Authors: Jaimy Gordon
I
N THE SUMMER
, stunned by heat and work, she lost track of Tommy. He was in New York,
seeing about a horse
. The midnight blue Sedan de Ville rolled up as she was walking Pelter. They walked on, and the car inched along the shedrow beside them.
Say, that was something how he roped in that Natalie broad from New Rochelle. I keep underestimating the guy. I knew her for years—she ain’t that easy. I mean she’s vulgar, I-want-you-should-this and I-want-you-should-that, but she’s game and she’s got the bucks—for a while. Still, I worry about Tommy. Don’t you worry about Tommy? He kids himself he can take what’s mine without paying for it and if he flies high enough, nothing bad will happen to him. But he’s so fucked I don’t have to do nothing. He’s so high he can’t look down. Or he crashes. He’s going to crash. Want to ride a dime on it? No? Hey, I thought you’d play. Joe Dale shrugged and the window rolled up and he drove away.
When Tommy is back, they never touch or eat in the trailer. Margaret no longer tries to cook on the faux wood counters with their black gummy cracks and peeling celluloid edges. At night after the races they are exhausted, at four in the morning, getting up to feed, they are not awake. Sometimes Tommy doesn’t come back to the trailer at all. Whatever they are, they are not laborers. Their bodies don’t thank them for this long reminder that they are not brother and sister pharaoh, not prince and courtesan, not
even a proper hustler and his moll. They are working too hard for that. Or at least Maggie is—it’s not entirely clear what sort of business occupies Tommy.
That first summer they knew each other, when he came home in the afternoon from the track and she from the paper, they were in bed in five minutes, with all of it: newsprint and horse manure, saddle leather, ink and hashish, past performance charts and food pages, sweet feed and recipes for blancmange and corn soufflé. The sheets literally reeked of all that. The sweat-damp canyons of the featherbed were gritty with their mixture. In some way their unmiscible lives fused. Here they live the same life and are rivals to come out of it alive. They meet in the prickly dark of the tack room or not at all. They couple on haybales or in old loose straw on the dirt floor or not at all. It starts with some hoarse utterance,
I want to get in your ass
, and hard fingers down the front of her jeans, or the back of them,
fuck me now
. They are naked but scaly, with clothes pushed out of the way of orifices, they come together like insects, claspers, ovipositors, wet vacuoles. They talk in this straw-speckled darkness or not at all.
Will you marry me?
She laughs.
Is that such a ridiculous question?
She knew she should say it, it would have been the honorable thing to say it, but she was afraid of pushing him over some edge: I’m getting out of here as soon as I can. I don’t know exactly what’s going on, but a girl like me—I can’t be playing around with gangsters. I keep thinking I’m in a movie and then I realize I could get killed. The strangeness draws me in but in the end I can’t afford it. I haven’t done anything with my life.
FOURTH RACE
Lord of Misrule
T
HEY WERE ALL LOOKING
for a van like a Chinese jewel box, like no horse van that had ever been seen on a backside, something red and black and glossy, with gold letters,
LORD OF MISRULE
, arched across each side. All the same when a plain truck with Nebraska plates rolled into the Mound on the hottest day of the year, they knew who it was. They were watching, though the van was unmarked and dirty white, one of those big box trailers with rusty quilting like an old mattress pad you’ve given to the dog. The van bounced and groaned on its springs along the backside fence, headed for the stallman’s office. Red dust boiled around it. They blinked as it dragged two wheels through the puddle that never dried, the puddle that had no bottom. They all waited for the van to tilt and lurch to a stop; it didn’t even slow down. They peered through the vents when the van went by and saw the horse’s head, calm, black and poisonous of mien as a slag pile in a coal yard. He had a funny white stripe like a question mark on his forehead.
The van stopped, woof, down comes the ramp, and a kid, unhealthy-looking like all racetrack kids, worm white, skull bones poking out of his skinny head, stood at the top of the ramp with a small black horse that couldn’t even stand right: Lord of Misrule already rocked, or seemed to rock, on the flat floor of the van like a table with one short leg. And those legs—they were so swelled
out from long-ago bowed tendons on both sides that they were one straight line from knee to ankle, drainpipes without contour except for the waffling left over from firing and blistering agents and god knows what.
Old Devil get behind of me, said Medicine Ed.
I’m scared, Maggie said, why am I scared?
You see what it’s gonna cost Spinoza here just to chase after him, Deucey said.
What do you mean? Maggie said. We’re not racing him. Are we?
Deucey added: Because that horse don’t know from pain.
Notice the white six of syphilis on his forehead, Tommy Hansel said. They all looked away from the horse, and looked at him. Tommy leaned against the tack room door. The planes under his eyes were luminous with some peculiar idea, and sweat pearled his handsome, heavy forehead.
Say what? Medicine Ed asked.
But Tommy Hansel smiled as if he had been making a joke, and, relieved, they turned back to look at the horse.
Tell you what, Medicine Ed said. He ain’t get them bad wheels from standing in no stall.
All kinds of people had come to watch from the grass bib of the shedrow, horsemen, grooms and ponygirls, hot-walkers and assorted riff-raff. They were waiting. Then the terrible thing happened. The back door of the Racing Secretary’s pre-fab office shack opened and a large bald man with mastiff jowls and tea-colored eyeglasses came out and stood on the wooden stair. It was Standish Chenille himself. People blinked, for the racing secretary was seldom seen. He descended the stair and scuffed at a leisurely pace towards Lord of Misrule’s van. The face in the cab of the van was freckled, boyish and rough, with a Western squint
and a broad snub nose. Mr. Standish Chenille leaned over and said to him, low, but not so low that everybody couldn’t hear: Barn Z. Raymond called ahead. His eyes pinched up, and all at once he had a hole similar to a smile punched into his heavy face. It was a welcome, a princely welcome. They all looked at each other. They could scarcely believe their ears. They looked at each other, and they thought, This is big, and, How can we get a piece of it, and, We’ll take anything, even a hoof paring, sawdust, loose change.
