Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy Onassis: The Untold Story (47 page)

“a big blow”: Shesol,
Mutual Contempt
.

she said she wondered: Jacqueline Kennedy to Robert McNamara, September 16, 1968, Sotheby’s.

quarreled over her insistence: Jane Ormsby-Gore, author interview.

she told him that: Ibid.

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watched her nearly jump:
Beaton in the Sixties: More Unexpurgated Diaries
(London: Weidenfeld & Nicolson, 2003).

“Do you know…”: Arthur M. Schlesinger Jr.,
Journals, 1952–2000
(New York: Penguin, 2007).

“chased on all sides”: Lyndon Johnson quoted in Doris Kearns Goodwin,
Lyndon Johnson and the American Dream
(New York: St. Martin’s, 1991).

“Have four and a half…”: Michael Arlen,
Living-Room War
(New York: Viking, 1969).

“set something loose…”: Arthur M. Schlesinger Jr.,
Robert Kennedy and His Times
(Boston: Houghton Mifflin, 1978).

“This would be…”: Jean Stein,
American Journey: The Times of Robert Kennedy
(New York: Harcourt, 1970).

“pulled and pushed”:
New York Times
, April 10, 1968.

“all the time”: Frank Mankiewicz, interview, John F. Kennedy Library.

“Of course people feel…”: Schlesinger,
Journals
.

“For him, life…”: Lee Radziwill,
Happy Times
(New York: Assouline, 2001).

“several times”: Schlesinger,
Journals
.

“If they’re going…”: Evan Thomas,
Robert Kennedy: His Life
(New York: Simon & Schuster, 2000).

“Isn’t it…”:
Beaton in the Sixties
.

“You don’t know…”: Ibid.

“I took her…”: Charles Spalding, interview, John F. Kennedy Library.

more ravaged: Schlesinger,
Journals
.

“Well, now…”: Frank Mankiewicz, interview, John F. Kennedy Library.

all too familiar: Schlesinger,
Journals
.

“he leaped out…”: Stein,
American Journey
.

“with this terrible look…”: Jacqueline Kennedy to Robert McNamara, September 8, 1968, Sotheby’s.

a Celtic ritual: Ibid.

she was quick to reject: Schlesinger,
Journals
.

White Russians in Paris: Jacqueline Kennedy to Robert McNamara, September 8, 1968, Sotheby’s.

“stunned” and “perplexed”:
Boston Globe
, May 13, 2007.

met Onassis that summer: Schlesinger,
Journals
.

“I have no…”: Frank Langella,
Dropped Names
(New York: Harper, 2012).

“I wanted to…”:
First Lady Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis: Memorial Tributes in the One Hundred Third Congress of the United States
(Washington, D.C.: U.S. Government Printing Office, 1995).

“the outside world”: Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis to James Rowley, December 11, 1968, John F. Kennedy Library.

“or rather…”: Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis to Robert McNamara, September 8, 1968, Sotheby’s.

“all be annihilated…”: Ibid.

“the terrible…”: Ibid.

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“my new life”: Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis to Theodore Sorensen, n.d., quoted in Ted Sorensen,
Counselor: A Life at the Edge of History
(New York: Harper, 2008).

questioned whether she wanted: Jacqueline Kennedy to Harold Macmillan, January 31, 1964, Bodleian Library, Oxford University.

“see and know…”: Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis to Theodore Sorensen, n.d., quoted in Sorensen,
Counselor
.

“what Jack might…”: Ibid.

“Thank God…”: Billy Baldwin,
Billy Baldwin Remembers
(New York: Harcourt, 1974).

“I know I should…”: Kiki Feroudi Moutsatsos,
The Onassis Women: An Eyewitness Account
(New York: Putnams, 1998).

“The children will…”: Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis to James Rowley, December 11, 1968, John F. Kennedy Library.

“serene and happy”: Joseph Alsop to Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis, June 1, 1969, Library of Congress.

“always”: Ibid.

who had not abandoned: Jacqueline Kennedy to Joseph Alsop, September 8, 1968, Library of Congress.

had loved both Jack and Bobby: Ibid.

“like sea or…”: Ibid.

“a good fire”: Joseph Alsop to Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis, June 2, 1969, Library of Congress.

“It was as if…”: Moutsatsos,
Onassis Women.

“soft gravel”: Lee Radziwill,
Happy Times
(New York: Assouline, 2001).

“the bedlam of…”: Baldwin,
Billy Baldwin Remembers
.

