Grim: The Beginning (7 page)

We are set to meet with Hook in a few days, still don't know how we are going to pay him and keep our heads above water. Now's not the time to go to war with him, too much internal shit going down, I still have to figure out who the real rat is and handle him quietly. My money is on that little snake, Bucky.

Romeo is still laid up from the raid on his cabin, so its up to me to setup a new location for our operation. Discreet locations are hard to come by these days. We don't go unnoticed, but most of our town would rather be under our protection than unite against us.  Guess you might say we are the lesser evil. when compared to the Devils Rejects. There is a property outside city limits and close to the lake that would be a perfect spot. Only problem is we would have to build and we don't have the funds to allocate to it. Coming home to this mess after the disorder I cleaned up in Chicago makes for one hell of a migraine.

The Roadhouse is tapped out of shine, we have had to sell the last of our stock. Looks like we might have to increase member dues for the brothers that are members but live outside of the club—weekend warriors. Shits tight and I don't like it one bit. Things aren't looking good. And damn this tap beer taste like piss. I've got money in the bank not enough to pull us out of the black, but enough to help us skim by for another month. But with all the secrets and shit, not sure how I feel about investing my retirement. We use to be all about brotherhood. I'm not feeling very brotherly after the shit Slim pulled  while I was away.

"Brother, I know shit between us feels stressed, but I was looking out for what was going to be best for the clubs future. If you'd pulled out of Chicago we wouldn't be seeing half the results we are with them. Red will come around, you'll see. Man she wasn't happy being here without you. Moving out and getting that job was what she needed. You just got to show her your ready now. Fuck, you and I both know that when you claimed her ass you wasn't ready. You needed to be without her to know you not only need her, but that you want her. Now if you tell anyone about this deep conversation, I'll cut off one of your nuts."

"I get it, doesn't mean I have to like it. Look, I have money in the bank, not enough to put us on top, but enough that I could dig us out of this hole. There's a property for sale out by the lake. If I could get it and build a small cabin for Romeo, we could be up and running in another two months. But someone else is going to have to cover what we owe Hook."

Slim clinks his beer against mine, "you just saved our asses Grim. Thought we was going to have to take Hook out, and we don't have the numbers to survive a full on war with them. I can cover our payments with Hook the next two months as long as nothing fucks up in Chicago. Now about this property I trust your judgment, but I'd like to ride out and look at it. Maybe we can take the women with us and I'll have Foxie pack us up a picnic. Women like shit like that...I think."

"Sounds good, but we are going to have to get a new bar bitch. My beer taste hotter than piss. Skully would be better than Davis, at this point."

It feels oddly good to be putting the bitch seat back on my bike,  even if Red won't be able to ride much longer. She's not so big yet that I can't take her for ride as long as I am extremely cautious. Going have to get my truck running now that I am going to be a dad, the baby  sure as hell can't ride my bike when it's born. Fuck, I am not prepared for this, I am such a prick. Didn't even ask her what she needs, not that she would accept my help right now, but I feel like I should be doing something, anything for her. 

**

"I
'm not getting on the back of your bike." Red is standing in the parking lot of her apartment complex, hands on her hips looking madder than a wet hen. Slim and Foxie are laughing, shit is about embarrassing. I've never had to beg a woman to climb on the back of my motorcycle, ever.  Bit of a strike to the ego. looking damn fine while she is giving me hell, dressed in a white tank top, daisy dukes, her hair blowing with the breeze. I'd like to grip my fist in her hair and taste those smart ass lips of hers.

"Woman, not goin tell you twice." Handing her a brain bucket, I try to steal a kiss, but she's not having it. She's goin to make me work for it, that's alright though, I enjoy a challenge. Reluctantly she gets on, and I do my finest to make sure she is comfortable before I pull out on the road with her.  She wraps her arms around me and snuggles into the back of my cut, feels like home. Fuck, I have missed her touch, her smell, her everything.

Think this is the slowest I've ever driven. Traveling down these old country roads, corn husks are blowing through the fields and over the road, we call them corn snakes. Don't have the same effect when you are driving slow though. It's moments like  this that I live for, being out on the open road, my woman riding with me. Even if she says she don't want to be with me, I know she feels at peace with me too. She just has this effect on me, everything feels right when she's with me.

