel don't work for me.”
Bethany saw a shadow of a frown cross his brow before it was gone just as quickly. “You want to be a hands-Âon dad.”
“Exactly.”
She felt her stomach do one of those gymnastic flips. What would it be like to love someone who loved you back enough to stick around? He rolled onto one arm and playfully tossed the grass in her direction.
“Although I'm sure there are days you'd like to run away, huh?”
“Not so many now, but when he was a baby . . .” She nodded. “Colic is the worst but it's almost intolerable when you can't console your child.”
“Was he . . . nevermind.”
“It's okay.” She looked across the grass to where her son was climbing over monkey bars, hanging upside down. “He was born deaf and the doctors diagnosed it just before he was two months old. They never did figure out a reason why.” She looked back at him, knowing that she should get James and head home but unable to keep from bragging about her son. “But he's smart. So smart. He was learning signs by the time he was six months old.”
Suddenly a country song blared from his back pocket. Grant slid his phone out and looked at the picture on the screen. “I'll be right back, okay?”
Without waiting for a response from her, he got up and walked away to answer the call. But not before she saw a pretty woman on the screen. It was enough to kill any girlish crush she might have been feeling toward Grant McQuaid. She was not about to be “the other woman,” not for any man, even if he was famous, good-Âlooking and charming.
She brushed off her hands and stood up, slapping her skirt to knock off any grass and made her way to where James was swinging.
“We should get going. I have to fix dinner.”
“Awwww!”
She'd expected his discontentment, even an argument, but she hadn't expected her own frustrated disappointment. Grant seemed like a nice guy, someone who would have made her think twice about her no-Âdating policy. But she had James to think about and, obviously from the picture on his phone, Grant already had someone else in his life, regardless of his comments about his job not being compatible with relationships. It was serious enough that he didn't want whoever she was to know he was with another woman.
It was better this way. The fact that she would even consider him dating material was reason enough to stay away from him.
S
WIPING THE PICTURE
of his mother on his cell phone, Grant answered. “Hey, Mom, what's up?”
“You brother tells me you're not coming to dinner tonight? Were you planning on letting me know?”
“I was going to call when I knew for sure.” He turned back in time to see Bethany rise and head toward the playground where James was. He began walking back in their direction. “Don't hold dinner for me tonight but thanks for thinking of me, Mom.” He hated feeling like a thirty-Âtwo-Âyear-Âold child, living with his parents again, even if it was only temporarily.
“Jackson said something about a girl?”
He was going to kill his brother when he got home. “I'm actually just hanging out with her kid here at the park. He's a fan.”
“Jackson said his mother was really pretty and . . .” She squealed in surprise, making him cringe and hold the phone away from his ear. “Hi, Maddie. I didn't know you were coming tonight.”
“Mom, I'll let you go since Maddie's there.” Grant disconnected the call before she remembered what they'd been discussing. He'd only managed to avoid the “when are you going to make me a grandmother” discussion because his sister had chosen that moment to arrive. He'd be sure to give her an extra tight hug of gratitude when he saw her next.
He hurried over to the jungle gym. He'd heard Bethany telling James they had to leave but he really wanted to talk to her again before she left. He liked her, more than he knew he should, and he liked her son. He knew he shouldn't get in any deeper, he'd even explained to her why, but it was the first time in a very long time Grant felt completely at ease with someone.
Even though Bethany knew who he was and what he did for a living, she didn't treat him any differently than she would anyone else. His missed that. He missed being nothing more than Grant McQuaid from Hidden Falls.
“I'm starving,” he announced as he walked up to the pair. “What do you say we go grab a bite to eat, James?”
Bethany scowled at him. He wasn't sure what he'd said or done but she seemed suddenly aloof, the way she had yesterday when dinner was suggested. He knew she could see through his tactic and fought the urge to recant his invitation. But he also knew, like yesterday, she probably wouldn't agree unless James pressured her to accept.