Lightning Rods (21 page)

Joe glanced at the job applicant.

“Yeah, yeah, OK,” he said. “Whatever.”

Lucille was there in ten minutes.

“I’ll just leave you ladies to discuss this in private,” said Joe, and he was out of there before you could say Jack Robinson.

Renée sat in the little office and a woman in a pink suit came in and introduced herself. Renée would not have chosen to wear that particular shade of pink, which was too close to bubble gum for
her
taste, but she had to admit the woman was impeccably turned out.

Renée had initially been skeptical. It had occurred to her that there was nothing to stop the interviewer from just calling someone and getting her to confirm his story. But something in Lucille’s matter-of-fact manner carried conviction.

Lucille explained that the job wasn’t for everyone, and she explained her views on going to the toilet, and she explained that she used tampons and she didn’t tend to dwell on them either, and she explained that she was planning to go to Harvard Law School.

“I never really thought of it before,” Lucille explained. “Because I certainly don’t have that kind of money. But when I first applied to the agency Joe happened to mention that one of the other applicants was saving up money to go to law school. It’s a funny thing, but it really stopped me in my tracks. I thought, ‘What do I want out of life, anyway?’”

Renée was not usually at a loss for words, but somehow “And what do you want out of life?” did not seem exactly the right thing to say.

“Because if what you want out of life is a lot of
things
, obviously you can get a lot more things if you have more money. I just thought, ‘Is that the kind of person I am? Don’t I have any goals?’ Well, OK, sure, I always thought I’d be PA to the head of a big company one day. I just thought, ‘Is that it?’”

I don’t believe I’m hearing this, thought Renée.

And Lucille explained that just for the heck of it she had gone out and taken the LSAT and she had turned out to have a real aptitude. “And when I thought about it it actually made sense,” said Lucille. “Because attention to detail is one of my strong points.”

“I don’t like debt,” Lucille explained. “I don’t care
what
qualifications you have, you can’t ever tell what tomorrow will bring. My grandfather lived through the Depression. You can’t tell
me
there weren’t Harvard lawyers out of a job. Besides, the way I see it is, if you take on a big bank loan other people are calling the shots. I don’t know if you’re aware of this, but Harvard will make loan repayments for people who are earning less than $35,000 a year if they do pro bono work. Well, that’s just fine, but what it comes down to is somebody else gets to decide what they think is worthwhile. Besides which, just because that option happens to be available now doesn’t mean it’s necessarily going to be available if and when I decide I want to take advantage of it. Well, if I can get around that by going to the toilet a couple of times a day it’s a small price to pay.”

Gradually Renée stopped feeling insulted that someone had had the impudence to try to sell her a disgusting, pornographic fabrication as a reason for not hiring her. Apparently this was actually true. If it was true, it was still disgusting, but it wasn’t an insult that it was the reason she was not eligible for the job.

It simply happened to be in violation of the Equal Employment Opportunities Act.

Now, just because an employer is in violation of the Equal Employment Opportunities Act does not mean you want the job. But Renée had the kind of attention to detail that had been driving her family insane for years, so that she could not help noticing one little detail. The reason the employer was in violation of the Equal Employment Opportunities Act with this particular job was that the whole workplace was one in which an African-American would stand out. In other words, it was the fact that the employer did not have a 50:50 workplace that
made
it impossible to guarantee anonymity. But what this meant was that not having a 50:50 workplace in effect denied whatever African-Americans did happen to be working there access to positions offering double the salary. They weren’t given the
choice
. They were just automatically excluded.

In other words, any employer who wanted to implement this program should have simultaneously set the wheels in motion to raise the number of African-Americans in the workplace—
regardless
of whether any actually wanted the job in question. Probably most would
not
choose to be involved in a disgusting scheme of this nature, but they should have the opportunity to make that decision for themselves.

Interesting.

Half an hour later Renée walked out of the office building.

Across the street a narrow park ran along the river. Renée crossed the street and sat down on a bench looking over the water.

“Well, what do you think, Renée?”

Renée (or Miss Perfect, as she was known in her family) watched the eddying brown water for a moment in silence.

At last she said, “I don’t know
what
to think.”

She crossed one leg over the other and looked down at her polished Gucci shoe. The leather was a dark chestnut, gleaming like oiled wood; her leg, in its filmy Hanes pantyhose, was two shades paler, and her cashmere dress was marron glacé. She had twelve other pairs of brown shoes in her closet because it’s important to get the shade exactly right when you are matching earth colors. Some people will wear a pair of tan shoes with an oatmeal dress, or chocolate brown shoes with a red dress; the only thing you can say is, if they’re going to go out looking like that, they’re probably better off not noticing. It’s some kind of consolation to think that most of the people around them won’t notice either.

If you actually care about how you look, on the other hand, you’ll take the trouble to get it right. Sometimes a dress needs matching accessories: sometimes a red dress
needs
red shoes and a red bag. At other times neutral accessories are called for. But just because something is neutral doesn’t mean it goes with everything, it’s important to get it right. Renée had dyed Italian leather sandals in magenta, coquelicot, chartreuse, peacock blue, lime green, lemon yellow, and frosted orange. She had suede loafers in lavender, lilac, ivory, cream, tangerine, royal blue, charcoal grey, and black. She had ankle boots in three shades of navy blue, four shades of brown, black suede, black leather, and black leather with black suede trim. In addition to the sixty other indispensable pairs of shoes she had a list of things that most people get wrong:

Never wear gold jewelry with blue. If you’re going to wear blue, you need a silver watch. If you can’t afford the watch, don’t wear blue.

