Kresley Cole - [MacCarrick Brothers 03] (28 page)

“T
his is a
lesser residence
?” Making a credible attempt at keeping her jaw from dropping, Maddy gazed out the coach window at the oceanfront mansion they neared.

“Aye. It’s called Carillon, named after the series of bells in the village,” MacCarrick said as they rolled along the long gravel drive. “And yes, it’s less grand and more obscure than my other estates.”

She swallowed and nodded. “Of course.”

The stately manor house was built in large ashlar blocks, like castles usually were, but these were dark cream-colored and smooth. Along the drive, they passed terraced gardens, walled gardens, wild gardens. Grass pathways and crystal-clear streams wended through the property.

“It’s very beautiful,” she said absently, but
beautiful
couldn’t adequately describe this place. When she saw a peacock strutting across a green lawn, she realized Carillon was like a fairy tale. “That’s a…peacock.”

“My grandmother was eccentric, and she brought them here. They’re nearly wild now.”

“Is that a
palm
tree?”

“Aye. The water that travels the Irish Sea is warm, making it temperate here. It rarely snows or freezes.”

This place was to be partly hers? “I don’t think I’ve ever seen such a splendid home.”

“The steward’s let it fall into a sad state of neglect.”

“How can you tell?”

“At this time of year there should be hay rolls and autumn crops planted over the back fields we passed earlier. There were neither. I see the paint is chipping on the trim of the manor and the stables, and the fences need mending throughout. The fountains are no’ running—since I’d wired the staff of my coming arrival, that means they’re likely broken. I doona keep estates in this condition—
ever
.”

“I don’t think it looks that bad,” she said, trying to lighten his mood.

He gazed out the window. “You would no’.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Would anything no’ seem palatial next to La Marais?”

Though she’d been thinking the same thing, she was growing tired of his jabs. Since they’d made port, he’d grown cold again—worse than he’d ever been.
Honey, not vinegar,
she reminded herself.

Yet she was on the last of her stores. “And here I thought we’d go a day without you reminding me where you plucked me from.”

“I was only making a point,” he said, but their row was delayed when the coach rolled to a stop in front of the manor. “Speak of the devil,” Ethan grated when they found a middle-aged man and woman awaiting them. “Silas the steward.”

When MacCarrick helped Maddy down, he ignored the man and said, “Madeleine, this is Sorcha, Carillon’s housekeeper. Sorcha, this is my wife, Lady Kavanagh.”

Maddy understood why he had to introduce her like that, but the lies sat ill with her. Sorcha smiled shyly and curtsied.

“Show Lady Kavanagh up to our rooms and see that she has everything she needs.” To Maddy, he said, “You’ll join me for dinner.”

Sorcha curtsied again, then turned for the front door, with Maddy following. Inside was a marble tiled foyer, which opened up into a high-ceilinged room. Graceful wooden stairs curved in a horseshoe, with both sides carpeted.

After following Sorcha up the steps to the wide first-floor landing, Maddy briefly peered over the railing to see Ethan downstairs. He strode across the room in another direction, boots booming, a visibly terrified Silas trailing in his wake.

When she glanced back up, Sorcha had opened a heavy door to the master suite and was bustling inside. Joining her there, Maddy found that both bedrooms of the suite were ornately paneled, with Maddy’s room lightly painted and Ethan’s stained much darker. Plush carpeting ran throughout, and the ceilings were soaring.

Standing in the rooms’ connecting doorway, she glanced from her graceful pencil-post bed to his immense bed, which looked as big as a normal room. How would Ethan want them to sleep here, now that they didn’t have to share a stateroom?

“It’s very fine,” Maddy told Sorcha. The manor was, but the interior was also a bit staid. Some of the rooms they’d passed had seemed…grim, even. Making this place more comfortable and less rigidly orderly would be a rewarding task.

When she realized that she could soon make these changes as mistress, she decided to ask Ethan if they could come back and redecorate when things settled down.

