Learning To Love (The Griffin Brothers Book 4) (14 page)

“I want to be as
perfect for you as I can, but I can’t be
perfect
.
I’m a guy who’s crazy in love with you, but I’ll never be a
perfect dream guy. You of all people, who’s seen me at my worst,
should realize that. I’ll happily buy you every flower and stuffed
animal on the planet, and I’ll make sure everyone knows I’m only
with you, along with making you feel as loved as I can, but that’s
pretty much all I can do.” Tears are running down my cheeks, and I
feel so ashamed because he’s right.

“I’m not saying
these things to hurt you, Ollie. I just need you to look at how you
feel and decide if I’m who you really want. Not the perfect guy you
want me to be, but just plain old Luke Griffin. The guy who’s gonna
fuck up often, but love you forever. I want you to choose me, but I
need you to be sure. If it’s just the idea of me, then we need to
end things tonight.

“I’m going to the
bar by myself. Once you make your decision, you can let me know by
what happens when you get there. If you want the real me, you’ll
come find me. If you don’t, then stay away. Please.”

He stands up and walks
over to me before leaning down and kissing my cheek. “I love you,
Ollie. No matter what you decide, I hope you never forget that.”

He walks out the door
and I collapse to the floor. Oh my God. I’m so stupid. I know my
answer already. I love that man, flaws and all. I don’t deserve him
but I love him, and I’m claiming him the minute I walk into the bar
tonight. I pick myself up and wash up before heading downstairs.

* * *

Luke

I’m at the bar, which
is really pretty cool. It’s called The Reserve, and it’s in what
was once a bank. There’s a room where the vault was, little private
areas, a great dance floor, and a bar made out of safety deposit
boxes. We came out for the opening but haven’t had a chance to come
back again until tonight. I’m standing on the edge of the dance
floor talking to some chick I’d hooked up with in the past. I’ve
told her I’m not interested, but she’s not taking no for an
answer.

“If you have a
girlfriend, where is she?”

“Right here.”

I barely have time to
turn and take in Olivia wearing a sexy as hell dress before she’s
on me. She wraps her arms around my neck and kisses me hard. I kiss
her back as I hold her hips, running my thumbs across her bare back.
I told her to come to me, and fuck if she didn’t. She breaks the
kiss to whisper in my ear, “I love you, Luke Griffin. My perfectly
flawed dream boyfriend.”

I’m the one who
initiates the next kiss, pulling her tight against me. We kiss for a
few minutes, both of us conveying our feelings for each other. I pull
away, touch our foreheads together, and reach up to cup her face with
one hand while I look in her eyes. “Thank God you came for me.”

“Were you really
worried?”

“A little, yeah. I
said some rough things to you.”

“You said some
true
things to me. Things that I am so, so sorry for. I never meant to
send you mixed signals or make you think it wasn’t you, the real
you, who I love. You
are
my dream boyfriend. In
every
way. I shouldn’t have tried to hold you to standards of perfection
just because I was a little intimidated by you. I don’t want you to
be so worried about me sexually either. You’ve been more than
patient. We’ve done almost everything now, and I’m not going to
stop you if you still want to make love to me.”

I forgot where we are
until the chick who wouldn’t leave me alone speaks up. “It’s
not polite to whisper, you know.”

Olivia turns in my
arms, leaning back into me as she answers. “What are you still
doing here?”

“Luke Griffin doesn’t
have girlfriends. He fucks. He’s great at that, but it’s all
there is. Everyone knows that.”

I stiffen, but Olivia
pulls my arms tight around her waist and rubs my forearms. “He just
hadn’t found the right girl. He has now, and believe me, he’s not
going home with anyone else. I can guarantee it because I don’t
share. You can run along now and look for someone else to hook up
with.”

Olivia claiming me is
beyond hot. I relax and start nibbling on her neck and shoulder.
“Good luck with that,” the chick says and storms off.

“I know you’re a
sex God, but that was a little crazy.”

“Sex God?”

“What you’ve
already done to me has been worthy of God status, so I have no doubt
that the rest of it is going to be amazing.”

