Authors: Julie Miller
“Yeah, well I'm not interested in your teasing ass, lady. Make a fool out of someone else.” His black eyes burned red with the remnants of alcohol and fatigue. “I just want to know what you told him. I already got some black marks against me, and when I report back from leave tomorrow, I don't want to be sent straight to the brig again.”
Brig. Military jail. Her father had spent a few nights in one. Not encouraging. “You've been in the brig before?”
Guerro nodded with an arrogant tilt to his chin like,
yeah, so what?
“I got a temper on me. Especially when I've been drinking.”
“You were drinking last night.” She'd been in bigger danger than she'd suspected.
“Look, lady, what did you tell him?”
“Major McCormick?”
“McCormick, yeah. He's not with my unit, but those officers, they all know each other. Am I screwed for hittin' on his girl?”
Apparently Ethan's charade had been convincing. But she didn't know him well enough to gauge how far he would take last night's incident, or whether he considered the problem handled. J.C. shrugged, seeing traces of her father's personality in Corporal Guerro's loose-cannon desperation. “I don't know if he intends to report you or not.”
“Tell him not to.”
“I don't think you can give a major an order.”
“I'm not. I'm asking for a favor. From you.” She owed this man nothing, except, in an indirect way, her introduction to Ethan. “I swear to God I didn't know you were his girl when I moved on you. But you were playin' me and deserved some payback. I can't go back to the brig. They'll strip me all the way down to PFC if I get in trouble again.”
With every agitated word, he hunched closer.
J.C. backed away slowly, fighting the urge to run. “I'm sorry. I have to go.”
But his fingers dug into her forearm. Shaking her. Stopping her. “Do it, lady. Make it right. You owe me.”
“Are you threatening me?” She bit down against the pain and jerked against his bruising grasp. “The major won't like that, either.”
He swore in two languages and jumped back, holding his hands up high where she could see them. “Just find out for me, will you? Don't let him make that report. Now that I know you two don't live together, I'll call you.”
He knewâ¦? He'd spiedâ¦? “You'll call?”
He flashed his teeth in half a grin that she found more threatening than amusing. “I got your card, remember?” He pointed a grubby finger at her. “Make it right.”
Guerro backed off, turned and loped down the hill toward a line of parked cars. J.C. watched him, her unblink
ing eyes stinging with wariness, until he climbed into a battered blue sedan and pulled out into traffic.
She closed her eyes and heaved a sigh of relief. When she opened them again, the world looked normal. But she didn't feel normal. She felt as if some unseen hand had just flipped the switch on a slowly ticking time bomb beneath her feet.
It wasn't just the lingering stench of Juan Guerro's sweat and booze on her clothes that bothered her. It wasn't just the physical force and implied threats he'd surprised her with that hastened her walk into a quick jog back to her apartment.
It was the lie. The necessary deception that allowed her to write one of the fastest-growing editorial-and-advice columns in the country while maintaining what passed for a private life.
She prized her anonymity. It gave her the freedom to speak her mind, the opportunity to say the tough things that needed to be said about living and loving and making love. It gave self-conscious readers the courage to ask delicate questions, to come forward with issues that were just too hard to discuss with someone face-to-face. It distanced her from the crackpots who wanted to bed the sex lady and receive some hands-on therapy.
J.C. unlocked her door and slipped inside. She slid the dead bolt into place, then fastened the chain and locked the doorknob before leaning back against the frame. She was breathing so hardâfrom stress as much as exertionâthat she could barely hear her own thoughts.
Without knowing it, Corporal Guerro had broken through that wall of anonymity. Her business card didn't say she was “Dr. Cyn,” but it did bill her as a sex and relationship counselor and listed the number at the paper as well as her cell. If Juan called the work number and
got
Woman's Word,
would he be bright enough to connect Ethan's
Dr. Josephine C. Gardner
with the controversial
Dr. Cyn?
