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was being threatened.
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“Get the hell out of here. Take that skirt chaser with you.”
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In the background she heard Daisy curse under her breath.
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“What did you just say?” Sharon’s eyes narrowed.
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“Mrs. Hurley, please go.”
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“My son didn’t do anything with that girl. You know it. Deep
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down in your heart you know it. He loves you so much, Mary.
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Please, just hear him out. I know you’re hurting and embar-
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rassed. But this reporter, he’s got—”
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“Mom, let me.” Damien looked at her, really looked at her,
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so fucking beautiful she couldn’t bear it. “Will you give me a
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few minutes? Please let me explain?” He held his hands out,
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empty. Hands that had touched her so many times, never with
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anything but kindness. With love.
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The fi ngers pressed over her lips couldn’t stop the sob from
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escaping.
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“Mary. Please?”
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Daisy touched her back and she turned. “What do you think
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I should do?”
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“What do you want to do? When Levi came to me that day
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I . . . I swallowed my pride and I heard him out. And I’m with
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him. You love him. I think you should listen to what he has to
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say. If he’s lying, you’ll listen to your gut and you’ll know. But
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if he’s not.” Daisy hugged her. “Do you want to risk walking
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away from this love you have? You already have doubts. I can
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see it. I can hear it. Let him explain and if he’s full of shit, kick 20
him in the dick and be done with it.”
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Her mother stepped out onto the porch and Sharon took
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another step closer.
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“Christ.”
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“Go. I’ll handle them. I’ll turn the hose on them if they start
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to rumble.”
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“Only you could make me laugh today.”
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She turned to her mother. “Please don’t make the neighbors
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call the cops.” Mary kissed her mom’s cheek.
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She walked down to where Damien was. “Start talking.”
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He fell into step beside her as they walked. “Do you think
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they’ll be all right together?” He looked back over his shoulder
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toward their mothers.
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“Daisy is going to watch them.”
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“All right.” He walked at her side, reaching out to take her
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hand. “Can I touch you?”
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She needed to hear what he was going to say. And maybe
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she’d need her hand to punch him with. If he touched her, she’d
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lose that last little bit of her composure.
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“No.”
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He breathed out. “I want to.”
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“Hm. I want lots of things. Tell me your story.”
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“I saw the pictures. You know who she is, obviously. But
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that’s past tense.”
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“Didn’t look past tense to me with her hand on your ass and
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her head on your shoulder. Oh, and that cozy little moment in
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the hotel after the event.”
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“Okay, so I get that. But that was . . . zwe were on the red
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carpet.
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had on these really high heels and nearly tripped. I stopped her
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from falling. That’s all. She didn’t touch my ass. It just looks
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that way from the angle.”
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She sighed.
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“Mary, I love you. You. Not Elisa. If I wanted her, I could
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have been with her three years ago. Or a week ago in New York.
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There’s one woman I want in my bed. One. You. Mary Whaley,
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curly- haired goddess of the kitchen. Dirty talking, horny, cock
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hungry, beautiful, beautiful woman. Mine.”
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He turned to her and she sucked in a breath. They stood
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face-to-face in her yard. He was close enough that she could
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smell his cologne. That she could see the dark circles under his
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eyes, the curve of his bottom lip.
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“After the event we all went out to dinner and then back to
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the hotel. She was in the lobby as I passed through. Right before
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I went straight upstairs to call you. Alone. I did not cheat on you.
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I would not cheat on you. If I wanted to be with another woman,
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I’d break up with you. I have fl aws, but I’m not an asshole. I
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respect you and I am not so shallow that I think with my dick.
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“People will try to hurt me through you. I’m sorry about
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that. I’m sorry if what I was before gives you reason to not trust
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me now. I’ve never been someone to look back with regret. But
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that anything I did before you, anything that makes you cry this
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way . . . ” He shook his head, at a loss for words for long
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moments. “I’m so fucking sorry. It kills me to see you like this.”
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She kept looking at him. Panicked. Desperate. So in love she
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didn’t know what to do, so she just froze.
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“Say something.”
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She was so sad it broke his heart. He was the reason for it.
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He itched to touch her but he wasn’t sure if he should. Wasn’t
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sure if she was open to it.
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“I don’t know what to say.” Her voice was hoarse. Anger
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and fear threaded it, and that need to touch her, to comfort,
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roared through him.
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“Say you love me.”
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“I love you.”
