How Huge the Night (27 page)

Julien watched, not moving a muscle, as the two looked Bernard in the eye—and in the black eyes hatred burned—and Bernard told them the way to Pastor Alex’s house. He watched as the two boys walked back to their crippled friend. He watched as Bernard turned and walked into the station house, and picked up the phone.

Julien stood for a moment, feeling the bulge of the soccer ball in his
cartable
; thinking of the game. Then he stepped out from the shadow of the station house, into the sun.

“What did he say?” whispered Niko. She was light-headed. She could hardly stand.

“Gave us directions to the pastor’s house.”

“Should—should we go … find ourselves a place now?”

“What place?” asked Samuel frowning.

“Well,” said Niko, “we usually … usually …”

“We usually look for an abandoned house or something like that,” said Gustav. There seemed to be something wrong with his face. She was so tired.

“No!” said Samuel. “You’re coming with me.”

“
Bonjour
,” said a voice from behind them. Niko turned. A boy her age with messy brown hair and worried eyes. Speaking a stream of French to Samuel—beckoning to her and Gustav—giving the
station-house
window quick, sidelong glances.

“What … does he want?”

“He says he’ll take us to the pastor’s house. He says not to listen to the stationmaster—they’ll help us—he says—”

Help us.
The words rolled over in her mind like two nonsense syllables.
Help us
. She closed her eyes and gripped her crutches. She was so tired. It seemed to be getting dark. She was so tired …

“Nina!”

Her mouth shaped the word
Niko
as the world blurred and swam around her. She didn’t know why it was so dark …

“Catch him!”

Julien made a grab for the crippled boy, caught one of his
shoulders
as he slumped forward; the black-eyed boy caught the other and gave Julien a sharp glance. He was so light. His brother
gathered
him into his arms like a child. Then stumbled. Julien held out his arms to take him, but the other shook his head, eyes bright with fear.

Julien looked at him standing there, his thin arms shaking under the weight of his brother.
We can’t do it like this
. Farm carts and wheelbarrows stood alongside the station house, the ones the
farmers
had brought their shipments in— There was Roland’s father, thank God. “
Excusez-moi, M’sieur Thibaud?
”

Roland’s father nodded as Julien explained, and gave him Roland’s exact lopsided smile when Julien asked if he’d give Roland his soccer ball on the way home so the guys could still have their game.

They were arguing when he got to them with the wheelbarrow. In that language. He was pretty sure he recognized it. “Here. We can put him in here.” He almost asked them, to see if he was right. But he wanted them away from the station house, and the eyes inside.

They laid the crippled boy in the wheelbarrow, legs dangling out the back. Julien bent to take the handles, but the black-eyed boy got there first.
Sure. Whatever you want. Let’s get out of here.

She was rolling. She was lying in a hard bed of some kind, rolling, the world was moving around her; the sound of voices was somewhere behind her, speaking in French. The boy with brown hair— the boy who’d said he’d
help us.
Or had he? The grainy blackness had lifted completely now, but the world was strange. The tops of houses went by against the blue sky above her head.

The rolling stopped. A high black gate. Someone turned a handle and opened a little door in it, and she was being wheeled through. She was set down under a tree with yellow leaves that trembled against a deep blue sky. She did not move. She listened to the boy’s voice calling in a language strange to her, as all languages seemed to be now, and ran her finger slowly over the rough, rusty surface under her, the odd curve of it. She was lying in a wheelbarrow.

“He says the pastor’s not here. He’s going to get his mother.”

Niko lay and looked at the yellow leaves and the sky.

“Mama. There’s refugees. Young—my age. Just got in on the train. I took ’em to Pastor Alex’s but no one’s home.” She was already putting her jacket on. “Mama, one of them’s sick. Real bad—his brother says he’s been sick a long time. He passed out at the station—”

“Does he have a fever?”

“I … I think so …” She was rummaging in a cupboard, pulling out a brown paper packet. She saw him watching.

“Willow. It’s good for fever.” She put it in her pocket. “You’re missing your game, aren’t you?”

“This is more important.”