Maybe this would all blow over. After all,
bright
wasn't the first word that came to mind when she thought of Guerro. Ethan had been authoritative enough. He probably saw no need to report Juan and Manny. There would be no mention of brigs or discipline. Juan could stay a corporal and forget all about her.
Sure, it could play that way.
She breathed a little easier. She pushed away from the door and stripped as she headed for the shower.
It had to play that way.
Because J.C. had no doubt that with his act first, think later style, Juan wouldn't hesitate to tell Ethan, his buddies or the tabloids her real identity if it suited his purpose to expose her. Then she could kiss her privacy, her research and two weeks of bliss with Ethan McCormick goodbye.
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“I
THOUGHT THIS LOOKED
like a nice neighborhood. And there's a guard at the gate.” Ethan had waited patiently while she unhooked all three locks on her door. “Expecting trouble?”
But threats and deception and preconceived notions were the furthest thing from J.C.'s mind right now.
“Wow.” Not her most eloquent moment.
She held her door open and practically drooled over the man standing in the hallway. Ethan cut an impressive figure in his black evening dress uniform with a scarlet cummerbund wrapped at his trim waist and gold braid and buttons accenting the breadth and height of him. The number of colorful ribbons and pins adorning his chest gave him a commanding air of power and authority. He'd
tucked his white, flat-topped hat beneath his arm and held a plastic corsage box in one white-gloved hand.
“Right back at you. That dress looks a hell of a lot better on you than it did on the hanger this morning.”
“You think?” J.C. twirled around, giving him the full effect of all the skin bared by double spaghetti straps and a modest décolletage. Everything else was demurely covered to her ankles, in deference to the stodgy requirements Ethan said the general and his committee preferred to see at official functions. But the hem flared to give her room to dance, and a touch of sparkle in the sheer overskirt made the outfit fun enough for her rebellious tastes.
“Definitely better than the hanger.”
J.C. smiled at the hungry timbre in his voice. “Your sweet talk's improving.”
Ethan didn't smile. He was busy assessing her from head to toe, lingering in places that made her toes curl into the carpet and her breasts tingle beneath the fitted bodice of the smoky blue silk. He had that same look in his eyes that he'd had last night at the barâthe look that said he wanted to eat her up. Here. Now. On the chaise. In the bed. Up against the wall. Anywhere he could have her. With his hands and mouth. His body. Would that most masculine part of him be as sleek and tonedâand big!âas the rest of him?
An erotic imageâsweaty, hot, graphicâleaped into her imagination.
Back off! Back off! Back off!
Her brain shouted the warning too late as she suddenly flushed with so much heat that she thought she might faint. Her knuckles turned white as she gripped the door and its frame for support and made a conscious effort to breathe.
In. Out. Leftâ¦
Oh, shoot!
Did everything come down to sex with this man? Had she talked and written about
sex so much that it was constantly on her mind now? Out. No, in! Out. Was her reaction to Ethan's virility this incendiary because her involuntary abstinence had dragged on for more months than she could count? Despite her training, she might no longer qualify as an expert on the topic. In. Out. He inspired her to do some serious, one-on-one research.
But J.C. couldn't just drag Ethan into her apartment, strip off his uniform and demand his pleasuring skills as payment for pretending to be his fiancée when they were expected across town in an hour. He'd come here early to get their stories straight so it would sound as if they'd known each other longer than twenty hoursânot to grab a quickie before the job interview-slash-inquisition began.
She had to cover her bases with the whole Juan Guerro incident first. Protect her alter ego. She'd promised Ethan she'd do whatever she could to help him get that promotion he wanted so badly.
Plus, she didn't want to risk him saying no to her proposition and walking out before she got the chance to study the officers at the ball tonight. How attentive would they be to their wives or dates? How much flirting would they try to get away with? J.C. didn't consider herself a great beauty, but she'd taken extra care with her hair and makeup and choice of accessories tonight. It was pretty shameless to set herself up as bait. But how many men would be like her father and chase after any sexy diversion that came along?
No, she couldn't jeopardize her bet or anything else. Not yet.