The horses around them felt it too. Joe Dale Bigg’s were all of a sudden beating up the red dust under the hot-walking machine, tearing around the aluminum carousel at a thrilled gallop that few of them ever showed at the far turn.
Going into the stretch it’s Nobody’s Nothing, with Nowhere making his move on the inside, Deucey called the race. A few people laughed. Lord of Misrule threw back his head, snorted out dust and rolled his eye at the other cheap horses. His black tail arched and, ugly as Rumpelstiltskin, he let drop great soft nuggets, part gold, part straw, all the way down the ramp.
T
HERE WAS A HAYBALE
up against the shingle between the young fool’s tack room and his stalls, and Medicine Ed sat here in the afternoon and studied, and after a while he let his heavy head fall back against the wall and he might doze. He didn’t care these days to walk out the back gate over to Zeno’s old Winnebago. He couldn’t sleep in it no more if he did, for now he start to worry that he gone to lose it. Yes, he had that draggyfied feeling he was about to lose his good home one more time.
It wasn’t the horses gone sour. Horses gone good: Mahdi. Pelter. Even the mare and Railroad Joe run in the money now and then. Wasn’t the money. Seem like all of a sudden it was money in the young fool’s pocket, New York money, might could be money from some crime character, since the young fool so jumpy and no owner in sight. No. The young fool’s reason have clouded, what it is. Ever since he come back with Pelter from Joe Dale Bigg’s farm, he be wandering in his mind. He talked to the horses about King Death, then he listened to the quiet, like they talking back—it give Ed the creeper crawlers to hear it. You think you are stronger? he say to Mahdi, remember, they come from Nebraska, where King Death keeps his court in beauty and decay. The little hairs stand up and wave on the back of Medicine Ed’s neck.
He fixing to put The Mahdi in that special race against Lord of Misrule, and not just for the teenchy cut of the purse they slipping
to all the entries, half a per cent or two hundred bucks or what it is. No, he gone try against common sense to win with the horse, good against evil, some catawamptious idea, sure to bring the Devil down on him if it ain’t the Devil messing up his mind already. And if the gangsters whose race it is don’t get to him first, him and anybody work for him. Or Joe Dale Bigg—since they take away Pelter off his farm, Joe Dale has turned cold as grave dirt. You can see why Death run in the young fool’s mind, even if he is crazy. Medicine Ed pushed two fingers deep in his shut eyes, gold scum rippled through the black in his head, and hot as it was, he shivered.
Somebody pulled his sleeve. What do you know, Ed? It was the frizzly girl. She sat down on the haybale next to him, she say What do you know? and then she don’t say nothing. Since she come back from Joe Dale Bigg’s farm with Pelter, the hot sauce was gone out of her, the longnose newsbag too. She taken care of her horse, that was about it. She showed up in the morning before even Ed and mucked the stalls and set out the feed buckets and don’t say nothing to nobody, and by the time Ed dragged in, and he ain’t lay in no bed past four in the morning in forty years, she walking her horse. Pelter—he her horse now. She walked him slow, slow as the horse in front, whosomever it happened to be.
She say, Ed, what do you know? and the rest of the time she quiet. Or what she will say: I gotta get us home. All I want is to get us home in one piece. Who is us, Medicine Ed want to ask. Do that count him, Medicine Ed? But he don’t ask and she don’t say.
She knows things is falling apart, that’s all she know. Deucey and her and Medicine Ed standing under the eaves Sadday last in the steaming hot rain, and the young fool look in and say,
Nebraska, k, n, a, sumpm, sumpm, he spelled it out—even Medicine Ed knows Nebraska don’t start with no k. That spells knacker, he say, you see how it’s almost the same word? Medicine Ed, he don’t say nothing. He don’t want to get in no disputes with his boss about how you spell this and how you spell that.
But Deucey say, Nebraska spells b, u, t, e, bute, you mean. That’s the only thing they got going for them up there, I been there, I know what I’m talking about, and that’s the only reason that horse still wins. They pickled him in bute.
It’s more to that horse than bute, Medicine Ed put in.
Bute or no bute, the young fool say. Bute is the work of man. We’ll see who the forces of good like on race day. Anyhow, bute is not entirely unknown here at the Mound.
The young fool’s woman don’t pipe up like she used to: Don’t they test for bute?
She know better. She knows that spitbox a sometimey thing anymore at all these half-mile tracks. Nobody told her. She finally figure it out for herself. Working for the young fool all this while, she learn to say
I don’t know nuthin bout no needle
with the rest of em. These last years everybody creep closer and closer to post time with that needle, and lessen the office tryna rule somebody off who done made a nuisance of hisself some other way, very very seldom do it come up positive.
Yet and still, the frizzly hair girl too has her entry in that special race. Pelter. Pelter will run and collect his two hundred dollars and maybe even a few more dollars to show, she say. Soon as this race is done, we’re going home in dark of night out the back gate if necessary, she say, going back to Charles Town, that’s why we need us every dollar I can lay in. Do that us include him, Medicine Ed? Don’t count on it.