Keturah and Lord Death (7 page)

I realized that my words had fallen into a sudden quiet.

I saw that Goody’s eyes were upon me in fear and crushed hope. “Death is here for me,” she gasped. “You are speaking to him!” The pains overtook her again, and her little son cried out, “Mama!”

I pressed my hands together, but I could not keep them from shaking. “Can you hear her boy’s pitiful cry? Can’t you see she is needed?”

He looked at me sorrowfully. “She knows your secret certainly now. If she lives, they will tell it. It will not go well for you in the village.”

The little boy’s wails were more than I could bear. I stood. “For pity’s sake, take the child to his aunt,” I cried.

“Don’t leave, Keturah!” Goody screamed.

“I won’t,” I said. “I won’t!”

Goody’s husband left as his son’s wail freshened. He glanced pleadingly at me before the door closed on him. Goody screamed again. This time the fight had gone out of her pain, and there was nothing but the raw cries of one who works toward death.

“Please,” I begged.

“It is better,” he said.

“How could this be better?”

He was very still. Then he put his hand under my chin and lifted my face to his. I could not tell if the heat I felt was in my own face or from the burning cold in his fingers. At last he said, “Keturah, for your compassion, you shall have Goody’s life. But you must come to me this night.”

Over Goody’s screams I could scarcely make out his words. “Her life,” I said, “and—and the life of Soor Lily’s baby son—and I will come.”

He frowned and withdrew his hand. “He is no baby but a giant of a man. And he is destined for death. It is too late for him.”

“Nevertheless,” I said. I might have screamed it—I could no longer distinguish between my voice and Goody’s. My lungs gasped for air as did hers.

Lord Death looked at Goody and back at me, then bent his head in assent. “You must keep your appointment with me,” he said.

I nodded slowly.

Soon Grandmother called out, “The baby’s head is coming, Goody, push, push!” and moments later, “A son— and as big as a calf.”

I looked to see Lord Death, whether feeling gratitude or triumph I was not sure, but he was gone.

Goody’s husband returned and cried harder even than his son had been crying, and everyone else, too, sobbed and laughed with joy. Goody had forgotten her pain already. Her eyes were full of her baby. I gazed at him, willing life into him, while Grandmother wrapped him and placed him in Goody’s arms.

I glanced around Goody’s small house. There was little in it but a bed and a pot or two, but she had picked fresh grasses to grace her window. I remembered that once when I visited her, she welcomed me as graciously as a queen might welcome a guest to her palace, and how I had envied her and her straw bed and her husband in it beside her, and her son too. Standing there now in the warmth of her joy and her home, I shivered to think of Lord Death’s hand on my face. I gazed again upon the newborn, for it warmed me to do so, and meant to hold his tiny fingers, but Goody’s husband blocked my hand. He shook his head. Grandmother, busy with Goody, did not notice.

When I opened the door to leave, Goody’s husband came to see me out. “I thank you, Keturah, for my new son. But I bid you, come no more to my house again.”

I could see in his face how much it had cost him to say this.”I will follow your bidding, sir,” I said, and I left.

The sound of the midnight crows scraped against my heart as I made my way to the top of the village and toward the forest.

The oaks that rimmed the forest seemed to beckon with their long arms. “Come,” they whispered, “come.” But I knew that only a little way into the forest were brooding pines and towering elms. Dead brown needles crunched under my feet upon the path. I was afraid to veer off, knowing the tricks of trees.

I thought of turning back. With every step I thought of it. But I knew I could not save my life by running away.

I stopped. There, off the path in a glimmer of moonbeam, was the great hart that had led me once almost to my death.

“And for all these many years Lord Temsland has not found you,” I whispered. He was very still—not afraid of me, but wary. “No other stag has ever been able to elude the lord,” I said softly, “for he is nothing if not a fine hunter. How... ?”

The hart lived ever in the shadow of the wood. He knew its winding ways, knew where to find its hidden brooks of water. When the forest’s darker night fell upon him, then he rose up and led his herd to succulent herbs and fat nuts and sweet grasses. He lived side by side with death and was not sad.

“So that is why you escape Lord Temsland—Death has bargained with you too,” I said. “But why?”

“Because,” said a voice behind me, “he is so gloriously beautiful. Like you.”

I turned to see Lord Death, and even in the dark I could tell that his eyes were upon me as if he had forever to consider me. I held my breath, waiting for him to seize me and take me away on his horse. But instead he leaned against a tree.