I smirk at her. “For
you? Yeah. I’m going to do everything I can to make you scream my
name and beg for more.”

She turns in my arms.
“Just be you, Luke. That’s all I need.”

“Thanks. It means a
lot to hear you say that. Now let’s get on the dance floor so you
can shake that fine ass of yours for me.”

We dance for the next
hour or so, mostly to fast songs where she grinds against me or waves
her hands in the air. That makes her dress pull up a little and my
cock grow harder. A slow song comes on and I pull her in close,
running my hands up and down her bare back.

“If you hadn’t come
for me, I’d probably be in jail right now.”

She pulls back to look
at me. “Jail?”

“Yeah. If I saw some
other guy touching you, I’d kick his ass. But with you in this
dress, I’d kill him.”

“You like my dress?”

“I know you can feel
that I do, honey. I’ve also noticed that you’re continuing the
trend.”

“Trend?”

“No bra again.”

“Oh, that. This time
it wasn’t intentional. I just felt sexy in this dress when I tried
it on. Even if you didn’t want me here—which I now know you did—I
wanted you to want me when you saw me in it.”

“I’d want you in
one of those old lady muumuu things, but I appreciate you wanting to
look sexy for me. A lot.”

We finish the song and
then decide to find everyone else, who we’ve pretty much ignored
all night. They’re in a quieter room of the bar. Candi’s falling
asleep on Owen’s shoulder while the rest of them talk quietly
around her. Kyle comes over and we all greet him.

“Hey, Kyle. This is
my girlfriend, Olivia.”

“Nice to meet you. I
didn’t think I’d ever see this guy settle down.”

“I didn’t think I
would either, but I’m happy he did. It’s great to meet you, too.”

“Can I get you
something to drink?”

“Yes, please. I heard
you have some kind of drink that tastes like Red Velvet cake. I’d
love to try it.”

“You got it. I’ll
be right back.”

“Kyle, man. What
about me? I want a drink, too.”

Kyle smirks at me. “You
know where the bar is, Luke.”

“Really?”

“Nah. What do you
want?”

“Surprise me, just
nothing fruity or girly. I trust you.”

He nods. “I’ll be
back in a few.”

I sit down and pull
Olivia onto my lap. While we wait for our drinks, I nuzzle her neck
and whisper sexy things in her ear. She blushes and squirms on my
lap, making my cock even harder. Then it’s her turn to whisper to
me. “I want your cock in me tonight, Luke.”

I straighten up in
shock and look her in the eye. “Are you sure? I want you to be
sure. I don’t want you to do this just because of what I said to
you.”

“I’m sure. I knew
last week that I would be ready soon, and now I am. I even said the
word you wanted me to say.” She looks happy and proud of herself.

“You
did
say it, my sweet girl. Thank you. How about we see where things go
when we get back to the house, and then you can decide for sure.”

“Don’t you want to
anymore?”

“Yes, I want to. I
think about making love to you all the time. I just want it to be
right for you. I didn’t have a chance to plan a romantic room with
candles or anything.”

“Just being with you
will be romantic. I want to know what it’s like to feel you in me.
I went on the pill a few weeks ago so we wouldn’t have to use
condoms.”

Whoa. “I’ve never
done that before. Not used a condom, I mean. I’m clean, though. I
get tested regularly.”

“Do you want to with
me?”

“Fuck, yeah.”

Kyle comes back with
our drinks before I can say anything else. The drinks are great and
after we drink them, the girls pull Olivia back out to the dance
floor. Candi must have gotten a second wind because she’s out there
with her big belly and all. The other guys and I join them when a
slow song comes on and hold our women close. I glare at the guys
checking out Olivia and ignore the girls who try to catch my eye. I’m
happier than I’ve ever been.

Olivia

We closed down the bar
and stayed a little after to hang out with Kyle. It’s almost three
in the morning as we’re pulling through the gates of the house. I’m
not tired, though. All I can think about is Luke making love to me.
I’m a little scared but mostly excited. I know it’s going to
hurt, but I’m pretty sure it’s going to feel good after the pain
subsides.

