In the Millionaire's Possession (26 page)

He walked away from her across the big room, opening a space like an abyss between them. And left, slamming the door behind him.

CHAPTER EIGHT

HELEN stood, her hand still pressed to her mouth, as she tried to calm her flurried breathing.

She heard herself whisper raggedly,
‘
I
—
should not have said that.
’

But she could not deny she
’
d wanted to make him angry
—
even to hurt him. She
’
d wanted revenge for his staying away in silence
—
for her dreams and her loneliness
—
and most of all for the way his hands and mouth had made her feel. Only revenge hadn
’
t been so sweet after all.

Nor had he been angry enough to call off the marriage. And for Monteagle
’
s sake she should be thankful for that.

She pushed her tangled hair back from her face and walked slowly to the door.

It might be politic to make some kind of amends, however. Not go to the lengths of an apology, of course. But perhaps if she prepared his room herself
—
put flowers in it?

She got sheets and pillowcases from the linen cupboard and carried them to the room he
’
d used briefly before. She opened a window to let in the sunlight and the faint breeze, wrinkling her nose at the sound of the building work, then quickly made up the bed, the pillows plumped and the sheets immaculately smooth.

She was coming back from the garden, her hands full of roses, when as she rounded the house she heard Alan Graham say,
‘
What are you going to do about Angeline Vallon?
’

Helen halted, puzzled, then realised his voice was coming from the open window of her grandfather
’
s study, just above her head.

Marc, she thought, shrinking against the cover of the wall. He must be talking to Marc. And felt her whole body tense.

She strained her ears, but couldn
’
t catch the quietly spoken reply.

Then the other man spoke again.
‘
Marc
—
she
’
s not a problem that will simply vanish. And she
’
s bound to have heard by now that you
’
re to be married. There could be trouble.
’
He paused.
‘
And your
fiancée
might find out.
’

‘
Then I shall take care she does not.
’
Marc must have come to the window too, because, for her sins, she could hear him clearly now. And regretted it with all her heart.

‘
You worry too much,
mon ami
,
’
he went on.
‘
I will deal with Angeline
—
and that jealous fool she is married to if I have to. And Hélène need know nothing.
’

Helen felt frozen. She was terrified in case Marc glanced down and saw her there below
—
eavesdropping
—
and knew she could not risk staying where she was a moment longer. Besides, she couldn
’
t stand to hear any more.

I ought to be glad that there
’
s another woman in his life. Relieved that our marriage is of such little importance to him, she told herself brokenly. But I
’
m not
—
I
’
m not
…

Slowly and carefully, she tiptoed back to the house, pausing only to thrust the roses into one of the bins by the back door.

Some of the thorns, she saw, had drawn blood from her hands. But what she
’
d just overheard seemed to be draining the blood from her heart.

Because she realised she could never let him see how much this painfully acquired secret knowledge was hurting her. Nor dared she ask herself why this should be so. Her instinct told her that the answer she sought might be beyond all bearing.

The dress wasn
’
t white, Helen told herself defensively. It was ivory. A major difference when it came to symbolism. But it was still her wedding dress, and in little more than an hour she would wear it as she stood in Aldenford registry office and became Marc Delaroche
’
s wife.

Time had run out at last, and she was frightened.

Her hair, which had been skilfully layered and highlighted, framed a face that looked pale and strained in spite of the best efforts of the beautician who
’
d just left.

Also reflected in her mirror was the set of elegant matching luggage on the bed, containing the trousseau that Lottie, once she
’
d become convinced that Helen would not turn back from her chosen course, had relentlessly forced her into buying.

Including, of course, this slim-fitting dress in heavy silk. The skirt reached just below her knees, and the bodice was cut square across her breasts with slender shoestring straps, now hidden discreetly under the matching jacket, waist-length, mandarin-collared, and fastened with a dozen or more tiny silk-covered buttons. 

It was beautiful, thought Helen, and in truth she hadn
’
t needed much persuading to buy it.

Lottie had approved of the evening and cocktail dresses, the casual day clothes and beachwear that Helen had reluctantly selected.

‘
Don
’
t be such a Puritan,
’
she
’
d urged.
‘
You
’
re marrying a multimillionaire and going on honeymoon to one of the smartest resorts on the Riviera. Marc will expect you to dress
—
and undress
—
accordingly.
’

‘
Why are you on his side all of a sudden?
’
Helen had asked, flushing.

‘
I
’
m on your side.
’
Lottie had given her a swift hug.
‘
Which is why I
’
m determined that you
’
ll do yourself credit.
’

She
’
d pulled a face at Helen
’
s choice of lingerie, in crisp white cotton and broderie anglais, and raised her eyebrows at the nightgowns too, demurely simple in pale silk, and cut severely on the bias.

