Land of Shadows (2 page)

My Motorola radio, now riding shotgun, squawked. “Where you at, partner?” Colin Taggert's slow baritone filled the car.

I grabbed the radio and keyed the mike. “Five minutes away.”

“I'll go ahead and—”

“No, you won't.”

“I've done this before—”

“That was then. This is now. You
will
wait for me.”

Colin had lived in Colorado Springs all of his life. His daddy was an Air Force colonel and his mommy was married to an Air Force colonel. Colin hated flying, and so he had chosen to pound the pavement for the Colorado Springs Police Department. After four years on patrol and some strings pulled by his father, Colin made detective at just twenty-eight years old.

“Jane Doe ain't going nowhere,” I told him now, “unless you have magical resurrection powers. Do you have said powers?”

Colin sighed, then said, “No one's here, and—”

“That doesn't make sense,” I said, narrowing my eyes. “What address do you have?”

“I'm at the condos on Stocker.”

“You're supposed to be at the condos
off
Stocker.” Then, I gave him new directions to Crase Parc and Promenade.

Two years ago, a businessman named Napoleon Crase and his partners wrote a check to purchase the old plaza. Wonder of wonders, the check didn't bounce (like prior checks from other developers had), and the Santa Barbara Plaza revitalization effort was resurrected.

The Crase Parc and Promenade would soon house Buppies and young white couples looking for cheap yet swanky condominiums in a soon-to-be-gentrified neighborhood. A neighborhood that had already seen its only Starbucks close and the crime rate double. No worries, though. The fancy “c” in “Parc” would act as an invisibility cloak, hiding the chickenheads, wackjobs, and gangbangers roaming the ruins of the Plaza just a block away.

One of those abandoned stores in the dead shopping center had been Crase Liquor Emporium, Crase's first business and the last place where I had seen my sister alive. Twenty-five years had passed since that day at the liquor store, and I still didn't know how to answer a very simple question:
Did your sister die?
Didn't know, because the case had never been solved.

Colin stood near his Crown Vic, now talking with Lieutenant Rodriguez. He had a burger in one hand and waved at me with the other. My new partner had dirty-blond hair, steely blue eyes, and a swimmer's body. He also had a too-square jaw, a hawkish nose, and ears as big as sails. He was almost hot but then, in the LAPD's candy shop, perfection didn't matter.

Not many black female police officers worked in Colorado Springs, and so Colin didn't know how to deal with me. On our first day together—just three days before this Jane Doe suicide—I took him for coffee and broke it down. “I'm sassy, but not Florence-the-Jeffersons'-maid sassy. Nor am I ultrareligious. I'm sure as hell not an earth mother, so there's
that
to remember, too.
Actually
, you'd be better off seeking comfort from that palm tree across the street before coming to me.

“Also: I hate watermelon but I love chicken. I can say ‘nigga' but I will break every bone in your face if I hear you say it.” I squinted at him. “And you look like someone who's been around people who say it
a lot
. So be careful, please.” I sipped my Venti drip, then added, “On a lighter note: yes, the myth is true. The blacker the berry and so forth and so on.”

He had gaped at me—
what's this about berries?

It had been a very long week.

The sun was now dropping behind the hills, leaving Santa Rosalia Drive in shadow. There was a chill in the air. Typical June gloom: overcast with a high of seventy degrees. Not too cold but cold enough to slow death's decay. There weren't many looky-loos standing on the sidewalks yet. Just an old black couple, a guy wearing khaki Dickies, and his tatted-up girlfriend in a sequined halter top.

Two separate buildings made up the under-construction Crase condominiums. No concrete had been poured yet over the dirt to make sidewalks and driveways, and white paint had been slapped only on the south-facing walls. The burgundy sign nailed to the construction trailer showed renderings of one- and two-bedroom units.
Starting at only $400,000!

“Almost half a mil to live here?” I mumbled, gazing at the buildings. “Not even open yet, and the place is already in the shit.”

I slipped on my shoulder holster full of Glock, pulled on my suit jacket, and clipped my gold shield to my belt. Then, I whispered a quick prayer—God was like my mother's ex-boyfriend who I still liked, and so I snuck quick conversations with Him because, sometimes, He did cool things for me.

