Grace (18 page)

 

C
hristmas tales have always been about redemption. I suppose that's what Christmas is all about. My whole life I have hoped for redemption. Redemption and grace. I don't deserve it, but I still hope.

My father fully recovered from the Guillain-Barré. By the next summer he was walking without crutches. We moved from that dump of a neighborhood and built a home in the Cottonwood area, a nice suburb of Holladay. Not long after, my aunts and uncles sold the old house to developers, who bulldozed it, along with the clubhouse, to put up low-rent apartment units. I was glad to know it was all gone.

Years passed. My father was diagnosed with testicular cancer. He died July 4th of 1976, the day America celebrated its Bicentennial. My mother is still alive. She resides in southern California in a townhouse about a mile from Joel. She never remarried.

Joel and I never spent a summer together like that again. By the next summer I was into cars and girls and all that comes with growing up. But Joel did all right for himself. Turns out he was better at baseball than any of us knew. He made the varsity baseball team his sophomore year of high school—the first time a sophomore had ever done that. He wore his letterman jacket and had a thousand friends and even more girlfriends. Unlike me, Joel managed to be cool.

He made All State in baseball his junior year and by his senior year word of his talent had spread wide enough that he was hounded by scouts from every major college. Joel returned to California, attending UCLA on a full-ride athletic scholarship. He played in the Pioneer Leagues for two years, then played second base for the Mets for another six before his knees gave out. He has a baseball card with his face on it. Imagine that, my little brother on a baseball card. Just like DiMaggio.

Today he has a beautiful wife, four children, two grandchildren, and a ten-thousand-square-foot house with a swimming pool surrounded by potted kumquat trees. He owns a Honda dealership in Simi Valley. We talk on the phone every Sunday night. I miss him.

Hard things, if they don't kill you, make you grow. Sometimes they even make you lose your fear. I never backed down again. A week after the funeral, one of the hoods bullied me. It took two teachers to pull me off of him. He and his friends never bothered me again.

I became a serious student with good enough grades to get accepted to Stanford Law School. After graduation I returned to Utah and at the age of twenty-nine I was made assistant prosecutor at the Utah Attorney General's Office. At thirty-four I was appointed the youngest prosecutor in the state's history. I have spent my life hunting down and prosecuting people like Grace's stepfather. I carry Grace's locket into every trial. I've earned a reputation as a fierce courtroom combatant who takes every case personally. What Grace saw in the candle was true of me as well. I am feared.

A reporter once asked me what drove me. I looked down for a moment, then softly replied, “Grace.” She wrote it down but she didn't understand. I wouldn't have explained anyway.

I don't know what happened to Grace's mother; all I know is that she moved out of Utah. A part of me hopes she's in Hawaii. Grace would have liked that.

Stan is still alive, or he was the last time I checked. He got out of prison after seventeen years for “good behavior.” I've seen him. I paid him a visit after his release to a halfway house. I needed to know for myself that he wasn't still a threat. I also wanted to let him know that I was, and that I was watching him. My visit wasn't necessary. He was a broken shell of a man; nothing but a shadow and a stain. I thought of the line from Isaiah: They that see thee shall narrowly look upon thee, and consider thee, saying, Is this the man that made the earth to tremble?

I don't know if he paid his debt—that's up to God to decide—but he took something beautiful from this earth. He took something that no one could ever give back.

 

Today I continue my crusade. I have testified about child abuse before state lawmakers more times than I can remember. I've lived to see child advocacy become a public concern. I am grateful that the world finally has the courage to open its eyes. My wife asks me when we can retire, but I tell her I'll die in the saddle. With my last breath I'll continue to fight for these children. I cannot save them all, but I can save some of them, and that's worth doing. There are other Graces out there.

 

When I was a ten-year-old boy sitting in a Methodist Sunday school, my teacher asked what we would do if we had been at Calvary. Would we deny Jesus like Peter had? Or would we carry Jesus' cross? As one who had read more than his fair share of comic books, I said I would take a machine gun and mow down all the Roman soldiers who were crucifying Jesus. My teacher nodded understandingly, then asked, “Then who would save us?”

I was never able to answer this. The whole thing seemed just a colossal miscarriage of justice, but then, I guess that's the point. But this has always been God's way, wringing good from evil. In some ways, this is true of Grace's life.

I loved Grace; time has only confirmed this to me. But life goes on and so must we. At the age of twenty-three I was married to Brooke Christine Mitchell. Four years later we tried to have our first child. We learned that neither of us could. Brooke cried for nearly two weeks.