"This would be such a pretty setting for a house." Foxie is walking along the tree line of the property with Red. She is right, a house would look good here with little red headed runts running through the grass. But that's not going to happen. Red don't want me, and my life...my life is at the Roadhouse. 

My mother always said I would never amount to anything and never have anything.  She was a true club whore, she lived and died by the Devils Rejects code.  My mother was nothing but one of Hook's many whores. Never knew my father, never cared to know. But my child will have a better life, and I will give him or her everything I never had. If Red really wants out, if she really don't want to be with me, I'll get her out. Her and both of her children, even if that means I won't know my kid. It's probably for the best, not sure what I was thinking, imagining that I could have it all.

"The land is perfect brother, it sets enough  out of the way that no one would notice it from the road." Slim helps me get the blankets and food from our bikes.

"Good, because I already put in an offer, should be able to sign the papers in a few days. I have already gotten the permits we will need, and talked with  Blaze and Stone. They do a lot of side work for a contractor and said they would help with a lot of the work, said they could probably get us a discount."

Helping Red to the ground to sit on the blanket, she surprises me with a small kiss on the cheek. Maybe all hope for us isn't lost just yet.  For the first time in weeks she opens up and actually has a conversation with me. "I have an ultrasound next week, if you want be there ."

"Wouldn't miss it for nothing."  Taking a bite of my sandwich, I am afraid to say much else, afraid I'll fuck this up. Foxie saves me and ask Red how work is going. I don't much care for her working, but at least at the carryout I don't have to be as concerned about her safety, place has enough security you'd think it was Fort Knox.

There is so much I want to say to her but I just don't know how to find the words. The need to talk to her is ripping me up inside, everything I do is wrong. But tonight she is going to hear what I have to say even if I stick my foot in my mouth. She and I are going to settle this one way or the other tonight.

Slim lights up a joint, "Want to hit this shit before I go man," he tries to pass it to me.

"Nah brother, not when I am going to be driving Red home."

Slim and Foxie has to get back to their boys, so I decide to take advantage of having Red to myself, finally, while she is in a good and while we are where she has no choice but to talk to me.

"What do you want from me, Red? Want me to tell you that I need you—that I want you—that I can't sleep without you by my side. Because I do need you—I want you—any way I can have you. Just say the word. Or do you want out, because if you do, I'll make that happen too, I don't want to live without you, but I will if it's what you want.  I'm not a begging man, but here I am begging you, please come back home with me."

Watching my words sink in with her is frustrating, I can't tell what she is thinking.

"Just because  you are sorry doesn't make things right.  I want so badly to lie to you—to tell you that I don't need you—that I don't want you—that I have slept great every night without you. But if there is one thing I'm not it's that I'm not a liar. But you hurt me Grim, I don't know how to move past it, how to not worry that every time you walk out the door, I'm not the only one you are thinking of."

"You won't be the only one, because now every time I go out the door, I'll have another reason to come back, our baby. I'm not saying that we have to be together because you are having my baby, not saying that's why I want to be with you. Just saying I fucking adore you, and I want you.  If any other man ever tries to touch you, I will end him."

She smiles, lightly. Folding the blanket and placing it in my saddle bag, Red turns and looks at me with that fire in her eyes, the fire that's been missing, the fire the burns for me. "Take me home Grim."

Not going to question or ask, because in my heart I knows she means home with me. Hope she is ready for me, because I have been waiting for months to have her writhing beneath me—screaming out my name. this man right here is never going to let her go, going to show her I am willing to try to be the man she thinks I have buried deep inside me.

**

"T
onight Red, there is nothing or no one else that fucking matters. It's me and you against the world. You are mine, and tonight I am going to show you just how fucking much I adore you." She is laying on the couch looking sexy as hell, fresh from the bathtub.  Wearing my favorite shirt and a black thong, her baby bump is showing. Down on my knees in the floor next to her, I lay my head on her stomach.