She needed to break the charged silence gathering strength between them and get moving before she pulled him down for a kiss that would certainly make them late
for the ball. With a teasing smile and a rustle of petticoats, she reached for the corsage. “Is that for me?”
“What?” He swallowed hard, and J.C. wanted to chase the bob of his Adam's apple along the column of his neck with her parched tongue. “Yeah. Here. I wasn't sure what kind of flower would go with your dress. But Captain Black recommended a gardenia for its neutral color, said it would go with everything.”
“Who's Captain Black?”
“My aide de camp.” She'd heard the term, but he explained it, anyway. “My assistant at the DoD. You'll meet him tonight.”
She opened the box and inhaled the waxy flower's heavy, potent scent. She closed it just as quickly, blocking out the sudden image of other things, heavy and potent, triggered by the lush, exotic smell. “Tell him good recommendation. It's beautiful. Thank you.” Trying not to breathe any more seductive scents, nor think any erotic thoughts, she ushered him inside and closed the door. The size of her already-tiny apartment shrank even further as Ethan strode into her living room.
“Nice place.” He crossed to the set of big double windows she loved. “Great view.”
“That's why I chose it. With the river and monument park area to look at, I can almost feel I'm out in the country.”
He glanced over his shoulder. “You a small-town girl?”
Boy, they didn't know much about each other, did they. “No. I actually grew up in San Diego. I love everything you can find in the city, but sometimes I just need to see some wide-open spaceâlike the ocean or the mountains.”
He nodded toward the window. “Or the park. I can relate.”
“Have a seat,” she offered, pointing to the purple chaise and contrasting teal-and-lavender-print easy chairs. Ethan's formal attire in the midst her colorful, bohemian decor reminded her of the different worlds they came from and would return to. It was an observation she found reassuring. J.C. was smart enough to know that sharing a sexual attraction didn't mean anything deeper would develop. Their limited time frame should help keep things that way. “What about you? Where do you call home?”
Ethan sat on the edge of one of the lavender chairs, resting his elbows on his knees and leaning forward as if he doubted the delicate piece of furniture could take his entire weight. “Let's see, nine countries on five continents in twelve yearsâ”
“Are you kidding?” J.C. sank into the chair opposite him, cradling the corsage box in her lap. Her father had been transferred every year or two, but she and her mother had always remained cocooned in their own little world in Southern California. She couldn't imagine pulling up roots so often. Of course, maybe Ethan never put down roots in the first place.
“I wanted to see the world. The Corps obliged.”
A girl in every port.
Had Ethan broken hearts on all five of those continents? Had he found the female company a healthy man like him would crave in each of those countries? J.C. set aside her pending disappointment. This was research, right? “Didn't you ever getâ¦lonely?”
“I missed my family, sure. But they were all on the move, too, until my dad retired and my sister, Caitie, went to college and got married. I had a job to do. A job I loved. I've met people and seen things in this world that most folks never even read about. There's beauty out there, and crazy stuff, and⦔ His matter-of-fact explanation halted abruptly, as if an unbidden thought had
caught him unaware. “I used to love experiencing different cultures firsthand. I couldn't wait to see what challenge the world would throw at me next.”
“Used to?”
“Some days I think I've seen more than a man should have to.”
His hushed voice and distant focus triggered an unexpected pang of sympathy. It was probably the counselor in her, sensing a troubled soul that needed to talk. But it was the woman in her who leaned forward and touched his knee. “Did something happen?”
Ethan's gray eyes darkened and nailed her as if she'd trespassed into a place she wasn't welcome. It was the first glimpse of strong emotion she'd seen in him, and the depth of it was as powerful as every other part of him. Ethan shot to his feet, breaking contact with her, stalking to the window and staring out toward the sunset. “Is this the get-acquainted part of the evening, where we offer a crash course in each other's lives and share our darkest secrets?”
It was also the first glint of sarcasm she'd heard in his cursed-with-honesty voice.