She gave him a long look and a moment’s smile. “True. What are their names?”

“Gustav and Niko. They’re from Austria. They’re with this guy from Grenoble—a kid here for the new school—he brought them. He was walking into the toilets in the Lyon station and he heard them arguing about whether Niko was going to die. He says it’s terrible in Lyon, refugees everywhere and everybody hungry—really hungry … not like us. And Mama.”

“Yes?”

“They all speak the same language. I didn’t ask. But it’s Yiddish.”

Samuel almost fell on Mama in relief when she and Julien walked in the gate; Gustav looked up from Niko’s wheelbarrow with quick black eyes. Samuel began to blurt out his story again—he just couldn’t leave them, he couldn’t think what to do except buy them tickets, his parents didn’t know, they certainly couldn’t afford room and board for three instead of one, but he couldn’t have, he couldn’t—

“Samuel. It’s all right.”

“But I don’t know what to do. I didn’t
think!
And now—”

“You did think. You thought of
them
. Stop worrying. We’re going to help.”

“What are we going to help with?” inquired a cheerful voice. Madame Alexandre opening the gate. “Hello, Maria, Julien. Hello, young man.” Her eyes took in the other two young men, and she sobered a little. “I see. Why didn’t you all come in? We never lock the door.”

“We didn’t think we should—”

“Come in, come in.” Madame Alexandre led the way, holding the door open. “And your friend …”

“I’ll carry him,” said Mama.

The wiry boy hovered nervously as she gathered up the thin form of his brother, his closed eyes like bruises in his bony face. She lifted him as if he weighed nothing at all. Julien saw the eyelids
flutter
, saw the eyes open green and wide with fear. His mother looked into those eyes, whispering to them softly in Italian. Julien listened, and a shiver went down his spine, and music came back to him: the sound of her voice singing in Italian, so long ago. Before everything. Before he had ever heard of war.

She could take it from here.

He took the handles of the wheelbarrow and turned to go.

The dark-haired woman laid Niko on the couch. The pastor’s wife sat Gustav down at the table, asked in German with a thick French accent whether he was hungry. He nodded mutely, but she was already speaking rapid-fire French to Samuel, then to the other woman who was moving into the kitchen, opening a brown paper packet. Gustav caught the word
doctor
and started up; Frau Alexandre ordered him sharply to sit down. “You will eat,” she said. “Your brother will eat. We’ll get a doctor for your brother; he is in terrible condition. We will pay for it. Do not worry.”

Then she was speaking to Samuel, and Samuel was holding his hand out to Gustav to shake. “Good luck, Gustav. I … good luck.”

And they were gone. In the sudden silence they left behind them he could hear Nina’s shallow breathing, and the moaning of a
kettle
; and the voice of the dark-haired woman, low and pure, singing.

“You’re
sicuro
now.” That’s what the black-eyed woman said. Niko knew
sicuro
. Gustav had taught her.
Siamo in un posto sicuro?
he’d taught her. Is this place safe?

The room was rocking gently. She lay on something soft. White walls. Red carpet. The black-eyed woman kneeling by her with a bowl that steamed. How had they found the Gypsies again?

“Marita?” she whispered.

Marita was making her drink something. Soup. It made her warm inside. Then something from a mug, hot and bitter, burning her throat. She swallowed, and coughed. Marita whispered strange words. Romany.

“Marita,” she said, her voice cracking. Marita’s head turned at the sound of her name. “Marita, you won’t tell them will you? Tell them it’s Niko, I’m a boy. Marita, can I stay this time? Are you going away?”

“
Sst, sst, calma. Dovete riposare.
”

“
Che cosa hai detto?
” said Niko.

“
Parli l’italiano?
”

“
Un po. Letto, porta, zuppa, luce. Per favore. Luce.
Marita, how did you get to France?”

But Marita was gone.

Gustav looked round. He was at a table. In a house. The woman was setting a plate in front of him, a real china plate, round and white and clean—everything was so clean here: the couch Niko lay on in her filthy clothes, the red and black carpet, the walls—he’d forgotten. He’d forgotten how people lived, in houses. People like these—clean and strong and well-fed—they had let him in here, him and Niko, and now from the kitchen came the sounds of frying, and a smell that made his stomach cramp and his mouth water like a spring.

