Love, Rosie (98 page)

love,
rosie

153

I
need
to
know
that
the
little
bit
of
love
I
feel
for
him
right
now
will
grow

again,
back
to
the
way
it
was.
The
one
thing
that’s
making
me
so
much

stronger
is
the
fact
that
I
know
that
he
won’t
do
this
to
me
again.
We’ve
had

too
many
long
nights
of
tears
and
fights
for
either
of
us
to
want
to
go

through
it
again.

If
Alex
lived
in
this
country
I
would
know
what
to
do.
All
I
need
is

backup.
He’s
the
little
angel
that
sits
on
my
shoulder
whispering
in
my
ear,

“You
can
do
it!”
It’s
funny.
I’m
thirty
years
old
now
and
I
still
feel
like
a
lit-

tle
girl.
I’m
still
looking
around
to
check
and
see
what
other
people
are
doing

to
make
sure
I’m
not
completely
different;
I’m
still
looking
around
for
help,

hoping
for
a
quick
nudge
and
a
whisper
of
advice.
But
I
can’t
seem
to
be
able

to
catch
anybody’s
eye.
Nobody
else
around
me
seems
to
be
looking
around

and
wondering
what
to
do.
Why
is
it
that
I
feel
like
I’m
the
only
person
who

is
confused
and
concerned
about
the
choices
I’ve
made
and
where
I’m

headed?
Everywhere
I
look,
I
see
people
just
getting
on
with
it.
Maybe
I

should
just
follow
suit
and
get
on
with
it.

Love,

Rosie

Dear
Rosie,

Please
do
not
torture
yourself
with
questions
that
you
don’t
know
the

answers
to.
You
are
going
through
a
really
difficult
time
right
now
but
you

are
getting
on
with
it,
and
you
do
it
time
and
time
again.
Every
knock
back

makes
you
stronger.

I
can’t
tell
you
whether
to
stay
with
Greg
or
not,
only
you
can
make
that

decision,
but
all
I
can
say
is
that
if
there’s
any
love
there
at
all
then
you

should
work
at
it.
Every
small
thing
grows
when
you
nurture
it,
Rosie.
Love

is
just
the
same.
But
if
that
is
making
you
miserable
then
leave
and
find
some-

thing
else
that
brings
you
the
happiness
you
deserve
to
feel.

Just
listen
to
what
your
heart
is
saying
and
go
with
your
gut
instinct
and
it

will
lead
you
the
right
way.
I’m
sorry
I
have
no
great
words
of
wisdom
for
you,

Rosie,
but
at
least
you
know
that
you’re
not
alone;
other
people
don’t
have
all

the
answers
to
the
questions.
Sometimes
we’re
all
just
as
confused
as
you
are.

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Take
care.

Love,

Stephanie