“Sir, we have plans to clean and repair the village, so the plague will not come.” I was like a child who could not wait to tell her news. Me he might have, but he would not have my people. Not yet.

“Have you plans? Did I tell you that would help?” He sounded amused.

“No—but I inferred,” I said.

“It will not be enough if Lord Temsland allows traffic with Great Town,” he said bluntly. “There, the plague has already begun.” He shifted to fit the curves of the tree he leaned against. “So—the end of the story, Keturah. Did the girl find her true love? Tell me the end of the story as you promised you would.”

I had not thought about the ending of the story at all, so much had I been thinking of my own ending. I cast my mind about for a way to begin.

“Once there was a girl—”

“Ah, the saddest of endings.”

“—who discovered Death’s secret.” Fear must be a fine storyteller, for I had no idea where these words had come from.

“This is not an ending but a beginning,” he said.

“It is all part of the same story, sir.”

He frowned. “This story is less believable than the first. But go on.”

“His secret was . . . that though he was Death, and beyond all wanting, yet he wanted something, yearned and mourned and raged in his heart for something as only an immortal being can.”

Lord Death had become very still. The trees around him were utterly silent, and even the air seemed to hold its breath. I too was silent for a moment, frightened, awed, to discover that this story was as true as the last.

“And what was it that Lord Death wanted and wept in his heart for?” I continued. “A love of his own, a consort to adorn his endless and hallowed halls, a companion who would comfort his heart when it broke from the sadness of his errands, who would weep with him when he carried home little ones in his arms, who would greet him with a joy equal to the terror with which mortals greeted him. Above all, he wished for a wife into whom he might pour his passion—”

“Hush. You try my patience,” he said coldly.

But I did not, could not, stop. “But who would love such a one? What maid wished for gold coins to shut her eyes, or a satin-lined coffin for her marriage bed? What maid would come willingly? For he would have it be willingly.”

The shadows that unfurled from his cloak had vanished, and his face caught the first light of the coming dawn, and he appeared no more than a man, no less than a great and warlike lord. I looked away, fearful that it might anger him that I saw him so vulnerable, so entranced by my story.

“And so he did his endless work,” I continued quietly, “without feeling, without pity, without rest, for to open his heart to these would be to open his heart to his loneliness and longing, and that was beyond bearing.”

“There are some who come willingly,” he said quietly, as if he were afraid his own voice would break the spell of the story.

“There were some who came willingly,” I said, as if I had not heard him, “not out of love, but out of sickness and sadness and a lack of understanding. He wanted none of them. And so he waited without waiting, and dreamed of what he could not imagine, and performed his terrible work and lived only in the moments out of which eternity is spun, knowing it was hopeless.”

I stopped. The sun was almost up now, but Death had never been afraid of day.

“And then?” he asked.

I said nothing.

“And then!” he demanded.

“And because the girl knew his secret, she asked, ‘Give me this day, and I will tell you the ending tomorrow.’“

I finished with closed eyes, for I felt his angry gaze as a cold in my bones, and I heard his icy breath come more quickly. I waited to feel his impatient touch, and to be swept into the heart of the still and ever-dark forest, never to return.

But the touch did not come.

I opened my eyes.

“For an ending to this story, I can pay a day,” he said. “Come at day’s end. And do not be late.”

I stumbled home to my bed and, fearing the dark behind my eyes, fell asleep with my eyes open.

VII

An account of an invitation to the chamber of John Temsland, which chapter is highly recommended
to the learning and edification of the aforementioned blushing young maidens.

Plague.
It was my first thought upon waking. My second thought was of the touch of Lord Death last night. I could still feel his fingers under my chin, so close to my lips, where my breath was frozen.

I leapt from my bed and then sank back again, catching my breath. I remembered, then, my promise to come to Lord Death again tonight.

I held my hands before me. They trembled like an old woman’s.

“You slept late, Keturah,” Grandmother said tenderly. “Come, eat.”

I willed myself to the breakfast table and ate what I could. I realized I had lost my sense of smell, and with it, my sense of taste. The porridge tasted like paste; the fruit was not what it had been the day before.

“Do they work on the road, Grandmother? I hear nothing.”

“They began work on the road yesterday, Keturah,”

Grandmother said, patting my shaking hand. “They will surely begin again after chores.” She made no reference to what had happened at Goody’s in the night, but she was gentle with me.