Pavlov’s dogs: On the Pavlovian metaphor, see Alexander C. McFarlane and Bessel A. van der Kolk, “Trauma and Its Challenge to Society” in Bessel A. van der Kolk, Alexander C. McFarlane, and Lars Weisaeth, eds.,
Traumatic Stress: The Effects of Overwhelming Experience on Mind, Body, and Society
(New York: Guilford Press, 1996); and Babette Rothschild,
The Body Remembers: The Psychophysiology of Trauma and Trauma Treatment
(New York: Norton, 2000).

“I was frightened…”: Moutsatsos,
Onassis Women.

terrified:
New York Times
, February 18, 1972.

“He lunged…”:
New York Times
, March 7, 1972.

“the best…”:
New York Times
, March 19, 1972.

rendered invisible: on the societal tendency to render the victim invisible, see Judith Herman,
Trauma and Recovery
(New York: Basic Books, 1997).

“Does it show…”:
New York Times
, February 17, 1972.

“anguish threshold”:
New York Times
, March 15, 1972.

James MacGregor Burns:
New York Times
, April 10, 1972.

“the center does not…: Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis to Harold Macmillan, November 12, 1972, Bodleian Library, Oxford University.

she rejoiced: Ibid.

suddenly became old: Arthur M. Schlesinger Jr.,
Journals, 1952–2000
(New York: Penguin, 2007).

feared for the unfortunate man’s reason: Anthony Montague Browne,
Long Sunset: Memoirs of Winston Churchill’s Last Private Secretary
(London: Cassell, 1995).

“Jackie put her…”:
First Lady Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis: Memorial Tributes in the One Hundred Third Congress of the United States
(Washington, D. C.: U.S. Government Printing Office, 1995).

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“turned a corner”: Andrew Devonshire, author interview.

“depressed and lethargic”: Letitia Baldrige, author interview.

Baldrige proposed: Ibid.

a principal objective: See Babette Rothschild,
Trauma Essentials
(New York: Norton, 2011).

empowerment: on the role of empowerment in trauma recovery, see Judith Herman,
Trauma and Recovery
(New York: Basic Books, 1997).

“more complex than…”: Jacqueline Kennedy to Robert McNamara, March 7, 1967, Sotheby’s.

estimated in 1990: Richard A. Kulka, William E. Schlenger, John A. Fairbank, et al.,
Trauma and the Vietnam War Generation: Report of Findings from the National Vietnam Veterans Readjustment Study
(New York: Brunner Mazel, 1990).

“to work, not to play”: Letitia Baldrige, author interview.

Dr. Marianne Kris: Marianne Kris to Anna Freud, 1975, Anna Freud Papers, Library of Congress.

“remembered”: on the metaphor of bodily memory with regard to traumatic experiences, see Babette Rothschild,
The Body Remembers: The Psychophysiology of Trauma and Trauma Treatment
(New York: Norton, 2000).

prior connection: Elisabeth Young-Bruehl,
Anna Freud
(New York: Summit, 1988).

Kris asked Anna Freud: Marianne Kris to Anna Freud, 1975, Anna Freud Papers, Library of Congress.

from whom she sought reassurance: Jean Lloyd, author interview.

“to rely on herself…”: Letitia Baldrige, author interview.

“Mrs. Onassis’s first major assignment”:
New York Times
, November 2, 1976.

“bubbling with enthusiasm”: Thomas Hoving,
Making the Mummies Dance: Inside the Metropolitan Museum of Art
(New York: Simon & Schuster, 1993).

he had spoken: David Harlech, interview, John F. Kennedy Library.

“Jackie wouldn’t have…”:
New York Times
, January 14, 1977.

intake of breath: Arthur M. Schlesinger Jr.,
Journals, 1952–2000
(New York: Penguin, 2007).

“It was just…”: Thomas Guinzburg quoted in Greg Lawrence,
Jackie as Editor: The Literary Life of Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis
(New York: Thomas Dunne Books, 2011).

“to separate my lives…”:
New York Times
, October 15, 1977.

“bad thriller”:
New York Times
, October 10, 1977.

“She could have stopped…”:
New York Times
, October 15, 1977.

“didn’t indicate any…”: Ibid.

five minutes:
Palm Beach Daily News,
November 9, 1977.

“books in the hands…”: Edna Ferber quoted in Al Silverman,
The Time of Their Lives: The Golden Age of Great American Publishers, Their Editors and Authors
(New York: St. Martin’s, 2008).

he had the entire print run pulped: John Baxter,
The Inner Man: The Life of J. G. Ballard
(London: Weidenfeld & Nicolson, 2011).