‘
Expecting fire to break out?
’
she
’
d teased, probably puzzled that there was no lace, no chiffon. Nothing sheer or overtly sexy.

But for that, thought Helen, wincing, Marc had someone else.

Even if she hadn
’
t heard that betraying snatch of conversation she would have guessed as much by now. Because since those brief delirious moments she
’
d spent in his arms, and their angry aftermath, Marc had not made the slightest attempt to be alone with her, or to touch her
—
apart from a formal brush of his lips across her cheek on greeting or leavetaking. And sometimes not even that.

Nor had he spent a single night at Monteagle in the room she
’
d made ready for him, choosing instead, on his flying visits, to stay with Alan and Susan Graham at Lapwing Cottage.

But that would end tonight. In a matter of hours they would be alone together in a starlit room overlooking the Mediterranean. And she supposed that in spite of the coldness between them he
’
d expect her to share his bed, submit to whatever demands he made of her.

Although that same chill might spare her the seductive persuasion he
’
d used the last time she was in his arms. There had been little defence she
’
d been able to summon against that, she thought, her throat tightening as she recalled her body
’
s naïve response
—
and his almost amused rejection.

But tonight she would be on her guard, fighting ice with ice.

For the sake of her emotional sanity she had to try, anyway. Because this was the price she had to pay for Monteagle, and there was no escaping it.

Unless Marc himself let her go. And she could always hope
—
couldn
’
t she?

Helen was shocked to find the parish church full as she walked up the aisle, her hand reluctantly in Marc
’
s.

A lot of people were there, she knew, because they were simply curious to take a look at the French millionaire who
’
d swept young Helen Frayne off her feet. Probably quite a few were disappointed because she wasn
’
t wearing a white crinoline with a veil. But the majority had just come to wish her well. She could feel the waves of goodwill rolling towards her as she stood at the altar with her bridegroom, and she felt the colour deepen in her face.

Oh, God, she thought. The blushing bride. What a cliché.

She wanted to turn and tell them, Don
’
t be fooled. I
’
m a total fraud and this marriage is strictly business.

Up to that moment things had passed almost in a blur. The formal phrases uttered by the registrar in Aldenford a short while before had hardly impinged on her consciousness. But now the gleam of Marc
’
s wedding ring on her hand was a cogent reminder that the deed was done.

She was aware that Marc had turned slightly to look at her, and kept her own gaze trained on Jeff Lowell
’
s kind face. She didn
’
t want to see what might or might not be in her new husband
’
s eyes.

When they
’
d met at the registrar
’
s office, he had told her quietly that she looked very beautiful. He looked amazing too, she thought with a pang, the elegant dark suit doing more than justice to his tall, lean body. But naturally she hadn
’
t said so. Instead she
’
d thanked him with equal politeness for the cream and yellow roses he
’
d sent her.

She
’
d been aware of Lottie looking anxious, and of Alan Graham
’
s tight smile as they stepped forward to act as witnesses for the brief ceremony.

Now she stood taut as wire, the Vicar
’
s serious words on God
’
s gift of love reaching her from some far distance. She found herself wondering what he meant
—
questioning what relevance his words bore to her confused and panic-stricken situation.

This is wrong, she thought, her throat tightening. What we
’
re doing is so wrong…

She knelt at Marc
’
s side to receive the blessing, and realised with surprise that he had made the sign of the cross as it was pronounced.

As they rose, Marc took her hand and turned her towards him. He said quietly,
‘
Ma femme
.
’

She knew he was going to kiss her, and that this time there could be no protest or evasion. Silently she raised her mouth to his, allowing his lips to possess hers with a warm and lingering tenderness she had not expected. And if she did not respond he was the only one who knew it.

At the same time Helen was aware of a faint stir in the congregation. No doubt they were pleased to see the romantic myth fulfilled, she thought, torn between irony and bleakness.

Still clasping her hand, Marc led her down the aisle, courteously acknowledging the congratulations and good wishes from all sides.

And then Helen, halfway to the sunlit doorway, understood the reason for that sudden restlessness behind them. Because Nigel was there, leaning against the wall at the back, smiling thinly as he watched them approach.

For a moment she thought she was having a hallucination
—
a waking nightmare. Because he was the last person she wanted to see
—
and what was he doing there, anyway? What could he possibly want?

She cast a fleeting glance up at Marc and saw his face become a coolly smiling mask just as his fingers tightened round hers.

Their car was waiting at the lych gate to take them to the airport, and suddenly she wanted to run to it. To be inside it and away without any further leavetaking or good wishes from anyone.