“But the mill, Grandmother? Do they rid the mill of rats?

Grandmother gazed out the window. “I see nothing from here.”

I set down my spoon. “Tell me, Grandmother, do you see Soor Lily’s baby son in the town?”

I closed my eyes and waited for her answer that seemed to come so slowly.

“Yes—yes, there he is, all brawny and fine. Why do you ask?”

“I—I heard he was unwell,” I said, and I smiled. “Thank you for breakfast, Grandmother, and for letting me sleep.”

She clucked and fussed with the dishes. “We must get you strong again in time for the fair.”

Grandmother left to visit Goody Thompson and be sure that she and the baby were well, and I sat by the window gathering strength from the sunshine. A nightmare clung to me like cobwebs. I brushed at the place where Lord Death had touched me, where it tingled still. I wondered that he had given me another day. It made me not glad. Somehow I felt myself even more bound to him by it.

I willed myself to think of Ben Marshall and prize-winning pies. I would get the most finely ground flour today. I would make pies for practice until Tobias found my lemons. I would make a crust that would blow away when it was cut, and melted immediately upon the tongue. I would make a filling of fish and one of venison, one of strawberries and one of peaches. I would make a pie with potatoes and mushrooms and cheese in it, and another of plums. I washed myself shakily, summoned my strength, and made my way slowly to the mill for my flour.

As I walked, I saw that people were busy in their preparations for the fair. Men eyed one another’s cattle and fed their own oats and apples. In their yards women made cheese and molded butters and sausages with highly guarded recipes. But no one yet worked on the road. The stones stood in piles like ancient grave markers.

Young women laughed together in companionable competition over their fair offerings and fell silent when I walked by. Martha Hornsby, who had always had a kind word for me, did not look up from her jam-making as I walked past her summer kitchen.

The young men, rather than working on the road or ratting the mill, were building booths for the fair. Some glanced up when I went by, but their eyes did not linger as they once used to do. Wherever I went, a wake of silence followed.

Lord Death had told me that if Goody Thompson lived, it would not go well for me with the villagers. He had been right. Their fear of death was greater than their suspicion of fairies, it seemed. I did not dispute the fairness of their judgment. I knew what it was to think my heart safely nestled in its cage of bone, cradled in flesh, hidden and safe, and also what it was to suddenly and certainly know that Lord Death could reach his cold finger in and touch that heart, cause it pain, and still it. If I were friend to such a one, they thought, then I was no friend of theirs.

When I arrived at the mill, Miller said he was too busy to help me and made his apprentice do it, who trembled and got only half the flour into the sack.

“Barnabus Wren,” I said impatiently, “why do you shake so? Have you seen a ghost?”

“No,” he confessed, “but all the talk is that you have, Keturah. They say now that fairies didn’t steal you, but that you were saved by Death himself—that is what Goody Thompson says, and her man does not deny it.”

I looked at him a long moment. I did not even consider touching the charmed eye in my pocket. I could feel it moving even through my apron, my skirt, and my petticoat.

“That is
Lord
Death to you,” I said at last, and left him standing open-mouthed.

When I arrived home with my flour, Gretta was there working her needle. She turned and looked at me sadly.

“They know,” I said.

She said nothing.

“He warned me,” I added as I set to work on the pastry.

“Then you have indeed seen him again?” Gretta asked.

I nodded.

“Were you afraid?” Gretta asked.

I nodded again. I was silent while I worked the fat into the flour.

Beatrice came in, gasping for air, having just run the entire way up the hill. “Chores are done—I must go sing, but oh, Keturah, God has not made me into a boy and—”

“God has answered your prayer, Beatrice,” I said, and I fetched John Temsland’s clothes and handed them to her.

“Oh! Oh, thank you, Keturah! How did you . . . ? Never mind, I don’t want to know.” She hugged me, and then held me away with her arms. “You are trembling, and so pale—”

“It is nothing,” I said. “Dress. Go.”

“It is true, then, what they are saying? That you spoke to ...
him
last night?”

I nodded and eased myself into a chair and began working the pastry from a sitting position, the way I had seen Grandmother do of late. “I told him another story and again withheld the ending. He has given me another day. And with this day, God willing, I shall find my true love.” I did not speak of my other object—I could not bear to frighten my friends with talk of the plague.

“Who will marry her, now that everyone knows?” Beatrice asked Gretta.

Gretta glared at her a moment, then looked at me sympathetically.

“Do they all hate me?” I asked.