Colin, finishing the last of his meal, ambled toward me, smiling his all-American smile and
I'm the Shit
eking from his pores. “That dispatcher,” he said, shaking his head. “Who the hell gave
her
a radio?”

“Oh,” I said, “it's
her
fault that you were about to bust down the wrong door.”

He wore a wool suit too heavy for Southern California, a red-and-gray striped tie he had worn in prep school, and black cowboy boots that were shinier than the detective's shield hanging from his neck. He crumpled the burger's wax paper as he admired the Porsche's curves and sexiness. Then, he smiled at me, bit his lip, and tilted his square head.

That was a thing of his. A gesture that was supposed to make me rip off my slacks and lie spread-eagled on one of those Crown Victorias.

“You look exhausted,” he said to me, before tipping a plastic container of orange Tic Tacs to his lips.

I grimaced as the tiny candies rattled, as his teeth crunched, as he shook the little box again before slipping it into his pants pocket. “And you look like you're going to a bar mitzvah at the Ponderosa. You just eat?”

He nodded. “Fatburger. Damn good.”

“We're about to see a body.”

“Yup.”

I gaped at him—damn good or not, filling your stomach full of burger, then going to a death site wasn't the smartest thing to do. “Where's the RO?”

A light-skinned black patrol cop stepped away from the small group of bystanders and shouted, “That's me.”

I grabbed my leather organizer from the passenger seat of the Porsche and pulled out a pen. “So, what's the deal—?” The responding officer's name tag read
SHEPARD
.

“The site's security guard called in saying he had found a body,” Shepard explained. “I arrived at 7:05
P.M.
, and got a statement from the guard. His name is James Mason and he says he was doing rounds when he noticed that the front door to unit 1B was open. He went inside, smelled it, looked around, and found Jane Doe hanging in the closet of the master bedroom.”

“He touch her?” I asked.

“He says no,” Shepard stated. “I reached the unit at 7:08
P.M.
, found the girl, then came back down to notify Lieutenant Rodriguez. Then I called Dispatch to send an ambulance, even though it was clear the victim was dead.”

“And how did you know she was dead?” Colin asked, a pen poised over his steno pad.

Shepard's eyes flitted down to Colin's rep tie and fancy boots. He chuckled but couldn't respond out of deference to Colin's rank.

So, I responded to Colin for him. “Don't know what goes on in Colorado, but living people in
this
state don't smell like rotten pot roast.”

Colin's cheeks reddened. “I know that. Just askin' a question. Just doin' my job.”

Shepard turned back to me. “After notifying the coroner, me and my partner secured the scene.”

“This guy Mason got a jacket?” I asked.

“A deuce and a 415.”

Drunk driving and general disturbance went together like chips and dip.

“Did you FI this Mason guy?” I asked.

“Yep,” Shepard said, then nodded to the quartet behind the yellow tape. “Now I'm interviewing the folks over there, but so far no one's seen anything strange. My partner's inside.”

Colin said, “Good job.”

Shepard rolled his eyes, all
This guy …

I turned to my partner. “Ready to meet the dead?”

Colin did that smile-bite-thing. “I'm always ready.”

Yeah. That's what they all say. Especially the ones with their guts filled with meat. And then they fall to their knees and land facedown in a pool of their own vomit.

 

3

Shepard's partner, a weasel-like cop with slicked-back hair, guarded unit 1B. According to him, no one had entered the condo since his and Shepard's initial search. And even though this was now my investigation, he told Colin (because Colin had a penis) about entering the condo.

I frowned and snapped my fingers in the uniform's face. “Hey. This is
my
crime scene, understand?”

Weasel Cop's nostrils flared as he offered a solemn nod.

Freakin' broads were taking over the LAPD. What next? Pink Glocks and Spanx instead of bulletproof vests and all-steel Walther PPKs?

Weasel Cop finished his daring tale of finding Jane Doe in the closet and glowered at me, certain that I'd lose my shit at the scene, screw everything up—it was just a matter of time.