Luke seems nervous,
too. He’s holding my hand tight, but he hasn’t kissed me or even
talked to me during the car ride. His knee is bouncing up and down.
You’d think it was his first time and not mine. I know he’s
worried about hurting me, but I really do want this.

We all get out of the
car and head upstairs. After saying goodnight, the other couples head
for their rooms while Luke and I stand in the middle of the hall.
He’s looking at the ground while I look at him. I decide to let him
off the hook since he’s obviously having some trouble with this. I
know he wants me—I felt his erection all night—but he isn’t
ready. He didn’t push me, and I won’t push him.

“Goodnight, Luke.
I’ll see you later this morning.”

He looks up, surprised,
and I lean over to kiss him on the cheek. I smile at him as I turn
and walk into my room, closing the door behind me. I sit down and
start to untie my shoes when the door opens. Luke walks in and shuts
the door as he leans back against it.

I stop what I’m doing
and stand up, waiting for him to make the next move. He looks
conflicted for a moment, and then slowly walks to me. “I want you,
Ollie. I do. I’m just so freaked out about hurting you.”

“Just think of it
this way—it has to happen sometime, and once it’s over, I think
you’ll make me feel really good. Plus, you can always kiss it and
make it better.”

“I
will
make you feel as good as I can, and you know I love kissing your
pussy, so that’s a given.”

He’s finally in front
of me, and then he turns me around. His hands start moving over my
shoulders and back until he unclasps my dress where it holds the
straps in the middle of my back. He moves his hands under the
material in front and cups both of my breasts while he licks my
spine.

I shiver and I can feel
him smile against my back before he starts giving me little kisses,
all while kneading my breasts and pinching my nipples. “You like
this, Ollie?”

“Yes.”

“I’ve been thinking
about you all night in this dress. Knowing you had no bra on made me
want to reach inside right there on the dance floor and claim my
treasure.”

“I probably would’ve
let you. You know you make me bold.”

He pushes the straps
off each shoulder with his chin and the tops falls to my waist. Now
he’s kissing my shoulders and the back of my neck. He stops to
whisper in my ear. “I love that I can turn the sweet little Olivia
into my wild and insatiable Ollie.”

“You can. You do. I
want you so bad right now, Luke.”

“I need to make sure
you’re ready for me, honey. The more I can get you there, the
better it will be for you.”

He moves one hand
around my back while the other moves down to rub my stomach as he
undoes part of my zipper. When the dress is loose enough for his
liking, he slides both hands down under it. And then he freezes. “You
have no panties on.”

“I had to be ready in
case I had to fight for you at the club. I didn’t know if you’d
be with another girl already, and I was prepared to do whatever it
took to get you back.”

He moves around to face
me, cupping my face with both hands. “I would
not
have been with another girl until I knew your answer. Even
then, I can’t imagine another girl interesting me after being with
you. You challenge me and aren’t impressed with my wealth. That’s
not a combination that’s easy to find. I don’t
want
to find anyone else. I want to be with you, Ollie.
Just
you, and I am so fucking glad that you want me too.”

“I love you, Luke.
Now please stop talking and make love to me.”

He laughs then kisses
me lightly before kneeling before me and pulling my dress to the
ground. He looks up at me and then proceeds to make me come hard with
his fingers and tongue. I stumble because it’s so intense, but he
catches me.

Only then does he lift
me onto the bed. He takes off his clothes while I watch and squirm on
the bed. I want this, I want
him,
so bad that I almost come again just from seeing his cock hard and
ready for me. His eyes are dark and hungry as he moves to the bed and
then over me. He kisses me hard while holding himself up on his
forearms. I’m rubbing myself against him like a cat, and he finally
breaks the kiss to scold me. “You aren’t going to let me go slow
and make love to you properly, are you?”

I feel bad, now. I know
he’s still a little scared to hurt me, and I need to let him be
gentle with me. I should
want
him to be gentle with me, but just thinking about what we’re going
to do is making me a little crazy. “I’ll try to behave for you,
Luke. You do whatever you want.”