The woman came out, smiling, with a frying pan filled with not one but two eggs, their yolks golden as the sun, and said, “Here you are,” in Italian, and poured them onto his plate. He couldn’t speak. She stepped out again and returned with a glass of milk and two thick slices of bread. “I’m sorry there’s no butter.”

He stared at her.

“Eat.”

Tears were stinging behind his eyes.
Eat. I’m sorry there’s no butter.
He picked up the fork, and his hand trembled. The smell of fried eggs was stronger than his tears.

He ate.

He had never tasted anything so good—so hot and fresh and golden, washed down with cool swallows of milk—and he could eat every bite and still not take food out of Niko’s mouth—Niko had eaten … He felt it flooding through his body, the joy of a full belly. The peace.

“I’ve given your brother some medicine, Gustav, but my friend has also gone for the doctor. And to get you ration cards. You’ll need food. Both of you.”

“I can work,
signora
. If there is a job—”

“In your condition? No. We feed you first. You get healthy,
then
you work.”

“You are …” He looked around helplessly, gesturing at the room they sat in, at the plate in front of him from which he had scraped all but the faintest traces of egg. “You are helping us?”

“Yes. Of course.”

“The man … the train man. With the hat.” He gestured to show her. “He say no. He say nobody help us here. He say he give us ticket back to Lyon.”

“He
what?
” The woman was on her feet, black eyes blazing. Gustav drew back. “He
what!
The … the … the
liar!
The
RAT!
” She hit the table, and the plates jumped and clattered as Gustav stared. “The train man? Stationmaster? Brown hair—this tall—blue uniform, blue hat?”

“Yes,
signora
.”

“He lied.”

“I …”

“He lied, I’m telling you!”

“Yes,
signora
. I believe you. Please. I am … I am glad.” Glad. He looked at her, this fierce-eyed mother staring him down.
Yes, signora, I see. He lied.
He hadn’t expected … any of this. He was so tired.

“Child, I’m sorry. You need a bed. You and your brother. There’s a room for guests—”

“
Signora
, we’ll get everything dirty—”

“And a bath. Come with me.”

She went to where Niko lay. She was lost again in delirium,
muttering
to Father. “She’s gone, Father, I can’t catch up to her, I tried. I tried so hard. Don’t make me. Gustav made a campfire in the woods. He’ll be okay. I’m going to sleep beside it, Father …” Her eyes opened as the woman gathered her into her arms; she gazed at her as if to read some answer in her face. The woman looked at Gustav.

“Do you think it’s all right if I bathe him?”

Gustav looked into her dark eyes. “Yes,” he said.

“You’re not Marita,” said Niko suddenly in clear Italian, and the woman paused at the foot of the stairs, looking at her. “Help me,” said Niko, and then in Yiddish, “Don’t make me, Father. I need to sleep. I can’t anymore, Father. I’m so tired.” Her green eyes filled with tears. “I’m so tired, Father. I’m going to tell her.”

“Not Niko. No. Do you understand?” she said, looking up into the kind, black eyes. “My name is Nina.”

Nina was asleep. Clean, and full, and asleep—Signora Losier had sung over her in Italian, sung her to sleep, the afternoon sun
spilling
light on her wet clean hair, her face relaxing into lines of peace. Gustav hugged his arms tight around himself, shaking his head in wonder.
Nina. My name is Nina. She is going to live.

He lay on the couch where she had put him under a blanket, with instructions to sleep. But now that he was lying down, he could no more sleep than he could fly. He lay staring at the white ceiling, remembering the bare bulb in the train station, flickering, remembering the hardness of the concrete floor. The woman who had beaten Nina, her face ugly with rage—Signora Losier hitting the table, eyes blazing, shouting
he lied
…

He heard the back door open, and voices in the kitchen. Frau Alexandre, the pastor’s wife, was home. Speaking French in a low urgent tone. Signora Losier’s voice answering her was soft with dismay.