I placed a hand on Colin's elbow. “Okay, so don't figure nothing out yet. Just look, all right? Can't have tunnel vision going in.”

“It's a suicide, not an assassination. No grassy knolls here, my friend.” He pulled away from me. “You don't have to hold my hand—I'm not a crime scene virgin, all right? And didn't you say somethin' the other day about finding solace from a pine tree?”

“
Palm
tree.” Jerk. I pulled a travel-sized jar of Noxzema from my jacket pocket and slid a coat of cream beneath my nostrils. “Need some?”

Colin said, “Nope,” then plucked a pair of latex gloves from his own jacket pocket.

“Just keep doin' you, Rough Rider.” I tried not to laugh as I plucked gloves and a Mini Maglite from my other magic pocket. “Ladies first.”

No one thought Colin would last a week in the Southwest. A generous soul, I gave him a month. In his first three days as an LAPD detective, the angels had been on his side. Day one: a stop 'n rob got hit, but the banger who did it forgot to wear a stocking and so we all saw the sprawling
BLOOD 4 LIFE
prison tattoo beneath his eyes. Patrol cops picked him up two hours later. Day two: a shooting left a hooker nicknamed Hoo (short for Hoover because of her … ahem …
specialty
) bleeding out in an alley off Coliseum. Vice caught the john, a social worker who immediately confessed. And day three, today: a Jane Doe suicide.

Twelve years as a cop and I still wasn't accustomed to the sickly-sweet smell of death. “Dead” had a taste—like you've eaten globs of rotting hamburger meat while sucking on pennies. That flavor clung to your taste buds, impervious to Listerine and obliterated only by time. But I put on my big-girl panties at every body dump and dealt with the horror. That smell, though … It bothered me. And I
wanted
it to bother me because it reminded me that this rotting corpse used to be someone's kid, used to be someone's mom, used to be
someone
.

My eyes watered from the smell as Colin and I stepped across the threshold of unit 1B.

I wrinkled my nose. “Is it me, or do you smell something weird?” I winked at my partner.

Colin didn't answer—he was sipping air like a guppy trapped in a dirty tank.

I clapped him on the back. “You okay, bro?”

He wasn't okay, but he nodded and clicked on his flashlight.

“Maybe you shouldn't have stuffed your face before coming here,” I scolded before clicking on my own flashlight.

The condo was near move-in condition, only needing appliances, carpet, and faceplates for the electrical outlets. But you could check “buzz of a thousand blowflies” off that list, because this condo had plenty of buzz. Ten steps from the front door through the tiny living room was the patio. And the view from that patio? The Sears at the mall across the street. Some view for $400,000.

“You look over here and I'll look over there,” I instructed.

A rookie detective, Colin shone his light at the ceiling.

“Hope floats,” I said, “but blood and bone drop.”

Puzzled, he scrunched his eyebrows. “What?”

I pointed to the concrete ground. “Scan down here, too, Colombo. Because there's this thing called ‘gravity.'”

He blinked at me. “Oh. Yeah. Of course.”

I shone my flashlight on the tiny foyer's ground. No skid marks. No blood. In the living room, the size of a decent walk-in closet, I crouched on the balls of my feet and peered closer. Some parts of the concrete appeared cleaner than other parts. Darker. Like it had been recently wiped down. I directed a beam of light at the white floorboards, a place blood splatter could land. Clean.

At the entry to the master bedroom, I looked up, I looked down, I looked everywhere.

No blood.

In the middle of the room, I crouched into a catcher's stance again and scrutinized the concrete walls and floor. Nothing strange. Well, except for the intense drone of those flies.

I drew closer to the bedroom and the buzzing intensified. As I stepped across the threshold, dread filled the pit of my stomach. I took a step, and then another, toward that closed closet door.

As I reached out to touch the doorknob, I muttered a quick prayer. “Please help me to see.”

 

4

On the morning of Valentine's Day 1988 (the fifth Valentine's Day without my father), my mother, Georgia, stood before the bureau mirror in her bedroom, holding a bottle of Tabu perfume. She sprayed her wrists, her long neck, and behind her knees. Then, she smiled the way a woman smiles when she knows another's nose will enjoy those scented places.