“a feeling that…”: John Sargent quoted in Lawrence,
Jackie as Editor
.

she wistfully acknowledged: Louis Auchincloss, author interview.

long-standing anxiety: Betty Coxe Spalding, author interview.

“public face”: Letitia Baldrige, author interview.

a feeling of basic safety: on the importance of the establishment of a sense of safety, see Judith Herman,
Trauma and Recovery
(New York: Basic Books, 1997); and Rothschild,
Body Remembers
.

“circle of people…”: McGeorge Bundy, interview, John F. Kennedy Library.

“Ted will be…”: Schlesinger,
Journals
.

“seemed to recoil…”: Ibid.

“bitten by a snake”: Richard E. Burke,
The Senator: My Ten Years with Ted Kennedy
(New York: St. Martin’s, 1992).

droit du seigneur: Schlesinger,
Journals
.

“enameled mask”: Stephen Spender,
Journals, 1939–1983
(New York: Random House, 1986).

“rather thrilled”: Schlesinger,
Journals
.

“a fixed smile…”:
New York Times
, February 25, 1980.

“death watch”: Garry Wills,
The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power
(Boston: Little, Brown, 1982).

“the end of the…”: Ibid.

faced down the danger: on the survivor’s choice to face danger, see Herman,
Trauma and Recovery
.

without hesitation:
First Lady Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis: Memorial Tributes in the One Hundred Third Congress of the United States
(Washington, D. C.: U.S. Government Printing Office, 1995).

“I think it…”: Spender,
Journals
.

Sixteen

Jackie identified: Louis Auchincloss, author interview.

“What was so…”: Marie Brenner,
Great Dames: What I Learned from Older Women
(New York: Broadway Books, 2001).

“as if controlling her”: Theodore H. White,
In Search of History: A Personal Adventure
(New York: Harper & Row, 1978).

“the blood scene”: Ibid.

“What were you…”: Christina Haag,
Come to the Edge: A Memoir
. (New York: Spiegel & Grau, 2011).

how much both children: Jacqueline Kennedy to Harold Macmillan, May 17, 1965, Bodleian Library, Oxford University.

“Close your eyes…”:
Jacqueline Kennedy: Historic Conversations on Life with John F. Kennedy
(New York: Hyperion, 2011).

she reacted to images: Diane Solway,
Nureyev: His Life
(New York: Morrow, 1998).

cursed: Jean Lloyd, author interview.

“My God…”: Jane Ormsby-Gore, author interview.

“Isn’t it…”: Haag,
Come to the Edge
.

reason to live: Jacqueline Kennedy to Harold Macmillan, May 17, 1965, Bodleian Library, Oxford University.

out of her thoughts: Ibid.

pull herself together: Jacqueline Kennedy to Harold Macmillan, September 14, 1965, Bodleian Library, Oxford University.

to try to make them: Jacqueline Kennedy to Harold Macmillan, May 17, 1965, Bodleian Library, Oxford University.

overly intense: Ibid.

“vengeance on the world”: Jacqueline Kennedy to Harold Macmillan, September 14, 1965, Bodleian Library, Oxford University.

held up her hand: Haag,
Come to the Edge
.

“so upset and…”: Arthur M. Schlesinger Jr.,
Robert Kennedy and His Times
(Boston: Houghton Mifflin, 1978).

“I just don’t…”:
First Lady Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis: Memorial Tributes in the One Hundred Third Congress of the United States
(Washington, D. C.: U.S. Government Printing Office, 1995).

“my most secret heart”: Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis to Theodore Sorensen, n.d., quoted in Ted Sorensen,
Counselor: A Life at the Edge of History
(New York: Harper, 2008).

“crawling around…”: Deborah Shapley,
Promise and Power: The Life and Times of Robert McNamara
(New York: Little, Brown, 1993).

helped her in her dark times: Jacqueline Kennedy to Robert McNamara, March 7, 1967, Sotheby’s.

offered … some advice: Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis to Robert McNamara, February 24, 1993.

“reconnect”: Hillary Rodham Clinton,
Living History
(New York: Simon & Schuster, 2003).

“seemed profoundly…”: Ibid.

“I feel it is…”:
First Lady Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis: Memorial Tributes in the One Hundred Third Congress of the United States
.

“of convenience”: Archbishop Philip Hannan,
The Archbishop Wore Combat Boots: Memoir of an Extraordinary Life
(Huntington, Ind.: Our Sunday Visitor, 2010).