But, as so often happens in life, from our hurts come our greatest blessings. Brooke and I made a decision that changed many lives: we adopted the first of our eight children, each of them taken from an environment of abuse or neglect. With each child we saved, a cycle has been broken. We now have more than a dozen grandchildren who know only security, peace, and a parent's love. What Grace planted in me will save generations from neglect and abuse. I do not take credit for this but I do take hope in it.

I believe there is a life after this one. I hope it is a place of second chances, a place where all things are made whole. That, to me, would be heaven. If there is such a place, I'd like to see Grace there. I'd like to see her without worry or pain. I'd like to sit with her and hear her sweet voice, feel her soft lips against mine and laugh until milk shoots from our noses. I hope to look with her into the flame of a candle and hear all about where she's been and where the world is going. Most of all, I hope to tell her how much I love her still. I don't deserve it, but I hope.

Maybe someday, through God's grace, I will.

Dear Reader,

While the story you've just read is fiction, at this moment there are thousands of stories like Grace's happening in real life.

Through the blessing of your readership and the help of many friends, I have been able to establish The Christmas Box International, an organization dedicated to building emergency children's shelters and providing services for abused and neglected children. Since we started more than a decade ago, we have served more than twenty thousand children. Most of the children we help are young, sometimes just infants, and usually entering state custody or foster care for the first time.

With the release of this book we have launched an exciting new and massive project called
The Christmas Box Initiative
. Our goal is to help
every youth
in America who is aging out of foster care. Right now these youths face serious challenges including; crime, drug addiction, teen pregnancy, poverty, and suicide. With no one to help them, many of them return to abusive home situations or end up homeless and on the streets. We can make a difference. The Christmas Box Initiative is a four-phase plan:

Phase 1. Working with local child protective services, The Christmas Box International will provide Christmas Box Lifestart Kits to youths as they leave state care. These kits include simple but vital things youths need to start their transition to adulthood such as dinnerware, cooking utensils, a first aid kit, a tool kit, bed sheets, towels, and more, including important information to help these youths navigate life on their own. Giving these kits also connects us with these youths in a relationship of trust.

Phase 2. Assist communities in helping their own youth by creating local “Christmas Box Rooms.” A Christmas Box Room would consist of a room or space supported by community members and agencies that would be used to collect and store items needed by youth in that area.

Phase 3. Assist in finding a mentor for each of these youths. A mentor could consist of an individual mentor or a mentoring family. This will be the most challenging of our goals but will eventually accomplish the most good.

Phase 4. Providing an information hotline and internet site to help these youth not only in crisis situations, but also in finding the many resources available to them, including housing and education.

Our ultimate goal is to help every one of these youths live happy, productive lives as law-abiding citizens and break the cycle of abuse and neglect they were raised with.

 

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W
hen Richard Paul Evans sat down to write
The Christmas Box
, he never imagined his book would become a number one bestseller. The quiet story of parental love and the true meaning of Christmas made history when it became simultaneously the number one hardcover and paperback book in the nation. Since then, he has written twelve consecutive
New York Times
best-sellers. He is one of the few authors in history to have hit both the fiction and nonfiction best-seller lists and has won several awards for his books, including the 1998 American Mothers Book Award, two first-place Storytelling World Awards, and the 2005 Romantic Times Best Women's Novel of the Year Award.

Four of Evans's books have been made into major television productions, starring such acclaimed actors as Maureen O'Hara, James Earl Jones, Richard Thomas, Ellen Burstyn, Naomi Watts, Vanessa Redgrave, Christopher Lloyd, and Rob Lowe.

During the spring of 1997, Evans founded The Christmas Box House International, an organization devoted to building shelters and providing services for abused and neglected children. Such shelters are operational in Moab, Vernal, Ogden, and Salt Lake City, Utah. To date Christmas Box House facilities have served more than twenty thousand children. In addition, his book
The Sunflower
was the motivating factor in the creation of The Sunflower Orphanage in Peru. Evans was awarded the Volunteers of America National Empathy Award and the
Washington Times
Humanitarian of the Century Award. As an acclaimed speaker, Evans has shared the podium with such notable personalities as President George W. Bush, President George H. W. and Barbara Bush, former British Prime Minister John Major, Ron Howard, Elizabeth Dole, Deepak Chopra, Steve Allen, and Bob Hope. Evans has been featured on the
Today
show,
The Glenn Beck Show,
CNN, CSPAN, and
Entertainment Tonight
, as well as in
Time, Newsweek, People, The New York Times, The Washington Post, Good Housekeeping, USA Today, TV Guide, Reader's Digest
, and
Family Circle
. Evans lives in Salt Lake City, Utah, with his wife, Keri, and their five children.