She is looking at me and the world stops, it hits me like a freight train how beautiful she is and I would do anything for her and this baby. "Thank you  for not giving up on us." Scooting up so that she is sitting she grabs my face, "I never gave up on you, I just didn't have faith in myself to be strong enough for both of us. But now I know that I could walk through fire with you by my side."

Trailing kisses down her neck, I push her shirt up and take her tender bud in my mouth and clamp down on it with my teeth, "Mine," repeating with her other nipple.  My stubble scrapes across her skin, and she giggles. "I don't think it's funny." Rubbing my beard harder this time, "Does that tickle?"

"No," she lies in a hushed laugh.

"Thought you weren't a liar." Red glares at me, and starts pulling away. "You going to pout on me? Bet you won't pout if I do this." Running my hand up her thigh slowly until I meet her hot center, I place a single kiss on her core.  Her legs relax and her knees ease apart. "That's what I thought." She smirks  and pushes my head back down to her pussy. "More did you say," I mumble against her panties. "Not yet, I've not made love to you in months. Tonight it's going to be real slow, going to love you so good, you'll never think of leaving me again."

"Is that a promise?"

"No, it's a fact, if  you were to look up fact in the dictionary there would be a picture of you riding me."  She laughs, "I'm not joking, want me to go get the damn thing, I know I have one in my closet somewhere." A bubble of laughter burst from her chest. "You think me and you making love is funny?"

"Calm down tiger, the thought of you with a dictionary about made me pee myself."

"Red, please don't pee on me. I'm a kinky bastard, but I'm not into that."

"Shut the fuck up and eat my pussy."

"You got a dirty mouth, shit turns me on. But you didn't say please Grim eat my pussy, so for that I am going make you wait. This right here..." Cupping her soaked panties, "it's going to ache for my tongue."  Getting up from the floor, grabbing her hand, I lead her to our bed.

"Do you trust me?"

"Yes, I trust you, why?"

"Good, now get on the bed and do exactly what I say, you want to be dirty baby, I'm going to give you dirty. I promise you are going to be screaming so loud if the neighbors hear they are going to think I done killed you."

"Don't promise  unless you can deliver."  She slithers onto the bed, her head resting against the headboard.

"First thing I want from  you is for you to put hat hair in a ponytail. Second close your eyes."

"And third?" She asks playfully."

"Haven't gotten that far yet." Her eyes close after she has her fixed the way I want it. Taking my bandanna out of my back pocket I tie it snuggly around her wrists.

"So that's how it's going to be?" Red tugs at her wrists, trying to break them apart with no luck.

"I fully intend on keeping my promise. You are going to be begging me to lick and suck on your pussy."  Raising my shirt up over my head as Red watches me with anticipation, licking her pretty little mouth eagerly as my erection springs from the confines of my boxer briefs.  Her legs are kicking across the black silk sheets, she is so hot and ready for me.  The bed dips under my weight, with me being on my knees.

She stretches her leg out trying to touch me, her toe grazes the head of my dick. Taking her foot in my hands and massaging it gently, she lets out a small moan of appreciation. Inching her closer to me, I lick the bottom of her foot little by little, until I reach her toes. Taking them in my mouth, I suck on each one, kissing the tops of each toe. "Grim," she pleads in frustration.

"Shh, we haven't gotten started yet. And you are going to need your voice later."

"Grim, I am so horny, you don't realize what every little sensation is doing to me. My body is way over due for your lovin."

Crawling up the bed next to her, I take her bottom lip in my mouth and suck it until she bites me.  My tongue delves into her mouth, exploring every inch of her tongue, tasting her, wanting her, needing her. Needing to feel her skin to skin, I take my switchblade from my nightstand drawer and cut her panties off. Next  I  tackle the shirt.  I hate to cut it but I am not chancing letting her hands go, because if she starts touching me, I'll give in and fuck her too fast. And I promised her she will be screaming my name, and damn it she is gonna.  Nibbling on her ear, I take her ponytail in my hand and tug on it firmly. "I'm going to roll you onto your stomach, if at anytime it hurts, tell me and I will stop." Don't want to put pressure on her belly.