“It’s fine, aye,” Sorcha said shyly, “but wait till ye see the view.” She drew wide the curtains to reveal tall bay windows and a glass door that seemed to take up the entire wall.

Opening the door, Sorcha beckoned for her to step outside. Maddy walked out onto a marble balcony—and lost her breath.

The sea…was directly there. Cerulean blue water glittered in the sun, stretching out for miles.

The house was situated on a cliff, tucked back from the rocky headlands and a sprawling beach. Down below was a marble terrace fronted by a balustrade that matched the balcony’s. From every point of this side of the manor one could overlook the beach and the Irish Sea.

“My Lord,” Maddy whispered. If she’d been infatuated with Carillon from seeing its gardens and hills, the sea side enamored her.

Yet her excitement was tempered with a growing sense of uneasiness. The idea of her being mistress to an estate like this seemed…fantastical.

Fortune favors the bold
, she reminded herself.
Yes, but this is ridiculous.

“So, did you find out why Silas was remiss in his duties?” Madeleine asked after an uncomfortable, reserved dinner with Ethan. He’d brusquely adjourned to his study, without inviting her, but she’d followed him anyway.

“Aye. Strong drink. All day long,” he said, taking a seat behind an imposing, mahogany desk. “The estate’s been neglected sorely. Which makes me fear how my other properties are faring under myriad stewardships.”

He looked so concerned that she sidled behind him to knead his shoulders. “Surely you’ll be able to find a suitable replacement. It seems Carillon would be a feather in any steward’s cap.”

“I suppose.”

“You can run an advertisement in the paper and have inquiries forwarded.”

“What do you mean?” He tensed beneath her fingers. “We’re staying here until this is resolved.”

She forced herself to ask in an even tone, “So how long do you predict we’ll be delayed here?”

“I have to find a replacement, then acquaint him with the operations.”

She drew her hands away, then crossed to the other side of his desk. “How long?”

“A week. Maybe two.”

Maddy’s heart sank. “I can’t stay here with you unmarried that long.”

He waved her concerns away. “I’ve already told everyone we’re wed.”

“You could marry me in the village Sorcha told me about earlier, and then we could stay here for as long as you needed.”

“My God, is that all you care about? My tenants have endured three harsh winters because of Silas, and now they have no hay or vegetable stores for this winter.”

“I don’t understand. What did he do?”

“It’s what he dinna do. If a field flooded, he dinna have it drained. He neglected to order seeds at the correct intervals throughout the year. There are a dozen other examples of dereliction.”

“But why wouldn’t anyone write to you, to alert—?”

“They canna bloody read and write! And it’s no’ their responsibility. It’s
mine
.” He pinched the bridge of his nose, exhaling wearily. “Madeleine, I’m going to be gone most days salvaging this situation. I hope you can entertain yourself.”

“Of course,” she said, exhaling with disappointment. “I’m used to not seeing you until the night.” She rose to leave, but at the doorway, she turned back. “I’ll stay here ten days on the outside, Scot.”

“What’s that supposed to be? A threat?”

“No, just a statement of intent. Maybe I am selfish, but I need this security.”

He narrowed his eyes. “You doona trust me.”

She nodded, clearly surprising him. “You’re right. I don’t, not yet.”

“So what does a man like me have to do to earn your trust?”

“Honestly, I don’t know. I guess it just has to grow over time.”

“You mean in ten days?” he said. “That’s all the time Miss Van Rowen has allotted me.”

The ship had seemed a different world.

Now Ethan was on his property, introducing Madeleine as his wife, to his own people. And the lie didn’t bother him nearly so much as how easily the words slipped from his tongue.

Ethan’s steward problems were very real, but at the same time, he was using the situation for his own ends. He could in fact advertise and have inquiries forwarded. And of course, he could simply marry Madeleine here.

He’d always abided by his decisions, stuck to his plans. Now, he began to feel like he was losing control—the reins slipping from his grasp.

He’d made a decision to keep several various estates because they’d been in the family for generations and because when run correctly, they paid for themselves or even produced a profit. He’d thought he’d hired the best land agents in his absence.