Never wear gold buttons.

Never wear coins or medals as buttons.

Never wear fake coins or medals as buttons.

Never wear cloth buttons with a metal rim.

Never wear self-covered buttons in man-made fibers.

Never wear self-covered
velvet
buttons. Cotton, silk, linen, and wool are acceptable; anything else is in bad taste.

Never wear a belt that ties. If it doesn’t buckle, it shouldn’t be there in the first place.

Never wear anything with a button-down flap.

Never wear anything with a pocket that zips.

Never wear anything with a drawstring.

Never wear
anything
with epaulettes.

Never wear anything two tone.

Never wear a raincoat that doesn’t match your shoes. You probably need a minimum of ten.

There were about 200 other principles on the list, and even in the fashion magazines people sometimes got some of them wrong. Some people think this kind of thing is trivial; they think as long as they get the important things right the rest doesn’t matter.

The fact is that being perfect is a matter of habit. If you want to get things right, practice by getting everything right. If you always get
everything
right, down to the last detail, when the important things come along you’ll be ready for them. Otherwise, you waste more time than you save wondering whether something is
worth
taking the time to get right. And even if you decide it is, you won’t know how to get it right if you try.

Miss Perfect had been perfect ever since she could remember. Her clothes were always folded, sorted by color, and put away. Her toys always looked as good as new. Her schoolbooks had paper jackets to protect them. Her notebooks were always pristine, filled with notes that fell automatically into perfect outlines in perfect handwriting. Her homework was always on time, and it always got an A. College was the same, and so was every job she had ever had. That was why she was ready to be PA to a CEO at the age of 28.

“I don’t know what to think,” she said again, clasping her hands around her knee and looking at her beautifully manicured thumbnails, and thinking of the fact that Lightning Rods was in flagrant violation of the Equal Employment Opportunities Act.

Renée sat on the bench, swinging her shoe.

This detail was going to go on niggling at her. She could tell.
All
details niggled at her. Sometimes she thought she would rather not have to find closet space for 100 pairs of shoes; she didn’t
want
to own shoes in twenty-two separate shades of navy blue. But if her shoes were wrong for her dress the color just niggled at her and niggled at her and niggled at her until she gave in and bought another pair. If a button was loose on a blouse it niggled at her. If her watch didn’t agree with the talking clock, it niggled at her. This was going to just go right on niggling at her.

“You need a lawyer,” she said, but something was niggling at her.

The thing that was niggling at her was the calm, confident way Lucille had shared her ambition to go to Harvard Law School.

The thing that was niggling at Renée was the fact that all these things were niggling at her. Because if you have the type of mind that is simply not
able
not to notice details maybe you
don’t
need a lawyer.

Maybe you could be a lawyer yourself.

Renée had noticed for years that the people running the country did not bring the level of perfectionism to the task which she brought to organizing name tags for a conference. The problem was that to do the job the way she would want to do it would drive even her insane. She had enough trouble just organizing a conference to her own satisfaction.

She swung her foot back and forth.

The fact is that not being able to not pay attention to detail can actually be a liability. Just because Renée was not able to not pay attention to every single little detail did not mean she thought it was actually
worth
it. Au contraire. Sometimes it got really irritating. That was why she had decided to apply for a new job. It wasn’t just the money, though the money was part of it. She had thought maybe a job that was more of a challenge, that carried more responsibility with it, would justify the level of perfectionism she would not be able to help bringing to it.

Well, wasn’t it just possible that the reason she kept looking for new jobs was that she was not doing the kind of job that would
ever
justify the level of perfectionism she brought to a job? Wasn’t it possible that the kind of job that would justify that level of perfectionism was always going to be one where you couldn’t avoid making
some
mistakes? Maybe the time had come to learn to live with that. Instead of looking around at the way other people were running the world, and letting it niggle at her, she could do something about it. Go to Harvard Law School. Become a Justice of the Supreme Court. All you had to do was look at the job the current appointees were doing to see where there was real scope for improvement.

“I think you’re getting a little carried away here, Renée,” she said.

A dog trotted by. It squatted in the grass and squeezed out a long, narrow, soft brown turd, then trotted gaily away.

Renée looked at the turd in the grass.

Suppose someone offered you the chance to go to Harvard Law School, and all you had to do was pick up a turd a couple of times a day,
wearing plastic gloves
, on top of your regular job. It would be kind of disgusting, but no worse than cleaning toilets. She had taken a part-time job as a chambermaid when she was fifteen to save up and buy a computer; did she have any regrets? No way.

The difference would be that you would be getting a chance to have a completely different life. Wouldn’t you do something kind of disgusting for a couple of years to have a chance you wouldn’t otherwise have? You know you would.

“I think we’re talking about something rather different here, Renée,” she said.