“My family speaks for you,” Gretta said.

“And mine,” Beatrice said.

Gretta took a deep breath. “But they are afraid of you,” she said, and Beatrice nodded.

“And Ben Marshall?”

“His mother has invited Padmoh to her home to teach her a kitchen trick or two.”

“She wants Ben to marry Padmoh,” I said.

“It might not mean that,” Beatrice said soothingly.

“Young John Temsland laughs at the talk,” Gretta said. “He says it is all tales and tattles, and besides, what could it hurt to have Death’s dear in our own midst.”

Again we all fell silent. I had added too much water and ruined the pastry. I put it in the pig’s basket and began again.

After a time Gretta said, “You must go to Soor Lily.”

“I have already gone to Soor Lily,” I said.

“No!” Beatrice exclaimed.

Gretta said, “I have heard unsettling things about her.”

“And yet she has warmed the heart of many a man to his lady,” Beatrice said. Gretta gave Beatrice’s arm a pinch.

“Look at Thermidor and Janie Lowneld,” I said. “Thermidor hadn’t a thought for Janie until Soor Lily gave her a charm. Now they are married and there was never a happier man.”

“Nor a more miserable woman,” Gretta said. Since I could not argue with her, I held my tongue.

“Beatrice, go,” I said. “Choirmaster will be waiting for you.”

She changed into the boys’ clothing and stood before us shamefaced.

“Beatrice,” I said, trying to summon a smile, “you will sing before the king, and surely you will win the king’s shoe full of gold and a wish granted. Then you must use it as a dowry for your own true love, who might be Choirmaster himself.”

Beatrice flushed and almost smiled, and then frowned. “I do not wish for a dowry,” she said cheerfully. “What good is a dowry for one who would rather have angel wings than a husband? No, you shall have Choirmaster. If my singing pleases him, I shall use my influence to help him see how he must love you.”

She turned to face the doorway, took a deep breath, and did not move. “Isn’t this a sin, friends, to dress as a man?”

“Not if you are doing it for your friend. And for the king,” Gretta said encouragingly.

“I admit I could desire to be of service to Lord Temsland,” she said nobly.

“That is so like you,” Gretta agreed.

Beatrice nodded and sighed deeply. “They say in countries across the sea that women sing in public. But here, of course, it is impossible.”

I nodded. “There would be a scandal.”

Beatrice took another deep breath and stared down the door. “Surely if a woman can cook for the king and a woman can sew to please the king, a woman can sing for the king.”

“Like Tamara in the Bible, Beatrice,” Gretta said, “sometimes a girl has to take extraordinary measures. That Keturah could find these clothes is proof that all is according to plan.”

Beatrice seemed to contemplate the sinfulness of it all, but gradually her face filled with rapture. She drew her hands together as if she might pray.

“Yes, I see,” she said in a tone that allowed me to hear the music in her voice. “It is all very clear now. We have had a miracle.”

Face flushed, she ran out the door to choir practice. Once, exhilarated perhaps to be free of the skirts she had worn her whole life, she turned and waved to us and smiled joyfully. I smiled too. Even Choirmaster could not stay gloomy with Beatrice around, and I felt encouraged that Lord Death would be cheated of the man’s soul if my plan worked.

Of course, there was still Tailor to worry over, but I had a plan for him as well.

Grandmother sent a message that she would spend the day with Goody Thompson, who would be bedridden for some time, and I made a potato and onion pie and then a raspberry pie while Gretta stitched. I wondered that though barrels of cobbles had been dumped in the square, no one yet had come to continue the work on the road. It made me taut as spun thread.

After a time there came a knock at the door. I jumped, and Gretta answered it.

It was Henry Bean, John Temsland’s constant companion. He bowed to me. “Mistress Keturah Reeve,” he said formally.

“You have known me since we were babies together, Henry,” I said. “Come in.”

“I am come on an errand from the young lord, John

Temsland. He is ready for the interview you have requested.” Henry stepped away from the doorway and bowed again, gesturing grandly. “If you will allow me to escort you.”

I remembered I had promised to return John s clothes, but they were at choir practice with Bill. There was no time.

I glanced back at Gretta, whose stitching had fallen into her lap. “I will be back shortly, Gretta,” I said.

“Of course,” she said.

I ignored Henry as I walked, thinking of how to tell John Temsland everything I must. In the middle of my musings I stopped, remembering suddenly the eye in my pocket.