Instead, his tenants here had suffered, and he was becoming increasingly uneasy about the state of his other properties. When he went back to the Network, he wouldn’t have time to check on each of them and right any wrongs.

Slip.

He’d made a decision to appease his anger on the only child of the Van Rowens. Now he wanted her more and more each day. Another slip.

Ethan was brutal, selfish. He knew this, had no wish to change. Yet now he’d caught himself wanting to put Madeleine’s needs over his own. Slip.

He’d always held something of himself back in bed; her kisses could make him lose his mind….

I think I want her…for my own.
Damn it, if a man consigned a woman to hell for ten years, he’d best not envision a cheery domestic future with her.

Ethan had always felt things too strongly. And if he allowed himself to feel something more for her, then lost her, he didn’t think he’d ever be right again.

He found himself eyeing the whisky service.
Another slip to come?

Thirty-two

“N
o, no, Ethan,” Maddy muttered to herself, kicking a stone as she explored Carillon. “I can show myself around.” For the last three days, she’d done just that.

On her first foray, she’d discovered an orangery, with walls of glazed glass and a glass dome roof. When she’d been about to exclaim with delight—
citrus
, there for the grabbing—she realized it was no longer in use and had only a couple of scraggly orange trees within. A great furnace with pipes leading under the floor had probably once supplied heating and steam, but now looked broken.

Another day, she’d come across a stair to a widow’s walk high above the house, where wives had gazed out at the sea, spying for their husbands’ return. She wondered if any woman before her had climbed this spot to gaze out—in the other direction….

Maddy endeavored to stay away each day, going for long strolls. But there was no coterie here. Sorcha was kind but content to keep her distance from the mistress of the house. Maddy was terribly lonely, missing Bea and Corrine so much that she ached.

If she ever did see Ethan during the days, his manner with her was brisk and unapproachable. But when he came to her in the nights…his body told a completely different story.

He’d nuzzle her neck and rumble how much she pleased him as they touched each other. If she kissed or stroked him in a way he liked, he made sure she knew it, lavishing praise. These idylls were so perfect and fulfilling that she’d actually begun to crave making love to him, often imagining what he would feel like inside her once more. Denying him that final step was becoming increasingly difficult with each encounter, even as he inexplicably pressed for it less and less.

After they were spent, he would cradle her face and kiss her so tenderly that she thought she might cry. Each night, he trapped her in his arms, making her sleep against him, but she was growing used to his strong, warm presence.

At night, she was adored, protected. In the days, she felt utterly alone.

The difference in his demeanor was enough to make her crazed. Was he so anxious about the property that he was behaving differently with her? With her determination to stay away, there was no way he could accuse her of being irritatingly “underfoot.”

Maddy knew there were aspects about her that would be unattractive to a potential husband—much less to a rich, powerful peer. She was dowryless, uneducated, and, well, a former criminal. Ethan had known all that and had still pressed for her hand.

But perhaps revealing the wretched details of her family’s past had tipped the balance out of her favor….

From his study window, Ethan watched Madeleine endeavor to tame a peacock with bread crumbs. When it fanned its tail feathers and chased her, she laughed all the way across the lawn.

Ethan wanted to be down there with her.

After just a week here, he was beginning to understand that it didn’t matter if they weren’t together. She was still in his thoughts constantly. He wasn’t eating. His sleep was restless. Each day grew closer to inevitable pain, and he resented it.

He was never supposed to have wanted her like this.

With her bright smile and laughter, she was everything a soulless bastard like him would crave as a dying man does life—a feeling he well knew.

There was something more with her, fundamentally more. A connection, a yearning fulfilled, he didn’t bloody know. He couldn’t even explain it to himself. Sometimes, he felt like she was already a part of him—had always been.

The stronger his feelings became, the more he realized he would be destroyed when he and Madeleine parted.
What if I just keep her?
he asked himself again and again.

Sometimes he wondered what it would be like if he quit the Network and assumed the life that had always awaited in the background.