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He took a step closer and she didn’t move away.
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“Say you believe me.”
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“I don’t know.”
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He took a risk, reaching out to touch her hair. “You don’t?
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Since the fi rst time I met you have I lied to you? About anything?
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I wanted more from you fi rst, remember? Then I took it at your
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pace. I respected that you didn’t trust me. I proved myself to
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you, Mary. I respected what you wanted. I gave you what you
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needed and I have never swayed from that. I wanted to be your
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man and I’ve been your man. Sometimes I have to travel but I
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can take you with me if that’s what it takes. I will keep you at
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my side every moment because I want you there. Tell me what
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it is you need and I’ll give it to you.”
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He took her shoulders gently, pulling her closer. “I. Love.
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You. I want to make you happy. Let me. Don’t let this bullshit
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rip us apart. My brothers were there; they’ll talk to you. Hell,
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lots of people were there if you want to talk to them.”
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“We can’t be together if I can’t trust you. I can’t be with you
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every minute of the day. I can’t travel with you on every trip.
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I’m not your dick’s babysitter. I don’t want to be. I have a life.
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You’re part of it, but you’re not all of it. I want to live with the 18
man I love, not through him or for him. How can you want that
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either? How can you want to have to be with me every second?
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I’d hate it if you didn’t trust me.”
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“I want to be with you, goddamnit. I’ll take you however I
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can get you.”
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“I would never do that to you. If we’re together, I have to be
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able to know, in my bones, that you would not betray me. Don’t
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you want to believe that about me?”
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He thought about that picture of her and Daisy from that
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night they’d gone out. About the panic he’d felt at how beauti-
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ful she’d looked. How he’d known she’d have been hit on.
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“You sent me pictures. Remember? From the night you went
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dancing.”
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She nodded.
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“I looked at them and the fi rst thing I thought was,
Holy
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shit, my woman is fucking hot.
And then I thought,
Holy shit,
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my woman is fucking hot! Men will know this. They will want
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her.
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before.”
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“I don’t recommend jealousy as an emotion.”
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He couldn’t help it. She was so cranky when she said it, he had
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to smile. “I’ve felt it about record deals. I’ve felt it over cars.
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Houses. But I’ve never felt it over a woman until you. I never wor-
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ried about losing a woman. Until you. You are it for me. Please
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believe me.”
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Since the fi rst moment he’d laid eyes on her he’d considered
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her strong. But he had felled her. He could see it. Had heard it
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in her voice. He’d made her vulnerable and that had sent her
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reeling.
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Pride warred with fear. Oh, his Mary, she was self- assured.
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As self- assured as he was in so many ways, which is why they
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fi t so well. But love was different. He hadn’t known it either.
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“Love makes you strong.” He leaned in, brushing a kiss
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against her temple, breathing her in. His panic at losing her
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began to edge back so his hands had stopped shaking. “But it
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makes you weak too. Not in the way you think when you’re not
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in it, of course. But you know what I mean. Now you do, am I
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right? Because you make me weak. In the knees. You make my
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heart beat faster. You make my head hurt with the very idea of
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having to leave here today without you.”
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She drew in a shaky breath and then reached out, hooking
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a fi nger through his belt loop and holding on.
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“From now on, when you have a fear, or a question, even if
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things
look
really bad, please let me explain.” He hugged her 04
to his body, slowly, to give her a chance to back away— and he’d
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never done anything harder. She sighed, going soft in his arms
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and their connection, which had gone thin and pale, snapped
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back into place.
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“No more pictures with hot panty models.”
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“I didn’t take them on purpose.”
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She growled.
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“You want me to let her fall next time?”
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“Yes! Did you not see her facial expression? That was way
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more than ‘thanks for helping me.’ God!”
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He hugged tighter before she got wound up again. “Ezra said
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the same thing.”
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“Hm.”
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“I’m sorry I hurt you. No matter how inadvertent. I never
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wanted my job to hurt you this way.” Tears crept into his voice
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and she hugged him tighter right back.
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“I’m sorry I hurt you too.”
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“Damn, how’d I get so lucky?”
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“I don’t know.”
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He snorted, pivoting to tuck her against his side, where she
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fi t perfectly and always had. Always would.
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Their mothers had some intense back- and- forth going on.
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Daisy stood on the porch watching both them and Mary and
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Damien. She blew Mary a kiss.
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“You think they’ll be all right?”
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